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2021-11-19T23:11:01+01:00

what happened?

Publié par Gaelle.R

This is not about me it's concerning Archie lol well you all know how much he means to me... let me say how much he has done so far.

  • he has brought a smile to my face each time I see his beautiful face and each time he runs to greet me at the door when I come home. (very few things make me smile but he always does!)
  • when my alarm rings in the morning and he comes to snuggle with me just so I don't get up that melts my heart! he makes me feel so loved and appreciated... I know people say that cats are aloof well I haven't experienced that.
  • he knows when I am not feeling well, one time I was going through some episode and mentally I really wasn't there...he came in my room saw me sitting there about to do something completely stupid with tears in my eyes, he approached me to look me straight in the eyes and got on my legs and bury his face in my chest as if he was giving me a hug... I am writing this and I am crying... because I don't deserve him. He made me feel seen and he saved me that day.
  • he is always next to me and he knows when something is different... when I cut my hair he got on my shoulders and went on top of my head to see what happened lol!!

there are a lot of things that happened... but our bond is very strong, he understands me and I do too. well, he had the surgery so he was in a lot of pain earlier, he has been sleeping and resting so he is recovering. 

if you appreciate Archie as much as I do you are truly an angel.

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2021-11-19T22:56:21+01:00

Antisocial

Publié par Gaelle.R

Today is a great day,

Adele did drop her new album as promised but it will take some time for some of the songs to grow on me... I am in a good mood today because I tried this great salad place called Sweetgreen and now I am hooked; I will not go there a lot I will only go there when I want to treat myself. It's not such a surprise that I am discussing the topic of being " Antisocial", well let's get into it.

Do I believe that I am antisocial? Uhm yes, well not entirely but my social skill is worse than what it was at the start of the pandemic. I mean I cannot beat myself over it nor should I feel like a failure because so much has happened and I am honestly grateful to be alive today. I hope that all of you are doing well, I worry about the very few people that I talk to because if I talk to you every day consider yourself lucky because I hate doing that lol if I do it I must admire you. I talk to the same people every day, my mom is practically my sister and best friend and I just don't feel comfortable leaving my house or going to events. I am sorry but... I mean why am apologizing? that is how I feel ! I want to spend time alone, I want to stay in my bed and I don't want to go out right now. Maybe I am evolving or maybe I am beginning to appreciate the person that I am becoming and to love myself deeper than I have ever done in the past but all I want to do is to spend time alone while I work on myself; the finishing product will certainly be great but there has been a lot of tears, sadness, failed relationships that shapes who I am today. I am very grateful for all the good and the bad experiences because each of them has taught me something new. 

thank you for reading I appreciate you.

 

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2021-11-14T19:11:36+01:00

Red flags

Publié par Gaelle.R

Those are my red flags for potential "relationship"... it's quite rare for me to find someone who is remotely qualified.

"choose your spouse carefully because that's the person you will spend the rest of your life with"

*well unless something tragic happens in the marriage but I don't believe in Divorce so this is why picking someone is so hard for me. This is not all of my red flags because most of them are private and unsettling but maybe you can learn from these or perhaps relate...

1. inconsistency: I am not asking for you to call me every day but at least answer all of my texts when I text you and call me back when I call. if you're no longer interested please have the decency to tell me because trust me I will get over you I am never too attached. You also have to understand that I have no problem with being alone and by the fact, I am more comfortable that way and that can be an issue for anyone trying to come into my life because it will be a very rocky road, but being with someone who is underserving scare me the most because I just simply won't try to be in that predicament.

2.  entitled: Don't ever act like you own me because that will only bring you down by 99 points and you can automatically get disqualified. Respect that I have my own life, my own hobby, my own career and don't try to butt in and act like you should be the one controlling my life and my whereabouts because I have been alone most of my life so you really have to work hard to make me depend on you and that might never happen.

3. Not being able to read between the lines: if you're someone who takes everything I say to heart well then this whole thing is doomed to fail because I love to talk and sometimes what I say doesn't even make sense to me but that only happens when I have too much to drink :) hence why I don't drink anymore... I love to stay sane. If you can't understand my facial expression or my catchphrases well let's end it right now and I won't be afraid to end it trust me even if I am quite smitten with you... I need someone who understands me not someone who wants to shield and protect me because that might just drive me away... " a love that suffocates you is bound to suck the life out of you, run!" I hate being restricted or being put in a cage because I am a free spirit and a wildcat... I love being me so if I gotta be someone else for you then I'm gone.

4. Not being able to comprehend or handle sarcasm: I speak sarcasm... anyone who hates sarcasm will not be able to enjoy a simple conversation with me because that's how I speak.

5. unpredictable: well that one might cause an issue but I am very unpredictable at times but I can never be with someone who is unpredictable I have to know exactly what I am getting and I have to be sure about it because if I am not sure about you then you won't hear from me ever again...

the rest is a mystery.

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2021-11-10T00:54:15+01:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R

" if you text me 4-8 hours ago and I don't reply I am most likely sleeping or purposely ignoring you :)"

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2021-11-10T00:41:25+01:00

Diet and regime.

Publié par Gaelle.R

hey guys! I am about to be real :)

this is an update for the month. I have been very busy lately and there has been a lot of changes, Archie's surgery is next Thursday and I am a little anxious but he's doing great except that he is a spoiled little brat lol.

Okay, so what has been going on?

I have been very open about how I wanted to gain weight in the past and how I was eating everything while increasing my portion. well, it did work because I did gain a ton of weight but I honestly think that I did it the wrong way and not for the right reasons. I've always been slimmed because I have a very fast metabolism and in order for me to finally gain weight I did have to take a caloric surplus and something else to slow down my metabolism but I would never recommend it to anyone trying to gain weight because it can mess up your hormones and it has way too many side effects that I didn't know about until I started taking it every day for a year straight... it was certainly a bad idea! 

