No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2026-07-19T00:37:37+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 19 Juillet 2026 à 12:37 AM

The love I have for myself has kept me away from a lot of bad situation. There’s a lot of problems I don’t have and I am very fortunate. I never say “it can never be me” because it could in fact be you! Except having 4 babies by 4 different men at that point that’s a choice… but I love myself so much that low minimum efforts don’t sway me in any way.

The man who will be mine will have to work hard to get me and to keep me. I am very ocd I like what I like and if I don’t like what you’re offering then I’m gone. I need a lot of things, I need princess treatment. A lot of men can currently give that to me but I don’t have feelings for them at all. I won’t pretend to love someone to use them, even if they could potentially help me I will let them be. I hate men who want to use me, give me bare minimum, don’t check in call or text me at all or for weeks and then come into my life wanting to get all of my attention. At that point leave me alone. I need you to call me daily, tell me I’m beautiful, take nice pictures of me, pick out my outfits (the choices that I give you), hold my hand, hold the doors for me… those are actually bare minimum! One of my love languages is deep and meaningful conversations. I love that, you have to be able to stimulate my mind in different languages. We need to talk all the time about any and everything. I hate phone calls but for the man I love he has all my attention.

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2026-07-18T01:35:18+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 18 Juillet 2026 à 01:35 AM

After every assembly I always get a headache :(

What happens there?

I always want to run and go home! I’ve cried in my car twice (on 2 different occasions) because I felt so alone there. My anxiety is through the roof.

Then by the end of the day I’m always glad that I went or that I stayed lol

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2026-07-18T00:19:20+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 18 Juillet 2026 à 12:19 AM

It’s convention, not my favorite only because I don’t like the crowd and I normally feel so alone. Everyone is with their families, friends and I’m just alone. I don’t like the crowd at all. I love being home with my books or with very few people. I’m not shy or anything well maybe a little, I just feel more comfortable in environment with less people. Well I’m looking forward to going to block island soon with my friends!!

At work someone told me that they want to be like me! Laughing all the time and being happy and positive! If only they knew how many problems I have. With the help of Jehovah I am able to remain calm and happy as much I can be. I miss my mom I wish she was with me to go to meetings and assembly so that I wouldn’t be alone. I cried at assembly today well I shed a tear lol while the video about resurrection was playing I kept thinking about my dad and how I would love to see him again. He was always happy, he never let any situation get to him! I am starting to be like him now! I am not depressed at all actually I haven’t been depressed in years. Yes I have bad days especially the days leading up to my period but aside from that I am a happy go lucky girl.

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2026-07-16T23:09:58+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 16 Juillet 2026 à 11:09 PM

France getting eliminated was hard for me to take in because it was entirely their own fault. I agree with Cherki they lost against themselves nobody could beat them from the way they were playing in the beginning. When I was watching the match I remember thinking “what’s going on? Are they tired? Why are they giving up? Who are these people because those are not my boys ! “ they didn’t even try! They didn’t fight! Every single player was bad! Lucas digne gifted Spain a penalty! Which was crazy like dude look who’s behind you! It was lamine ! And you know he’s a big deal.

I was sad. Yeah I know it’s just a game but seeing France winning made me truly happy. For the very few people who made fun of me and my pain there’s a special place for you and it’s not in heaven or in paradise. People who laughed at me when I was clearly sad told me all I needed to know about them. They’re happy when I’m sad, they don’t care about me at all. Who cares if it’s just a game just have some human decency and some empathy even if you don’t like France because you know I love that team so just be nice. I hate when people are being assholes just because they can. Anyway I am fine now and I am able to watch the interviews after the match. Seeing Michael olise cry made me cry, seeing Mbappe bottling everything in because he never cries in public when I know he worked so hard for this made me sad. Yes these players make millions of dollars but I can’t deny that they don’t make me happy. I won’t dwell on the loss and I didn’t, but in the moment I was truly sad. I didn’t even eat dinner, I went to bed at 7:30pm. Nothing was going right that day… my heart was partially broken.

