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2023-06-14T12:28:43+02:00
2023-06-13T14:24:32+02:00
looking young.
I used to be offended when people asked me if I was still in high school when I was 20 years old but now, I take it as a compliment because honey I am not getting any younger! I am 26 years old, and I still look like I am in high school. If I was an actress, I could still play high school roles, I don't think it's because I am doing anything different, but it could be because I didn't start wearing makeup until I was 19 going on 20 years old because makeup age the skin.
As I am looking at this new generation, they are already wearing a full face of makeup at 15 years old, and all that makeup cause premature aging, so they look 21 years old while in high school. All I wore at 16 was lip glosses and I was in my eyeliner phase in high school too but nothing else. I still don't wear that much makeup now either and I am not being a pick me girl saying " I hate makeup I never wear any makeup on my face" while they are wearing minimal makeup with lashes extensions. No, I really don't. My full-face makeup is what the girls call it " the no makeup look" it is very natural and if my skin looks bad it will even show because I don't have that much coverage. I love looking at makeup looks but when it is done on me it looks weird, if I wear too much makeup, I feel like my face is heavy and I can't even touch my face because the foundation will come off. I do touch my face a lot and that is a bad habit, but I have gotten better at not touching it too much.
When I have kids and if they are girls, I will not let them wear makeup until they are 18 years old because trust me it is worth it to wait because your face will remain the same without all the makeup messing it up. I am glad my mom didn't let me wear makeup because I look soo young now, I am loving it.
2023-06-12T18:35:00+02:00
summer.
I did a little digging on why summer is already a dreadful time for me, and what better way to discover the root of the issue then to go back to my childhood? so that's what I did. I ask my mom how I used to be during the summertime when I was younger, and she told me I always hated summertime! because " I hated being home all the time from school without seeing my friends and having to do house chores all the time" she said I was always sad and reading books all day in my room. I wouldn't play outside or even do anything fun, I just waited until September to be happy again! she said my happiest times were always between November and may after that I start to get sad, but she never understood why. well, I do! it's Reverse SAD (some people have seasonal affective disorder in the winter but mine starts in the summer) I talked about that last summer and prepare yourself for me to bring it up every summer.
For me to be happy in the summer I need:
1. a vacation (somewhere tropical I am going to start saving for next year because I don't want to be miserable again)
2. go to the beach (with friends or family members)
I don't know what else to do because I don't really like hiking or camping... but I love the beach.
I actually love winter, because I mostly decline all invitation in the summer people might think that I am anti-social but quite the contrary I am suffering from " summertime sadness" as Lana del Rey put it. I am never complaining during the winter times, my mood is always upbeat and cheerful (here and there I might get sad because of life events but not because of the weather). I was born in December so it's only right that I love winter.
2023-06-12T04:46:55+02:00
2023-06-12T03:35:31+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
“ the most times people called me beautiful is at the gas station or while doing grocery shopping wearing sweats or miss match clothes, sometimes in my pyjama! With no makeup! My natural hair in a messy curly bun! That’s when a complete stranger approach me and say wow you’re really beautiful; I always laugh and say no I look a mess and they say well if you’re a mess like this then I can’t imagine you dressed up!”
you know what’s funny? It’s usually on those days where I finish crying in my car or at home and I’m doing so much and I am exhausted that I get those compliments.
2023-06-11T23:08:41+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
Feeling defeated.
Summers aren’t usually the best time of year for me, I want to enjoy it as much as I can but it doesn’t really feel great. If I could afford a fancy vacation this is the time I would take it because my mental health usually declines during this time of year.
I wish I could explain why I am not as happy as everyone else in the summer but the only explanation that I can come up with is that I feel pressured to be happy in that time, pressured to be outside and to have fun but the people I want to hang out are either are not in my life anymore or I don’t have any new friends. You could say why not just make new friends? Well I can and I do but it’s hard to keep up with them. It’s becoming harder for me to maintain the friendships in my life, it hurts that I can’t be friends with the people I love but who aren’t in my life anymore. I miss them, sometimes I want to call them but it’s probably best if I don’t… I wish them all the happiness in the world.
Today is not a good day for me, I have a ton of things to do and all I want to do is stay in my bed and cry. I feel defeated, I need a hug and I need a friend. My message to you is cherish all your friends and tell them you love them because you don’t know what the future holds so love them while you can. I will go pray now.
2023-06-11T22:46:20+02:00
2023-06-10T16:55:40+02:00
2023-06-09T18:57:27+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
True experience.
” Sometimes you think that you are heartbroken over someone when is just your ego that’s bruised.” Here’s how I know.
A long time ago, I might’ve been in high school or first year of college I was crying over this guy because of something that happened and I thought I was heartbroken. I took a piece of paper and I wrote his name, I wrote what I like and dislike about him. I had soooo many things I dislike about him and when I move over the likes part I could not come up with anything I like about him because this whole time I never even liked him! I just wanted him to like me but I never took some time to think omg do I even like this guy ? Lol
2023-06-09T15:01:31+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
- Have you ever felt like the minority in a group setting? or have you experienced racism, sexism, or other kinds of discrimination?
Do you want my true answer? I honestly don't know because I never cared! I never like working in a group because I prefer to do the whole work myself, and when I am in a group, I never cared about what the others think of me because I will do my work regardless of if they do their part. When it comes to racism I know it exist but I have never felt it because I don't focus on it and I honestly do not care when someone is trying to be racist to me because I find them ignorant so why would I waste my energy on them but I do get upset when I see someone else being treated differently when they have the same skin color as me or part of a different race. I close my eyes to a lot of stuff done to me because I know how much it could consume me, so I chose to protect my peace by not caring. People will always discriminate, and I do it too without knowing but I try to be impartial always.