No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2020-09-27T04:06:36+02:00

lessons.

Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Septembre 2020 à 04:06 AM

In my years of being on this earth which is 2 decades, I have learned that you teach people how to treat you based on what you tolerate. Being a woman I can say that we were not born strong (not that we are born weak but the toughness is developed over the years) yes we have our own characters but as we grow we learn that we have to develop a thick skin because we can't always sit pretty and do nothing to protect ourselves. Like a beautiful rose, we learn to grow with thorns to protect ourselves from takers. I can say that each year I double up my prize, I put my walls up higher, my skin gets thicker not because that's how I want to be but because of the way some people have treated me and made me feel. I hate to sit around and feel sorry for myself that Is one thing I will not tolerate. I believe that we are our own problems and solutions, every situation that we are in no matter how tough it is we can always find a way out.

Some people have made me feel like I was too vulnerable so that had to stop, some made me feel like I overshared while they turned around and criticized me so now if I don't willingly tell you something about me you won't know anything and that is to protect myself. I am protecting my name and my brand, I do not feel sorry when someone treats me badly because I only get stronger after I learn the lesson and I know that it has nothing to do with me the problem is with them. If we were friends and for some reason, we're not friends anymore know that you did something to cause this, and I do not miss you. I do not have a problem with you I am simply protecting my peace, I no longer associate with anything toxic. I wish everyone the best I never had time to hate but I have time to chose who I let stay in my life and who I let in my life.

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2020-09-23T03:53:52+02:00

something that I thought about today.

Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Septembre 2020 à 03:53 AM

I am going to talk about a problem that one can find in a relationship. When two very different people come together there will be disagreements and occasional fights that I believe can be avoided. Two people will never agree with everything the other person says or do but there's a way to avoid trouble in paradise.

Personally, I am a very calm human being and I hate to raise my voice or getting into an altercation. I cannot remember the last time I have been angry to the point where I yelled or screamed at someone, I have been upset but I am able to control my emotions but not everyone can do that and that's okay. The first thing you can do is to find out how you react when someone makes you mad. Do you let anger control you? do you let it all bottled up inside of you? watch how you react when someone does something that makes you furious. If you realize that you cannot control your emotions then the next time you get mad take a walk, leave the scene before you say, or do something you might regret. Although I am calm sometimes I wish I could show someone just how mad I am because I usually control it and stay quiet while so many thoughts are going through my head but it's very rare for me to express my thoughts out loud because I know the fight will never end and I hate fighting with a passion. I always try to make peace and move on to better things... maybe your partner like to be heard I think you should listen instead of cutting him or her off. Always take into consideration the other person's feelings do not just shrug it off or make it look like it's nothing. Learn to understand your partner so you can figure out how to treat them because everyone is different and you cannot treat everyone the same. some people like to be taken care of whereas someone else likes to be in charge or like to do things their own way let them be who they are because let's be honest that is probably why you're with that person. Instead of keeping things in start by expressing how you feel and if you're a man please let her know what's bothering you because that does not make you less of a man if you express your feelings. Have honest chat with one another where you tell one another what you don't like or can't stand in the relationship but do it respectfully. Most importantly learn to forgive each other because the bond you have with your partner is way more important than your "ego".

I am sorry I cannot write any more than that I have an excruciating pain in my right arm, might have to get that check thank God I have fingers to type!

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2020-09-21T06:05:13+02:00

update.

Publié par Gaelle.R 21 Septembre 2020 à 06:05 AM

I don't have a lot to say but I want to touch base on some things that have been going on in my head for a while now. I wrote something about self-image and about how people can make you feel a certain way about yourself. I am a tough cookie to crack, no one can make me feel bad about myself unless I see the flaw myself. When I first started this blog I used to write a lot about how people viewed me and what they used to tell me. When I was slim they used to tell me "eat so you can get bigger" "one day you will look like a woman because right now you look like a child" I did not care and I still don't. Now I am not slim anymore and most of the things that I used to wear don't fit me, now guess what some people are telling me? "you gained too much weight" see what I mean about self-love? it's really important to love yourself no matter what. Do I care that some people think "I gained too much weight" no you know why? because I have a destination I know in my head what my ideal weight is in my head and I will not stop until I get there and until I look the way that I want. I love myself the way I am now but there's nothing that says that I can't want more for myself. I loved myself when I was slim and I love myself even more now that I am bigger. I will attract the right people, I do not care what other people say as long as I am healthy.

I also work out and I will do it harder now because I got a lot to work on but I am happy that I gained weight. I can finally say it lol because everyone notice so I cannot hide it lol. I never wanted to hide and I am not going to do it now.

Love yourself.

goodnight.

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2020-09-20T03:53:03+02:00

My kind of love.

Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Septembre 2020 à 03:53 AM

I want a love story that hasn't been written yet.

A love that can only be found in books written by ancient writers.

It shall be soft, magnificent yet simple.

A love that will speak to me when I doubt that it even exists.

One that will make me smile without knowing that my lips are speaking a language coming from my heart.

It will be foreign to others and when I will tell them about this love some will not understand.

