No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2026-07-01T17:47:27+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Juillet 2026 à 05:47 PM

France is a really good team, and I have to admit I don't see many teams beating them that easily. I wanted portugal to be in the final with France but I don't see it. The way portugal is playing they get knocked out soon if they don't tightening up, and they need to pass the ball to Ronaldo more often. I get it Ronaldo is old but he can still score and he's very fit!

France attack is solid! and their defense is phenomenal. It's one of the best teams playing in the worldcup along with Argentina. I would hate to see another Argentina vs france in the final final because I am traumatized from last time...I don't want it. I would take spain vs france in the final actually.

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2026-07-01T17:44:19+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Juillet 2026 à 05:44 PM

I am finally being released from the shackles of the luteal phase, I have my period. Thank God because I was about to jump off a bridge Friday night (it's a joke please don't call for a welfare check on me) that's what I mean when I say my sense of humor is dark. I am fine now, although I have a lot of cramps. I can't wait to go home and get in bed to sleep the whole afternoon. My period was actually 4 days late but she's here so whatever...

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2026-06-28T13:28:02+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 28 Juin 2026 à 01:28 PM

One thing about me, I never beg for attention whether it’s with friends or my romantic interest. If you come to me and you’re flirting with me I’ll make it known that I want you but I won’t be calling your phone, texting you or even go out of my way to find you. You’re a man YOU come andfind me. As soon as I let you know I’m feeling you after you come to me, that’s it you won’t get nothing else from me.

In friendships I will make plans with you if the first 2 plans I initiate you don’t follow through, I won’t make anymore. If I call your phone and you don’t pick up on the fourth ring I’m hanging up. I don’t like chasing, you either want to be my friend or you don’t. I’m fine alone, I would like a companion but if don’t find one I’m fine with that. I already have plans for myself alone.

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2026-06-28T03:15:29+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 28 Juin 2026 à 03:15 AM

From my last post I invited you in to my psyche. Some people think that I am always strong or that I am always on top but no one is. Perhaps they don’t think of me that way but no one never really check in on me, and to genuinely want to know how I am really doing. Asking me “how are you?” In passing doesn’t mean anything I will always tell you that I am doing good. Have you ever been in a situation where you casually ask someone “hey how are you doing” and they start telling you how they’re really doing and it’s not great… but you didn’t care to know, that’s embarrassing. My biggest fear is telling someone who doesn’t care about my problems. I can read body language very well because I am an empath, I can see when your energy shift and I know that this conversation is not really what you want. Your eyes, your body position are all signaling to me “Gaelle I really don’t care” and in that moment I take it and I stop talking. I will never tell you about my problems again. The only person I genuinely feel safe to talk about anything with even my love life is my mother. She gives me the best advice. You would think because she’s my mother she would be biased but nope! She tells me when I’m wrong and what I need to work on, she tells me when I need to walk away, when I need to find someone else, or when I need to stop running. She’s a really beautiful person inside and out after all I look like her!. I miss her sooo much, I love her more than myself. She’s my whole world, I cannot spend a day without talking to my mother. Without her I’m not breathing. I pray to God that she never leaves me because I would die.

Mentally today I feel so defeated. I will just take it easy on myself and pray. I know my pms is really bad. It’s always been bad. I didn’t know my hormones was one of the driving force of my depression but once my old psychiatrist figured it out, I realized that all along right before my period I almost always wanted to die or felt terrible about myself. Knowing that this is what’s happening helps me to track my cycle and prepare for when it happens. During that time I normally watch movies or shows that I like, read, sleep, cook my favorite meals, stay hydrated and modify my workouts because my energy is normally low. I don’t beat myself up about it, I know what’s going on. The sun will shine again after the storm. This too shall pass.

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2026-06-27T23:35:25+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Juin 2026 à 11:35 PM

I am going through the luteal phase hard today! When I woke up I was in a good mood. Yes it took me some time to get out of bed but I didn’t have low energy. I woke up, went to the gym and had a great work out.

After the workout I was fine, I was listening to music and singing but by late morning I started feeling exhausted with life in general. With the drop in estrogen, I tend to feel really sad and have a lot of negative thoughts. I know it’s my hormone that’s making me feel this way and once my period starts I’ll be fine but I’m just soooo sad right now. There’s nothing specific that makes me sad, it’s everything. I feel like I’m not pretty enough, I feel fat, I’m bloated and tired, I feel soooo alone, I just want to stay home and see no one, I feel so unwanted, so disgusting like who would want to be around me, like I don’t look like I workout. I don’t feel this way all the time, it’s very rare that I feel that way unless I’m about to get my period but oh man PMS sucks. I hate being a girl because of that. I don’t feel like reading I just want to stay in bed and watch the world cup all afternoon. I’m watching England vs Panama now and I am rooting for England because of Jude Bellingham. At 7pm Portugal is playing and that’s one of my top 3 teams because of Cristiano Ronaldo, vithinha and Bernardo Silva, Raphael Leao I love them too. Then Argentina playing at 10 pm but I don’t care for that lol

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2026-06-26T16:18:35+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 26 Juin 2026 à 04:18 PM

yesterday afternoon during my picnic at the parc a guy approached me and it was soo awkward. Picture this I am sitting on a picnic mat with a pillow against a tree, music playing on my speaker and it's a Lana Del Rey Video games song, journal in my hand staring at the trees in deep thoughts and he still approaches me. I would never approach anyone listening to Lana del rey because I know they are in their feelings! I am sitting there in the most basic outfit, my hair in a loose bun staring deeply into the trees overlooking the pond with the swans clearly I want peace what makes you think oh let me talk to her?

