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I am a foul. I am an idiot. I let it happened. I genuinely wish I could erase everything. Unmet you. Why. I can’t.
2026-06-06T20:14:10+02:00
2026-06-06T18:00:17+02:00
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2026-06-06T17:59:22+02:00
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I feel sick mentally, I can’t even hold a conversation without fidgeting. I just need to take a break…
When I’m hurt some might think I will argue, prove a point or even seek revenge but no. I back off, I take my distance self reflect. I might even go so far as disappearing and you might never see me again. But if I come back it’s with a clear mind to make my decision. I don’t argue, I don’t talk too much if anything I will be very quiet. I am very observant, I will watch you and I will watch how things played out chances are I saw it coming from a mile away but I didn’t want to avoid it.
2026-06-05T18:20:51+02:00
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currently I am hurt. It will take me a little while to feel okay. I needed to remind myself what love is according to God. I’ve never been in love but I have had feelings close to it for people who either didn’t love me back or simply wanted to use me. My heart is pure and my intentions are good. What these people did to me have nothing to do with my self worth but more to do with who they are as an individual. I will love the right person one day. I know he’s out there, I don’t have all this love in my heart for nothing.
1 Corinthians 13: 4Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous. It does not brag, does not get puffed up, 5 does not behave indecently, does not look for its own interests, does not become provoked. It does not keep account of the injury. 6 It does not rejoice over unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth. 7 It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things
2026-06-05T14:59:59+02:00
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" I don't love reading because I love books. I love the silence, the ability to escape into someone else's world when mine makes no sense and it's too much for me to handle."
2026-06-04T15:03:44+02:00
dating
Dating me can be challenging if you don't listen to what I am saying in the beginning. I normally tell anyone I am talking to what I don't like and what I like so that it doesn't come as a shock when I inflict my boundaries. I have a lot of boundaries and I am very strict when it comes to all of them. Your ability to listen to me will be what determine whether or not you make it to the final stage. So far no one has been qualify, I am very strict in love I don't give my love away too fast or to anyone I don't deem deserving of it.
My time is extremely important to me and I hate it when it's being wasted. I am very observant I can tell when you're annoyed, angry, hiding something from me, not being truthful, uncomfortable. I pick up on cues, I may not tell you my findings but trust me I know. I don't let my heart guide my decision, I can love someone and still walk away if they're not what I am looking for.
- When my time is being wasted I get soooo angry, every hours of my day is planned out so when I fit you into my schedule whether it's by going on a date with you, doing something for you, I am on the phone with you or we're doing something together that I normally wouldn't be doing if it wasn't for you ... that's me giving you my time so when you waste it I will cut you off no question ask.
- Don't play with my emotions, if I tell you something hurts me or bothers me don't brush it off or tell me I am overacting I will cut you off and never tell you anything ecee again.
respect my boundaries when I say NO it means NO. Don't push me to change my mind because I won't. Please respect my decisions.
I am affectionate but on my terms. If I am overstimulated please give me space don't try to kiss my neck or rub on me because I will be mean. I will tell you hey please stop I need some space.
When I am going through something I will take a step back not because I don't trust you but because I don't know how to lean on people when times are rough. I normally isolate and concentrate on solving my problem. I don't like to talk about it until it's done. Don't push me to talk about it, I will come to you when I am ready.
I have other things but they're more complex and the person I am talking to will know. whether they listen or not is on them, if they don't I will cut them off.
2026-06-04T02:35:57+02:00
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Things you will not find in my apartment
- Bread
- Soda
- Juice
- Chocolate
- Chips
- Cookies
- Ice cream
- Candy
- Sugar ( I have a can of sugar but I bought it 2 years ago I found it last week I might as well throw it out )
- Alcohol
- Cake
- Energy drink
- Coffee ( I cannot drink caffeine or products with high level of caffeine but there are 2 pots of coffee in my house that my dad brought 3 years ago. I don’t have the heart to throw it out because my dad got it and he’s no longer with me… I just can’t throw them out)
2026-06-04T02:25:45+02:00
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Truth is don’t let me get mad or find you annoying because anything you say after that will not matter.
PSG won the champions league last Saturday and I was happy because I love that team. When Mbappé left if someone told me psg will end up winning 2 champions league back to back I would say no you’re lying! Mbappé gave his sweat and tears to win the champions league with PSG but he wasn’t able to do it, not even with Neymar and Messi by his side. I wish Mbappé didn’t leave psg but maybe he needed to leave to grow and for PSG to win… I am not mad or sad that psg won again. I am happy for them and I don’t like Arsenal.
A guy who I already cannot stand text me Mbappé = 0 champions league I blocked him and we’re done. He’s sooo childish.
How dare you come and make fun of Mbappé with me? You know I will tear your head off.
I don’t play when it comes to him.
2026-06-01T05:08:44+02:00
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I am finally released from the shackles of the luteal phase and I have my period thank God! I hate the luteal phase with a passion. I am at my lowest at that stage, I am tired, sad and I just hate everyone and everything but as soon as my period starts I’m good.
2026-06-01T04:43:39+02:00
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https://open.spotify.com/playlist/338mewyGd6j4aNS8UinmAU?si=8hNqNlMWQZeOMCMQPlJ7OA&pi=1H7ZxY2KRii7S
what I was listening to in high school’