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2023-07-19T14:12:50+02:00
2023-07-19T03:27:53+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
The Carlee Russell case.
While scrolling on tiktok on Friday I stumbled across some people talking about the disappearance of Carlee and I was so sad because of the circumstances surrounding the event. She was driving on a highway in Alabama and she pulled over because she said she saw a toddler alone on the side of the road, so she got out of the car like the “good samaritain “ she is to make sure that the child is okay. She had someone on the phone with her and she said that she called 911 before gotten out the car to help the kid, but when she got out all the person who was on the phone heard was Carlee screaming and nothing else …
What happened? Who took her?
Her car was still running on the highway, her Apple Watch was left behind with her wig and her phone but she was gone! That shook the world! Even my mom heard about it. Everyone was out looking for her in Alabama, they were praying for her to return home, her parents were devastated, the police were looking in the woods and investigating. Then out of nowhere she returned home after 48 hours !? And she was ok? Like she was walking fine, she said she got away? But what really happened ? The public was happy at first! And so was I because if I went missing I can only imagine what I would’ve went through but if I made it home that would answer a lot of prayers !
Some messages were leaked from Carlee’s Instagram account, and some detective leaked some documents showing that Carlee might not have been abducted based on the findings! Like you mean to tell me this girl was fine in a hotel room somewhere taking a nap and she was doing all this because her boyfriend cheated ?!? There are real people out here being abducted and they didn’t get that much coverage or a chance for people to look for them like they looked for her. She cried wolf and now she’s messing up everything for people who really went missing because now they are going to think that they are lying too! They raised so much money for this girl! Look I am still waiting on the investigation but I hope that this is all a lie and that she didn’t faked her disappearance because if she did she will go to jail and be prosecuted.
Her parents went on tv making interviews and their body language says it all! They are hiding something and it’s not looking good; it’s giving liesss and sketchy stuff. If she did this for some attention I hope she gets some help because sis is not right in the head. I know life is hard but I don’t wanna go missing!
2023-07-18T20:36:54+02:00
my opinion and thoughts
- shopping online is better, and I really hate the mall, so my only alternative is to shop online which I do. The only time I'll ever go the mall to buy clothes is in the winter to by coats because I like to feel it before I buy it; I buy them online too but for now I rather just buy it at the store. Before I could never buy shoes online but now it's so easy for me, I can do it with my eyes closed, I can just look at a shoe and know that yeah, I need to size up or size down lol. Same with clothes too, sometimes I size up because I want the shape of the clothes to show a lot more.
- people with OCD don't always have to be associated with clean freaks, it's an insult when I hear someone says "I am so OCD I need my things to be clean" that's ignorant you have no idea how much of a mental toll that having OCD can cause.
- don't ever force me to do something, if you want me to do something just mention it once trust me I heard you the first time you don't have to repeat it because now you just make me not want to do it anymore. I'll do it when I am ready don't force me.
- I know I may look intimidating or maybe it's just in my head, but I am actually really funny. I didn't think I was but some people have told me, so I guess I am. It feels great to make someone laugh :)
2023-07-18T14:59:38+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
" I am a walking contradiction; I can party like there's no tomorrow and cry like I only have today."
2023-07-18T14:40:38+02:00
choosing a partner.
When you find someone, you want to be with and who wants to be with you, it is a very beautiful thing! but while you are choosing to be with that person you are also choosing a lot of things.
- you are choosing someone who has the ability to influence your day and your daily thoughts. You could feel good around them or you could feel on edge as well; that person can change you completely for the better or for the worse.
- you are choosing someone who will either help your mental health or worsen; if you choose someone who's inconsiderate or doesn't understand your or your feelings then you're in for a rollercoaster. Personally (you know I have to put my 2 cents) I'd rather be alone than be with someone who can't understand me at all.
- you are also choosing which version of you shows up around that person, do they make you feel at your best? or do they make you turn into someone who's pessimistic, dishonest, bad tempered, abrasive, needy, toxic, jealous, obsessive, manipulative, rude and many more. I am sorry to break it to you but someone you love is someone who holds a lot of power they can change you and also bring out the worse in you. You could be sweet and innocent before you've met them but soon after you could become the most dangerous and toxic person to be around. Be careful who you bring into your life, watch them closely and be friends with them first.
- you are choosing someone who would either root for you or make you feel bad for every milestone you reach; choose someone who is proud of who you are as a person and someone who appreciates your talent and supports you.
- you are choosing someone who will influence your future children both outwardly and inwardly; when you have kids this person will be their parent as well are you able to imagine this person as the father or the mother of your child? if not well you are with the wrong person, I'm sorry.
this is not to discourage anyone because I am also looking for my soulmate and paying close attention, this is just a reminder:
- to choose someone who is safe and who doesn't harm you in any way both physically and emotionally.
