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"Baby I know you by heart, I asked all the right questions and paid attention to every little details."
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Why I don't have any friends.
The reason why I don't have any friends is entirely my fault, I am not blaming anyone else. People have tried to invite me to places, some even went out of their way to make me feel welcome and what did I do? nothing. I am the jerk in this situation but I have many reasons that will sound like excuses one of them is that : although I want friends and most importantly close friends but I am really afraid to really let anyone in because I'm scared that one day they would detach themselves from me. My first best friend heartbreak was in 2010 she was my first real best friend, we loved each other like sisters and suddenly she just stopped talking to me and that really broke my heart. At 13 years old I vowed to never let anyone that close again and I never really did; well never 100 % like I did back then anyway. After that heartbreak I never got attached to anyone besides my mom, we can be friends today but I'll be totally fine if you stop talking me. I almost expect everyone to leave and although that doesn't explain the fact that why I spend so much time alone but it does say a lot about me...
In my opinion and from what I've experience so far everyone has a motive. some People want to be your friend for what you have to offer and for what they can take from you but they don’t necessarily care about you or consider you a friend. You are calling them your friend and they only want to be around you because of what you have. People are envious, jealous and malicious. Maybe you don’t have a friend right now and perhaps the people you want to be friends wouldn't benefit you in anyway because They could be trying to use you or they might fake being your friend just so you can get them where they want to be. It is hard to find a friend who genuinely care about you as person and want the best for you; there are great people out there that you could be friends with but they are very rare; if you ever find one hold on to them because you might never find one like that again. You don't always have to be friends with somebody you can just focus on yourself and improve yourself while you wait for that friend you're looking for. Do not be desperate and allow just anyone to be your friend because people are malicious these day, they may become your downfall.
Find ways to work through your problems use that alone time to grow within yourself, use that time to fall in love with yourself. You can make voice notes about your problems to work through them because not everyone deserve to know your business. It’s okay if you don’t have a friend right now Be your own best friend, vent to yourself
2022-12-20T17:30:14+01:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
who's ready for the PSG match this week !!!
I think the big trio Neymar, Mbappe, Messi are playing together this season :)
2022-12-20T15:27:20+01:00
Q&A
1. What is one thing that you cannot live without?
I cannot live without talking to my mom. I don't know how I would do it without her, I talk to her in the morning, on my break and before I to to bed... sometimes while I am working. I ask her random questions about anything and she would just answer casually like it's totally normal.
2. what was the last thing you googled?
This is totally embarrassing but I just ask google " is it normal to have a crush on a celebrity?" and google told me it was fine and that I am not insane :)
3.what was the last thing you ate?
A tuna sandwich with Mayo and it was delicious.
4. what foreign language are you interested in right now?
Right now I am interested in portuguese because I want to be able to speak to Neymar when I see him. :)
5. what movie did you watch last?
I saw avatar: the way of water and it was amazingggg
6. Are you having a photoshoot this year?
I normally do a yearly photoshoot at the end of every year but I don't know about this year yet.
7. Why do you love dancing so much?
Because it makes me happy !!!
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2022-12-19T19:44:02+01:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
I am obsessed with my visual blog ! I have been working and editing it for the past few days. It helps me to express myself in a new way, I love it so much :)) I hope you can hang out with me there too.
2022-12-19T15:42:26+01:00
my beliefs regarding happiness.
happiness to me is very broad and it can be very fleeting as well. In my opinion I think in order for anyone to be truly happy they have to make that choice, because life will always throw obstacles at you and things will never go as plan. If I were to rely on other people as the number 1 source of my happiness I would be miserable. I live in this mentality that no one owes me anything and that I owe myself everything including my own happiness. I don't rely on friends or family to make me happy I do that on my own with the things that I enjoy. Sure people makes me happy and spending time with them can make me feel great but I don't rely on them to make me feel great every time because people can have bad days and they may treat me wrong it is up to me to not let their mistreatment take away my joy.
I also believe how anyone who has treated me bad or good is a reflection of themselves and not me. I don't think that it is anyone's responsibility to make me happy or to give me what I need. It is my job to get out there and give myself what I need. I do not care what anyone think of me anymore and that makes me feel free, I do not condemn myself anymore for making a mistake; I say so what and I move on.
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