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2022-06-08T16:05:07+02:00
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2022-06-08T16:01:51+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
Let me tell you the difference between my 2 kitties although I love them both equally but they are both different!
Let’s start with Archie: he’s a very complicated cat it took me a while to fully gain his trust I think something traumatizing happened in his childhood because his tail is a little bent and I know that must’ve hurt; I haven’t heard any cats born with a bent tail, he doesn’t like being petted all the time it’s too overwhelming for him I only get a few minutes petting him and then I should leave him alone otherwise he will walk away, he doesn’t like being carried around the house but if I come home and I don’t pick him up to greet him he will get very condescending (that was my fault I always greet him like that since he was a baby) he is very jealous and if he sees me play with Pixie he will avoid looking in my direction and start avoiding me, if I don’t play with him immediately after playing with Pixie he will walk around the house meowing and crying!he’s also very jumpy !, he doesn’t eat any type of food, he doesn’t like sleeping on my lap because I pet him too much, he likes to do things on his own time, when I have guest over he always runs and hide somewhere so yeah that’s Archie ! He’s very complicated but I love him so much.
Now Pixie : she’s very easy going and I gained her trust the same day I brought her home, I can pet her as long as I want but only if I don’t rub her belly too much which is understandable, she loves to eat anything, she sleeps anywhere on my lap, on my chest and even between my legs! She loves to play and she’s not jealous at all when I am petting Archie she loves to watch Archie melt in my hands like a baby because he always walk around the house towering over her like a lion. She’s so easy and she’s not afraid of anyone and when I have guest over she will walk up to them and walk past them like nothing. She’s very brave and she stand tall when she’s playing with Archie! I cannot wait to get to know her more so far she’s a breath of fresh air and I love her so much.
2022-06-08T01:56:13+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
I am afraid to give for I've given so much without anything in return,
I cannot lose another.
The friends I've had to leave behind,
all the love interests that have left me high and dry.
Why should I give you anything?
do you know how many times I've cried because I gave something way too soon?
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I have to protect myself because no one else seems to care.
2022-06-08T01:54:23+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
" I don't need anyone breaking my heart and making me cry because I do all of that on my own by overthinking."
2022-06-08T01:52:20+02:00
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" They can't see you the way that I see you,
they sure look like they will be there and love you.
But I know exactly what you need,
even if I act like I don't.
I'm just afraid you won't see me the way that I see you."
2022-06-08T01:50:56+02:00
2022-06-08T01:48:53+02:00
to my beloved.
when you left some lost a son, a fiance, or a friend but I lost my brother. I miss you so much and I truly wish we had more time. I wish I had the time to tell you how much I love you and I will always remember our last conversation it was December 23, 2018, right before the day I was born and you told me how beautiful my birthday pictures were; well I don't celebrate my birthday anymore and it is not because of you. If you were here I know you will be proud of all my spiritual growth and I wish we could've done it together.
I truly miss you, I know we were brought up as siblings even though we didn't have the same parents which is why I know family is thicker than blood. Your absence weighs heavy in my heart it's 3 years and it still feels like yesterday... you know during my tragic car crash all I was thinking about was you. I know you would want me to be happy and to move on, and I am but I will always love and miss you.
can't wait to see you again,
your little sister.
2022-06-08T01:20:05+02:00
tired.
Some say I'm lucky, I'm beautiful and I've got it all; but do I? all of these compliments go straight in one ear and out the other. Being perfect will never give me the life I truly want, if anything it makes it difficult for anyone to want to be around me afraid they will mess up my "oh so perfect life". Nothing is perfect, I am exhausted and I feel so alone. I cry myself to sleep, I forget to eat, It takes a while before I can gather enough strength to get out of bed or to even clean my house. I don't have it all and it breaks my heart when someone says I look so put together or so strong, I almost want to cry! don't tell me that, I am one second away from an emotional breakdown.
I look strong but truly I just want to be held, cared for, loved, and appreciated...I just feel so lost in translation. who will understand? who will want to put up with me? who will see the real me underneath all this glitz and glamor?. When I lie awake at night I think about the one I really want but what is there to do if he doesn't know? I cry knowing that I could never tell him and I should be moving on. why must I go through this? will I always be broken? will I even get to be happy? I don't want to waste anyone's time why bother talking to some guy when my heart belongs to someone who doesn't even want it?
why must I make a fool of myself, will I ever know what my purpose is? I feel like I am wasting my breath telling people stories that I'll never make come true. Acting like I have friends when it's just me and my cats... there's no one. I want to scream, I care so much for people who don't even bother try to understand me but will they ever get to understand me?
there's no such thing as being too pretty to be depressed; depression doesn't care about your money or your beauty it's a disease and it attacks whoever it wants to but will you fight it? people tell me to smile and that it'll get better or that how come I am never in a relationship? why am I so picky? they talk like I can walk down the street and just pick a guy. how do I move on? why am I so sad? why do they think I've got it all figured out but everything is so dark.
It's okay to cry and to say that everything sucks...I rather write about all the demons in my head than actually do what they're telling me. I am strong, I am enough, I am lovable, I will find love... most importantly I deserve to be here.
2022-06-07T18:28:33+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
happy mental health awareness month!
check on your strong and always fine friends. :)
2022-06-07T05:06:57+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
" I get bored easily,
but you my love I can never get enough of."