No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2020-10-15T18:38:51+02:00

being introverted.

Publié par Gaelle.R 15 Octobre 2020 à 06:38 PM

I can say that from the moment that I was born I was probably an introvert and being an only child didn't really help lol. Before quarantine I was probably less than an introvert than I am now because I used to not mind hanging out with people, talking on the phone, and even texting back in 30 seconds or right away. Now it's not the case, I avoid some interaction blaming it on "the pandemic"(I don't have any shame lol) I don't like talking on the phone with anyone except one person and I do not like having long back and forth with someone I just go straight to the point so I can get back to my stuff or texting back because I am "busy" to be honest I just forgot to text back or I am too absorbed in a tv show, movie or a book. I am sorry that I have become so anti-social lol but now after some thinking, I know what is happening.

When quarantine first started I was home a lot because I only worked on the weekends because of school but the pandemic happened so I didn't get to go to school physically which caused me to withdraw from a lot of things. Let's not forget that I also had the virus from which I had to stay away from everyone. I was probably a social introvert at the beginning of the year because I didn't mind social gatherings yes they were draining but I would be there. I always needed alone time to recharge and to clarify I need alone time not because I have social anxiety but because I simply enjoy it and that Is how I can recuperate from being a social butterfly. Now I feel like I am a thinking introvert because I spend most of my time alone and I think a lot mostly about myself and who I am as a person which makes me become very self-aware. I feel like I have created my own comfortable world inside my head and I hate to leave it to go socialize. I don't have a problem talking to people but I would rather not or I would like to be ready beforehand. I do leave the house but only to take care of my own stuff... what is socializing? because I forgot what it is.

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2020-10-14T19:41:36+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 14 Octobre 2020 à 07:41 PM

Truth is I’ve grown so much in such little time that you cannot recognize me anymore.

I am not going to shrink myself to fit the person you once knew.

I am not going to act like I still like what you do if I don’t like it.

I’ve learned to be who I am without apology.

No more lies, no more trying to be someone you might like.

I do not need anyone’s approval besides God’s.

You don’t like me but my mama loves me way more than I could ever love anyone else.

You say you don’t know who I am anymore because simply I am not willing to play your dumb little games.

I’m done playing stupid games, I’ve got more important things to do.

You don’t want to talk to me but I have way better conversations with God.

I’ve learn to detach from everything that doesn’t bring a smile to my face.

I’ve learn to forget the toxic patterns that led me to you.

...

I am not a little girl anymore.

I am who I am and I am not ashamed of it.

A powerful woman don’t have to answer to any hate being thrown at her.

She knows who she is and she’s going to be just that.

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2020-10-14T18:51:57+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 14 Octobre 2020 à 06:51 PM

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2020-10-14T06:26:12+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 14 Octobre 2020 à 06:26 AM

The eyes can see what’s on the surface.

We often fail to notice a good heart without a pretty face.

We think we know everything from the moment we realize that we can decide.

We think we know who’s good for us,

We think we’re in love when our hearts skip a beat when we meet a certain someone.

We think love will always bring us happiness until we’ve encounter our first heartbreak.

We think the world is out to get us when people hurt us.

We think we’re hard to love when we can’t find someone who can reciprocate our love.

We think that we aren’t good enough just because we messed up a few times

....

Must it end here?

Is there more to life than life itself with death afterwards ?

There is hope but some of us may not know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel of Life.

It doesn’t have to end this way.

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2020-10-12T22:31:34+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Octobre 2020 à 10:31 PM

“You can tell a lot by a friend when you’re both drifting away from each other and that friend doesn't say anything or ask any questions.”

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2020-10-12T20:25:05+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Octobre 2020 à 08:25 PM

“I am still the same girl with the same name just a different mindset and a new body

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2020-10-12T01:10:29+02:00

success

Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Octobre 2020 à 01:10 AM

I've already talked about what success is to me and we can all agree that what someone else's success looks like for them may not look the same for you. Not all of you want to be a successful writer and to publish a book some of you may want to be a doctor, an engineer, a successful football player, or a singer.

A lot of times I hear that to become a singer, a writer, a dancer is not really a career it is just a hobby well to me it is not. To me writing is everything, that's what saves me when I am going through tough times. When you see me up late at night writing on my laptop or on a notepad I am creating something beautiful. I love writing and I always have at a very young age before I knew I could write. I remember at 5 I would write my mom poems about how much I love her and she would melt crying in front of me (those little memories bring me to tears of joy of course) I love her so much, she's my first favorite human being. Back to writing, some people told me I a not going to be successful like I want to be, and that I need a second option. Anything else that I am doing is a second option because writing will always be first and everything to me, it's like home to me.

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2020-10-11T08:34:49+02:00