No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2021-06-18T14:20:21+02:00

hey there.

Publié par Gaelle.R 18 Juin 2021 à 02:20 PM

I was going to start an article about what growing up feels like but I think it's very obvious that I am growing up and that all of you are too. I don't want to point the elephant in the room but anyways a lot of things has happened in the past couple of weeks but I am not one to share with the world what's going on in my life, I never like to talk about my life with just anyone unless I trust the person I am talking to and that's very rare. I've learn that one cannot live life alone and not needing anyone, we all need someone even if we think that we have everything. Life is never what it seems because it is so unexpected and unpredictable; in order for us to get out of a funk we need a support system and people that we trust to feel comfortable enough to ask for help.

I am not one who's always eager to ask for help and that is probably one of the hardest things that I have to do, I've always wanted to be the one to save the day and the one who can always make stuff happen alone without needing anyone's help but it's just not possible. I am very grateful for everyone who has put up with me for this long, who has always been there for me and ready to help me; as I am writing this I can feel tears running down my face... It has been really tough lately and life is hard in general and just when you think you are solving a problem another one comes to the surface. I've been feeling like I can never catch a break like what else can life get from me at this point? I am literally waving my white flag because I am defeated but it's just not enough.

One thing for sure is that I am not depressed nor do I want to give up, despite everything this time I am truly happy and at peace. All of that is possible because of Jehovah, if it wasn't for him I'll probably be at a bottom of pit somewhere and I mean literally because I wouldn't know what to do so I would just surrender myself to pain and misery. I have been very self destructive in the past and to be honest it is not something easy to overcome because I let this mentality consumed me for so long that trying to elevate myself and putting the broken pieces back together feels like a tedious task. I am always here to support anyone who is going through something bigger than them, I am always here to listen because I've been there and all I wanted was someone to be there to listen to me even if they don't understand but their presence would make me feel like I am not alone...that is the reason why I want to write because I want to help people with my words so I can touch their hearts even if I am miles away. I've always liked authors who care about their readers and who want to help their audience overcome something without trying to come up with a boring narrative with a catchy title just so they can make money.

I have nothing else to say at this point, I wish everyone an amazing day and stay safe...

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2021-06-14T17:14:36+02:00

5 hard truth that we all need to accept at some point in life.

Publié par Gaelle.R 14 Juin 2021 à 05:14 PM

As humans we all go through hardships, disappointments and a few setbacks but life can be easier if we try to accept those things that I am about to list below.

1. you cannot please everyone, as much as you want to make everyone like you or want to get along with everyone you meet it's just not possible to do that, why? because we all have different personalities, different upbringing and some people might not even have a valid reason for not liking you. When you accept that it is not possible to please everyone that will save you from trying to be someone else just to be liked or to be accepted by people who already doesn't like you, not only does it take away part of your true personality but it can also be physically and emotionally draining, just let the negativity go and surround yourself with people who already love you for who you are.

2. Never dim your light to make someone else shine. I know sometimes we don't want to be in the spotlight and I can relate to that but my fear of being in the spotlight go further as not wanting other people to take pictures of me... (side note that is part of who I am and I just don't know how to change that quite yet) you can still shine without being in the spotlight and the people who are close to you can see your strength and potential, perhaps they might even be jealous of you because of some of the qualities that you possess but that shouldn't be any of your concern. Be who you are, shine bright and stand up for what you believe in.

3. Material things will not fill the void you have inside. As a former shopaholic I can testify that buying a lot of stuff can not only cause buyer's remorse but can also cause you to find yourself into a lot of debt. The void that you may feel inside can be because you don't have enough friends or any real connection with anyone and as much as you would like to connect with that watch or purse you just bought it cannot fill that empty space. Before you march over to the mall check-in with yourself ask yourself why am I going? do I have what I am going to buy in my closet already? Did I pay my bills already?. As superficial as this all may seem it can become a big problem if not addressed in time.