I daydream a lot and I believe that it does exist because the universe has kept me away from unfit lovers.

How many times have I given a part of my heart to someone only to found out that they are not capable of giving me that kind of love?

I dare to want such love and I will wait as long as I must.

some will say that such love does not exist but it's only because their imagination has not taken them thus far.

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2020-09-18T16:38:30+02:00

obsession.

Publié par Gaelle.R 18 Septembre 2020 à 04:38 PM

hello there,

This is supposed to be a fun topic for me because of the way my obsession goes. To be honest, my obsession is not that serious like 3 years ago I was obsessed with sneakers and after I took some time to count how much I spent on expensive sneakers I was shocked and I promised myself to stay away from sneakers for a little while. At the beginning of the year, I was obsessed with skirts that have bows in them I had like 3 or 4 of them but now none of them fit, it's fine. I was also obsessed with work out gears since I started working out at home on a daily basis, I barely had anything to work out in because I never work out like this before now it's just part of my lifestyle and I love it. I could be having a bad day and I cannot wait to get home to have a good work out and I feel great after that. Right now I am just obsessed with lip glosses and it is such a dumb obsession because no one is going to see my lips under that mask but it's ok I will put the gloss for me.

Hope everyone is having a good day I just wanted to come here and discuss a fun topic.

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2020-09-17T03:13:30+02:00

loyalty.

Publié par Gaelle.R 17 Septembre 2020 à 03:13 AM

Hey there,

Let me get right into it.

Loyalty is everything to me, in friendships and especially in relationships. To me loyalty is staying faithful to one person, you don't talk bad about them and you definitely do not cheat on them. I hate cheating this is why when I know someone is taking I will not entertain that person, I will take my bag and leave. You will not find me talking to a man who's already taken, as soon as I found out you're off the market you become unattractive to me. I don't know you anymore like you cannot offer me anything anymore and if you offer me something you're disgusting like YOU HAVE A GIRL ALREADY. I wish all girls would feel the same because there are a lot of men out here cheating and I am disgusted by it.

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2020-09-12T03:48:04+02:00

answering questions.

Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Septembre 2020 à 03:48 AM

hey there, hope all is good. Hopefully, you enjoy these funny answers from questions that you probably didn't ask but I am going to answer them anyway.

what is your morning routine?

Great question. My usual mornings when I am going to work is me waking up to my alarm as soon as it rings because if I wait one more minute I will be late because I do not set my alarm at a reasonable time to chill before I get out of bed and I have to take a shower because that is the only way I am going to wake up. So as soon as I get out of bed I jump right in the shower (is that bad? because I don't know) I usually get dressed fast because I pick what I am going to wear the night before but It will take me a while to find my socks. Lately, I have not been wearing makeup so I just moisturize my face with a small amount of coconut oil with some lip balm and I go right in the kitchen to pick a quick breakfast. Prepare my meal for the day and pray in the car because If I sit down before I leave I will be late, I also eat in the car. Now If I am not working I just sleep through the whole morning so I don't have a routine unless I have something important that morning like a meeting or something.

2. How is my mental health?

Honestly, I am doing good I have not felt that Good in a long time. I enjoy my time alone and I treasure it. I stay away from negative situations and people. Basically, I took the time to filter out my life during quarantine I let go of any bad connections, bad habits, bad relationships I let everything go. It was only right for me to do it because I have been holding on to old baggage that needed to be thrown away. I am just really taking the time to get to know myself and to love myself better while I am away from a lot of things. I am cultivating a lot of good habits and getting rid of every toxicity. I love who I am becoming, I just feel like I am growing and blossoming. The final product is going to be great.

3. Do I like dogs?

I know that I always talk about cats but I do not have a problem with dogs. I am just into cats right now no hard feelings but I am sure that It won't be hard for a dog to steal my heart because I love anything adorable and playful. I do want to have a puppy in the future but for now, a cat is just what I need.

4. Do I cry?

Lol honestly I get more upset than I cry, I am very emotional but a lot of people don't know that because of my ice and calm exterior. But I have had my best crying session in the shower I mean how emotional can you not be to cry in the shower.

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2020-09-06T20:00:57+02:00

being writer.

Publié par Gaelle.R 6 Septembre 2020 à 08:00 PM

I hope everyone is having a great day.

Being a writer, I always felt the need to write about the experience and what comes with the possibility of being able to write. When I first started this blog I was 16 and I feel like I have grown since then and my articles have gotten more positive, easier to understand because when I first started to write here I was just starting to learn how to speak English. To be honest now when I write an article about how I have overcome some obstacle, got over something that was meant to hurt me, and when I discussed all the positive things that I am doing in my life currently I feel like a fraud. The reason why I feel this way is because I am not perfect I can write all day about how to remain positive while I still have a lot of negative thoughts in my head. I believe that all of us are fighting a battle inside that no one knows about, I choose to keep this blog in a positive light because I intend to bring as much joy in the world that I can possibly bring.

