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interesting questions
- when you look at the stars what do you feel?
I feel warm on the inside, I feel cozy because when I look at the stars at night, I bring a blanket over my shoulder outside. I also feel like a hopeless romantic who would jump in front of a moving train to save the one I love.
- what do you want to be remembered for?
I want to be remembered for my kindness, for always looking good and dressing up!
- who would you have narrate your autobiography?
My mother because she knows me best
- does love conquer all?
yes! Love cancels out the hate and bring enemies together.
- what about your life do you want to change?
I want to change where I live. I want to move... possibly to another city or country.
- what is your golden rule?
don't ignore me because if you do I will hate you.
- what's something about yourself you find hard to understand?
the fact that I hate hanging out with people but yet I still want friends!
- how do you know a risk is work taking?
If I know it will matter in the next 10 years or a year from now.
- what's the last thing you cried about?
about how lonely I felt.
- what has been the best phase of your life so far?
when I was 20-21! I was so carefree and always hanging out with my bestie after school.
- what's your biggest takeaway from past relationships/friendships?
friends can break your heart too and just because you love someone doesn't mean you should be with them.
- who was the last person you held hands with?
uhm does my cats count? I held my cat selie's paw yesterday and it was soooo soft!
- besides personality what attracts you?
a sense of humor, lips, height and smell.
- what's your coping mechanism when life gets hard?
I disappear and just stay by myself to figure it out. I might not answer calls or text or tell anyone where I am which is usually at home lol
- has anyone seen you at your worst? what did they do?
yes! which is quite rare because no matter how hard it gets you can never see me crack unless you really know me. I didn't cry or anything like that, but the person was super nice and protected me.
2023-12-26T02:49:59+01:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
some reasons why I have been single all this time and will probably be for a little while longer...
- Honestly, the first one is probably because I hate going out and I always decline every single invitation when people invite me to a party or to hang out. I am not sure why I do that; it's probably because I don't feel like myself when I am with them or I just don't like being with them so I decline it. Other times I just feel like I want to be left alone even though I know it's wrong but I still do it.
- I read too many books about people falling really deep in love that I refuse to accept anything less than that.
- they don't make men like they used to anymore, men wait for me to call them first or to text first?! They wait for me to come talk to them. Uhm no, I will walk and run away... I don't approach men like that (even if I claim that I do, I am way too shy to walk up to someone I like)
- my ego. I know exactly what I can provide that I am not going to let anyone less deserving of me have the opportunity to have me. work hard to get me or get out of my way. I am the prize period.
- I would rather die single and untouched than to give myself to someone who didn't even want me.
- I am still looking for a man who's going to love me and my cats all together. I found someone who does but it's so sad that I don't feel the same way; I wish him the best.
- I would rather cry myself to sleep every night than beg anyone for attention. I deserve so much better and best believe the more I cry the more I begin to hate you. so keep the tears coming.
- I move slowly when it comes to love; I will wait and see if I can trust you and if I can let you in because I never let just anyone into my life. I may have feelings for you and still not want to be with you because I don't trust you with my heart.
- there's only one man that I can have me right now lol it's Mbappe haha too bad he doesn't know I exist.
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2023-12-25T22:48:51+01:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
Alone.
I don’t like the holidays simply because I feel
Really lonely. Everyone has plans to hang out with their families or their love interest but I am
Always home alone. I might as well be Kevin Maccalister from home alone lol!
But I don’t celebrate Christmas or any holidays for all that matters. I don’t celebrate my birthday either which accidentally falls on Christmas Eve! Wow lucky me.
Believe it or not I did celebrate my birthday for a few years even though it felt weird but all I did was hang out with my friends because I hate being alone around that time. I don’t miss celebrating my birthday because I never believed I should I just like to feel special… I still try to pamper myself like get my nails done, get my hair done and dress up for no reason but deep down I feel so lonely and it hurts. I am giving up on friendships and love; I am getting older and what I said is dumb but every year that passes by that I am waiting on love or a friend I get even more disappointed so now I am done. I am not expecting anyone to fall in love with me or to be my friend. I am going to continue being myself and if I happen to meet someone then great if not well I just keep running away every few years. I have a plan to switch out everything in my life maybe that’ll happen in 2024. I do want to move and possibly change my name, change my number lol… that’s insane.
2023-12-25T03:51:58+01:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
The way that I act when I like someone is honestly so embarrassing, I would make a fool out of myself for no reason! Truth is I’m
Not ready to like anyone right now. Imagine me being annoying again simply because I like you sigh…
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