4.spend time with yourself. Most people hate to be alone and they associate being alone as abnormal but truth is those people who cannot stand their own company already hate themselves and cannot stand the mere second of being alone. Look at it this way if you hate spending time with yourself what makes you think someone else will love to spend time with you? As I always say it all starts with you because you are the solution to your problem.

5. Never compare your life to someone else's. Truth is we all have done this at some point in our lives but do not dwell on it and when you find yourself comparing your life to someone else's quickly remind yourself that we are all different and what works for someone else may not work for you and that's okay because we all have our own strength, our own idea of success, our own life circumstances. If you keep looking at other people's life you will find something to be jealous about because there is always going to be someone who is just more beautiful, more successful, more talented and overall better than who you are if you are looking to find it. Instead focus on being your most authentic self and keep striving to reach your goals at your own term that way you are not in competition with anyone else.

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2021-06-12T05:24:03+02:00

what those things mean when I say them.

Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Juin 2021 à 05:24 AM

Chances are if we talked I've said most of these things to you and if you are a stranger or an old friend I probably said these to you a lot more than I would say to my friends.

"Gee thanks!": I am not thanking you and I don't like your compliment or anything you just said to me.

"oh wow": I'm actually not surprised and I have no idea what else to say.

"right": whenever I say right it always means I heard what you just say but I'm still going to do what I want to do.

"no problem": it's a problem.

"it's ok": it's never okay.

"I'm sorry": If I say sorry to you twice in the same sentence I probably feel like I am bothering you and I am not sorry lol.

"take care": I only say this to people I don't intend to talk to again.

"This is so niiice" if I accentuate on the iiice, it's not nice and I hate it.

there's more but that's too much in one night.

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2021-06-08T03:49:05+02:00

stuff that I want to do

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Juin 2021 à 03:49 AM

This is just the superficial things.

1. I want to go to a Stromae concert he is an incredibly talented french singer but sadly he stopped singing! I want him to start singing again because he has way too much talent to let it go to waste. He is so polite, so humble, so handsome, well educated...that's how he appears to be and he said it too " tu penses que je suis gentil pourtant j'suis un malade mental" but I don't believe it! it's true that all the talented people are a little bit crazy lol, maybe that's why I am not a sane person (I literally just gave myself a compliment! haha)

Also, I want to go to a Dadju concert, another talented French singer... I do love french music more than any other type of music. Dadju is super talented and cool, handsome too ! I want to see him in real life.

I want to meet Rupi Kaur and tell her how her poetry has been a huge part of my life and that she gave me courage when I wanted to give up my dream of being a poet, she motivated me to write every day so that I can be at her level.

I want to take a summer off and go to Paris to write a novel "je t'assure que je finirai ce livre, crois moi j'te le promets"

I just said I will finish this book believe me ! I have many stories that I haven't finish, they just never felt right or I lost my trance of thought mid-chapter

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2021-06-07T03:50:42+02:00

Day in the life of...

Publié par Gaelle.R 7 Juin 2021 à 03:50 AM

This is technically about my life and everyone else who's part of it...

It's getting really hot in New England and the summer has just begun! sadly, Archie is feeling the heat, my poor baby has a long fur coat and he has been extremely hot. He has been trying to stay cool on the bathroom floor but a lot is happening around the house, and in my life as well so to speak there is barely space for him to lounge anywhere cool besides the bathroom. He broke one of the screen curtains in one of the windows, he's a really hyperactive kitty and I love that about him. I wouldn't like a dead cat who barely plays with me, not him I just have to get a string toy and he's already on his feet. I love my kitty so much, guys.

There's not much to say about me, I literally pull up my browser to talk about Archie. Well, today has been an extremely hot day and for the first time in a while, I actually wanted to go to the beach or do something fun! I don't always like going to the beach, I would even go hiking! But I didn't I got a lot going on right now and I don't have much leisure time; I guess that's what growing up feels like!

