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2023-06-11T22:46:20+02:00
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2023-06-10T16:55:40+02:00
2023-06-09T18:57:27+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
True experience.
” Sometimes you think that you are heartbroken over someone when is just your ego that’s bruised.” Here’s how I know.
A long time ago, I might’ve been in high school or first year of college I was crying over this guy because of something that happened and I thought I was heartbroken. I took a piece of paper and I wrote his name, I wrote what I like and dislike about him. I had soooo many things I dislike about him and when I move over the likes part I could not come up with anything I like about him because this whole time I never even liked him! I just wanted him to like me but I never took some time to think omg do I even like this guy ? Lol
2023-06-09T15:01:31+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
- Have you ever felt like the minority in a group setting? or have you experienced racism, sexism, or other kinds of discrimination?
Do you want my true answer? I honestly don't know because I never cared! I never like working in a group because I prefer to do the whole work myself, and when I am in a group, I never cared about what the others think of me because I will do my work regardless of if they do their part. When it comes to racism I know it exist but I have never felt it because I don't focus on it and I honestly do not care when someone is trying to be racist to me because I find them ignorant so why would I waste my energy on them but I do get upset when I see someone else being treated differently when they have the same skin color as me or part of a different race. I close my eyes to a lot of stuff done to me because I know how much it could consume me, so I chose to protect my peace by not caring. People will always discriminate, and I do it too without knowing but I try to be impartial always.
2023-06-09T14:31:55+02:00
what are the sound that makes the background noise of your life.
That's a great question...
At home: my heating system tapping noise, the TV on, music playing in my bathroom speaker every time I take a shower, doing my hair or getting ready. Archie meowing because he's so loud for no reason at certain times of the day, Pixie running around and drinking water (he drinks the most water out of the 3 of us) Archie choking or throwing up for no reason, my food boiling on the stove, the refrigerator starting up noise than suddenly stop, my phone vibrating only when I get a call because all my notifications are off, google telling me about the weather or about my plans for the day, Alexa telling me I got a package on the way, my neighbors running down the stairs with their dog barking (it's a mess).
at work: computer noise, clicking keyboards, phone calls being made, phone ringing, Notification noise coming from my computer and everyone else's when we get a team message, people walking, someone with loud heels walking, doors closing... someone talking
There are a lot more noise but that's all I can think of right now.
2023-06-09T14:20:40+02:00
dear me in 5 years.
Dear me,
How are you? how's life? are there any new diseases? how's your family? please tell me mommy lives with you now. I hope you're still a fun person and you didn't let life get the best of you. I also hope that you drink more water because I know it's always been hard for you to finish drinking most of your water bottles. It has always been my dream for you to have a workout routine hopefully you go to the gym now and you keep up with your healthy diet. I am not even expecting you to be married by then because I know marriage and being in a relationship is not your priority, but I hope that you are happy and that you get to move out of the state you live now. Do things that makes you happy, never compare your life or your journey with anyone else because your path is completely different. Focus on you, grow mentally and spiritually. Be occupied with the things of the lord, publish you book, get a puppy and buy a beautiful house with a nice garden out front. Travel as much as you can and take pictures of everywhere you went. Go to Paris, Italy, Greece, Egypt and write all about your travel experience. Please tell me you've already met Kylian Mbappe if you have, please post the picture on your blog and everywhere because that's your man.
I wish you the best baby girl, you are so beautiful inside and out so never forget that. Please protect your peace and stay away from narcissists who want to use you.
sincerely me.
2023-06-09T01:00:23+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
“ when a person is promising you stuff, but they never deliver, they are manipulating you.”
2023-06-08T02:23:40+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
Black women in childbirth.
Being a black woman in America is already tough because we go through the worse possible case scenario’s just to survive. But one thing that people forget to mention is how hard it is for a black woman when they are giving birth because for some reason the midwife or the doctor doesn’t believe us when we say that we are really in pain.
I have watched many horror stories on social media from black women describing their child birth experience and it pains me that they went through all of this because they did not deserve it. I thought the last place on earth we would get treated poorly would be at the hospital but oh God was I wrong! If you are a woman of color reading this please pay attention and if you are a husband please take care of your wife because these doctors probably won’t as much as they would for any other woman from another race. I don’t know why is it so hard for a doctor to believe us when we say we are in pain and that the baby is coming like right now!? Not only does the doctor not listen, but they don’t wait for the epidural to kick in they are so ready to slice us up open or shove their hands to reach out to get the baby! Like hold on dude ! So now you are in a hurry to get this over with but you weren’t listening when we said we were in a lot of pain and dilated right?
If I am blessed to have my own baby someday I will choose my doctor carefully and I will have a talk with her or him before the delivery day because I need him or her to listen to me; to be by my side, to do whatever they can to make sure that I have a good delivery because this is serious ! I will make sure that my doctor and I have a level of understanding because if we don’t I’m going somewhere else until I find one that will listen. Be careful when you are choosing the doctor that will be in charge of the delivery on meet the staff as well because I will before hand to see what kind of place is this. They will find me annoying but if this is what I gotta do to make sure me and my baby get out alive then I will do just that.
2023-06-07T18:43:17+02:00
2023-06-07T14:45:02+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
One thing I realize in life is that it is better to take risks than to live life in fear. The minute I started doing things out of the ordinary I started to get happier and more confident because I proved to myself that I can do much more than I thought I could. The fact that you are here breathing and walking is amazing, you have the chance to make a difference and to live your life fully so do it!
Do things that you haven't done before, laugh, dance, make friends, love someone and do things that makes you happy. For a long time I have been living my life through the eyes of other people by trying to do what I think they expected from me not knowing that I have the choice to live my life the way that I see fit. I knew I could make decisions that would be best for me but I was always scared of not being liked or not being seen as normal that I just sort of do things that other people wanted me to do but no more. But truth is :
- I am weird and that's facts;
- I will ask the wrong questions,
- I will love you more than you love me because I love hard,
- I will be late,
- I will be taking a nap,
- I will be in my house playing videos games or watching cartoons,
- I will be declining your invitations and I might show up when you least expect it
- I will ignore your call and go to sleep ( but I will call you when I woke up I promise)
- I will be talking about my cats even if you find that annoying but that's what makes me happy so you can stop talking to me I don't care because the right people always love it when I tell them a funny story about my cats.
- I will bite my nails when I am anxious hence why I always get them done so I don't bite the hell out of them.
- I will be watching a football match instead of going out especially if it's PSG playing, Manchester city, champions league match...
I am not perfect and those things I just listed are just a few of the things that are part of who I am, and I will not hide those things.