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2021-08-11T14:27:02+02:00

what is love?

Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Août 2021 à 02:27 PM

Love is such a wide topic and it has different meaning for each individual, but love to me is not what we desire it's what we feel no matter what. If you have to feel that your needs should be met completely or that you have to get exactly what you need to give love then that is not love that is just a transaction, it's like saying you have what I need so I will give you love in return. love to me has nothing to do with exchanging needs it's loving someone or something even when it's not bringing anything valuable but you love them anyway because you know that God can change that person to be exactly who they need to be without you trying to fix or change anything about them, love is patient. Take for example my love for Archie that to me is the purest form of love I feed him, I play with him even when he is biting me but I still love him and he is not paying my bills actually he is adding more to it, he doesn't give me food or anything but I love him without expecting anything in return.

we often say if that person doesn't look like that or doesn't have all the qualities I am looking for in a mate then I won't be able to love that person; well that's not love that is simply your needs. The biggest love story someone can experience in their lives is the one they were not expecting, it's the one despite the person's flaw they still chose to love them it wasn't because the person was perfect that's why they love them...there are so many fake version of perfect out there that you can just pick one and pretend to be in love. The purest form of love comes from the heart of someone who choses to love despite the flaws, the unexpected and the unknown.

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2021-08-10T15:54:23+02:00

serendipity.

Publié par Gaelle.R 10 Août 2021 à 03:54 PM

If you went to watch the movie like I was saying yesterday, you're a sweetheart! but if you didn't that's okay maybe you didn't see the post but here's your chance to watch the movie...it's no longer available on Netflix but it's on HBO and if you can't watch it that's also fine lol just keep reading. I will never be able to spoil everything because the movie was magical itself.

I don't watch Christmas movies and I don't think that this is one, it's true that it took place during the holiday and the movie started with them shopping at a store but I shop during Christmas even though I don't celebrate it. There was no mention of the holiday or the importance of it whatsoever. John was shopping for a scarf and Sara was shopping for a pair of gloves, after they purchased the items they went to get ice cream or milkshake I don't remember. They started talking and bonding but they both were already in a relationship, John wanted to get Sara's number regardless that she was already in a relationship and he said I quote "just in case it doesn't work out" but Sara was a big believer in fate and she believe that if she let him go without giving him her number and somehow if they were able to meet again in this big City called New York where there is a lot of people then it would be fate that they were meant for each other. At this point they are still complete strangers and she did not give him her number as she left to get in a cab... but later on they ran into each other was it by mistake? I don't think so but John seemed to have drop his scarf and Sara was the who found it out of nowhere and while she was holding his scarf he found her and she gave him his scarf (in a romantic type of way ). They were both shocked that they were able to see each other again that soon, so they went ice skating and they discussed movies, their likes and dislikes and a lot of fun topics. It looks like they were bounding and having a great time but at the end of their little outing he ask her for her number. She wrote the number on a piece of paper and right when she was about to give him the paper the wind blew it away, she was very skeptical about it to the point where she believed that maybe they weren't supposed to stay in contact. John tried to convince her otherwise but they both agreed that he can write his number on a $5, after he handed her the money with his name on it she went and spend it on a candy or some sort; he was surprised that she did that but she said if she was able to get that $5 again with his number then she will call him ! (insane) anyway they both agree and she could also write her number in a book and left it at a bookstore, she says that if he came across that book then he can call her.

So they both went back to their lives, Sara went back to another City and her boyfriend proposed so now they are supposed to get married. John on the other hand went back to his girlfriend and he proposed to her so now they are supposed to get married. But somehow they both can't seemed to shake the memories of each other and they don't even know each other's name either. Sara became a bit sentimental and she couldn't focus on the wedding plans so she decided to go back to New York to meet a guy she has no idea what his name was, or where he lives. She went to New York with her bestfriend out looking for John while john is out looking for her everywhere, they almost ran into each other a couple of times and that was frustrating to watch. Sara even ran into John's fiancé without knowing, but after different strategies to see each other again that didn't seemed to work they both decided to give up. While Sara was on her way back home she saw the $5 John wrote his name on while she was on the plan, disbelieve she took the $5 and finally find out that his name was John! meanwhile John's fiancé bought him a pre-wedding present and it was the book that Sara wrote her number in! he was shocked and lost for words; he was now sure than ever that him and Sara was definitely meant for each other. So he called off the wedding and now he was alone he went for a walk but found a female jacket on a bench he took it with him; as he started walking he saw the ice rank he went with Sara as he went in there it started snowing so he lay on the ground as the snow fell on his face and he was thinking of her. Sara found out that he had called off the wedding and as her bestfriend was leaving to go back home she told her to go inside because it's cold and as she is standing outside in the cold without a jacket! I don't know if she remember the jacket she left on the bench or whatever but she started walking! and John who was at the ice rank with one pair of glove found the other pair of glove, when he found the other glove he turned around and there she was !!! omg and they shook hands in a romantic and magical way. They exchange their name finally and that was it !!!