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2021-06-03T15:49:30+02:00

updates.

Publié par Gaelle.R 3 Juin 2021 à 03:49 PM

sadly things never go as you plan them and you just have to figure something else out...

I had a car accident last week, it was not quite a life changing experience like my previous accident because I didn't think I was going to die and I certainly did not see it coming. That accident was not my fault not like the other one was either but for this one someone literally just drove their car right into mine and on my driver side right where I was sitting. Thanks to Jehovah that I am not injured in any way but my car is slightly damaged but because I was not at fault I am not responsible for the damages done.

Mentally I was in shock to the point where I could not believe that I just had a car accident, I didn't even want to tell anyone and there's still a lot of people that I haven't told I guess I am still processing... I am fine just a little stressed and shaken because there is a lot of other things going on in my personal life mostly good stuff but that accident sort of made me feel like things are bad but they're not.

One thing that I learn from this is that You can never plan your life out and expect it to be exactly how you plan it because you will encounter some bump on the road and a few hiccups but no worries all of those inconveniences are there to teach you. You cannot fully mature if you don't make mistakes, cry a few times or a lot, lose a few things and a few friends... You have to be uncomfortable to grow...

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2021-06-03T03:19:43+02:00

stuff that I just discover are good

Publié par Gaelle.R 3 Juin 2021 à 03:19 AM

electrolyte water is the best water I ever tasted.
drinking a cup of tea at night is 50% guaranteed to have better sleep quality but if you drink tea every night before bed it's differently more likely that you will sleep better especially if it's chamomille or other types of calming tea.
petting your pet is a type of stress reliever, I can personally testify that when I pet Archie and he's all calm and relaxed I feel relaxed as well.
sleeping early is good for your brain; you will retain a lot more information and you will not be too exhausted at the end of the day as you would if you went to bed late. You also look healthier when you sleep early.
watching movies instead of watching a show is less time-consuming because when I watch a show I keep watching to see what's going to happen next and there goes my whole afternoon and sometimes my whole day! whereas when I watch a movie for 2 hours I see everything and I'm done for the day.
listening to a podcast you enjoy is a good stress reliever and helps to expand your vocabulary and the best way to learn a new language.

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2021-06-02T04:19:48+02:00

Updates.

Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Juin 2021 à 04:19 AM

Hi guys,

I am thinking about working on a self-help project and that one will be published here so yes you are welcome, I am not going to say what it will be just yet because I don't even know but when I start working on it then I'll know for sure.

weird subject?

yeah, let's talk about it...

As I get older I realize that the less that I post about my life on social media platforms the happier that I get, I used to post selfies every day and post pictures of what I am doing. Nowadays my followers are lucky if they get a pic of me twice a month, I am so private now that whenever I post something it's from months ago so my followers never know what I am doing now or what I actually look like. I am one of those few people who hate social media, I just can't stand the whole likes and the numbers of followers thing; 9 out of 10 times half of the people who are following you are not your real friends in real life see how I say "real" twice, I did because to me social media is just fake and false advertising...I sort of grew out of that stage but something did happen to make me lose interest I just don't want to discuss that here. So do not feel bad if you're not my friend on social media I barely check it and if I blocked you just know that it is for a good reason and don't be surprised if I say hey to you when I see you in person. Some people are big on social media, they will confess their undying love to you online behind a screen but when they see you down the street they want to run and hide! I do not want that childish stuff I am grown now if you cannot man up and come to my face to talk to me don't bother sending me Dms because it will not go anywhere.

Well anyways night night !

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2021-05-29T21:26:14+02:00

want to be happy? try these 5 things.

Publié par Gaelle.R 29 Mai 2021 à 09:26 PM

A disclaimer I do not promise that you will always be happy; no one can be happy all the time because there are things far greater than us that we cannot control, things like death. Sadly, death is one of our biggest enemy and whenever it sets foot somewhere it can only bring pain, tears, and great grief.

