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" Baby I want to hold your face gently and kiss your beautiful lips but you're not mine to hold."
2023-11-07T20:46:50+01:00
2023-11-07T12:42:59+01:00
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I don’t know what’s going on, but I’ve been feeling stuck lately, and repeating the same mistakes again but that’s alright I am human, and I am still learning…
But it’s that time to get it together …
I usually start with my environment and my appearance first. There’s not much to do in my environment it’s not that messy but it could be more organized; My appearance is fine I am not looking like a raccoon at the moment, I even find myself beautiful! but when my brain is in chaos so is everything around me; that’s how I know things aren’t going well.
But no more of that! Let’s start today. I saw this step-by-step list on Pinterest let’s go over it together:
- Drink water. When I drink water, I feel hydrated and much better. I always have my water bottle with me, but I need to reach for it more.
- Eat on time. I have not been eating much lately and I have been losing weight, which is great, but I still need to eat so I don’t starve.
- Sleep. Well, that’s not a problem I usually sleep for more than 8 hrs. at night when I am not struggling to fall asleep and thy doesn’t happen frequently only under certain circumstances.
- Stop crying over boys. Well, that’s not a problem I haven’t cried over a boy in a very long time. I am traumatized of men, and I am scared that I will never be an able to trust a man enough to be in a relationship. Why would I cry over a guy when I look like this? I am young and beautiful; I will never be this young and hot again! Let me enjoy it now and have fun. I do talk to guys but I’m just having fun may the best man win…
- Work out: I work out whenever I feel like it and that’s unusually 2-3 times a week, but I guess I could do it way more often? I work out at home. I have all the equipment I need.
- Focus on the important things. I do need to do that because I dissociate a lot. I don’t focus on what’s important but rather what’s not because it’s less time consuming? Actually, I don’t know but that needs to change ASAP.
There’s more to the list but it’s in my journal and it wayyy too personal.
2023-11-06T14:41:28+01:00
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“ he said “ we can adapt to each other I can learn to be the guy that you want and you can be the girl that I want” like excuse me? Do I look like a teacher why do I need to train you? If I gotta train you to be the one then you are not the one!!”
2023-11-06T14:31:49+01:00
2023-11-06T14:00:39+01:00
2023-11-06T12:15:59+01:00
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Empaths.
Recently something bad happened to me, I could have avoided it and I tried but trouble seems to always follow me. But one thing that shocked me is the fact that I knew something bad was going to happened and I knew it would shook my world.
Last week end more like on Saturday I had plans with my friends, I was excited at first but later that afternoon I started crying for no reason! The tears really hurt! I would not stop crying! I was in sooooo much pain and I didn’t know where it hurts. After I cried, I knew something bad was going to happened and I prayed that I would recover because once I cried I knew it was done; I could not avoid it.
When my cousin passed away they told me he was missing, I knew he was not missing. I texted him I said when you get home let me know and please tell me you’re okay. He never replied, that’s why I don’t like telling people tell me when you get home because I get really worried when they don’t tell me. I get the memory of myself that night crying on the floor not being able to eat for weeks….
Anyway, I am an empath. I know when something is wrong even when the person doesn’t tell me and I can’t tell them that I know because that would be weird. I don’t like being around drunk people, mad people or loud noises all of those things scare me and overstimulates my brain.
I have been dissociating a lot lately because I cannot bare to face reality, I am scared and I feel lost.
2023-11-04T18:02:46+01:00
2023-11-04T03:52:47+01:00
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Dark and wicked.
My weird obsession with true crimes and the story of Ted Bundy is something that I cannot comprehend! But I love watching the movie extremely wicked, shockingly evil and vile movie on Netflix which is obviously the story of Ted Bundy.
I cannot believe he did all those horrible things but as young women I think we need to learn more about the evil in the world. I used to think everything was all sweet and nice growing up until I came face to face with reality. Knowing about how the mind of an evil person works is something very disturbing but extremely important to know about.
Please watch your surrounding as a woman; pay close attention to people!
Always pray to Jehovah for his protection.
2023-11-03T03:56:08+01:00
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“Life is pretty simple for me all I need is a warm bed, internet, food and my tv.”
2023-11-02T17:05:59+01:00
