No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2025-05-28T14:04:46+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 28 Mai 2025 à 02:04 PM

Apparently on top of my luteal phase I have to worry about post menstrual cycle wave of sadness or mood swings!. I don't normally experience this because my luteal phase is bad enough but the month of may is really trying to get rid of me. I am like a cockroach lol you can't kill me that easy! I am very resilient, I will bounce back from whatever life throws at me. I have been doing this for a while now, battling my demons all alone that I am always prepared for war.

last night I crashed out so bad that I didn't sleep at all! I try to break my own heart by thinking of past traumas and it kind of worked. I was so upset that I let my past traumas resurfaced after all of the work I have done but that's part of healing! one day your fine and the next day you're crying non stop until it doesn't hurt anymore. I am not heartbroken, I am not link to anyone romantically, no one disappointed me... what I am going through is internal battles. As far as I know this is about me, I just want to clear the air. On top of sleeping only 4 hours last night I got ready for the gym at 4:30 am just to be at the gym by 5 am. Half of my work out was without music this is how emotionally disturbed I was! I lifted really heavy and I am proud. Normally I work out with music but I wanted to feel the pain silently and hear myself breathing... I will be okay guys. This was bound to happen I knew I was going to crash out soon. I will not post any stories and I will stay off social media until I feel better.

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2025-05-27T19:52:18+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Mai 2025 à 07:52 PM

one thing I love about me is that no one can make me feel bad for something I've already forgiven myself for. My life is complicated and I am aware of that, people will talk bad about me and criticize but none of these people are aware of my situation or my internal struggles. why would I let some random person make me feel bad about something that I have no control over or someone making me feel bad for not doing more when I am already going through hard times!? guess what? I don't care what anyone has to say anymore.

I've spent half of my life pleasing everyone, bending myself over backwards to make others happy... I'm done! when I was suicidal no one cared now why should I care bout someone's opinion lol.

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2025-05-27T18:46:52+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Mai 2025 à 06:46 PM

Ugh I can’t do it how do I explain to him that I need space !? That sometimes I am happier when I’m alone, silent in my apartment. I don’t want to be entertained daily.

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2025-05-27T17:27:40+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Mai 2025 à 05:27 PM

5 Habits that will change your life :

Waking up early: you will have more time to get started on things, more control, less stress in the morning
Reading 10 pages a day: small habit, massive knowledge and growth over time.
Daily exercises: not just for looks, but for energy, discipline and mental clarity.
Limiting screen time: more focus, less distractions, better mental health
Reflecting every night: one way I do this is by journaling ask yourself : what did I learn today? What can improve?

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2025-05-27T17:13:23+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Mai 2025 à 05:13 PM

You can only be bothered by someone’s reaction if you let it.
you don’t have to respond, you don’t have to entertain anyone’s chaos just say okay and move on.
remaining silent is a tool that most people do not have, it makes you powerful.
You dont have to be the one talking, just be quiet and let people tell on themselves because they will if you listen really closely.

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2025-05-27T15:35:30+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Mai 2025 à 03:35 PM

Questions I get because I wear my hair 24/7:

Don’t you get tired of doing your hair everyday?

No I don’t because I don’t do my hair everyday. I do my hair once a week! I wash my hair on Sundays twist them and put it away until I need to wear my hair out again. So yes I wake up and go daily unless I have somewhere special to go to my hair will be in twist.

Don’t you get bored of your hair?

Believe it or not I don’t get bored at all! I used to hate seeing my hair out. I used to love wigs, braids or any hair extensions but now I can’t stand them. I love my hair just the way it is and putting extensions in my hair irritates my scalp and gives me headaches.

Do you do your hair one way?

There’s a lot of hairstyles I can do with my hair but I get lazy at times and do the same thing over and over again lol but as long as I am not damaging my hair then that’s all that matters to me. I do switch it up when I feel like it.

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2025-05-27T14:55:03+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Mai 2025 à 02:55 PM

The month of may is trying to take me out!

I am stressed and it’s one problem after another. I am normally not as open but I can’t handle it right now. One thing that helps me is Jehovah because I have no strength.

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2025-05-26T18:13:08+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 26 Mai 2025 à 06:13 PM

Self care

Everyone’s self care is different and I never judge or picture everyone doing the same things I do to take care of myself. For some people eating a good meal, cooking or laying in the bed doing nothing is a form of self care.

For me self care is going to the gym, getting my nails done, cooking, taking a nice shower, skin care routine, cleaning my space, sleeping, eating a healthy meal, watching a movie after work, drinking water, talking to the people I love, hanging out with my cats. I need all of those things to survive because they all make me happy! I am a very chill girl. I don’t need a lot to be happy, just the small things make me love life.

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2025-05-26T01:46:16+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 26 Mai 2025 à 01:46 AM

A little reminder that When you get married this person has a lot of power over you, more than you realize. That person has the power to tell the doctor how to proceed if you can’t. Let that sink in. Do you trust your partner to make serious life altering decisions on your behalf?

Honestly If you cannot trust that person to be your emergency contact, then simple don’t marry them!

You need someone you have complete trust in. Not just someone who can fold you like a beach chair, someone with a beautiful jawline, 6’4, beautiful face, text back quick but someone who will call the funeral home when your parents passed away and you are too emotional to Do it. You need someone who will hold you in your dark times, someone who will be there when you’re crying at 3 am while the baby is screaming in the background, someone who still finds you hot in an adult diaper after you have just finished given birth. Someone who can spend 11 hours at the hospital with you because you’re sick or your parents are sick. Someone who will carry you and support you through hardships like a miscarriage or infertility. Love is so superficial nowadays even if someone of us hate to admit it but physical attributes seems to matter more than actual love! Chemistry and sexual tension are not love!

Love is commitment, a constant need to make someone’s life better, a deep desire to be around someone because their presence brings you peace. When your heart is beating fast my dear you better run! Love should not give you anxiety it should make you feel whole without the constant need to perform to keep someone interested.

Marriage is a lifelong commitment and it should never be taken lightly. You need someone you trust to lead you, not a guy with the biggest muscles but the guy with the biggest heart who’s kind and prioritized you. Until I find all of this I am more than happy to stay single with my 2 beautiful cats.

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2025-05-25T03:15:42+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 25 Mai 2025 à 03:15 AM

If any of you see me with a man just know he worked day and night to get me to stay with him. To get me to talk to you daily! To update you! To stay by your side as a man is hard work if I don’t already love you or even see a future with you. Men was never my priority! I am literally reading the book “how to date men when you hate men” I have been through so much that dating terrifies me. For that reason if a man don’t initiate any form of contact with me they will never hear from me. He doesn’t call, I don’t call either; he doesn’t set up a date then he won’t see; he doesn’t have a plan then I’m not coming. I am very self sufficient! I could be a maneater if I wanted to but I don’t have the heart to make men suffer. I am a child of God I move intentionally, therefore if I’m not interested in you I will not lead you on. I am a very busy girl so when I make time for a man it’s something! I don’t even let men touch me!

At times I would give my friends advice about dating men and they would say well you’ve never dated so you don’t know, I always say” the coach don’t play” lol I’m the best person to give a girl advise on dating men because my opinion is not biased and my advice come from a place of love not hurt or past traumas.

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