He was super nice, he asked me what I was reading and I said no I am not reading I am journaling then he came and sat in front of me for 5 minutes asking me questions and I dodged every single one of them. We talked about the world cup and he doesn't like Mbappe ugh bye, that would be fine but don't disrespect him in front of me. He told me he's in med school cute congrats, now can I get back to my journaling. He finally get that I wanted to be alone and left. But #1 that was a waste of his time because I am Jehovah witness I can't date anyone outside of my faith #2 I hate men right now #3 I wanted to be alone.

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2026-06-26T15:19:26+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 26 Juin 2026 à 03:19 PM

some people find it offensive that I as an Haitian am supporting France in the world cup because of the not so great history between France and Haiti. I am not supporting any country I am not patriotic, I am supporting the players. I couldn't care less about what Haiti got going on with France or the old beef they had. This is just a game to me, I am neutral when it comes to politic.

I support France because I have been following each of these boys in their football club. yes a big reason is Mbappe because I love him and my loyalty lies wherever he goes but I still support PSG and he is not there anymore. True I fell in love with Mbappe during the 2022 world cup and before then I did not know this man! but it only took me one day to fall in love with the player. His drive, his passion, his finishing, his precision, the speech he gave to his teammates at half time, his determination even after everyone gave up he manages to score not 1 but 3 goals during a world cup final and Messi was playing! do you know how huge that is? because Messi is really good. After he kept on scoring I had to go find out who Mbappe was, instantly I fell in love when I saw how he interact with his teammates and with the children in need in France. Anyone who think Mbappe is selfish never watch a full 90 minutes of him playing, he is a play maker. His main focus is to score goals like what do you want him to do, pass the ball in front of the net?

At Psg I still Follow Doue my mini Michael Jackson who dances when he scores, he's confident, respectful and soooooo cute. Dembele who won ballon d'or last year which was well deserved because he had a great season. Barcola who struggled but still manage to come out on top despite the criticism, Zaire Emery the kid who fought for Psg and defend when they need him, he has a great physic and rapidly comes back after injuries , he is motivated and I love him. Theo Hernandez the cute player, Each year I watched these boys gave sweat and tears to not win the champions league made me love them and root for them, more. Seing them win the champions league twice made me so happy, I would have love for real Madrid to win the champions league again because of Mbappe not for the club because they already have 15 champions league trophies but Mbappe has none.

At Bayern we have Olise! the best winger who creates magic with Mbappe and Dembele! I love him and it's only his debut with the adult French team. He's amazing. At real madrid we have Tchouameni a good defensive middle fielder and he plays well, Camavinga wasn't called for the french team in the world cup and I am disspointed in him, he was doing good but his defeated attitute the past couple of months at real madrid was concerning and he wasn't playing well at all but he is not a bad player when he give 100%, Mbappe the captain what else can I say? he is just amazing. Cherki the playful player at Manchester city he's amazing.

Like I know these boys I know their struggles, I follow their career this is not about France put the players and I want them to win because they are phenomenal beings.

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2026-06-26T14:52:04+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 26 Juin 2026 à 02:52 PM

Goals

in life we all need something to live by, or a purpose if you will. Without it you will feel empty and almost lost. For me it's my goals, I need them in my life everyday without them I will get depressed and even want to die. If I don't feel that I working towards something or achieving something I might as well be dead. I am a hard worker, I always have something I am working on. Whether it's intellectual, spiritual, health or aesthetic goals...I am always on go mode.

In all my friendship there was always a driving force motivating us whether it was graduating in school, studying together, working together...I can't just sit and do nothing with someone we need to be working towards something. The moment we had nothing to work towards or we achieved our goals the friendship normally dies down. I am not proud of it because I miss all the girls I was friends with but we simply grew apart.

In a relationship I need us to work towards something, whether it's the future by saving money for a wedding or to buy a house. Spiritual goals for example to become pioneers, visiting bethels all across the world, going where the need is greater, reading a few verses in the bible daily and discussing what we've learned, praying together... we need to have goals...working out together or learning a new skill together. I can't simply sit with you and talk about how much we love each other wee need to be working on somethning, our future together.

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2026-06-21T04:27:59+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 21 Juin 2026 à 04:27 AM

Summer reading list

It’s not her by Mary kubica
As far as she knew by Diana award
Her first lie by Hannah Bauer
Vanished on vacation by Jennifer ruff
She’s not sorry by Mary kubica
The housemaid secret #2 by Freida McFadden
The groom is missing by Jennifer Ruff
I know who you are by Alice Feeney
When they find us by Jennifer Ruff
The locked door by Freida McFadden
Just the nicest couple by Mary Kubica
Forget you saw her (ask for Andrea) by Noelle Ihli
Do not disturb by Freida McFadden

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2026-06-21T04:16:10+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 21 Juin 2026 à 04:16 AM

I read the book love mom in 8 hours today. It was 300 pages and I managed to read it under 24 hours. That is an accomplishment!
I loved the book there was soo many plot twists but not the kind that confuses you but the kind that keeps you in one spot for hours. I mind is foggy! I need to sleep.

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