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2024-02-06T02:37:08+01:00
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2024-02-04T16:21:44+01:00
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Someone asked me why I didn’t share my pain or why I didn’t say I lost someone ? Why do I have to say it if you’re just going to say you’re sorry and go about your day as if nothing happened, knowing that I’ll never be the same again doesn’t change a thing. You don’t have to fake cry or fake being sorry; I saved your tears for a better day.
2024-02-04T03:54:44+01:00
2024-02-03T02:51:17+01:00
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Kitbull.
This a Disney animation that shows the friendship between a stray black kitten and a pit bull. I discovered it today and when I watched it I could not stop crying!
The way some people treat animals break my heart, that pit bull was a total sweetheart! But the owner put him in dog fighting and that stray kitten probably got away from its mother or was abandoned. I know this is just cartoon but I’ve seen stray animals in the streets and I always feed them treats when I see them. There’s this cute black cat that always visits me and I love her but she’s pregnant ;( I can’t keep her I already have 3 cats but if it’s raining and I see her I will bring her inside. Every time I see her I feed her, I even buy extra food just for her. I thought she was a boy at first but I recently discovered that she’s pregnant and she’s the sweetest :) she was just outside my door meowing. It’s a cold night I am so tempted to bring her inside in my warm apartment. I just love animals so much not only cats but dogs even squirrels ! There’s a beautiful squirrel that loves French fries and sometimes I buy fries and leave them near the trash for him. He is so cute ;) animals make me happy especially right now, I need it.
2024-02-03T01:19:54+01:00
2024-02-02T17:38:13+01:00
2024-02-02T13:45:47+01:00
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Pain.
I don’t talk to anyone besides family and my coworkers who are extremely nice. I had to tell them when I left work early but besides them I have no one, but that’s my choice. I don’t want to have a lot of people calling me because when someone calls all I want to do is cry.
My cats are extra affectionate, for people who don’t like animals you cannot be part of my life well at least not my dating life. Cats are so attuned to our emotions, when I stayed in bed for a whole day and didn’t get up to go to work they knew something was wrong. All of my cats came all around me and snuggled up to me, they sensed my sadness. They didn’t say a word but they understood; that’s all I want. I don’t want any talking just a presence and that’s it. I love my kitties so much, they are soooo sweet especially Pixie. Thank you Jehovah for my cats I don’t know where I’ll be without them.
2024-02-01T21:20:43+01:00
2024-02-01T21:03:49+01:00
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Mental health.
i am not sure how I am doing mentally because I just feel numb and I am just soooo quiet. I am taking a leave from work so I can sit with my emotions and allow myself to feel everything. I didn’t want to rush going back to work while not facing my feelings regarding my father being gone, at first I wanted to believe that he just went on vacation and that he is just fine but that would be a lie I would tell myself when the pain is too much for me to bare. I am in contact with my therapist and my psychiatrist… to make sure I don’t drown in my pain. I know myself and I am feeling this huge guilt for not being there for my dad when he needed me that I hate myself. No one knows how I feel, when people see me they will think I am just sad or just depressed like always… but no I am broken at the moment and all I need is my mommy.