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2026-07-15T01:18:02+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 15 Juillet 2026 à 01:18 AM

France match was horrible I’ve never seen them played this bad. The penalty awarded to Spain was a gift and now they will try to win third place on Saturday. Ugh.

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2026-07-14T23:51:41+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 14 Juillet 2026 à 11:51 PM

My summer is going really bad. France got eliminated and love island USA was shit. I feel sooo sad right now. I wanna cry. I feel so bad for France they’ve worked so hard they derseved to be in the final but today’s match was bad. They were having a bad day at a crucial time. It’s ok I love still love Mbappé and I know he will come back from this. He never cries in public, that’s what I love about him. I hope he has a good support system surrounding him and that he stays off social media for now. I love him and Haaland both of my babies went home.

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2026-07-13T00:57:57+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 13 Juillet 2026 à 12:57 AM

Everyone is falling in love and discovering Haaland now but I’ve been a huge fan of him since 2023! He won the champions league with Manchester city that year and ever since then I’ve been a city fan. He also played with Jude Bellingham the years prior at Dortmund but I wasn’t keeping up with football then. I started really keeping up after the 2022 World Cup and saw how mbappe played ! He truly made me fall in love once again.

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2026-07-12T18:36:55+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Juillet 2026 à 06:36 PM

I do believe the way you raise a child will shape how they act and who they will be in the future. If you don’t instill good hygiene, good social interaction skills, to be polite, to be kind, to help others, to draw close to Jehovah always, to say the truth no matter what, to take care of animals, to be gentle, to express themselves with their words and not with their fists, to help them understand who they are and to help them be proud of who they are then how are they going to learn all these things when they reach adulthood?

My mother did an amazing job! I will take all the parenting she did with me to my future kids. She always reminded me of where I came from and a proudly way that I am not ashamed of being Haitian or of the town I grew up in. When I did something wrong she didn’t yell at me in public, she took me home and disciplined me either by talking to me in a way that reached me to my core and other times she did use a belt but that was very rare. My mom didn’t have to beat me to get her point across, she had a way of talking to me that I even felt bad and apologized for my wrong doing. She didn’t put me down or call me names, she reminded me of my morals and she told me if I didn’t do better how I will end up! That scared me and I did my best to make her proud.

She’s a very hard worker, seeing her work so hard just so she could pay for my school, for my tutor because I was soo bad at math! She used to pay for someone to do my hair and nails weekly! She’s always upgrading my wardrobe… she spoiled me rotting! But there are things I only get if I had good grades in school. She was the best mom a girl could have. She bought me all the clothes I wanted, all the lipglosses, perfume a girl could ever want! She raised me like a rich woman but she was rich in knowledge and in kindness. I was her princess, she raised me to always take care of myself and my outer appearance because that’s the first thing people see. She’s a strong and phenomenal woman, I’ll be lucky if I become half of the woman she is. She’s literally the love of my life. She was the most beautiful woman in my life when I was little i used to sit and watched her in awe when she would get dressed and do her maker up! She’s amazing, I trust her 100%. Anyone who doesn’t like her which never happens because she’s so kind, I automatically don’t like them either.

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2026-07-11T18:34:01+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Juillet 2026 à 06:34 PM

“Slow kiss

Break for :

Eye contact

Hands all over me

Whispers of love

Breaths intertwined.”

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2026-07-11T17:23:41+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Juillet 2026 à 05:23 PM

Despite having my own personal bubble there’s still someone out there who has problems with me for simply existing and I couldn’t care less . All I do is read, work out, eat and sleep. I created this bubble because I’m scared of the future. I don’t want to be faced with all the bad things in the world. I just want to be safe in my bubble. I keep things comfortable for myself, keep calm, have a consistent routine, avoid love because I don’t think I’ll ever find my soulmate. Staying home because going out means more trouble than I can bear. People suck… life is unpredictable, I just want to be in my bubble and there’s no one there. I’m all alone.

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