No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2021-05-23T19:44:48+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Mai 2021 à 07:44 PM

hey guys,

How is everyone doing on this fine Sunday? it's hot here in New England that is the perfect weather to start going to the beach, hiking, having picnics... I can't think of anything else. Not that I would do any of that today, someone just told me that I am a cat person and it is true LOL I love my alone times, I like to sit and watch the world through my window; I feel safe that way but I know that one day I must step out of my comfort zone but unfortunately that day is not today. I want you all to live life to the fullest and do things that you are afraid of to conquer your fears; I have yet to follow that motto.

Someone asked me: why don't you speak much?

The first thing I think about when someone asks me that is "I am a writer, not a talker, I write the script so you can speak." Lol but no that's my own personal joke; Truth is I can talk a lot it's either: I just don't want to, don't feel comfortable, my friends aren't here (Do I have any friends?), don't feel like what I have to say will make an impact. I don't know why I am quiet in a group setting most of the time, I have yet to figure this out; in a small group I tend to feel less pressure to speak and I can say what I think easily. I do have an opinion on everything because I am always thinking, always doing research if I don't speak sometimes it's because I don't want to open another argument as I do not like confrontation.

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2021-05-20T21:31:44+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Mai 2021 à 09:31 PM

"I had a dream about you,

You were my other half not a long lost memory.

I could feel more in that dream than I ever felt in my entire life."

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2021-05-20T17:41:39+02:00

crazy cat

Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Mai 2021 à 05:41 PM

Hey guys,

I have a crazy kitten! Archie gets really agitated at night and early in the morning two of the worse times that I am trying to either fall asleep or trying to stay asleep. I love him to the moon and back but his behavior is too much even for me, I am usually calm and I do not care about the chaos that often surrounds me but I do not play about my sleep; I need my 8 hours of sleep in order to perform properly otherwise I will crash and snap at everyone.

I am trying to find something that will calm him down when he's going crazy so far I've heard catnip is good for cats as a stress reliever and anxiety but I really don't want to give my cat drugs ! I wouldn't take drugs and my cat won't either. There was a point where I was like it's only a plant I'll just get it for him on amazon, by then I was completely tired of his repeated psychotic behavior ! he did not get that from me; anyways I need to find something quick soon before he goes for his surgery. The second thing I found that can help is a cat diffuser I would just plug it on the wall it's like those febreze wall plug but instead of filling it with air freshener I will put some cat calming solution; I think this sounds better but will it help? Honestly I didn't know how time consuming it is to have a cat sure they are independent but they love attention and you have to schedule play time session with them otherwise they will go crazy and break stuff. I could also get a calming collar but it will not work Archie hates collars he will just flip and try everything on earth to remove that thing off his neck. He is like a baby ! I spoil him too much which is why he is driving me up a wall simply because I haven't fed him his favorite meal which I cannot find at the store at the moment ! He is such a brat lol but cute. But if you ask me I don't regret getting Archie I would do it all over again he is truly my baby.

I think I found something that might help ! calming wipes on amazon I will give them a try so whenever he is going crazy I will just pick him and wipe his face with it actually no I read somewhere that you shouldn't apply anything on your cat unless it is vet medication so I will make him smell it? or I will wipe his carrier and put him in there for 5 minutes, that sounds better to me.

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2021-05-19T17:50:44+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 19 Mai 2021 à 05:50 PM

Hey,

The last article make me out to look like a narcissist, in the contrary as an INFJ I care about everyone even the friends that I am no longer friends with; If I see them anywhere I will greet them and talk to them. I do not cut people out of my life for no absolute reason believe me before I make that decision I was either deeply hurt, protecting me and the other person from an ugly falling out or the friendship just died on its own. I care about people and I am far from being a narcissist, I felt the need to make that clear just in case some people get the wrong idea.

I am a Christian and I strive to be empathetic, understanding, loving, kind, happy and positive as possible. I hope everyone is having a wonderful day.

...

PS. Underneath that mask I am super nice.

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2021-05-18T19:57:26+02:00

is it a friend?

Publié par Gaelle.R 18 Mai 2021 à 07:57 PM

This morning as I was eating my breakfast while getting ready to leave the house, I came across a video from a fellow INFJ as I am an INFJ as well which automatically makes me an introvert. INFJ stands for introverted, intuitive, feeling, and judging which means that we are very empathetic, caring, soft-spoken, rare, intuitive and have strong morals. The video talked about what a true friend is, but before we get into it let me take you way back in the beginning. I relate so much with the person who made the video so I am going to talk put it in my own perspective.

