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2023-11-18T18:36:50+01:00
2023-11-18T01:08:49+01:00
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Things that I find annoying that pisses me off a little.
- People who say long prayers especially when they praying before we eat like you need to wrap this up and don’t be surprise if I’m already eating when you open your eyes because ain’t nobody got time to wait for you to say all that.
- Guys who stare at my butt especially old creepy men like sir I need you to look away respectfully. I don’t mind if you look for a few seconds but if I turn around and catch you looking and you’re still looking then you’re pushing it!
- When I can’t find a good movie or show to watch before I start eating. I cannot eat until I find something interesting to watch and if I don’t find it I will keep looking and the more I look the more aggravated I become because my food is getting cold and It’s pissing me off.
- People who give me a stank look; like do we got a problem? Don’t be looking at me like that if you got something to say to me then say it but don’t be looking at me crazy.
2023-11-17T23:56:23+01:00
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2023-11-16T02:00:57+01:00
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What’s your love language?
We all have 3 main love languages but my primary one is physical touch, I know that I don’t look affectionate because I look standoffish, and I don’t like being hugged or touched by people, but the truth is I love being hugged by the people that I love and feel safe with. Some family members I don’t like being hugged by them and it’s not that I don’t feel safe with them, quite the contrary I love them but that’s not how I express my love for them. For my relationship my main love language is physical touch because if he doesn’t hold my hand, hug me and show me affection I will feel neglected even though he tells me sweet words if he doesn’t physically show that to me, I simply won’t believe it.
I am not a touchy type of person but when … nah let me stop I’m just going to expose myself. ;) but yeah physical touch is the way to go but also tell me sweet words because that’s my second love language.
2023-11-15T14:27:44+01:00
song I am obsessed with right now
- baby riddim by fave
- breakfast by Dove Cameron
- made in the USA Demi Lovato
- I can't be myself by justin bieber, Jaden
- wake me up before you go-go wham (y'all know I love the 80's)
- sweet Melody by little mix
- mapopo by mavokali,rayvanny
2023-11-15T02:46:17+01:00
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Let’s answer fun questions.
I am really active on here these days because I write a lot when I am trying to distract my mind from overthinking and it’s helping my writing, so it’s a win ;)
- If you could live anywhere in the world where would you be and why?
I would live in France, not only do I love speaking French but I also love the culture. I am well aware of how hard it can be to switch from a totally different setting to another but I’m pretty sure I will adapt very quickly lol ( I will not miss the US please get me out of here it’s so ghetto )and I know how bad racism is over there but honestly I just love the culture. I love to just be in the European environment, I would just watch every match at a pub especially during the world cup final omg! There is no sleep! I would literally be at a pub for every game lol. I just love everything about France; that’s where I would live.
- If you become a millionaire overnight, what would be the first thing you would do?
Find a way to expedite the process of getting my mom to live with me ASAP then buy a private island and just disappear with her and all my cats plus the neighbors cat who keeps visiting me lol
- Tell me something about you most people don’t know?
I can never willingly drink from the same cup as someone else. If I am drinking in a cup and someone else grab it from my hand and drinks from it, I am not drinking the rest of the drink. It disgust me to drink in same container with other people.
- Do you have any special talents?
I can take off my bra without taking out my clothes lol.
- Which came first the chicken or the egg?
Uhm that’s a great question I believe the chicken ! Because God created all animals male and female so that they can reproduce.
- What is your guilty pleasure?
Whenever it is raining or snowing especially early in the morning I love to watch Tom and jerry because it reminds me of my childhood when things were simple and fun.
- Which do you prefer books or movies?
This is tricky if there is a book made before a movie I will always choose the book first because whenever I watch a movie of a book they always leave a huge chunk of the story out of the movie, in my opinion the book is more detailed and if I don’t like the actors in the movie it won’t be a problem when I read the book because I can pretty much make up all the characters in my head.
Ok let’s stop here… we will keep going later.
2023-11-14T17:44:52+01:00
weight
trigger warning discussing eating disorder.
I have a very toxic relationship with food, I either binge eat, or I eat way less than I should. Lately nothing tastes good in my mouth, once in a while I will find something I like but then I get bored of it. I lost 10 pounds in less than 2 weeks; I know I should be concern but I do want to lose weight and I am happy that it's happening even though it's happening drastically but hey at least I am shedding pounds in unwanted places especially in my belly area. People usually tells me that it is healthy weight and that I shouldn't worry but I worry about everything!
I want a flat belly and that is my number one goal, before I gained all the weight people use to make fun of my size even my crushes use to say I looked too small or that I look like a little boy. I think I looked super cute and petite; I am still petite but with a little weight lol. I am not mad about my size but for a while I used to be depressed and I did touch on that here. In 2021, I was extremely depressed, and I hid from everyone. My face was so chunky, and I used to cry daily, I did not feel beautiful but somehow by the grace of God I lost all the weight; I did work out as well as changing my diet but for some people it takes years for them to finally see results, but I saw results almost instantly. I did pray to Jehovah daily. That's why I say if you want something really bad just ask God for it because he is listening to you, he may not answer you right away, but he will answer in due time.
Now to all the people who were making fun of me when I was skinny, I hope you know how much that affected to me to the point that I even hated the way that I looked because deep down I wanted to look like those girls on Instagram, but now I don't care anymore as long as I feel beautiful that is all that matters. I don't care about your opinion of me anymore and I hope you stay away from me with all of that negativity.
2023-11-14T02:15:16+01:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
Deep convo with me.
- If someone offered you a box with everything you ever lost what’s the first thing you’d look for?
When I was six or maybe 5 someone gave me a tweety bird shaped ring and I lost it while I was playing and I’ve always regretted losing it. That’s the first thing I would look for, even though it wouldn’t fit none of my fingers now but I will be happy that I have it.
- What’s that thought that always seems to be on your mind before you sleep?
I always think what if I give up everything, forget about everyone that I currently know and just disappear how would my life be. I usually start crying when I realize the reason why I want to do this.
- What do you value most in people ?
Their kindness and I don’t mean that fake kindness when someone want something from you; I mean someone who is genuinely kind and soft hearted with no anger boiling up inside of them… just lighthearted fun.
- What would your dream date look like from start to finish?
A guy ( preferably my crush) to walk up to me in person because I don’t want someone asking me out on the phone. Man up and walk to me and say” what are you doing tomorrow night at 6pm”
I would say “ uhm nothing I would probably be home” then he’ll say “ ok get ready I’ll pick you up and it’s a date” and then I’ll say “ oh ok”. Then I’ll be all excited and get ready, then he’ll come and pick me up. Open the car door for me, take me to a nice French or Italian restaurant with a nice view… while we sit across from each other with wine … he would ask me questions to get to know me and he would reach out and hold my hand on the table after we eat… we would sit in the car and talk for a couple of hours … then he would drop me off at home.