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“ I love you.
No I hate you.
Stay with me.
No leave me alone.
Touch me.
No stop.
I want to hate you.
but I can’t. “
2026-01-26T01:55:07+01:00
2026-01-25T20:59:21+01:00
simple wedding
If I get married that would be a shock to me but I wouldn't mind it if it's with the love of my life. If it does happens I want the simplest wedding ever, there will be less than 10 people from my side am not sure about his but only close friends and immediate family will be invited. There won't be more than 40 people I know that for sure. It will small and intimate. No one will be allowed to take my picture only my hired photographer will take my picture. No phones will be allowed in because I don't want anyone taking my picture or posting about my wedding. Let me post the pictures, let me announce it.
There won't be a 6 feet cake with a bride and groom on top of it...I hate it. There will be a cute cake for me to cut with my husband, there won't be a rehearsal dinner or party either. The reception would be outside in a beautiful garden, I would love to get married in summer or spring. I want the garden to be lighted up with lights and lighted lanterns. I do want a veil and a white dress, maybe it's the virgin in me but I love that lol. The dj will only play slow ballads and vintage love songs, nothing over the top just slow songs...I'll try to get my husband on board. There will be lots of champagne and there have to be a chocolate fountain! Call me boring but I want my wedding to be emotional and happy all the same time. I want to cry tears of joy and I want to be happy to be there. I don't like parties but my wedding has to be something I genuinely enjoy...I will compromise of course to make my husband happy but for now this is what I want. I want my husband to twirl me around on the dance floor... there will be some compas too.
Honestly if it just be me and him plus my mom and his parents I would be glad. I hate having a big crowd and half the people there wouldn't even care about my wedding all they would care about would just be the food. Our union is sacred and it would mean a lot to me. I don't want anyone with bad intentions interfering with my marriage. If I invite someone to my wedding just know I love them a lot and I trust them otherwise nah.
2026-01-25T15:19:38+01:00
official leaver
I think one thing people would be surprised to know is how strict I am. I don't play about my wellbeing, my love, my friendship and my feelings. If I don't take those seriously who will? a complete stranger? a friend who only checks in once a bleu moon? a family member who has 10 different thing to handle in day? I am accountable for my actions, my decisions and anything that concerns me.
I don't stick around when love has left, I don't insist on keeping a connection when it's long gone. I don't force anything, if you think I am not the best person for you then please go find the person that suits you best. If you don't want me in your life I won't fight to stay. I understand everyone has something they're battling with and if they want me to stay away I will. But if they open the door and allow me to be there for them, then I will be there until the end.
I don't force connections, I don't force people to love me, I don't force friendships...I'll simply leave. I am a leaver. If we're not compatible I won't waste your time, I'll let you go immediately by week 2 of talking to you I already know where we stand and what I can give you. I don't drag people along because I know that will keep their hopes alive and when I decide this man is not for me, he will never be... no matter how long he waits for me. when I decide to stay by your side it's because I want to stay because I can leave anytime I want it doesn't matter if I love you or not. Love has nothing to do with anything, I've learn how to control my emotions at a very young age. I am able to walk away from anything, no matter how bad my heart is breaking I know pain is not forever and one day I'll get over it, I always do.
2026-01-23T18:54:34+01:00
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I am an old soul:
I love vintage clothing, 80's music, 1950's films, vinyl records, Sade, Michael Jackson, love letters, photographs, landline...
Old school love where he respects my boundaries, stares deeply into my eyes, hold my hands, dance in the rain with me, hold me till I fall asleep, brush my hair or massage my scalp because a brush is not going to go through my hair easily, speaks to me softly, feed each other...oh wait this is not about my love fantaisies; ok what was this about? oh yeah I'm basically an old lady born in the 1950's
2026-01-23T15:37:16+01:00
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do you know what I really want?
I want to rent a cabin in the woods with internet connection just in case I need it (because I'll be alone and I want to be able to call for help if something bad happens) but the plan is to shut off all devices. I will have my cats there of course, no music, no tv, just quiet. I need just my pen and notebook, my laptop with just a blank page for me to write.
I need complete silence for once in my life...and I need to find peace in order to feel motivated right now, actually no I am motivated for the gym but I need to feel inspired to write a banger. I want nothing but to have so many thoughts rushing through my brain and I am trying to write all of them down because I feel so inspired. when I was a teenager I used to stay up all nigh writing! stories, poems ...anything now I can't even do 1 hour uninterrupted. I have been praying Jehovah for more inspiration... my attention span sucks at the moment. I blame TikTok, Instagram...I will delete all my socials again but not now and this time I'll never be back. I'll delete them when I am 100% ready like I did in 2019 but except after that I won't be back.
2026-01-22T16:23:20+01:00
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Drinking wine before bed usually worsens sleep quality, even if it helps you fall asleep faster. Here’s what actually happens:
🍷 How Wine Affects Sleep
1. Faster sleep onset (short-term)
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Alcohol has a sedative effect, so you may feel sleepy quickly.
2. Disrupted sleep cycles (major downside)
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Alcohol suppresses REM sleep (deep, restorative dreaming sleep).
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Later in the night, REM rebounds → lighter, more fragmented sleep.
3. More nighttime awakenings
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As alcohol is metabolized, it acts like a stimulant.