As an INFJ I tend to attract a fair amount of people(not a lot because I admit I am not always welcoming but trust me I mean well) and make them feel at ease because of my inviting exterior(unless I am not hungry), calm demeanor which can make some of the people that I attract feel like they are my friend. I hate to hurt people's feeling when I tell them you are not a friend even if we do go out to eat, do stuff together or talk long hours...I will never tell someone who I know doesn't deserve to be treated badly that they aren't my friend, to me that's just being an hypocrite but before we get into that. I did make the mistake of letting some people get too close while I had no intention of being their friend however I didn't do it intentionally to rectify my action I sort of let time destroy what they think was a "friendship" not to be mean which I am not but I believe that we are entitled to pick our friends and I will not accept a forced friendship or something I did not want. A real friend is someone who is clapping for your success, happy for you when you succeed and want the best for you; now from your circle do you see anyone who's really happy for your success? helping you succeed? or are they judging? afraid to compliment you because they think you're going to feel superior? disappearing when you are doing well?. You can tell when someone is truly happy for you and not all of that fake stuff. I never had many friends I have had maybe 3 real friends in my whole life but I have had many acquaintances.

As an INFJ we tend to just let unnecessary friendships, toxic relationships just slowly die, we never stick around to see the end result because we can see how it's going to play out so we make the decision to end it for you, which is why they associate this act as a door slammed yes if you hurt an INFJ they will just slam the door in your face and forget your mere existence all together...

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2021-05-17T22:16:52+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 17 Mai 2021 à 10:16 PM

In a world full of hatred and hostility would you dare to love?

Will you forgive them when all you can think about is the pain that they caused?

will you you smile in the face of tragedy?

Will you count your blessing when everything else is falling apart?

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2021-05-17T21:52:35+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 17 Mai 2021 à 09:52 PM

When I publish my first book I am sure someone will ask me :"who hurt you sis?!"

-lol that was me joking.(I have a dry sense of humor you either love it or hate it, either way I will keep making jokes.)

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2021-05-11T22:03:57+02:00

weekly update.

Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Mai 2021 à 10:03 PM

Looks like we are slowly going back to our normal lives. I still take the social distancing seriously although some will argue that it's because I love staying by myself that's why I am more than happy to stay away from everyone but that is also true. I love being alone but not for too long because then I am going to start wondering if I matter to anyone, wow here I go again being emotional; but no I do not have that problem at the moment because I know that even if I don't matter to a lot of people here on earth at least I matter to God, that to me is the most important validation that I could ever receive.

we all need human interactions I agree and I know that I am not the average typical human who craves the company of random people but I would hang out with some people once in a while. I am trying really hard not to bury myself in my own world because the truth is I can and I have done it countless of times. Now that things are slowly getting back to normal because of the vaccine I do feel a little anxious but not because soon we will finally be able to see everyone and be in large crowds but because I am not sure if I'll be able to adapt. I have accepted the fact that being away from everyone and seeing people on a screen as the new normal that I am afraid that I will not be able to handle being with everyone! I am just being a little paranoid as always but I know that I am not the only one who feels this way. Some of us have embraced being alone that being around people especially without a mask will be kind of weird.

Don't get me wrong I want Covid to be gone, we all have lost someone to this tragic pandemic including me but somehow I am still panicking, what if it's too soon? what if I cannot handle it? so many questions... But I know that I will be okay as time goes on and if you feel the same way as I do you will be okay as well.

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2021-05-11T19:30:30+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Mai 2021 à 07:30 PM

"At times, I miss those days when everything was light between us,

when we could genuinely laugh without thinking the other person is secretly judging the other.

When our smiles were real and when we could really count on each other.

I miss our coded conversations that no one else seemed to comprehend.

I miss seeing you look at me with pride as if you were proud to have me close to you."

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2021-05-10T03:33:32+02:00

About Archie

Publié par Gaelle.R 10 Mai 2021 à 03:33 AM

I am like the most annoying cat mom on earth but I met a few other cat owners who are just like me so that gave me some hope. Archie has been the best kitten a girl could ever have, he's really clean and very independent. I didn't have to litter trained him when I brought him home he already knew how to use it by himself. One thing I don't like is that he does not like to stay on me for too long, he just likes to play and sleep 6 ft away from me but just close enough to check on me whenever he hears a noise. Archie is so quiet he does not like to meow that often unless he's getting anxious or having the zoomies which mostly happens at night.

The weirdest thing he does is quietly getting under the covers while I am asleep to just bite me ugh! I hate when he does that but I love him too much to act aggressively towards him. He is still a kitten even if he is tall, he will be a kitten until he's 1 year in a half he's just 6 months at the moment. I can no longer have headphones with cords anymore because he will chew on them. Archie is the cutest while he's asleep and yawning. I love him so much it hurts, but in the future, I plan on getting another kitten. It will be too much for me to have 2 cats at the moment because I do not have the space for it. I will need to have enough space so that each cat has their own territory because they are very territorial.

so far everything is great I will spay him next month before he starts spraying all over the house, the surgery will be painful but I will make sure to be there for him every step of the way. I will cater to him if I have to lol because he is basically my son. Every time I meet someone who does not like cats I just cannot believe it like how? they are so adorable but I will not force cats on anyone because everyone has their own preference and I respect that.

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