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My love life?
I am looking for something serious because y'all already know I am trying to find a good man to have my babies with lol but there is no rush I am still young. I did have a date this weekend; it was really fun, and we might go out again, but I am still getting to know him. I don't know much about him and that's not a good sign well at least for me. I know a lot of girls love a mysterious guy, but I don't; I need to know everything!!! when I say everything, I mean EVERYTHANG!! I love a man who's mysterious with other people but not to me because baby I am your best friend, and you are my best friend. He will know everything about me as well; not all at once because my life is a mess and when I say a mess you would be shocked! what I post here has nothing to do with my life lol I only post the surface level stuff.
Like I always say I will never be this young and hot again so let's have some fun! let's break some hearts nah I am playing. I won't break any hearts intentionally; I always try to be nice. But I want to find a good man because I want at least one kid :)
2023-11-20T15:20:12+01:00
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My music taste.
the music I listen to is very telling about who I am as a person, the songs in my playlist describe what type of mood I am in. Based on what I am listening to I can be sad, happy, feeling powerful or even weak... but I mostly listen to music with very minimal words now they are usually a dj's version of the original song it's either a sped up or a slowed down version. When there are words I listen to a lot of Billie Eilish, Tate McRae (she doesn't have very happy songs, but I listen to all of her albums when I am sad and sometimes because I love how sexy they make me feel because her voice is so soft and expressive) I don't listen to a lot of Billie anymore because her songs make me sad, and I am trying to stay happy now. I also listen to Doja Cat, but her songs are too explicit at times, but I do like her album planet her. I also listen to Chloe Bailey as well but most of the times I listen to are french songs or old songs...
To be honest when I am alone, I listen to a lot of 70's-80's music because those songs had a story and I love feeling like I am being transported back to another era. When I listen to the beatles, Marvin Gaye,the beach boys, curtis lee, the chiffons, the crystals, Elvis, Janet jackson, Dean Martin, Michael Jackson (of course), the temptations (my girl) is my all-time favorite omg, Michael buble (more recent), Nat king Cole.
Most girls my age don't listen to those people I just listed above and those are just a few... I have many more singers from 1930's or 1940's tha I love listening to. Songs are never too old; they are still powerful and so much better than the songs made those past few years who only talk about sex and drugs...
I love the old times check out my Instagram page that I created last week in honor of my old Hollywood actor's username: vintagearchives_1
I would love to meet a guy who loves old movies and old songs... I would be soooo impress and if he has a record player with vinyl disc he would just have to propose right away because I would be in love!
2023-11-19T23:29:40+01:00
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i look really different every time I change my hairstyle! Some people didn’t even recognize me today. I mean that’s not my hair and yall know how I feel about wigs; I don’t like them but they save my life when my hair is messy and I have no will to do it. I don’t like wigs because it makes me feel like I am trying to be like a Caucasian woman, I do feel beautiful with this one because of the headband but other than that not really. I love m’y Afro wayyyyyyu more
2023-11-19T21:10:15+01:00
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I feel like I’m running out of time, I am taking too long. I am missing out being with my parents and I feel like they will leave me soon and I won’t know what to do in this world. I feel lost, I feel alone and I just want to cry. I have no one not even my own self since I feel like I’m losing who I am little by little. Is it just a feeling?
2023-11-19T10:46:44+01:00
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Yesterday I had a moment of epiphany and I just wanted to cry! I realize throughout my life I was always the one who had to pick up the pieces all by myself. I was force to grow up at a very young age and went through a lot of traumatic events as a child; but quite frankly I never took those past experiences as an excuse I always knew that I had to be strong no matter what and that I had to work hard to succeed.
Yesterday I was with someone and something bad happened to me and the way he stepped up to protect me before I could even come up with a plan really touched my heart! I always had to be there for people but it’s very rare that someone shows up for me, they do but often times I wish I did everything alone but yesterday I felt so safe for the first time in my life with someone and I felt like I could just let him take control and take care of everything. Usually that doesn’t happen ! I’m always looking for an exit plan just in case I need to save myself. Then I realize this whole time not only have I been looking for love but I also want stability and safety because I need those things to be at peace. Not only did I felt safe but there was some form of excitement there! It was just amazing. I am glad I got to experience that for once in my life.
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“He kisses me on the forehead, holds my hand, make sure that I am alright and feeds me!”
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