Like how is that not magical? I know that it's just a movie and it's very unrealistic but the poet in me think that it's totally possible to come across this type of love even if we are in the century of facetime, snapchat and text messages it is still possible to experience an old school love :)

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2021-08-10T03:12:41+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 10 Août 2021 à 03:12 AM

“If he doesn’t search for me like John looked for Sara in serendipity I don’t want him.”

Go watch the movie I will make a little review about it tomorrow :)

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2021-08-09T20:17:54+02:00

facts.

Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Août 2021 à 08:17 PM

those are actual facts and they're already here on this blog, you can discover as you read!

1. most used words or expressions?

I used many the number one is "as if" and that was after I saw clueless I've been hooked ever since, the second one is "quite frankly" that's from Audrey Hepburn in breakfast at Tiffany when I write that I always envisioned her saying it. In real life I always say "whatever" for any and everything! because why caring when you don't have to? lol

2. what do I write about but never do in front of people?

Crying! I always say that I was crying so hard or balling my eyes out but no one ever see me cry aside from my mom. I always cry in private lol when I'm in public forget it, you will not see one drop of tears, there won't be any expression on my face maybe just sadness but you won't see me cry. Not even at funerals, I just can't cry and I don't know why, but when I am by myself I cry a lot to the point where I am surprised there are still tears left! I can be sitting next to you crying and you won't know unless you really pay attention! don't ask me how I do it lol

3. fun fact?

I write more than I speak. That is both true and false, I write a lot aside from this blog; I have things that I write for my own personal used. I speak less in the presence of people I don't know or not comfortable with, I can seem really shy but only because I am not comfortable with everyone but let me be comfortable I talk so much you will find me annoying.

4. All my of my poetry come from the heart?

yes 100% true anything I write I must've felt it at some point in my life or come across that feeling through someone else's experience but the emotions that comes from someone else's perspective are less graphic because I didn't go through what they went through personally.

5. do I write stories?

officially no, I have started many but never finished them well technically yes. I am currently working on a novel and it's been 2 years since I started...It's taking me a lot of time to finish because I am using different narrative, emotions and I am still growing both as a writer and as an individual so I chose not to rush the process to get a better ending. I want to write short stories as well as children books.

6. I like sneakers more than heels?

No, not really I love them both equally because each serve their purpose in different setting. I love sneakers but I will not get married in them! I will at least get red bottoms!!

7. I no longer drink alcohol?

Very true, I no longer drink alcohol for personal reasons and it has been a year since I went to the liquor store, I will not be back anytime soon either. I think it's one of the best decisions I ever made throughout my entire life.

8. I don't have many friends?

I write about that every once in a while and it's true, I don't feel bad about it or anything because it has always been like this ever since I was born. It has always been easy for me to make friends but harder for me to keep them... I want to have forever friends but that has never happened.

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2021-08-09T16:23:24+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Août 2021 à 04:23 PM

" It's not about finding the perfect mate or to be in a perfect relationship because there is absolutely no perfect relationship it's about finding someone that matches your energy, someone that will be with you through everything even in the dark times, it's someone who choses to love you even when you were at your worse but they encouraged you to be your best without judgments. That's what it's all about."

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2021-08-09T14:19:08+02:00

One Day.

Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Août 2021 à 02:19 PM

* Movie review, one day was played by Anne Hathaway and I can't remember the name of the actor. If you plan on watching the movie please go see it before you read this but if you don't care keep on reading :)

This movie is not my favorite, it reminds me so much of the titanic and Romeo & Juliet but the role were simply reversed. It was the story of a young man named Dexter and a girl he met named Emma at a university and they got along very well. At the start of their friendship they tried to date each other but they both decided that they are better as friends and I wasn't too sure if that's what Emma really wanted but they became best friends after that. Dexter left to go to London to become a TV Reporter but the role made him arrogant, shallow, self centered and a flirt. He was around women bouncing in cages or costume every evening for the show, his mom wasn't very pleased with his role and she was also battling with cancer on the verge of dying. Dexter had so much going on for him with work, his loud Tv girlfriend, his mom being really sick and his friendship with Emma that he felt overwhelmed and started drinking alcohol heavily. At one point he went to visit his mom while he was hung over and I thought it was very immature of him, to top it all off he couldn't even stay for dinner as he had to head over to work to be a pathetic tv reporter. He knew that he wasn't a good reporter as the papers wrote about him being the worse person on TV, he would always called Emma because she knew how to bring out the best of him and I think that he took that for granted.

