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2022-11-13T02:17:37+01:00

signs that you were forced to grow up too quickly.

Publié par Gaelle.R

People who were forced to grow up too quickly have this mentality where they think they have to do it all themselves. I am like this and honestly, it is not a great thing because not being able to let somebody help you makes them feel inadequate so therefore they leave you alone and do not help you anymore. which could result in you feeling isolated and alone. 

we have this thing where it can feel like we are micromanaging everything I mean it can be annoying but it's coming from a place where as a child you had to take care of some things you were not ready for because it was too soon but with time and with the right person you will eventually let go and trust someone enough to let them take over.

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2022-11-11T21:53:48+01:00

Is your cell phone messing up your life?

Publié par Gaelle.R

I use my cellphone for everything and I feel lost without it but it has gotten to a point that if my cellphone was not in my hand while I was out somewhere I would feel like I am stuck because I need to look at my phone as an escape plan even though I don't have any notifications coming in. My cellphone have made my anxiety worse the more time I spend on it the more I feel like I am too dependent on it.

I hate being addicted to anything starting from alcohol, shopping, people, and now my phone. Whenever I feel like I am getting addicted to something I take a step back and not do it for months until I break the habit completely., I have been turning off my phone now and staying away from it and I can testify that I feel a lot better. I feel like my addictive tendency is wearing off and I am slowly becoming more like myself. Not being on my phone allows me to engage with people, to take a look at my surrounding, to look people in the eyes when they're talking to me and honestly I feel more alive. I will be taking more breaks from my phone now because I am trying to break the habit of constantly checking my phone because it doesn't help my mental health at all.

Can you relate?

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2022-11-11T17:09:28+01:00

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black panther is here guys! I am going to watch it alone this week end :) just a little fun date with myself... :)))

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2022-11-11T15:45:43+01:00

winter time.

Publié par Gaelle.R

I have a love and hate relationship with the winter times, I do love being home when it's cold outside snuggle up with my cats and some hot tea while watching my comfort movies but sometimes when it gets dark outside at 5pm I literally don't want to do anything. I am sure a lot of you feel the same, this whole week my brain has been trying to get adjusted to this time. I have been procrastinating a lot lately and I am not being productive because when I get home from work all I want to do is sleep and snuggle up in bed; I have not been cooking as I should or cleaning that much. 

One thing people forget to mention when you are dealing with mental health issues is that you fall behind on a lot of things especially with cleaning because you already feel so drained, unproductive and tired so the last thing you want to do is clean. That doesn't mean you are a dirty or a messy person; you are surviving and you are here so be proud of that. I hate mess so you know what I did? I left work early yesterday while the sun was still out just so I could go home and clean. The way that I was rushing to leave to go home you would think that I had an emergency; I mean I had a cleaning emergency that's what it was !

I do love knowing that the sun is outside even If I am not outside but knowing that it's there makes me feel a lot more productive... does that make sense? I mean it does to me so I guess that's what matters.

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2022-11-10T15:57:57+01:00

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" the best compliment I ever gotten had nothing to do with my physical appearance, someone told me the other day "wow you look really happy lately" and that literally made my day because for so long I didn't smile and now that God is working in me and I feel a lot better and lighter, that compliment literally encouraged me to smile more and to keep going :)))

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2022-11-09T17:29:32+01:00

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" some people only love the attention you give them they don't necessarily love you."

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2022-11-08T16:40:27+01:00

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This morning I woke up at 4am for absolutely no reason and I went on twitter, normally I try not to use my phone during the night especially in the middle of the night because the light will keep me awake. but I was bored and Archie was having the zoomies again maybe he woke me up with all the noise, anyway I checked my twitter and I do plan on quitting because Elon Musk owns it now and it's such a mess over there. But I was reading a thread on Michael Jackson last days and it was quite sad because I am such a big fan but I never look at what happened when he died because the last time I did I was sad for days, I barely look at the last interview he did in 2009 because I knew he wasn't doing so well but I never knew how bad his situation was.

Basically he was supposed to go on tour doing 50 concerts starting July 2009! ask me how someone could do 50 concerts I don't know! I'm young and I can't imagine myself singing and dancing for 2 hours in front of a huge crowd nights after nights! but then again I am not a singer but that sounds like a suicide mission and sadly if he didn't die before the concerts he probably would've died while on stage (this is so sad) he did not need to do all of those concerts. He had nothing to prove he was already king of pop he could've just retired and take care of his kids and his health. He was so frail, he looked sick ! but all that wasn't up to him, his manager made him sing while he was in pain. The dancers could not say anything because they were afraid to lose their job Frank Delio which was MJ manager said "get him a bucket of chicken" how dare he? how cold of a person can you be to watch someone as kind as Michael Jackson suffering but to just dismiss all of that! MJ was always cold and he slept in front of the fire place and he was wearing so many shirts under his jacket plus a sweatpants in the middle of summer and no one didn't think that was suspicious??? MJ was a big star and I know he had money problems but his health was more important than all of that. They gave him Propofol to help him sleep every night and that's a powerful drug that should only be used in the hospital setting before surgery or things like that.... he was sleep deprived and the autopsy showed that he did not sleep for 60 days!!! Gosh I don't know that was even humanly possible !

I am not saying MJ was perfect but he certainly didn't deserved to die the way he did, he was healthy at 50 years old but all of the stress of rehearsal and his team putting pressure on him really made it worse. I wish he was still here, although he would be old but knowing that he is here and that he could still make interviews in his sweet voice is all that we need...

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2022-11-08T11:56:13+01:00

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I believe that true love exist and that one day it will grace my heart, perhaps I’ve already met the person I will experience this with or perhaps not but I hope that whoever it is, I hope that they know I do not take love lightly. I don’t say “ I love you” as a joke but when I say it know that I truly mean it. I am not afraid to say those 3 words I just prefer to say it when I feel it deep in my heart.

 

Some people will tell me that love is not a fairytale and we don’t always live happily ever after that sometimes people break up to never get back together. Sometimes people do break your heart but I dare to believe that there is an enormous lovely whole hearted person out there who is waiting for me to share this magnitude of love with me. I am not perfect sometimes I act dumb, sometimes I say the wrong things and ask the wrong questions but who would I be without my flaws? Who would I be if I didn’t make a fool out of myself ? Who would I be if I didn’t like someone who I didn’t like me back ? Maybe I would’ve been someone totally different. An arrogant person who believes that she will get whatever she could ever wanted but because I had to wait and because I had to suffer I know that love is not something to be taken lightly. I know that love is not just in the books written by writers who wished they had a love like that, I dare to believe that true fiery love does exist and until I find it I will give it to myself.

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2022-11-07T22:15:01+01:00

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" In the end my intentions were pure therefore I didn't lose you but you're the one who lost me."

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