No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2021-07-06T13:49:11+02:00

coucou!

Publié par Gaelle.R 6 Juillet 2021 à 01:49 PM

Je vais commencer à écrire en français maintenant, je ne sais pas si mes lecteurs auront la chance de me comprendre mais sache qu’avant d’écrire en anglais j’avais un amour fou pour les poèmes en français et j’avais l’impression que tout sonnait mieux en français qu’en anglais. D'autre en plus Je compte aller à Paris pour écrire quelque chose avant que je meurs. Peut-être mon français n’est plus pareil mais je fais de mon mieux et j’ai comme l’impression que quand je commence à écrire les mots me reviennent c’est comme si tout a été là dans ma mémoire mais j’avais pas eu la chance de les accéder.

Alors bienvenue sur mon blog si toi aussi tu parle français ça me fait beaucoup de plaisirs que tu sois là à me supporter!

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2021-07-06T13:40:37+02:00

Mes sentiments.

Publié par Gaelle.R 6 Juillet 2021 à 01:40 PM

« Effondré par les larmes qui coulent malgré mes efforts pour les arrêter, mais tout à coup j’ai plus la force de me battre pour survive. Je me sens seule sur terre et personne n’est là pour m’aider. J’ai l’impression de gâcher tout ce que je touche. Je n’ai plus la force de dire non et je laisse la douleur m’emporter. »

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2021-07-05T18:00:51+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 5 Juillet 2021 à 06:00 PM

" If I could book an appointment to obtain a "friend" for one day who will pretend to genuinely care and support me I would do it today but I don't have the funds for it." -from a girl in need of a true friend.

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2021-07-02T17:20:46+02:00

anxiety.

Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Juillet 2021 à 05:20 PM

A lot of us have had some form of anxiety whether we are aware of it or not but everyone have experienced it at some point. Ever since this pandemic started a lot of us have been dealing with a lot and myself included. I just want to say that I am here for anyone who needs to talk as I also have anxiety myself. I did not want to admit that I have it because It would be one health problem added to my problem list... but as I look at the way that I react in some situations I realize that I have it.

Let's all be kind to one another, let's all be understanding. I wanted to apologize to some people for not showing up when they invited me to things even if they were virtual but I guess it would sounds like an excuse ! (nervous laughing emoji inserted) ever since this pandemic started I have been craving to be more alone than usual and that's becoming a problem because I have no desire to do anything or to go anywhere besides work... I just like being home and any time spent away from my house feels like a torture (nervous laughing emoji inserted) I am always rushing to get home or to be alone. I don't think I need to apologize for that, there is an underlying issue here. I will do my best to validate my emotions and feelings.

My little advice to anyone dealing with anxiety:

do not rush things.
go to bed early and have a balanced sleep schedule.
drink a lot of water.
exercise.
avoid watching too much TV
read.
play with a pet.
go outdoor (I am laughing on the inside ! I hate being outside especially in this heat but I have to step out to clear my mind)
take your time when making a really important decision even if you feel like you don't have much time left.
Take time to breathe and to relax because stressing about a situation will only make your anxiety worse.

I am saying all this and it it's difficult! I am always tapping my feet on the floor, moving my hands and my mind is racing... So much negative thoughts are circulating up there. It's not a great feeling at all and personally I don't want to take any medication. I will not advise anyone dealing with severe anxiety not to take medication because it's important to see a Doctor and to be treated. I believe that I have mild anxiety the kind you have when things are falling apart and when you about to go on stage for the first time which is how I feel going into a crowded place or meeting people I have not met. Actually it's different for me because I love meeting new awesome people as long as they are not overbearing, loud, judgmental and touchy.

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2021-07-02T14:03:05+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Juillet 2021 à 02:03 PM

"sometimes it's not the place you hate but the people there."

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2021-07-02T14:01:25+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Juillet 2021 à 02:01 PM

"sinking

drowning

suffocating

and alone."

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2021-07-01T13:40:43+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Juillet 2021 à 01:40 PM

"Like a bird I let the wind take me wherever it needs me to go,

My wings take me so high that I can almost touch the clouds.

when I walk I don't wish I was flying, I just let my feet take me."

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2021-06-30T16:46:06+02:00

cheezy questions answered.

Publié par Gaelle.R 30 Juin 2021 à 04:46 PM

let's talk about loooove ...

Have you been in love?

*insert thinking emoji, yes I have but it was such a tragedy I wore black for days.

have you been on date and how recent?

Yes I have, I don't want to say how recent you guys will be shocked !

would you order a steak on a date?

yes I will order anything I like on the menu, I like to feel comfortable.

will you pay for your food on a date?

I will if I need to because I always carry my wallet just in case something like this happens but just so we clear there might not be a second date because I don't mind taking myself out to eat alone.

Do you have problems eating in front of guys?

yes I used to but not anymore because I figured I starved myself enough in the past and if you can't handle me chewing, well there's a lot more you won't be able to handle.

Would you dress up for a date?

Uhm yeah ! otherwise I could've stay at home.

do you have a tiktok account?

I don't think I do but if I do I never use it and same goes for Instagram I only pop in every 6 months and like a random picture what a creep !

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2021-06-30T16:24:28+02:00

A few quotes I just thought about. So cheezy!

Publié par Gaelle.R 30 Juin 2021 à 04:24 PM

"Love songs feel different when you're in love."

"A lot of people are in love but are not together, I wonder if that can change."

" The purest love is to love despite not being loved in return."

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2021-06-28T19:47:21+02:00

heat wave.

Publié par Gaelle.R 28 Juin 2021 à 07:47 PM

Hey guys,

I Hope all of you find a cool spot today because outside is not a good place to be, it is so hot right now that I am very grateful to be at work today because it's cold inside. Some people might be going to the beach even if it's a Monday, I could never I like going to the beach on Sundays I don't know why but I haven't been to the beach since 2018 ! last year I went but I only walked I didn't go in the water. I don't mind going to the beach it's just not my favorite thing to do because I hate driving far to only pay for parking when I get there... sometimes I don't pay for parking but when I get there the beach is most likely packed... If I could have my own personal beach I would lol I guess I'll just get a pool whenever I am able to get one.

I am not too excited to go to the beach, I don't like crowded places and when I do go to the beach I usually find a quiet spot far from everyone. I am not anti social I promise, I just like my alone time. I am not sure how Archie is handling this heat poor baby is stuck inside wish I had a camera to see what he's up to!

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