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dude! If my man behaved like that with a cat I would be so mesmerized and would probably love the cat even more ;)
2024-01-10T01:53:51+01:00
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2024-01-09T18:34:04+01:00
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Songs I put on repeat this week -
[ ] Ai se eu te pego by Michel Telo
- [ ] Arhbo by maître gims, ozuna, red one
- [ ] Dare (la,la,la) shakira
- [ ] Flip a switch by raye
- [ ] Prada by raye, cassö
- [ ] Business by Dystinct Naza unleaded
- [ ] Own paradise by Lxaes
2024-01-09T14:37:19+01:00
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Do I love myself?
Last year if you had asked me that question I would've said " I don't know" and I genuinely didn't know because I was so ashamed of myself. I felt so lost to the point where I didn't even know who I was anymore or what I like anymore. I would say one thing but do something else because I didn't know what I wanted; it was the first time in my life that I genuinely did not know what to do with myself. This year, I promised myself to not hide and to let myself be free... to say what I want to say and to call out all the BS even if that makes others uncomfortable. It is not my job to make you feel comfortable when I am hurting inside because of how you make feel; now back to the question: do I love myself? yes, today I love who I am because I am doing the right things or at least I am trying to do the right thing. I am not perfect, but I do admit there are some things that I could change about myself...
2024-01-09T05:15:44+01:00
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Break my heart again.
“ wrote you a long paragraph but you left me on read. Wanted to give you a fish, you said you would get back to me but never did. Let’s stop being hypocrites, tell me you don’t like me. Tell me you find me weird, tell me I am the worse go ahead and break my heart again. You said you needed space but we were just friends, you kissed me only to ignore me like I never existed. You only talk to me when we’re alone but in public you scared to talk to me. We went hiking but you left me behind just to go play with her, then I was forced to ride back home all sweaty in the car sitting next to you when all I wanted was to talk to you but how could I when I saw the way you looked at her?”
2024-01-09T05:00:30+01:00
2024-01-09T04:49:40+01:00
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*trigger warning this post may make some readers uncomfortable.
“ I know how it feels like to fall asleep with tears in my eyes and to wake up to cry some more. I know all about having friends who doesn’t care, I know all about those people who only talk to me when they want something from me. You once ask me why I delete all of my texts? It’s because I can’t bare to look at past conversations with people I’m not certain will be part of my future. I let all the sadness boiled up inside of me, the heartache of being so lonely and not being able to fit in anywhere. I am too quiet, I look too sad, I look mean, I look boring, I look too confident for them to make me a follower but too boring to be a leader. I feel so lost, so sad, so underserving of all of my potential. I invited her but she never showed up so we will stop inviting her. She looks interesting that day but she left too quick so I didn’t get to ask her what her name was. It’s exhausting trying to be someone they might like, I just want to be happy when I lay my head down at night. Remember when you call to ask what was wrong ? And I hesitated? I wanted to tell you but I wanted you to keep asking so that I could be sure that you really care, but that day you didn’t care. That time when I sat in the bathroom with a knife in my shaky hands wanting to cut my wrist because there was nothing more painful than not being loved by you. It’s making me sick when I look at you to know that you use those lips to kiss someone else. I don’t want to be there, yet I force myself to go but I cry every time because a part of me breaks each time I see you.”
2024-01-09T03:49:21+01:00
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2024-01-09T01:56:52+01:00
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“ why do I have to apologize for being myself? Why do I have to make myself smaller to fit into your world? Why must I comply to be the ideal woman you have in mind? Why do I have to be put in box? Would you take time to listen to me to find out how my mind works? Why do you want to control me? Why do you pretend to care about me only to have an excuse to get what you want? Why can’t I simply be with all that I am for you to love me? Why must I be more than I already am to receive a spec of love from you?.”
2024-01-08T19:04:55+01:00
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Things that melt my heart
- Men who have cats! I’ve seen them all over my timeline showing their love for their cats and it’s the cutest thing, to see a beautiful man with a kitty ;) it’s like marry me?
- When he asks about my cats. Gosh! If you want me to fall in love, ask me about them! And better yet if you want me obsess with you get them toys! Or if you wanna marry me buy them food or ask me what kind of food they like so you can get it for them! Like this is husband material stuff. I will know he is the one just by doing this and a few of other things.
- Start a text with “I know you’re sleeping but …” followed by the sweetest thing! Like “you’re the most amazing girl I have met, and I love you so much …” omg I will wake up and check my messages only to see this! Gosh I would start screaming and possibly cry but tears of joy of course.
- Ask to watch a football game with me! Omg!!!!! Like what!?? Like for one of our dates we could get wine and takeouts to watch a psg game together! I would not be able to contain myself!!! (By the way this is my list but I’m down to do whatever he likes of course, if he's passionate about it like I am about football)
- getting me a present related to football! Literally in America football stuff or soccer stuff are so expensive! If gets me an Mbappe Jersey or a psg sticker or a psg puzzle (parc des princes puzzle) omg
- Knows the sidewalk rule! If we’re walking together on the street and he knows not to let me walk outside of the sidewalk that’s a bonus
- Knows how to keep eye contact and not look away. That’s such a turn on and so beautiful.
Honestly doing these things will not make me love you but it could make me love you more.