I have stopped with that regime and I have incorporated a new one that is very beneficial for my health.

What made me change my mind? 

1. My skin was breaking out really bad and my hormones went crazy. I already talked about my journey with acne and how it had affected me. I am doing much better now thanks to my Dermatologist.

2. irregular cycles, No girl wants that even if we hate it.

3. Elevated blood pressure. I am not even 25 years old yet for my blood pressure to be that high.

4. My face got really fat and I did lose my strong drawline with my beautiful high cheekbones. That was the last straw because my face is the thing I love most about me, my signature look was ruined. As an introvert and Infj changes do scare me! and the changes I was experiencing with my body were rather scary.

There were other things as well that made me switch my regiment and made me stop taking all the caloric surplus. One of them was self-love, after months of being on an emotional rollercoaster and having mental health issues I decided to do what was best for my health which is eating clean, working out, drinking water, and losing weight! 

I realize that I love myself the way that I am because to keep up the weight I literally had to force myself to eat more than I normally would, that wasn't fun because my eating habit is weird, I do eat often but I don't eat a big portion when I do. My new diet is working out for me so far because I have lost more than 10 pounds.

so what is my new diet?

  • I have cut out crab meat, bread, spaghetti, pizza, less ice cream, soda, less greasy food, and less dairy. 
  • I also don't eat past 7 pm and I don't eat snacks in between meals or at least I try not to, if I really want a snack I opt for a bowl of watermelon or strawberry.
  • I also have a better sleeping habit, actually, that wasn't really a problem because I love sleeping lol.

The best thing you can do for yourself is to eat clean.

1. add broccoli, spinach, and stir fry to your meal.

2. Less process meat but instead opt for wild game meat which has high protein and is basically classified as lean meat

3. Have a high protein diet instead of a greasy high calory meal.

High protein is always better because it has less calory and less fat and it contains a lot of things that your body needs. One thing that helps with bloating and a big stomach is drinking warm lemon water every morning and you can also add one teaspoon of coffee in there to lose belly fat. I have been drinking lemon water every day now and it helps with water retention, bloating and upset stomach trust me you won't regret it especially when you just wake up it is a great way to hydrate your body, it is also beneficial for your skin for those of you who are struggling with acne just like me drinking lemon water will help fight the toxins under your skin so drink up !! :)

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2021-11-09T22:57:46+01:00

Childhood story.

Publié par Gaelle.R

I must've been 9 or 10 years old and I remember that there was going to be a weekly meeting at my house, it was in the afternoon and I remember sitting outside on a chair looking at the chickens we had in the house. Now come to think of it there was a male and a female, I loved watching them because they looked like husbands and wives; in my childlike brain, it made sense that two people who loved each other should get married like those 2 chickens. I did name them myself and their name was " Carlata and Loulou" I am shocked that I still remember their names!

Here I was sitting on this chair chanting both of their names aggressively but before we get into that let me tell you as a child I was very mean to my body, I would literally slap myself for no reason and climb things just for fun just to see if I would fall and break a bone. My mom used to be very concerned and my aunt would have me sit calmly for at least 30 minutes every day just so I could learn to behave, actually she would force me to stop hitting myself. Perhaps there was something wrong with me but I did grow out of it thank God.

so back to our little story when I was sitting on the chair chanting their names in a very concerning way a family friend was quietly coming behind me and I have no idea how long he was standing there while I call the chicken names like a maniac but after a while he just sort of told me to stop! LOL, I am laughing right now because I know that I looked like a crazy child calling some chicken who didn't even know they had names... well for my defense I was trying to tell them what their name was but they never got the chance to learn what their names were because I am pretty sure that eventually, they became our Sunday lunch and I am very sure that I ate them. Sorry Carlata and Loulou

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2021-11-09T00:37:53+01:00

ice princess

Publié par Gaelle.R

" you give him too much power then he gotta come around to make a fool out of you and ghost you. Keep your feelings intact and keep it simple." 

How many times did I give my heart away for it to come back missing a piece? I learn to keep it locked up and not give access to anyone who's not willing to fight to protect it. I've met many narcissists and some even claim they would die if I didn't give them a chance, but you give an ugly guy a chance and they think they own the world...

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2021-11-08T19:14:27+01:00

pet peeves.

Publié par Gaelle.R

1. dirty-looking shoes especially sneakers. if you have white sneakers and it's looking brown with black patches wash them or throw them away PLEASE!!! I hate dirty sneakers it drives me nuts. I hate it when girls wear dirty shoes not that guys can do it too but in my own opinion it is unacceptable for girls to walk around with dirty sneakers. If you see me walking around with dirty shoes feel free to drag me or yell at me because I would hate to be caught dead in one.

2. People telling me they hate cats. okay, now what will that piece of information do for me? I really don't care about anyone's hatred for cats just like no one should care that I love cats, that is simply my preference and I am not forcing anyone to love cats. I also can't stand people that tell me that I am too obsessed with Archie, that cat has saved my life more than anyone could imagine and he makes me so happy so it's only right that I spoil him. 

3. I really can't stand when an email starts with " I hope this email finds you well" truth is it never does it's always about something I have to do ASAP or something with a deadline on it; Those are never fun !

4. someone acknowledging that I cut them off in traffic. Okay yes, I did! I would apologize but I figured maybe it's not a good idea since the person is already pissed...well they should've drove faster. I'm always in a hurry either to get to work or to get home to my fur baby.

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2021-11-08T04:29:18+01:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R

“Best feeling ever is watching a black and white film preferably one with Audrey Hepburn in it while I snuggle up in bed with my fur baby with a nice cup of tea. Nothing bad can happen to me there.”

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