Throughout the whole movie I could see just how much Emma loved him and how she tried to hide her feelings for him because he was going through so much, she knew that he was not ready for her because he would tell her how it's easy for him to have feelings for anyone but Emma wasn't just anybody she was his best friend. She tried so hard to make Dexter see that he could do so much better, she watched him making a fool out of himself on tv but she never judged him because she knew things weren't right for him. In the meantime Emma did not wait around for him she started dating someone and I didn't like the person she picked because they had absolutely no chemistry whatsoever, she also knew that she wasn't in love with him. She wanted to talk to Dexter about her love life but Dexter was so full of himself while flirting with every girl on sight and doing coke in the bathroom. That truly broke her heart to see her dear friend turning into a complete stranger, she tried telling him that he was going down the wrong path and how she couldn't stand to watch him messing up his life. They stopped being friends for a while but Dexter lost his job as a tv reporter and he had nothing going on for him. He begin dating a girl named Sylvie , to be honest they had nothing in common but he really thought he loved her or maybe he wanted to love her. Emma on the other hand after a couple of years had finally found the guts to break up with her boyfriend who quite frankly didn't bring any joy in her life. She went to a friend's wedding who the bride had slept with Dexter and while she was at the wedding she ran into him, she looked as beautiful as ever. She had lost her nerdy glasses, ditched the maty curly hair to a beautiful body hugging dress and straight voluminous hair. Dexter found himself looking at her and he still couldn't see just how much he loved her, they started reconnecting at the wedding, he also told her that he was getting married himself and that he was also becoming a father. Emma was happy for him but with tears in her eyes because it's never easy to see the person you love be with someone else, they had got caught up in the moment and shared a kiss... but nothing has changed he still got married to Sylvie and they had a daughter but after a while they got a divorce and they begin to just co-parenting.

Emma had moved to France and met a French guy, she was also writing novels and children books. Dexter went to see her in France and he finally had hope to start dating Emma but she was with someone else. Emma on the other hand had never gotten over Dexter and she couldn't risk being with a guy she barely like while the love of her life was walking around Paris all alone, she left her current guy and ran after Dexter, I was crying at that moment because it's so romantic! she made him promise not to make a fool out of herself and to treat her right, he promised her he would and I believed him because I could feel how much he loved her through the screen. They begin their lives together and it was the most beautiful thing to witness as two best friends became lovers, the chemistry was magical. She wanted to have children with him because she loved him unconditionally but sadly they were experiencing some complications as she couldn't get pregnant. she was frustrated and they started to fight but because they were best friends first those complications couldn't tear them apart. One day as she was rushing to get to him while riding her bicycle a truck that was driving at full speed hit her and she died instantly! Dexter had lost himself once again as he started drinking and started hitting on women who looks just like Emma while he didn't even care that they were on dates, he had gotten in a fight and he had almost lost his life. I could see why he choses to get into fights because sometimes the pain you feel on the inside is so unbearable that you would rather feel it on the outside. I did not expect that and I was crying so much just like I did in titanic or Romeo and Juliet. I thought their love was such a waste ! why wait this long to be with someone you love only to have them being taken away by death!

As I take a moment to analyze their story I realize it was never about a love story it's about taking people you love and life for granted. Time is fleeting and nothing last forever, you have to cherish your parents, your sibling, your lover because one day they can be taken away... we will never be ready to say goodbye to a loved one but if we know in our heart that we treated them well and that we showed them just how much we loved them then the process of letting them go will not be as painful because we were there for them. Dexter had waited a long time to finally in his late thirties to be with the love of his life that he had met in his late teenage years. He couldn't see love even though it was right in from of him because he wasn't fully matured, he had wasted his time on tv making a fool out of himself while his mom was dying and he wasn't even there. At the end of the movie he begin to see what was really important, started taking responsibilities for his action and taking care of his daughter. It was indeed a sad movie but it was captivating with so much life lesson included.

