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2021-05-09T05:09:22+02:00

Memories.

Publié par Gaelle.R

part 1.

Singing along with you after we printed the lyrics off of my uncle's computer. You always sounded great and I would often wonder what I sounded like. You were always excited to sing with me despite that I was scared in the beginning because I was afraid you would tell me that I sounded bad. I admire your courage and how you were able to stand in front of the whole school to sing that song by Amel Bent. I always knew you would go far in life because of how courageous you are and how you studied really hard in school. You knew most of the answers the teacher would ask especially in history... I hope you are doing well in life and I know that you have a beautiful daughter who looks exactly like you and I hope that she's courageous like you. 

Part 2.

It was a bright sunny day and I didn't even need my jacket. We had spent the whole day together and I was really nervous but I could tell you didn't care that I was a bit awkward. I often wonder if you knew the effect you had on me? you were always so sure of yourself, so confident and so tall. All the girls were looking at you and I felt out of place like I shouldn't be standing next to you. That day we walked, laughed, and talked; in the car, the wind was blowing through my hair and you were looking at me mesmerized, I remember thinking is this the part where you fall in love with me? Although we were not meant to be I have many memories of you that aren't completely erased from my brain yet.

Part 3.

I remember thinking look at that girl ! she is so confident and she walks into the building like she own it even if she's not big but you wouldn't know because she acted like the biggest girl in the room. I was always proud of you and I always want the best for you although it is not the same I will always cherish the memory we created while all we had was each other.

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2021-05-08T04:42:33+02:00

Update.

Publié par Gaelle.R

hey guys,

One friendly reminder: No matter how passionate and invested I am about my craft, I will only do it if I am inspired. Truth is I can never go a full month without writing.

Like everything else in my life I will only do something if I want to it doesn’t matter what it is, if I want to succeed and excel I will only achieve my goals unless I sat down with myself and give an agreement. When I want to do something I go all in and there is no obstacles that can wear me down because I will fight until there is not a single breath left in me. No one can force me into doing anything unless I want to... for instance at a very young age I wanted to pursue a career in medicine although I am working in health care but I am not sure if that’s what I want anymore. I want to create, publish, inspire, travel and to explore new sides of me that I didn’t know about. I want to grow spiritually and I want to feel even closer to Jehovah; that is all I want in life.

Although I may not be traveling right this minute because of Covid but slowly I will ease into that life. One thing I learn is that we all have a purpose and for so long I have tried to make what my parents want my purpose, or to make what my other friends are doing part of my goals but I took a step back and there was really no one standing back there with me; I took a good look at my life and I realize that I never wanted those things that I’ve spent years chasing. All I ever wanted has always been inside of me all along, I have been looking elsewhere for my purpose while I was living in it sadly I was too blinded to see that. I am slowly making my way back into the light and I am very grateful that I had a little time to think everything through. Now what next?

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2021-05-02T12:32:52+02:00

Best feelings and moments.

Publié par Gaelle.R
  • Waking up early in the morning and hearing the birds chirping while slowly open up my eyes with the window open slightly revealing a brand new day.
  • waking up with a strong smell of coffee or bacon invading the air.
  • waking up with my kitten sleeping soundly snuggle up right next to me and I so carefully try to get out of bed without waking him up.
  • watching a black and white film or any movie that Audrey Hepburn is starred in while I snuggle up in bed with lots of pillows.
  • sipping a delightful cup of tea preferably peppermint tea which has always been my favorite.
  • watching a sleepy cat or a yawning cat is so satisfying.

                                              ....

there are many more wonderful moments that I enjoy but I would rather put the rest in a story.

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2021-04-30T17:25:35+02:00

fun questions

Publié par Gaelle.R

what makes me happy?

Oh wow, there's a lot of things that make me happy Ok so besides cats and kittens as you all know by now I am obsessed with cats, if not then keep reading you'll see.

  1. babies: yes I love looking at them but I'll watch them when they can either crawl or kind of walk not when they are fresh out of the womb. Uhm I don't know what to do and I'm scared that I might be holding them wrong.
  2. meeting people who share a lot of my interest: It's very rare for me to meet someone I really click with but when that happens I am beyond thrilled.
  3. eating my favorite meals: which is steak with mashed potatoes, green beans, salmon, lobster, broccoli, some Mexican food like tacos. To be clear, not all of those mixed together but separately 
  4. Being in a beautiful and yet quiet place: I love the stillness of things.
  5. having a good night of sleep and woke up with a good breakfast.
  6. Rabbits. I love them especially the brown ones that have fluffy tails
  7. waking up when my alarm was supposed to wake me but realizing that I have a little bit more time to sleep. That right there is the best feeling.
  8. making someone laugh. Most of the time when I make someone laugh it is unintentional but I love it when that happens!
  9. writing a poem or short story and realizing that it's one of my best work. Wow, that feeling to me is worth more than any money in the world. I love being inspired, creating, publishing, expressing myself through my work. If I could be a successful writer without having another side hustle I would leave everything else at the drop of a hat and just be a writer full time but I have a lot going on and so far my writing hasn't provided me financially yet. 
  10. a well-made bed. I barely have time to make my bed the way I like in the morning because I'm always rushing out the door but I always make my bed even if it's not top tier.

