No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2026-05-02T14:04:02+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Mai 2026 à 02:04 PM

My fitness goal :

Some people don’t understand but that’s okay it’s not for them it’s for me. I am doing a body recomposition meaning losing fat and gaining muscle at the same time, instead of focusing only on weight loss or only on bulking.

Most traditional approaches split things into:

Cutting → lose fat (usually lose some muscle too)
Bulking → gain muscle (usually gain some fat too)

Body recomposition tries to do both simultaneously, which leads to a leaner, more toned physique without major weight changes.

What it looks like in practice

Your scale weight might stay similar, but:

Body fat % goes down
Muscle mass goes up
You look leaner, tighter, and stronger

How it works

Recomposition relies on:

Strength training → builds/maintains muscle
Adequate protein intake → supports muscle growth
Slight calorie deficit or maintenance → burns fat while fueling muscle

This takes longer but the results are astonishing. It’s like waking up shredded one random day after working out for 5 years.

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2026-05-01T17:31:41+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Mai 2026 à 05:31 PM

I am going through the luteal phase at the moment: I feel exhausted, hungry, sleepy even if I slept for 9 hours, I am cranky, low energy, I hate loud noises more, chewing noises, people invading my space, people asking me about other people... I get overstimulated quickly. I just want to be home wrapped up in a blanket with delicious foods already prepared.

I normally set a lot more boundaries when I am going through my luteal phase:

because a lot of things irritates me, I try to stay quiet because If I respond I will sound mean and make the situation worse.

I don't stress myself any more than I already am: when I get home I don't talk about stressful situation and I don't talk about work. I am relaxed and home is no place for stress. It's my place to sleep, relax and recharge

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2026-04-30T15:14:57+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 30 Avril 2026 à 03:14 PM

reminder:

1. In the gym you won't see results overnight or in one week, discipline will help you achieve your dream body. Comparing your body to anyone else will only deteriorate your progress and make you doubt yourself. Remember people have different genetics so your progress might seem slow to some but you're still making progress. In 10 years you'll be proud that you kept going. Look at the gym as a long term commitment not just a one time thing or an occasional hobby you pick up every 6 months. Do this for your health, for your future self. Keep going your dream body is one more workout away even if you got it one more workout will keep you in shape and healthy.

2. that person you're bending yourself over backwards for but who wouldn't as so much lift a finger for you, yeah you need to let them go. You don't have to be mean to them but set your boundaries and take time away from them. I relate to this because I love doing things for people but sadly some of them would never help me, once I realize that I am burning myself out while I am also struggling I decided to take a step back.

3. love doesn't hurt. If you have to beg, sacrifice and plead just to get a little bit of love from someone RUN. If you're confused then that person doesn't love you. Love is clear set and stone, you don't need a magnifying glass to see it. Understand that some people appreciate you, some want to be just friends with you, some want to use you and a few genuinely do love you and that's rare.

4. no one will care as much as you or as much as your mother does. The number one cause of my depression is realizing that no one cares about me as much as I would like, or no one love me enough as much as my mother. They didn't care that you weren't there, they never check on you, they never ask if you were ok... let it go you know who was there for you through it all? God! he was right there with you while you cry, while you were sad. I came to the realization that I don't need anyone to "fake care about me" as long as I have Jehovah in my corner that's all I need. I'd rather be alone with God in my corner than to have 10 fake people pretending to care about me.

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2026-04-28T14:22:44+02:00

don''t look like your struggles

Publié par Gaelle.R 28 Avril 2026 à 02:22 PM

reminder: just because you're struggling doesn't mean it's the end of the world. You'll have a lot of bad days but many more good days. Even if you're on last bread for the day make sure to smile, being grumpy will not solve your problems faster. Having a positive outlook on life will save you from stress, aging prematurely, missing opportunities. Being sad all the time will drive people away from you and during hard times you need people to hold you up. You don't have to have a smile plastered on your face 24/7 but have hope, have faith and believe that one day things will get better. Keep trying, keep showing up and give it your best ....

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2026-04-27T12:39:20+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Avril 2026 à 12:39 PM

No one cares when you have nothing to offer them.

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2026-04-23T03:21:15+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Avril 2026 à 03:21 AM

The last letter by Rebecca Yarros

I read this book in the hopes to cry! And nope I did not. I read this book in three days. It was captivating, moving, sad, gut wrenching even and I just couldn’t cry. Something is very wrong with me, why am I so numb? I feel as if I am desensitize from feeling any amount of pain. I felt sadness while reading it and at one point one tear came up but it wasn’t enough to run down my cheek!

