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2026-02-13T16:48:34+01:00

what makes a good friend?

Publié par Gaelle.R 13 Février 2026 à 04:48 PM

I have many friends and I lost almost all of them at some point, I have had moments where I was depressed because I had no friends or anyone to talk to. Now I am used to everyone leaving me, it's sad but I expect everyone to leave. The moment they get too close to me, I know they about to leave and I find myself crying while the relationship is still good because I can already tell how much pain I will feel when they leave.

For me a good friend is not someone who talks to me daily, call me or text me everyday or someone who hangs out with me often... no those people always leave. It's someone who STAYS with me when times get rough, someone who holds me while I cry, hold my hand when I am having a panic attack, someone who cries with me. Laughing with people is easy, and staying when the time is good is super easy but will you STAY when it's bad? they always leave me when I have a problem and it's always around the time I am having a depressive episode. When I am happy I have lots of friends but when I get quiet and isolate because I am not doing good mentally no one cares...they just assume I don't want to be their friend anymore but it's the time I secretly hope they would break down my barrier and get inside my misery zone with me and hold me... but that's too much to ask so I let the connection die. The only person who ever stayed with me was my best friend from College Jennifer. If only she knew how much that friendship meant to me...

Most people leave, all that matters to me is who refuses to leave even when I have nothing to give. That's why I love my cats they never leave, they're the only constant relationship I have in my life besides the relationship I have with my mom. Sometimes I don't want to talk, I just want someone to be there.

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2026-02-12T22:26:54+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Février 2026 à 10:26 PM

" When I am next to you, I want to feel myself being accompanied by a man. I would want you to lead me, to take charge, teach me, guide me but also let me express myself without judgments. I can't be with a man who doesn't know what he's doing. Believe it or not, I know exactly what I want. I observe before I let anyone know my strength, I do play dumb to see just how much you know. I love being underestimated."

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2026-02-12T16:41:28+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Février 2026 à 04:41 PM

update.

There's not much to talk about except my period decided to show up yesterday unexpectedly after my leg day. I was really annoyed, I was soooo exhausted that I took a 4 hours nap and I am still exhausted today... during my period I am always tired. It was so hard waking up this morning, last night I slept like a baby! I love sleeping but I hate feeling sleepy during the day especially when I know I slept enough.

I finished a book on monday and started a new one already, I am reading the powerless series and I am obssesed!

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2026-02-10T01:43:14+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 10 Février 2026 à 01:43 AM

2 of my favorite movies that I didn’t mention are how to train your dragon and tangled!

how to train your dragon #1 has my heart! The last one broke my heart but the Christmas special episodes mend it! Seeing toothless with his family and his little ones made me so happy!

Toothless and light fury look adorable I mean look at them!

Toothless looks and acts sooo much like a cat and not so much like a dragon! That’s why I love him so much he’s sooo adorable!

Ugh seeing his little face and hearing him purr makes me so happy! But don’t get it twisted he is very powerful and dangerous probably the most dangerous dragons in the movie!

the other movie that I love so much is tangled!

Sure you could say it’s another princess locked in a tower waiting to be rescued! Except she grabbed the chance by its throat and beat it with a pan lol I mean literally

She made him take her to see the flying lanterns and he could not refused. The whole movie is funny! Witty I mean the horse stole the show!

Maximus the horse will always have my heart! I love him so much!

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2026-02-09T19:34:45+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Février 2026 à 07:34 PM

quote from the book I am reading "

I ponder this. “Is it easier for you? If I do not struggle?”

“Infinitely.”

“Then it is decided.” My gaze lifts to the stars above. “I will go gently. For you.”

When my eyes finally fall back on Death, I almost don’t believe what I’m seeing.

She is smiling.

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2026-02-09T16:25:57+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Février 2026 à 04:25 PM

letter to anyone who feels like they have to change to get what they want:

Dear reader,

You are wonderfully made, anyone would be lucky to have you by their side but sadly you weren't made fore everyone and that's okay. Don't make yourself small in order to be liked, don't hide who you are for anyone's approval. Be yourself no matter where you are, stand in your truth and embrace your flaws because all of those things make you who you are. Never shrink yourself to be more digestible, respectfully let them choke, the right people will find you. If you love something, love it proudly. You are allowed to love, you are allowed to feel, you are allowed to have what you want. Be unapologetic about your existence, never apologize for existing. God created you and he knew someone like you needed to be alive. Be gentle, be kind and be sympathetic towards others.

Sincerely,

your favorite writer :)

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2026-02-09T16:22:34+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Février 2026 à 04:22 PM

The bad bunny halftime performance was amazing last night! I rewatched it 3 times already today! it was that good. I don't care about the American Football the only football I know is what's also known as soccer. I love bad Bunny, I think he's soooo cute! he looks shy, introverted but he knows how to party and his voice is beautiful and powerful.

It was Benito bowl night.

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2026-02-08T21:49:06+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Février 2026 à 09:49 PM

To alter my body shape I do a lot of things among training 6 days a week and 1.30hr to 2 hours daily; I eat the same meals and eat the same breakfast for months!

Boring yeah I know. I eat beef and rice, ground beef macaroni, chicken breast, eggs, cheese, potatoes… I wasn’t blessed with a booty. I was born slim, I had to build my butt from scratch. By training and eating meals loaded with proteins. I am proud of myself and for all the progress that I have made. I don’t compare myself to anybody else because some women were born with a big booty and some worked for it. I worked hard for mine, I built my legs, my curves and my butt. I am proud of myself.

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2026-02-08T16:54:50+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Février 2026 à 04:54 PM

My top 10 Favorite movies

Flipped
Focus
Roman’s holiday
Pride and prejudice (2005)
Breakfast at Tiffany
A walk to remember
The notebook
Love Rosie
The great gatsby
When Harry met sally

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2026-02-06T16:07:44+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 6 Février 2026 à 04:07 PM

how to make reading more fun:

the reality is I am no longer a bookworm! my attention span sucks because of my phone. But I can get back to my roots because I have been reading longer than I have been scrolling on social media. In 2014 I read around 100 books! I can get back to my roots, it might take me a while before I get back to where I was but I am willing to try. when I read a book my brain is more productive and when I scroll on social media I feel sluggish and unproductive.

here are few things I am going to try to make my reading sessions more fun:

read 10 pages a day (start slow) I will use bookmarks to mark the ten pages and that will be on my to do list for the day.
have a comfort blanket, when I am reading.
have my favorite tea which are chamomile, peppermint and ginger tea.
I need quiet and a warm area to read...
repeat all of these to get my brain used to the reptation
pick books that I am genuinely interested it. I love romance so I can read those (appropriate ones) I recommend books by Lauren Roberts she writes romantic books without all the sex stuff. The men are gentle, respectful and dedicated to their love interest. right now I am reading fearful in the series.

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