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Increases chances of waking up at 3–5 a.m.
4. Reduced deep sleep
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Less slow-wave sleep → you wake up unrefreshed, even after many hours.
5. Dehydration & snoring
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Alcohol is a diuretic → dehydration → dry mouth, headaches.
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Relaxes throat muscles → snoring & sleep apnea worsen.
😴 What This Feels Like the Next Day
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Grogginess or “brain fog”
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Lower energy and focus
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Poor mood
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Increased cravings (especially sugar/carbs)
⚠️ Even Small Amounts Matter
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1 glass of wine within 3 hours of bedtime can:
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Reduce REM sleep by ~10–15%
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Increase sleep fragmentation
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✅ If You Still Want Wine
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Have it at least 3–4 hours before bed
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Drink water alongside it
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Limit to 1 glass
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Avoid alcohol if you already struggle with insomnia or anxiety
🌙 Better Nighttime Alternatives
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Herbal tea (chamomile, lemon balm)
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Warm milk or plant milk
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Magnesium-rich foods (banana, oats, pumpkin seeds)
2026-01-21T15:05:42+01:00
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today's juice
🥬 Spinach (Skin Repair & Glow)
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Vitamin A → supports skin cell renewal and helps prevent acne
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Vitamin C → boosts collagen production (firmer skin)
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Iron & folate → improve oxygen delivery → healthy glow
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Antioxidants → protect against premature aging
🌿 Celery (Hydration & Inflammation Control)
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High water content → deeply hydrates skin
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Silica & potassium → support skin elasticity
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Anti-inflammatory compounds → help calm redness, acne, and eczema
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Helps flush toxins that can trigger breakouts
🍏 Green Apple (Clear & Even Skin)
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Vitamin C & polyphenols → brighten skin and fight free radicals
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Pectin (fiber) → supports gut health → clearer skin
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Helps balance oil production and reduce dullness
🌟 Skin Benefits When Combined
Together, they:
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Promote a natural glow
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Support collagen & elasticity
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Reduce acne, dullness, and inflammation
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Help slow fine lines & premature aging
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Improve skin hydration from within
2026-01-20T21:45:19+01:00
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why I want to date someone who works out:
- because discipline is extremely attractive to me, to know that you don't play about your gym time, your sport, you running time or however ways you keep yourself active is a turn on for me. I love a man who has his priorities straight and being fit is not only impressive but the work that you put in shows me how dedicated you are when you want to reach a goal.
- it shows me that you have self control, I want a man who can control himself in all things. In his spending, in his eating, can he control his anger? will he lash out at me or screams at me? yes having self control shows me you can somewhat control your emotions and that to me is extremely important. If I say no I don't want to do it tonight can you control yourself and leave me alone? knowing that you said no to eating cake, fast foods and soda shows me that you know what you want and you won't let any outside distraction keep you away from acheiving your goals.
- patience. When you work out for a long time it shows me that you're not after immediate gratification it shows me that you're willing to wait to finally be able to have what you want. You don't rush the process, you have patience and you show character when you wait to get what you want.
- your hard work. Working out day in and day out is not for the weak! it takes mental strength as well as physical strength to keep going even if you're sad, tired or not up for it but you still show up! it shows me that you will show up for our relationship and you will fight for us.
- I also like licking abs and muscles so that's a bonus.
2026-01-20T16:35:30+01:00
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🧘♀️ Clear-Skin Juice (calming & anti-acne)
Best if you get breakouts or redness.
Ingredients
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2–3 celery stalks
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½ cucumber
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½ green apple (optional)
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½ inch ginger
Why it works
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Low sugar
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Reduces inflammation
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Helps oil balance
✨ Glow / Brightening Juice
Best for dull skin, uneven tone.
Ingredients
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1 carrot
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½ orange
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½ cucumber
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Small lemon squeeze
Why it works
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Vitamin C + beta-carotene
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Supports collagen
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Brightens without sugar overload
🌱 Gut-Friendly Skin Juice
Best if digestion affects your skin.
Ingredients
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2 celery stalks
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½ beet
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½ cucumber
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½ inch ginger
Why it works
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Supports digestion
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Reduces internal inflammation
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Indirectly improves skin clarity
How to drink for best skin results
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Drink with or after food
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Once per day max on juice days
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Don’t stress about “detox” — your liver already does that 😉
What to expect
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No purge
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Gradual glow in 1–3 weeks
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More consistent skin tone
2026-01-20T01:27:35+01:00
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This or that?
Messi or Ronaldo ?
Ronaldo always! suiiiiii lol.
Tall or short?
Tall lol I like tall men but I love short hair.
Real Madrid or Barcelona?
Real madrid always it will always be hala Madrid for me. I can’t stand Barcelona
Paris or Italy?
Paris especially with my man. But I will never pass on Italy
Running or walking?
Walking because it’s easier but running because it’s challenging and I love a challenge. So both lol
Foreplay or lovemaking?
Foreplay because I assume it’s way more fun and stimulating lol
Money or love?
Uhm my heart wants love but naturally I want money lol
Beer or wine?
Wine always
Chocolate or vanilla ?
Vanilla
Early bird or night owl ?
Early bird. I’m usually in bed by 8:45pm
Hot mess or clean freak ?
Clean freak
Bright color or neutrals ?
Neutrals