Uhm I have many more but I figured the more I am going down that list the more it gets boring but if you found that remotely interesting well maybe we can be friends!

why don't I socialize a lot?

I am sure most of you know that I am an introvert but I am not the typical shy type I am the social introvert I am somewhat shy when I go somewhere new and I am not sure how I should act or what to do. I do socialize but I am not a social butterfly I have my limit and once I reach that limit I am done for the day I might as well get my bag and go. The truth is I wish that I could socialize for a long period of time but it just doesn't feel right.

Since My name is also Melodie do I love music?

Yes, I love music, I cannot spend a day without listening to at least one song. I also love to sing even if I don't have a great voice but it makes me happy especially when I am doing chores. 

How is my acne?

so I ended up going to a dermatologist and I also went to see my primary care doctor, I am currently using a topical medication. My skin is slowly improving it might take a while for my skin to be fully recovered but I have faith that it will happen, I just have to be patient. I did try curology as I mentioned before but when I started using it I only had acne in the lower part of my face like my chin but I started getting acne all over my face and they described that as "purging" I wasn't too happy about that, most people would continue using the product until they find improvement but I gave up too early I guess. I rather have a slow improvement with minimal acne instead of having my whole face filled with acne to only get results later! They did send me another month of supply but I still haven't opened the box. I am not excited about that brand anymore but I wouldn't tell someone not to use it because what doesn't work for me may work for someone else.

what do I think about the Covid-Vaccine?

To be honest, I do not want to get into this debate, I think it's a personal choice and each individual has to make that decision themselves because you are basically choosing to put or not to put something in your body. Plus I don't want the CDC website to shut me down ! not that my opinion would make a difference in that matter.

why is my blog look like a bakery website on a computer screen?

The last time I design this blog I was 18 and I haven't change it since, at that time I was coo-coo for pink and anything that looks girly. I have matured and my taste is definitely different now maybe I should redesign my blog again soon... I will try to personalize it to my taste but then again if you're using a phone to visit this blog you will not see all of my hard work you have to use a computer. 

When am I going to publish my book?

For me, everything happens in a set of orders. I am not in a rush to publish anything, I like to take my time in everything that I am doing but if this world doesn't end in the next 3 years you shall see my name across a manuscript. 

 

 

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2021-04-29T17:53:25+02:00

Enough.

Publié par Gaelle.R

At times I want to scream and want the whole world to feel my wrath but somehow all I can do is mask all of it inside while I burst into tears, not because I am hurt but because I know what I am capable of but somehow something is holding me back from exploding. 

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2021-04-21T02:39:07+02:00

Updates.

Publié par Gaelle.R

Hey !

How are you doing? 

I am doing great, I have been really busy with life. I wish that I could say that I am working on something for you dear readers but I have been sort of distracted lately, I am trying to get my focus back. Despite my lack of productivity, I am still inspired here and there but not as much as I would like. Do you know that saying that says " I keep trying to ignore everything so I won't be able to feel anything" well I feel Like that is happening to me; I have enough feelings in me to write a whole book series but somehow I am scared of reaching deep down into my inner self because I am afraid of what I am going to find. I will reach into my inner feelings when I am ready but I think it's too soon to access them now.

Archie is doing fine, he was getting a bit aggressive actually he is still aggressive but I took him to the vet so they can trim his nails so I am safe for now. I will neuter him in 2 months he is too young for me to do it now well that's what the vet told me. He is still a baby and I love him so much. I cannot bear the thought of someone doing anything bad to him. He is so cute, so sweet I just love when he's sleepy I just want to smoosh his little face next to mine.

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2021-04-18T18:45:31+02:00

thoughts.

Publié par Gaelle.R

This is my opinion, I saw this quote online and I think it went something like "Anyone who is ok with being alone is truly powerful". The first time I read the post I thought it meant that someone is powerful because they don't need anyone but the more I think about it I realize that It is more than that; because we all need someone even the worse people on earth has a soft spot for someone.

Being powerful alone to me doesn't mean that I do not need anyone, I need people in my life and I need certain relationships to thrive but I don't always need someone to make me happy or to go on with life. Being powerful alone for me is being able to walk into a restaurant and getting a table alone while you sat down to eat your meal, It's being your own gym partner, your own coffee buddy, your own study buddy not that you don't need anyone but being alone does not scare you.  This society has made us believe that we need to be in a relationship in order to feel important but the most important part of you is not the one you created with someone but the part you created while you were alone sorting your life out. 

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