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2024-01-09T02:12:03+01:00
2024-01-09T01:56:52+01:00
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“ why do I have to apologize for being myself? Why do I have to make myself smaller to fit into your world? Why must I comply to be the ideal woman you have in mind? Why do I have to be put in box? Would you take time to listen to me to find out how my mind works? Why do you want to control me? Why do you pretend to care about me only to have an excuse to get what you want? Why can’t I simply be with all that I am for you to love me? Why must I be more than I already am to receive a spec of love from you?.”
2024-01-08T19:04:55+01:00
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Things that melt my heart
- Men who have cats! I’ve seen them all over my timeline showing their love for their cats and it’s the cutest thing, to see a beautiful man with a kitty ;) it’s like marry me?
- When he asks about my cats. Gosh! If you want me to fall in love, ask me about them! And better yet if you want me obsess with you get them toys! Or if you wanna marry me buy them food or ask me what kind of food they like so you can get it for them! Like this is husband material stuff. I will know he is the one just by doing this and a few of other things.
- Start a text with “I know you’re sleeping but …” followed by the sweetest thing! Like “you’re the most amazing girl I have met, and I love you so much …” omg I will wake up and check my messages only to see this! Gosh I would start screaming and possibly cry but tears of joy of course.
- Ask to watch a football game with me! Omg!!!!! Like what!?? Like for one of our dates we could get wine and takeouts to watch a psg game together! I would not be able to contain myself!!! (By the way this is my list but I’m down to do whatever he likes of course, if he's passionate about it like I am about football)
- getting me a present related to football! Literally in America football stuff or soccer stuff are so expensive! If gets me an Mbappe Jersey or a psg sticker or a psg puzzle (parc des princes puzzle) omg
- Knows the sidewalk rule! If we’re walking together on the street and he knows not to let me walk outside of the sidewalk that’s a bonus
- Knows how to keep eye contact and not look away. That’s such a turn on and so beautiful.
Honestly doing these things will not make me love you but it could make me love you more.
2024-01-08T16:26:27+01:00
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" They are asking where I've been or what am I doing? but I am always there perhaps my mind wonders; perhaps I wish I wasn't there, but I am here.
2024-01-08T13:46:13+01:00
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My blog.
This year, my blog will change because I figured why not show how much I have grown? You all have watched me grow from a teenager in high school into my adulthood. When I first started this blog, I was either 15 or 16 years old and my English was not so great but I wanted to write. I had this burning desire in me ever since I was a child to write my thoughts down and to always write things that I was feeling inside without disclosing the true nature of those feelings (my poetry) but somehow, I stopped sharing my best work here because I was ashamed of my thoughts! I am not a kid anymore! I am 27 years old and that has to count to for something.
I want to leave this blog for my kid...
In 2024 my blog will display all of my dark thoughts, some will be frightening, some will be jarring, and some will make you think whether or not I need a mental evaluation but it’s an art. I am okay. I want to share all of my thoughts here now because this blog is my legacy. Trigger warning, this blog will talk about (toxic relationships, mental and physical abuse, and a lot of other things that you may not expect) I am proud of the woman that I have become so why hide it? There are so many layers to me, and my writing will show that now. I am growing and maturing so everything will not be lighthearted fun anymore, it will get serious. I am here to warn you before you start reading and feel out of place here, this is the reason…
Let’s have a great year ;)
2024-01-08T04:00:14+01:00
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“Your best writing are the ones you never share with the world, they are daring, jarring, scary and beautiful. That my dear is art “
2024-01-08T03:56:47+01:00
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“ used to drown my pain in alcohol, pills or anything that would take the pain away only to realize I was the one inflicting the pain”
2024-01-08T03:54:28+01:00
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He would take off my clothes but not take my love, he would call me at midnight when he’s hot and bothered but not call at 8pm when I’m crying on the couch feeling lonely. He would grab my ass when we hug but never hold me gently without making me feel like he wants something from me. He would invite me over but never take me out on a date for everyone to see. He would Dm me but never take my number because he never planed to be serious. He would look at me as if I was the one he loved to only block my number and spread rumors about me. He would say I’m the only one just to end the call to call her. He would call me sweet names only to scream at me afterwards. He would ask me what positions I like but never if I prayed today. He would say what he would do to me but never how he loved me . He would pretend to like me only to get something from me… so don’t ask why I have trust issues. Every men want something it don’t mean I want the same thing.
2024-01-08T02:55:41+01:00
2024-01-08T02:50:32+01:00
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“ take me as I am, I was made for the love of my life if you can’t accept me then that just means you’re not the one. He will love my quirks, my hair, my smile, my love for animals, my weird way of explaining things and everything about me. I don’t have to change for you, I was created and God is never wrong about anything he’s ever made. He created a masterpiece.”