- choose someone with a kind heart and who treats people who cannot help them with kindness as well. Watch how they treat the homeless, the wait staff at the restaurant, the valet...
- choose someone who is emotionally safe, this a big one for me because I am an empath, they can either uplift me or break me without a word and that's scary.
2023-07-18T04:29:51+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
“ I deserve the princess treatment, I deserve everything good; I am no longer settling for a late-night text from someone who won’t wish me a good morning, but instead he is just a maybe that can never be a sure thing. I am ready to be the one and only because after me there is no other, I am the beginning to an unfinished story, and I am not settling for less than what I deserve.”
2023-07-18T02:45:23+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
last year, I created my alter ego or my higher self I named her Nala because she became queen when she married simba in the lion king… I created her because I felt trapped. I wanted out, I wanted to be someone I never thought I could be and no one else did either! I wanted to be outspoken, confident, even more beautiful, never afraid to walk away when I am not being treated right, be proud of who I am, to have beautiful skin, never let other people dismiss her, she is kind, sweet, understanding, loving. Deep down I was all of those things but I couldn’t see it until I became HER
2023-07-17T21:17:15+02:00
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Football season is back!!
I am so happy because I was a little sad without it, I did watch the national teams playing last month well a little bit especially france because of Mbappe and Argentina because of Messi. Neymar didn't play for brazil, I missed watching club games especially manchester city. I still don't know where Mbappe is going to end up because he is back at psg this morning for training so who knows? we'll see there's a match this friday I would love to watch Mbappe play with his younger brother on the team even if it's just one match :)
2023-07-17T15:48:55+02:00
2023-07-17T14:36:49+02:00
Anxiety
I used to struggle with crippling anxiety to the point where I didn't want to go out, at first, I didn't think it was a problem since this started during the pandemic but once everything was returning back to normal, I realize that it is indeed a big problem and I need to deal with it. People used to think that I was shy because I never spoke, but the whole time I was anxious, because I felt trapped in my own body, I started to feel so sad and alone. I used to think no one would understand me or that everyone was judging me, I don't think I overcame this alone because I used to pray to Jehovah a lot about this because I really felt like I was in a prison.
I didn't just pray I also did some work on myself as well, but one person that helped me is thewizardliz the minute I started watching her videos and I truly wanted to change my life at that point, and I stumbled upon her video with the tittle "this will change your life" that was probably in October 2022 and that video did in fact change my life! I used to hide, not speak, isolate myself and blame it all on my mental health but if you want to make a change the first person you need to look at is the one staring at you in the mirror (this is from Michael Jackson by the way lol "the man in the mirror" song) I used to blame people for my downfall, or life for absolutely no reason. Life owes me nothing! the fact that I am alive doesn't mean I am entitled to happiness or success because I need to make that happen for myself. The minute I stopped looking at people to blame or outside things to explain my behavior and started to take accountability for my own action is the minute I truly felt alive. When you acknowledge that you are in the wrong that's the moment you start to look for the right way to do things and your life will change when you see things differently. I refuse to label myself as someone who's struggling with anxiety or depression; I am I much more than that... the moment I started to look at myself a whole new way then I started to see the true beauty in my journey and in myself.
Before I started watching the wizardliz I used to overlook my worth, I used to be a people pleaser. I even chased a man who didn't even want me, how embarrassing is that? but I learned. She made me see my worth again and I fell in love with myself even more... I stopped feeling sorry for myself. When I make a mistake, I stop beating myself for it I just say ok and? what's next? what can I learn from this? alright let's move on because life goes on. I used to feel so depressed when my crush rejected me to the point where I started to hate myself not knowing that it was a blessing that they rejected me, now I can see the red flags and I am glad none of them picked me because they were not the one for me. It was never my fault; I was more than enough; them not choosing me made me choose myself and that's the best thing I ever did for myself. I can walk in any room confident with my head held high and not care about what anyone think of me because I already know who I am, and I love her so no one can make me feel any different. Some of my crushes even came back but I know my worth now so no; I was giving myself out for free! literally! I never saw how much I was worth, and it showed because there were times, I should've walked away but didn't but I am not afraid to do that now because I am happier once I leave.
stay away from people who belittle you and criticize you because if you don't see just how valuable you are then no one will. You have to set the bar and people will follow, create your boundaries and if people don't abide by them make them aware of it because it's your job to protect yourself. No one knows your limit, but you know so don't let people drive you past that limit let them know when enough is enough. Speak up for yourself even if you have a little or soft voice like me still speak with everything in you because once you show how serious you are people will listen and if they don't then cut them off because you don't have to keep explaining yourself to people who don't want to listen. Someone not liking me is not my problem and there's nothing I can do about that; I will still live my life and I will continue to meet other people.