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2021-08-09T02:39:16+02:00

the great Gatsby

Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Août 2021 à 02:39 AM

*Movie review, if you haven't watched it please go see it before you read this, I don't want to be a spoiler but If You don't care then proceed on reading :)

This movie is by far my favorite movie, the images are so vivid and beautiful yet personal I can watch that movie every day for a month and still be able to find something I haven’t seen before. The characters are so polite and well-read except of course Daisy’s husband Boaz which I think his name was or at least that’s what Nick called him, I think it might've been Wilson but honestly, I don't care much about him. Daisy was the most beautiful Golden girl that Gatsby was so madly in love with, he would throw large parties open to the public hoping that one day she would show up. He had Nick invited her over for tea just so he could come with a lot of flowers and decorate the whole place for her, tea was just an excuse to see her, and I don’t think he cared for it. He was so clumsy like a schoolboy in her presence and I thought that was sweet as he is usually a complete gentleman who’s very confident and so sure about everything, but in her presence, he was just so embarrassed by his mere existence as if he wasn’t even fit to be in her presence. Quite frankly I can’t imagine anyone being so in love because the intensity of that love to me is what I read in books and personally write about hoping that one day I can live it.

The movie is so captivating and lovely, their love story stole the show as they were so consumed with each other that they could barely notice anything happening around them. Without Gatsby Daisy was just a lost little girl feeling like a beautiful fool in a loveless marriage with a man who often leaves her all alone to be with other women. She was sad and alone without him but together they could light up the whole world. Without Daisy Gatsby was just alone and hidden behind his wealth. He would throw so many parties yet no one seemed to know who he was but Nick always found him to be captivating and interesting.

The end of that love story was very tragic and Nick felt the loss, perhaps it's because he was an empath but the sudden end of that love story was too much for him to bear. He had stopped writing but after thinking about Gatsby's smile, Daisy's poise, and their love story that never had a great ending he begins to write again... and I am glad that the story was made public so I could stumble across it.

If I were to be completely honest I am mad at Daisy for letting her husband pin everything on Gatsby and for not being there at his funeral, truly the American dream is unattainable. Gatsby had all the wealth, throw large parties all for a girl and that girl couldn't wait for him while he was penniless. No one cared for Gatsby yet he was a memorable and great man; The only person that cared about him was Nick and that's sad. This movie really shows that money can never fill up the void you have in your heart... love is the answer to it all. Gatsby had hope as he was always reaching for that green light hoping that Daisy would come back to him.

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2021-08-08T20:23:32+02:00

Turkey.

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Août 2021 à 08:23 PM

Casually rambling.

I bet you think that I am going to talk about eating a turkey! fun fact I don't like eating turkey like that maybe I haven't tasted a good one yet but so far all I ever had was crapy turkeys uhm ok back to what I am going to say.

I know it's crazy but I want to go to Turkey like in Istanbul because it is practically the land of cats! and most of you already know how I feel about cats! I am basically obsessed and I really don't know anything else that I am obsessed with besides cats and I mean all cats !! tigers, lions, wild cats, cheetahs ugh they are just so gracious and beautiful, I do know that they can eat me but gosh what a privilege to be eaten by a lion uhm that's not funny! that was my dark humor talking but anyway I do want to go to Turkey and when I can afford the flight I will go even if I go alone... you basically see cats everywhere on the sidewalk, at a hotel, sleeping on a patio, chilling on a car; people just pet them and give them treats!

Gosh if I go and I don't see any cats I will be pissed because that's the only reason why I want to go. I will keep that private lol because that sounds insane but to me, that's the most reasonable thing to do. since we are talking about that I do want to go to Africa as well just so I can see lions and cheetahs! and that's probably the only reason because I don't know anyone there either... I cannot wait to be in a van driving in the wilderness and looking at lions casually lounging around ugh... I would even work in the zoo just so I can keep watch on the wild cats but not all the zoos have wild cats though...

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2021-08-08T03:25:46+02:00

Changes

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Août 2021 à 03:25 AM

I hate changes but sometimes they are for the best and very much needed; I guess I love knowing what to expect but that is also being in a comfort zone which at times we all need to get out of to grow. I am not one to welcome a change but with time I realize that it was for the best. There have been a lot of changes in my life starting from the moment I turn 15 years old nothing has been the same, I did grow every time I had to be in a different place and I think that's how I learn to be strong on my own.

Life is truly about growing, learning, and teaching because how can we expect the next generation to be great if we don't teach them? the other day I was shocked that the kids who were born in the 2000s are now 21! I always see them as kids and quite frankly some of them have done way more than I ever did in my whole life! and I came to the realization that even though we've been through a lot in life does not mean that we are fully matured! whereas someone who hasn't been through half of the things someone else has been through could be wiser... it's really about learning more without having to make a lot of mistakes.

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2021-08-07T16:33:38+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 7 Août 2021 à 04:33 PM

"Imagine judging and criticizing someone but the whole time they were dealing with mental heath issues. Be kind always."

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