These small steps although they can appear easy are the hardest things that anyone can manage to do at all times because we have a lot of emotions, anger, greed, grudges but those steps can help get rid of all of that.

1. find your energy source. That can be keeping a spiritually based life for instance personally if I don't pray, meditate and consult the bible my life would be in total chaos. I admit that not everyone is spiritual and some people haven't got the chance to know God personally, I will always advise that you learn to know God for yourself if you haven't because he is our only hope and the only savior of the human race. One other thing that can be a great energy source is exercising it is scientifically proven that exercising can make someone truly happy if they are persistent and passionate about it. Exercising is good for your body and overall health so that can be something to consider if you want to be happier. Other things can be reading, writing, traveling, hanging out with friends and family, spending time alone because there are people who need to be alone to recharge their social battery, and depriving them of that would be crucial.

2. Move on. I know that it is easier said than done but those 2 words hold a lot more power than we think, you need to move on from those who caused you pain because your happiness is worth way more. you need to move on because holding to the grudge will only make you angry, miserable and it's like bringing the knife back in the wound again. You have to let the wound heal because if you don't at this point you are hurting yourself. Once you move on I can assure you that you will feel a lot happier and free from holding to this heavy baggage that was never yours to carry. Anyone who chooses to hurt you has a problem with themselves and you're just collateral damage.

3. watch out for yourself. Be careful with this step because one can become a narcissist and only care for themselves. You always need to make sure that you're not hurting anyone for the sake of your own happiness. You need to protect your heart from people trying to break it, staying away from danger because if you don't watch out for yourself who will? you need to make sure that you are not putting yourself in danger in any way possible, it could be from smoking cigarettes which is bad for your lungs, not sleeping enough which can be lethal, not eating enough, and not taking care of yourself. Take care of yourself and you should be a lot happier.

4. Take care of your responsibilities. Make sure you are not in debt, pay your bills and take care of your family. If you don't pay your bills you will be in a lot of debt, risk of being homeless, risk of going to jail, being bankrupt and those things can only make you miserable; take care of your responsibilities to live a less stressful and happier life.

5. seek help. This step includes going to the Doctor to make sure you're healthy or to know if you have a problem because knowing that you have a problem early can help save your life. seeking help from a psychologist if you're not in the right place mentally and there is no shame in that. Oftentimes people think that going to see a therapist means that someone has to be crazy or suicidal it is far from that it is to make sure you get the help that you need mentally because if you're sick mentally your whole body will follow and you will be a walking ticking time bomb. Seek help for a happier life.

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2021-05-26T20:27:01+02:00

To the" late bloomers"

Publié par Gaelle.R 26 Mai 2021 à 08:27 PM

You're probably thinking nothing is happening in your life and that you are late at everything but by just living you are doing something incredible.

you're probably thinking about how everyone else is getting in relationships, getting married, having kids while you've never been in a relationship, still single after that last break up and can't find anyone who will give you the love that you deserve. Honestly, you are never late in love and you are never too early either; love happens when it supposed to happen do not force a relationship when you know it's not right just because you're afraid to end up alone. You are never alone even when you feel like you are, God is always watching over you and if you believe in him he will truly guide you to the right path. Stop watching other people's life focus on yours because by focusing on you a lot of things will change and your view on things will change. I know that this society make us believe that you have to be in a relationship to feel complete when the truth is you don't ! because if you don't feel complete before you meet that special someone you will mess up everything by just expecting the other person to make you feel complete; never forget this "you cannot pour from an empty cup." Focus on being a good person and on being everything that you're expecting in a mate.

You're probably thinking about how everyone is graduating or getting their dream jobs. Truth is it's never too late to learn something new, if you're not even 30 you have time to even go back to school to become a Doctor. Stop thinking it's too late, it is not all you have to do is work hard and always believe that you can be the best.

One reminder : "never compare your life to anyone else's because you have your own story and it can never be written twice."

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