No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2025-01-27T00:34:11+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Janvier 2025 à 12:34 AM

There’s this thing going around saying girls should be looking out for other girls and I agree because that’s what being a girl’s girl is all about meaning I should get along with all the girls around me. If it was up to me I would get along with every girl but it’s really up to them. Girls tend to be jealous, condescending and judgmental not all of them though and I can spot the real ones right away.

I am not a girls girl if that means I need to hang out with you if I know you don’t like me. If you are rude to me I will ignore your entire existence, I don’t care about who doesn’t like me. I won’t say hi to you if you’re mean to me, I will look right past you. I don’t hate you but I can sense your animosity towards me because I am an empath I don’t need you to say you don’t like me, I can feel it. For that reason I simply won’t talk to you. I don’t need a lot of friends because I don’t have a lot of energy to pass around. I am an introvert I like being alone but I do love hanging out with people I love and trust from time to time.

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2025-01-23T21:41:54+01:00

UCL NIGHT

Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Janvier 2025 à 09:41 PM

champions league night was amazing yesterday!

I got takeout and watched both games after work, I was so busy yesterday, but I made time to watch the games and boy was I surprised! My predictions were all wrong lol PSG beat Manchester city when I though Manchester city was going to win 2-0 then bam PSG scored twice to even the score in less than 15 minutes, then bam they scored twice again ending the score with 4-2! How in the world PSG won this game??? even before when they had Neymar and Mbappe PSG could not win against Manchester city. PSG was just amazing! they were unstoppable. I love PSG so much because i've connected with the players when Mbappe was there, the way that I connected with PSG I have not connected like that with Real Madrid because wherever Mbappe goes I go, but I still love PSG and he does too because he says that he watch all the games even though he's at real madrid I mean how can you not? the team is just so exciting to watch. It's never boring, Liverpool is boring to me but PSG bring that shock value, it makes you stay at the end of your sit ready to cheer them on.

Real Madrid game was amazing we got 2 goals from Rodrygo, 1 funny and magical goal from Mbappe and 2 goals from Vinicius Jr. I already knew real Madrid was going to win but I wasn't sure how, but they won 4-1 which is amazing. They moved up the ladder because their games at the beginning in the champions league were not so great.

Manchester city is losing a bit of its magic, in 2023 they were unstoppable and even last year too but lately some players have been requesting to leave and Pep Guardiola the coach is stressed out. I hope they get back on track, they are not out of the champions league just yet they can still redeem themselves next Wednesday and I believe they will.

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2025-01-23T05:05:47+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Janvier 2025 à 05:05 AM

Q&A

What do you like?

Sleeping, relaxing, watching football and commenting on it, reading, picking out outfits, watching girly movies, writing, making board collages, getting pampered like getting nails and hair done, hanging out with my cats, working can be fun at times, taking cute pictures, talking to my mom and catching up with friends once in a while, doing my own hair brings me joy.

One habit you try to incorporate in your life this year?

Journaling everyday before bed just to process each day and to really get to know myself quietly away from the rest of the world and all the distractions around me. I don’t talk about men in there, it’s all about me. Because I am trying to get to know myself more to really understand what I want in life. There’s no gossip in there, no drama just personal things I might never say out loud.

What are your fitness goals?

I want to lose more belly fat, smaller waist (I’m almost there) nice and toned body and more muscles. To be healthy overall, to be able to run for 5 minutes straight without passing out. To lift my body weight in a session, I can lift up to 110lbs during deadlift and hip thrust. I don’t really check my weight because I have muscles now and that add to the number on the scale, I don’t worry about that because I’d rather lose inches which is body fat than lose muscles

Who’s your favorite cat between Archie and Pixie?

I answer this every time, but I had Archie first and he made me really happy when I got him. I was so depressed and alone when I got him as soon as I got him I became happier. I looked forward to coming home, he would follow me to my room every time i come home and take naps with me. Then I got Pixie manly because I felt like Archie was sad and alone, he didn’t appreciate that I brought another cat home but Pixie made me and Archie even more happy. Pixie is soooo funny! So cute! So weird! So childlike kind of like me and that’s why I love him. Pixie made both me and Archie happier. I love both of my cats just the same they make me happy.

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2025-01-22T19:05:49+01:00

UCL NIGHT

Publié par Gaelle.R 22 Janvier 2025 à 07:05 PM

Today all my favorite teams are playing! ugh and they're playing at the same time which sucks because I won't be watching the games live but my predic for the games are below:

PSG VS MANCHESTER CITY: the winner for today will be Manchester city even if I want PSG to win but let's see because I don't see how PSG is going to win with Haaland starting to be good again at Manchester city. I hope Barcola plays well today at PSG actually I hope the whole team play well because they deserve to win at least once but will they win? uhm I don't think so

REAL MADRID VS WHOEVER: I am not familiar with who they are playing against, and I don't care to know either but all I know is that Real Madrid will win, and I will hopefully get a hattrick from Mbappe and this one won't be offside. La liga is the worse they always give Mbappe offsides ugh even if he wasn't offside, they wait until he celebrates the goal to then say oops it was offside. He has 8 offside goals already!! and 14 goals that counts at real Madrid this season which is amazing. My baby is just so good and talented.... ugh he's so cute.

