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2022-08-03T15:49:30+02:00

today.

Publié par Gaelle.R

It is not a good day.

But I am trying to remain positive, I was listening to Drive by Miley Cyrus and screaming at the top of my lung while driving to work today, I feel bad for whoever was on the lane next to me because I know I looked crazy but who cares...

this is how I wish my day would go.

  • I wish I was in bed until 11 am with my heating pad, cuddle up with my beautiful cats because they love to cuddle with me when I have the heating pad out.
  • I wish I had breakfast in bed. 
  • have an afternoon on the couch with ice cream while watching my favorite show and a box of tissue next to me because I will mostly likely cry...I even want to cry right now but I am at work.

well one thing for sure if I pass out right  now I will be fine because I am surrounded by doctors and nurses.

Tomorrow will be a better day and I will try again...

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2022-07-29T22:20:10+02:00

ugly love

Publié par Gaelle.R

This is a book review by Colleen Hoover and you must know by now how much I love her! I've read 4 books by her in less than 5 months. I think she is an amazing writer and she inspires me while I am writing my own novel. I love the way she describes her characters it's like they are actual people even though the story is fiction I kind of see myself in those characters. Her stories are not clichés but rather they are all well thought out and well written. 

I specifically love this book because I find myself so much in Miles the main character and also in Tate the main character. I read this book in 2 days at work and I kind of wish I read it at home because I was interrupted multiple times and I really wanted to cry in some parts (let me tell you a secret I did go to the bathroom and cry a little but no one can know about this!) Basically Miles the main character had a tragic past and he fell in love for the first time with a girl name Rachel, they were both 17 or 18 in high school. They met during senior year and she had just moved from phoenix and he was the one who escorted her to class, turns out Miles's dad knows Rachel's mom and they had been in a relationship long distance for a whole year! so the messed-up part was when Miles find out the girl he fell in love is about to become his step-sister! but that didn't stop them from dating, they just kept it a secret. sadly, Rachel got pregnant at 18 and they both had to tell their parents.  The parents were not happy considering they just got married on the same day that their kids chose to tell them that she was pregnant, and Miles was honest with his dad and told him it was his... 

eventually, they moved out after graduation and they got an apartment together while Miles was in school to become a pilot but one night Rachel's water broke and Miles took her to the hospital to have the baby. Everything went well and they had a baby Boy named Clayton the same name as the high school teacher Miles was bringing Rachel to the first time they met! How cute!! but on the way home, they got into an accident and the car ended up in a lake. Rachel was stuck in her seat with her seatbelt and Miles was trying to get her out before the water completely got in the whole car but he couldn't save both Rachel and the baby at once; he tried saving the baby but he couldn't find him so he got Rachel out instead... every day after that night became too painful to live through until eventually, Rachel went back To Phoenix leaving Miles heartbroken and in pain.

6 years later...

Miles is now a pilot and he lives across From Cobin Tate's brother. He got to meet Tate one night while he was passed out drunk in front of Cobin's apartment. Tate let him in after Cobin told her it was fine, cobin was a very overprotective brother! and the only reason he was fine with Miles being alone with his sister Tate is that he thought Miles was gay! simply because Miles never mention a woman in the time that cobin knew him. Turns out Miles never try to be with anyone after Rachel so he remained closed off to love and anything that could potentially make him feel something. But when he met Tate all of that changed, he began lying to himself that he could never love anyone again and Tate begin to fall for him more each day even if he begged her not to love him. He came saying that he couldn't give her anything more than physical but she stayed hoping he would change (Gosh I feel bad for Tate!)  

eventually, Miles came to the realization that he has to meet with Rachel again to see if she was okay in order for him to move on from the past. He was carrying the pain of losing his child and he was worried that he had hurt Rachel because she blamed him for the loss of their child. when he finally meets her and he started to realize that he had to let go of the past since Rachel is married now and she also has a daughter. Miles went back to Tate and he told her about his past, he let himself fall in love with her. They got married and they are now expecting their first child!

 

That book made me cry...

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2022-07-27T21:02:39+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R

sometimes I wonder...am I the only one who's faking it? Am I the only pretending that I am not scared of the future? or pretending to know exactly what I am doing when I am so lost I don't even know what to do?

As an adult I can say that life is certainly not what I was expecting when I was younger, needless to say I am very grateful for everything that I have and I am even more grateful that I still have my parents. some days I literally just want to curl up in my bed and cry but I can't because adults cannot just casually stay home otherwise we would starve with the inflation going on and don't let me get started on the gas prices. Now I literally just want to work from home because I hate going out every single day making various trips to the gas station...

I just feel like being an adult is getting harder and that makes it depressing. I used to crave being able to go out with my friends whenever I want to but now I barely have friends and the little friends that I have are also working. To be honest I am just happy to be home on my days off sipping red wine with my record player on as I read a great book. I love spending quality time with my beautiful cats and slowly I am realizing how much of an old lady I am becoming but that really doesn't bother me. I love the stillness of things, the quiet mystery in the air excites me. I don't like loud parties and loud people because they make me feel uncomfortable and 10 times more awkward. 

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2022-07-25T20:26:23+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R

" If I care about you don't jeopardize my love and kindness because once I stop caring you are dead to me."

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2022-07-25T16:08:52+02:00

my frustrations.

Publié par Gaelle.R

hey you guys,

I have a lot on my mind and usually writing is the best way for me to express my thoughts. There are a lot of things going through my mind but one of them is how I cannot stand people in society who makes an introvert feel like there is something wrong with them or that they are not normal. Not everyone has to love going out, going out to parties and it should be perfectly fine for some people to want to be home with a great movie or a great book. Wanting to spend life peacefully away from all the commotion should be normalize, as an introvert I don't judge extroverts for wanting attention and being around people all the time, I just simply accept them so why can't I be accepted? why must I feel like I don't belong if I would prefer to be home with only a few close friends than at a large gathering?

Throughout my life all I've heard was " speak up" "why you're so quiet" " why don't you hang out with us" blah blah... all of that has only made it harder for me to fully be myself because people have already put me in a box and when I step out of it and become loud they asking why I am trying to be someone that I am not?! I am not always quiet and I am not always loud but I can be both if I want to. 

I guess that's how I feel.

 

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2022-07-25T15:59:21+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R

" Le pire des choses c'est que je sais que je ne compte pas vraiment pour toi et que t'es juste entrain de m'utiliser."

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2022-07-24T16:54:09+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R

" Marry someone who feeds your soul, who keeps the romance alive and most importantly someone who treats you like royalty."

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