No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2021-04-21T02:39:07+02:00

Updates.

Publié par Gaelle.R 21 Avril 2021 à 02:39 AM

Hey !

How are you doing?

I am doing great, I have been really busy with life. I wish that I could say that I am working on something for you dear readers but I have been sort of distracted lately, I am trying to get my focus back. Despite my lack of productivity, I am still inspired here and there but not as much as I would like. Do you know that saying that says " I keep trying to ignore everything so I won't be able to feel anything" well I feel Like that is happening to me; I have enough feelings in me to write a whole book series but somehow I am scared of reaching deep down into my inner self because I am afraid of what I am going to find. I will reach into my inner feelings when I am ready but I think it's too soon to access them now.

Archie is doing fine, he was getting a bit aggressive actually he is still aggressive but I took him to the vet so they can trim his nails so I am safe for now. I will neuter him in 2 months he is too young for me to do it now well that's what the vet told me. He is still a baby and I love him so much. I cannot bear the thought of someone doing anything bad to him. He is so cute, so sweet I just love when he's sleepy I just want to smoosh his little face next to mine.

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2021-04-18T18:45:31+02:00

thoughts.

Publié par Gaelle.R 18 Avril 2021 à 06:45 PM

This is my opinion, I saw this quote online and I think it went something like "Anyone who is ok with being alone is truly powerful". The first time I read the post I thought it meant that someone is powerful because they don't need anyone but the more I think about it I realize that It is more than that; because we all need someone even the worse people on earth has a soft spot for someone.

Being powerful alone to me doesn't mean that I do not need anyone, I need people in my life and I need certain relationships to thrive but I don't always need someone to make me happy or to go on with life. Being powerful alone for me is being able to walk into a restaurant and getting a table alone while you sat down to eat your meal, It's being your own gym partner, your own coffee buddy, your own study buddy not that you don't need anyone but being alone does not scare you. This society has made us believe that we need to be in a relationship in order to feel important but the most important part of you is not the one you created with someone but the part you created while you were alone sorting your life out.

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2021-04-15T04:39:49+02:00

sad truth.

Publié par Gaelle.R 15 Avril 2021 à 04:39 AM

What I am about to say is truly how I feel towards my writing, I know that I am not the most brilliant writer and I am far from perfect but I often wonder If other writers feel the way that I feel. I am a perfectionist which means that everything I do is never good enough until I spent a whole night fixing it. On this blog, I just write an article in less than an hour and I post it to only be faced with the reality that It wasn't my best work. When I take my time to read it again I almost want to delete and if you take a close look at my blog there are a lot of articles that I've already deleted. After I post anything here and I look back I can see all the words that I spelled wrong, the commas that are in the wrong places, or the way that expressed what I feel which is far from perfect I almost want to throw my computer away and hide.

I never want to show what I am working on because I am afraid of being criticized, I wasn't like this but this world has made me want to protect my most valuable possessions and my writing is my place to escape. I am also afraid of someone misinterpreting my craft or comparing me to another writer, It's an irrational fear I know but it's one that I don't know how to get past at the moment, perhaps one day I'll be a great writer if I persevere hard enough.

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2021-04-12T21:01:59+02:00

random

Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Avril 2021 à 09:01 PM

what are some things that you want but never got?

I want a Daniel wellington watch and a typewriter. I will get them but the right moment never came. I want to make it special when I get them because I've been wanting those things since I was 19.

what is my specialty?

I have many but one of them is making plans that I will never follow through. What can I say! I love my bed and my house, now that I have a kitten I just like spending the whole day with him.
what does a guy have to do to get my attention?

nothing. If you're fighting to get my attention maybe I'm just not interested.

why don't I have many friends?

Because I hate drama and I don't have enough energy to give to a lot of people. I hate texting, I hate long phone calls...the list goes on but for the people I love I will do anything to hang out with them even if it's just to take a nap.

Why I love cats so much?

I don't know all I can say is I was born this way.

why is my hair not like it was before?

because I am tired of how it was, I like to change my hair.

Am I in a relationship?

yes with Jehovah. Respectfully.

what did I do to gain weight?

eat, eat, eat and eat.

one bad habit?

Forgetting to save people's numbers on my phone, I may be good friends I mean no if you're my friend I have your number saved if I don't have it well ask yourself why lol. No shade I love everyone but some with a distance

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2021-04-12T20:55:29+02:00