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2025-01-22T13:53:36+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 22 Janvier 2025 à 01:53 PM

Women business

(If that doesn’t interest you then you can skip this one)

Since I brought you guys along with me during my luteal phase last week well let’s discuss the menstrual cycle itself this week. During this cycle a woman’s ovaries release an egg (happens during ovulation) the lining of the uterus thickens in preparation for potential pregnancy and if the egg isn’t fertilized then the uterine lining sheds causing a period or menstruation. So yes I go through all of this for one egg that didn’t hatched, it’s fine because I don’t want to be pregnant at the moment.

On my period I either cry nonstop (which doesn’t happen often maybe once every 6 months ) or I am angry which happens often. I hate everything, I eat everything on sight. I am in pain, I could kill a man with my bare hands … don’t play with me. I usually do not care what happens at that point because I am in so much pain, nothing else matters but I am strong. I will not take a painkiller unless it’s the last straw and I can’t take it anymore. I don’t love the pain but I’d rather use a heating pad than to take medications because I want the meds to work fast when I really need it. I used to take meds every month then I realize it wasn’t working as fast because my body build up a tolerance so I stopped and now I only take it if I really need it. This week don’t touch me, don’t look at me! Leave me alone lol but it only last for 3 days for me.

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2025-01-21T14:23:20+01:00

ENJOY LIFE.

Publié par Gaelle.R 21 Janvier 2025 à 02:23 PM

I used to be someone who used to worry about everything! for example: I used to worry about how to make someone like me, whether or not I said the right thing, how I made others feel (it's good to be conscious of what you say and do but you can't always control how someone feel). In other words, I wanted to be perfect, and I can never be that! I am messy! I am chaotic! I am funny but I can be boring therefore I will never make everyone happy. I can never make everyone love me even though I am loveable, some people won't like me no matter what I do, and I needed to accept that.

Just because you are a good person, and you try to live a decent life doesn't always mean people will love you or respect you. Just because you love someone doesn't automatically mean they will love you back, you have to come to terms that they might never love you and just move on with your life. My advice to you and to myself is to live your life as if it is your last day and it might be! as humans we don't know when the end is near, and we shouldn't know otherwise we would live in fear. Some people know that they are dying because they are sick but for someone who's healthy dying is never something that comes to mind, we could have a car accident and die on impact okay a bit morbid, but life is not always roses and sunshine! we cry, we mourn, we dance, and we laugh. My advice is to live your life how YOU want to live it because you have a choice. You want to wear the boots with the fur then do it, you want to get a pet than do it, you want to die your hair bleu then do it if that's what you really want and it would make you happy. Now just because you can do something doesn't mean you have to do it but whatever makes you happy (if you're a Christian and that doesn't go against God) then do it. Life is not perfect! stop worrying! let the hurt go! laugh! stop taking everything serious! sing even if you don't sound like Whitney Houston, you wanna dance then dance! even if you can't dance like Michael! life is messy and that's what makes it fun.

who cares if they don't like you, God loves you and that's all that matters... remember that because God thought you were worth it to send his only son to save you. Never let someone make you feel less than, be confident in yourself. You are beautiful, powerful and amazing.

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2025-01-20T16:57:00+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Janvier 2025 à 04:57 PM

Someone was asking the right question instead of judging me or making me feel bad, that person asked : why do you hate parties so much? See how the person didn’t say : “how come I never see you at parties? You’re so antisocial” but in a very demure way the person asked “why do I hate parties?” It’s an open ended question that requires me to go in depth if I want to.

I responded “ I don’t hate parties but I have a reason why I don’t like going anymore” that’s the truth I used to love having a great time at parties, I used to be front and center on the dance floor with my best friend a few years ago. But something happened to me internally and now I don’t want to go anymore. Let me explain: in 2018 precisely December 23, 2018 ahead of my birthday I went out to party of course and I was talking to my beloved cousin (who created this blog for me) all day, I told him what my plans were but he didn’t tell me his which was fine because I didn’t think he was also going out. We were very closed, he was like a brother to me, we grew up together and we learned a lot from each other. He taught me a lot of things, we made mistakes and we cried about it together. He was a lovely soul anyway let me not get ahead of myself here. My mom called me later that night while I was about to leave to go the party I was around 11pm and she told me my cousin is missing, he’s been out for a while now and they cannot reach him she asked me did I talk to him? And I said no not since this morning. She was like okay don’t worry but I was already worried I felt my heart breaking because what do you mean don’t worry it’s Dimitri we’re talking about that’s my brother ! She knows how much I love him. She asked me to just go out with my friends and to not stay out late and to call her when I got back home. Anyway I really try to proceed with my night like nothing happened but my heart was breaking on the way to the party. I sat in the back of the car and I was crying ! No one asked if I was okay! I was quiet the whole time and sobbing! I got the party and pretend I was fine. I just stood there the whole time, you could tell I wasn’t happy. I was very sad, very annoyed to be here it was too late for me to tell my friends let’s go back home because I’m not feeling like partying because I was far away from home and my friends were happy to go. When it was finally the time to go home, I cried again in the back of the car (no one asked if I was okay again I have a reason for mentioning that)

