No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2019-02-20T17:09:34+01:00

11:11

Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Février 2019 à 05:09 PM

Losing something can be quite hard...

Whatever it may be that you've lost but it is even harder when It's a human being or someone you deeply loved and cared about. It doesn't matter if you didn't care about the person but something about death makes even the meanest people seem sweet in that casket as if they didn't do anything bad but it doesn't matter now that they are gone. I've lost a lot in so little time that at some point I also lost interest in all the things that I used to love. You can be fine physically but mentally you are dead, unable to remain strong. Even the strongest people feel weak at times. It takes time to feel better and to fully grieve. I learn that It's okay to let go of some stuff for the better and to fill that empty space with something meaningful.

which is why I was not here for a while. I am not giving up rather I feel more inspired to keep going but even the great fall and right now I am not standing on my two feet but as I landed on my back I can try to get back up. as MLK said "if you can't fly, then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl but whatever you do, you have to keep moving forward." I intend to do just that...

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2019-02-16T10:10:50+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 16 Février 2019 à 10:10 AM

when things go wrong don't go with them.

les brown

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2019-02-14T21:20:20+01:00

February 14, 2019

Publié par Gaelle.R 14 Février 2019 à 09:20 PM

while sitting here thinking about what happened to me today a question just come to mind.

If I died today what would I leave behind?

well I think about my family, my job... I would've left my phone, my house,this blog but really all the material things that I possess wouldn't save me from dying.

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2019-02-14T20:58:22+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 14 Février 2019 à 08:58 PM

hey there,

I've been gone for quite a while. There's been a lot going on and it hasn't got any better. I am happy to be alive even when life is coming at me hard. Today I've been in a tragic incident, I am ok. I look a lot better than I feel inside. I don't want to feel empty again. I want to be strong, I don't want to give up now.

I have been taking a break, I think we all should take a break when we're going through a lot. It's like the words aren't coming when I'm here anymore.

It's so painful to come here. I don't know what to do to make it better if it can get any better.

for now I am going to live this here just because I am thankful to be alive today.

thank God for another day.

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2019-01-31T04:16:28+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 31 Janvier 2019 à 04:16 AM

In just a minute you were gone.

Not giving me enough time to ask why?

I want to know why you had to leave me so quick.

Why couldn't you stay, why so soon?

you took a piece of me with you.

I'll never be the same without you.

I am forerver missing a part of me.

Your absence took a toll on me that nothing else has.

I've never been out of words,

my mind had never been so empty.

...

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2018-12-12T08:44:13+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Décembre 2018 à 08:44 AM

Unpredicted Offer

I wish it wasn’t true.

I was willing to give it all up.

I was willing to stay and listen.

Here I am learning that you found something else.

I don’t think it’s better than what I was offering.

Is it true?

Are you willing to take it ?

Are you forgetting what could’ve happen if you didn’t accept that offer?

What if you took mine instead, would you take that chance?

Excuse me we’ve never even talked about it.

Have you at least think about it?

I thought about it so much that little by little I started to make it my reality.

It mattered to me.

Doesn’t matter now that I feel like an idiot because you gave it up.

It hurts.

I wish it didn’t.

I wish you could tell me that it’s a lie.

I’m afraid of what I might find.

So I’m going to leave it here

Tonight.

We not going to talk about it again.

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2018-12-07T05:55:06+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 7 Décembre 2018 à 05:55 AM

Bad day, lonely night.

You’re not you when you’re feeling this way.

You’re not you when you’re hiding away from everyone.

You’re not you when you’re crying without knowing why.

You’re not you when you’re sad and stay silent.

You change each time your world is breaking apart.

You change each time you cry yourself to sleep.

You change each time you decide to stay silent when you could’ve talk.

You change each time you stop believing in yourself.

You’re not you when you’re apologizing for everything.

You change so much that you don’t remember who you are anymore.

Those thoughts.

Sleepless nights.

Feeling worthless from time to time.

Feeling pain but don’t know how bad from a scale from 1 to 10.

Hurting but don’t know exactly where or what is hurting.

Wishing you could feel pain.

Wishing you could feel what’s making you cry so much.

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2018-12-06T06:59:25+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 6 Décembre 2018 à 06:59 AM

Hey there,

I’ve been posting on a daily now. Constant product from my imagination coming in and some of them for a while ago. I wasn’t ready to share. Now I’m more comfortable with my style of writing. I’m more direct than before I think. I’m maturing I guess. I told y’all might not be ready for some of my stuff (lol). Now I know what I want to do and I have an idea of what image I want to provide when I’m working on something. Some of my stuff may not make sense to some of you maybe it’s because you don’t know me well.

Thank you for reading.

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2018-12-06T06:53:32+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 6 Décembre 2018 à 06:53 AM

Nostalgia.

Dragging through life,

I don’t want to admit that your absence is the reason why I’m sad.

I do miss you a little.

I try to stay strong.

I know I won’t be seeing your pretty face and your strong body anytime soon.

I know you’re gone.

I accept that you are not here.

I know it’s worth it that you’re gone simply because you are following your dream but I can’t help but miss seeing you.

My eyes have gotten so used to seeing you that I don’t know what they will do now that you’re gone.

The idea of you remain unanswered.

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2018-12-04T06:02:05+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 4 Décembre 2018 à 06:02 AM

Hope you know that I’m right here.

Hope you know that I got a shoulder for you to cry on.

Hope you know that I’m not leaving you behind.

I will wait for for you right by the door for when you want to leave.

I will call you daily to make sure you’re okay.

I will stay by your side until you’re strong enough to stand on your own.

If you have to go I will let you.

If you have to cry I have a spare tissue in my purse for you.

If you have to run know that I got my running shoes ready,don’t mind my heels.

If you have to disappear know that I’m not scared of the dark and I will hide with you.

We don’t have to do this.

We don’t have to pretend.

We don’t have to act like we’re in love.

You need me and I need you.

We don’t have to answer to nobody’s question.

We don’t have to talk about it.

Just hold me.

I won’t let go.

Just kiss me, I won’t tell.

Don’t worry about how we’re going to get out of here.

There’s no expectation.

I am not waiting for you to come and rescue me.

I am not waiting for you to call me.

I’m not waiting for you to tell me that you need me, because I know.

I know you need me by your side.

I know when you hear my voice you get peaceful.

I know when you see me your smile gets brighter.

I know when you hear me coming you act different.

I know that you wish that it could be more.

We’re not going to talk about it.

Not tonight.

Not tomorrow morning.

Hold my hand while you’re driving.

You’re Smiling back at me.

Memories.

You tell me about your past.

I tell you what I want my future to look like.

You tell me about your night.

I tell you how my morning went.

You tell me about what you want.

I tell you about what I need.

Beautiful eyes staring back at me.

No expectation.

Don’t make a wish, it’s just play pretend.

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