This book is the story of Ella writing letters to Beckett also named chaos. Beckett is in the army and he has no family he grew up in foster care. Ella’s brother asked her to also write Beckett letters because he had no one. So they began communicating, Ella had twins Maisie and Colt. She was married at eighteen and the marriage barely lasted 6 months because as soon as she became pregnant with the twins the guy bounced. She had the twins, but Maisie started to get sick and come to find out she had cancer neuroblastoma. It was staged 4 cancer and Maisie was giving a month to leave. They begin chemotherapy as soon as possible. Meanwhile Ella still wrote Beckett letters but to her his name was chaos. Then Ryan died in the army, Ella was really sad so she kept writing letters to chaos in hopes that he would also come to see her because she felt so alone but chaos never replied. So Ella believed chaos had died. But he didn’t (she didn’t know that tho) Beckett felt ashamed because he believed Ryan died because of him because Ryan went on a mission Beckett was supposed to go on but Ryan took his place. Then Beckett got a letter from Ryan which was the last letter a soldier will write and the receiver will only get it after they die. In the letter Ryan urged Beckett to go home to his sister and help her with the kids. So he did because Beckett loved Ryan like his brother but when he arrived he didn’t tell Ella he was chaos. He simply told Ella Ryan sent him and he showed her the letter. Ella took some time before she fully let Beckett in, but Ella had a cabin sort of like a cabin hotel business and Beckett stayed in one of the cabin. He payed to stay for 6 months. Ella’s daughter Maisie was still getting cancer treatments but her insurance didn’t cover all of her treatments and Ella was in so much debt because chemotherapy and treatments are very expensive. When Beckett found out how much financial trouble Ella was in he proposed to her that they get married but she was reluctant. True Beckett was there for the kids and the kids loved him but marriage wasn’t that simple to her plus they would be committing fraud. Yes she loved Beckett and Beckett had fell in love with her ever since they started writing letters to each other. But Ella propose that he adopt the kids instead of getting married. So he did adopt them after the kids biological farther gave up his rights to the kids. Maisie got her treatments and she was on remission. The treatment worked but because the health insurance had to pay so much for her treatment they began an investigation on Beckett and Ella to see if they were committing fraud. Beckett had to prove that he knew about the kids before Maisie got sick and that he didn’t simply adopt the kids simply because he wanted to give specifically Maisie health insurance for her cancer treatments. He could prove it but he would hurt Ella in the process. He brought out the letters that chaos got from Ella to prove that he knew Maisie before he got sick and once he did that they dropped the case. But Ella was shocked to find out Beckett was chaos! She felt betrayed that he hid this from her for 11 months but eventually she forgave him. And Maisie became cancer free she was cured ! The treatments worked! Then the kids went on a school field trip on the mountains. Then Ella got a call that something happened with the kids! Beckett went to search for the kids he found Maisie but where was colt? He kept looking and found him at the bottom of a cliff he fell omg I should have cried at that point but I couldn’t. And yes colt died :( he was only 7 years old!

They mourn his loss… then Ella had 2 more children after that.

This book was deep there’s so much to say it was way more than what I just said. I gave a simple summary but the bond between the twins, Ella’s trust issues, the griefs, Beckett’s fear of letting people close to him. This book was sooo good but sooo sad.

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2026-04-22T20:20:53+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 22 Avril 2026 à 08:20 PM

Love is not enough. Simply saying that you love someone doesn’t prove anything. Showing that you would move mountains and earth just to make that person smile is love. The word love has no meaning without actions or without sacrifices. A kiss, a touch, a smile, stolen glances while they look away are all just glimpses of love. Acting towards that feeling is love.

I don’t know what love is but one way to navigate that with the person I will date in the future is through letters. I am better with a pen and paper than with spoken words. That’s the only way he’ll reach me to my core otherwise he’ll always be confused.

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2026-04-20T18:40:22+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Avril 2026 à 06:40 PM

"I figure if we actually do
this, we should be honest, right?
So one, I’m not good with people. I could give you a bunch of
excuses, but really, I’m just not good with them. Chalk it up to saying
the wrong thing, being blunt, or just not seeing the need for mindless
chatter or any other number of things"

that's a quote from a book I am reading and honestly I relate so much to this guy. I am also not good with people especially acquaintances. People I see weekly but never really talk to...forget it I don't know what to say to them because I figured by that point I should be cool with them but I am not? why not? what is wrong with me?

for my crushes I don't really know what to say! I am scared that I will say the wrong thing. That I come off too cold, too bossy, too clingy, too nonchalant (I am freaking out on the inside) but my face shows a blank wall.

I will say the wrong things but I figured the right person will be patient with me and let me be comfortable on my own time.

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2026-04-20T17:32:56+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Avril 2026 à 05:32 PM

QUOTES FROM THE LAST LETTER BOOK THAT I RELATE TO

”Move on, that was always what came easiest to me. I didn’t form attachments because I didn’t want to, not because I
wasn’t capable. Attachments—to people, places, or things—were
inconvenient or screwed you over. Because there was only one thing
certain, and it was change."

"Someone once told me that swearing is a poor excuse for a crap
vocabulary. It makes you look low class and uneducated. So I stopped.”

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2026-04-20T14:57:38+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Avril 2026 à 02:57 PM

Daily reminders:

Let them be wrong about you. Let them judge you. Let them assume whatever they want. You cannot please everyone. You cannot make everyone love you. As long as you love who you are and happy with the decisions you’ve made that’s all that matters. Some people want to see you win and thrive, others only care when you’re suffering. Learn the difference. Living to only please other people at the detriment of yourself will only leave you feeling empty. Focus on your growth, surrounds yourself with people who love you and who supports your goals. Happiness doesn’t equate to a fat bank account but to people you can genuinely call a friend, to people who will drop everything to be there for you.

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