I got home cried even more. Then the next day my mom called me and told me my brother is gone. I sat on the bathroom floor and cried ! After that I cried non stop for days and months to follow. I had to go to therapy again because I couldn’t cope. I deleted all my social media “Facebook, instagram everything that reminded me of him because he created my Facebook when I was 11 I think…” I couldn’t cope it took me a while to finally accept he’s gone. His death changed me! Immediately after that I stopped going to parties and instead I wanted to get closer to Jehovah. Every time I think about a party I remember him and how I was sobbing in the back of that car, that’s why I hate it so much. In therapy I tried strategies to make partying fun but it never felt right. I am an empath which means I feel things deeply, this is why I never jump in a romantic relationship because I’m scared ! I feel too much! If someone broke my heart I would have to work so hard to get my life back and I’m scared ! And a way I am protecting myself but I am also not living to my full potential yes I am aware of that.

If the right person comes along I would be willing to try but he would have to be worth it. He would have to appreciate my efforts as well because it’s big easy being me. I have a lot of past traumas that stem from my past and from my closest relatives who passed away… it’s a process but Jehovah is helping me. To this day I still can’t talk about my dad, I’m not ready.

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2025-01-20T03:46:43+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Janvier 2025 à 03:46 AM

As I was scrolling on TikTok for entertainment I came across a video of a woman saying “ sis you need to play your cards right in order to get that man you want and I will help you” immediately I rolled my eyes and scroll past that video.

If I have to play my cards right to get him then I don’t want it. I’m too lazy to try anything anyway, if we do something believe me he came up with the idea unless we are dating which I’ve never dated anyone so I never put any effort and perhaps that’s why I am still single. If I have to act a certain way to get a man then I’m doomed! I will come to you with all of my flaws for you to see because I would rather you love me for me rather than who I am trying to be because I am not that person! I don’t want to disappoint anyone, what you see is what you get. I don’t want to play games! It is what it is! I’m too lazy to try. If you want me then talk to me.

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2025-01-20T01:52:54+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Janvier 2025 à 01:52 AM

“ I’ll go John wick on anyone who comes for my cats.”

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2025-01-20T00:17:12+01:00

Get a job?

Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Janvier 2025 à 12:17 AM

Entry level job or job after university?

There was this topic online about how tough it is to survive because most jobs want you to have experience even if you just graduated college? What do they expect? We need the job in order to gain experience? But aside from those jobs you get after college. Some people who aren’t even working wanted to jump into the discussion, which is fine because free speech am I right? But that would be okay if they were respectful because how are you going to criticize your pizza delivery guy but you sit in your parent’s basement while you buy the pizza with their credit card? If someone is wining it’s the delivery guy because he’s getting money.

A man said “ my son is making over $70,00 a year at Amazon prime and he’s about to get married, he has no college loans and he is happy” people were commenting about how he shouldn’t be happy because he’s working a “dead end job” yeah dead end job but he’s making $70,00 a year? I don’t think so. I was in college to become a nurse and halfway through after I’ve already amassed a good portion of loans I realized you know what I hate this field ! Why did I pick this? I should’ve known I didn’t like it because I wasn’t even trying, at some point I was on academic probation and that’s coming from a student who graduated with honors in high school. I just hated college! I really did, I was depressed, I was stressed and I felt like I was doing it for other people not for me. So I stopped, went and got another certification in another field in health care and now I’m happy. When I graduated I didn’t do my externship at a hospital or clinic because of the pandemic, my externship was online which wasn’t my fault! I didn’t come up with COVID! What do you want me to do? But after my externship it took me 6 months to find a job in my field and when I did I wasn’t getting paid much because they had to teach me everything. I said you know what? Let me stick with this job that’s not paying me much and get all the experience I need and then apply for another job later after I learn all that I need, which is what I did. I stayed at that job for 6 months even if I was broke and miserable then after that I applied at another job and got paid more. But then a year later I was getting paid the same salary as someone who has been working in my field for 10 years !

My advise to anyone just starting out is to be patient, don’t shoot up so high because you might fail but gather as much experience at your job to the point where you can do it with your eyes closed then after apply other places and get a higher salary with all of your experience. You have to work don’t just give up! Because if you don’t work how are you going to survive ?

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