When I write I feel like I am exposing myself, I almost feel naked when I expose my deepest feelings in a poem. Sometimes It is hard for some people to understand some of my poems but when I read it back to myself I feel like I just told the whole world everything about me and that thought scares me a lot. When I first started this blog I was a teenager and I was going through various stages in my life before I became who I am today. I feel like my writing has been growing with me. In the beginning, I was afraid to be my true self in my writing because I felt like my thoughts were not inspiring enough, at that time I was thinking more about what other people thought about me than about what I am writing. I was always trying to be safe in my writing and those are not my best work. I do not want my work to offend anyone, I want to uplift anyone that read my blog or anything that I have written. When I share my stories and experience with you it is not to talk about myself (I hate talking about myself) I do it to show anyone that is in the same situation as me that it is possible to come out of that situation, that you are not the only one going through what you're going through and it is possible to stay positive.

when first started writing I did not know where I fit, like did I write poetry better?r, articles or stories better?. To this day I am still trying to figure out where I fit but I still share my work and I still believe that I am a writer who is trying to create more each day.

I want to thank everyone who has been reading my blog.

much love.

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2020-09-05T07:16:41+02:00

how I keep negative thoughts far away.

Publié par Gaelle.R 5 Septembre 2020 à 07:16 AM

I think all of us are trying to stay positive and to keep negative thoughts away. Personally, I have been struggling for a very long time with staying positive and I think that I already talked about it here but I can say that I am more positive now. I will tell you some of the things that I do to keep negative thoughts away.

when It happens and I feel like I have no control over my thoughts, I pray. I remember that verse psalm 46:10 I always feel like God Is trying to tell me to be still and to recognize that he is God by keeping that in mind I remember that God can do anything and he can take those thoughts away. When I pray I pour out my whole heart and I ask God to take all the bad thoughts away. "keep on asking, and it will be given to you, keep on seeking, and you will find." Matthew 7:7
I listen to music. I love listening to music and when I feel like my thoughts are becoming less positive I try to find uplifting songs and I try to let the music take me without trying to understand anything.
I sing. Ok so I am not like Withney Houston or anything like that lol, but I sing anyway because it makes me happy and I just feel free when I sing. That's a really good feeling to have, to be able to feel free and happy at the same time.
I dance. I am not the best dancer lol and most of the time I barely know what I am doing but I dance anyway because I feel so powerful lol I feel like I can move my body in whatever way that I want to. I mostly dance in my room, I am too shy to dance in front of people.
I write. I know that some of you may not like to write and I am not trying to shove the idea of writing down anyone's throat lol But I think It really helps to write how you feel when you're feeling down, sad, or unsure of yourself. It really helps to write your thoughts down even if they are not pretty but by seeing what you wrote you can have a visual of what your mind is made of and if you don't like what you see you can tear up that paper and change your mind.
I talk to someone I trust. I think it's really important to have someone that you can talk to about how you feel, to confide in, to ask for advice. You cannot go on with life alone and I had to learn that the hard way. I used to feel like it was hard to trust someone and I don't think it is easy for me but I know that there's always that one person that I can always go to and to confide in when negative thoughts are taking over.

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2020-09-03T04:44:42+02:00

introvert.

Publié par Gaelle.R 3 Septembre 2020 à 04:44 AM

hey there,

Hope everyone is being safe, I'm going straight to the point.

I am going to talk about someone who has an introvert personality, I fall into that category (I almost said "sadly I fall into that category) but society is the reason why I feel like being an introvert is a bad thing when In reality it's not but we will get into that soon. To have an introvert personality quoting from the internet is "when a person keeps his / her thoughts and feelings to himself/herself. Introversion does not often let a person seek inspiration or contentment from an outside source. For that matter, the person is enough in himself/herself. He/she is his/her own friend." I partially agree with that as an introvert I can say that I do not need people to feel good or to have a good time, I enjoy my alone time by the fact I need my alone time because that is how I recharge my social battery. After I hang out with a group of people you will find me alone for a while trying to recuperate from all that energy that I've spent but however I need a friend. I am not sure if all my friends understand how much I need them at times. Some days are hard and I feel like giving up on some things and I may cry because I am human.

Being an introvert doesn't necessarily mean someone who is always alone and keeps everyone away. Just because I am quiet doesn't mean that I am shy or that I am stupid. I am reading a book about being an introvert to understand myself better, the title is "quiet the power of introverts in a world that can't stop talking" by Susan Cain I recommend it if you're trying to understand yourself as an introvert or your introverts friends and family. Basically, I read that being an introvert has its downside in the sense that our quietness makes us seem less smart in a room surrounded by extroverted people who speak way more. As an introvert, you may have a really smart idea in a group but you don't share it because simply you're afraid and it's like stepping outside your comfort zone, this happens to me a lot and I used to question my intelligence or beat myself up over it because I feel like I let fear have too much control over me. Now I understand that as an introvert it is totally normal and I agree that there's a time to talk and a time to stay silent but now If I stay silent in a group setting I understand why and I will not question my intelligence because of it.

Most of the time parents do not want their kids to be shy and stay to themselves, they want their kid to be outgoing and to have a lot of friends. Honestly, I would want that for my kid but I would not force him to interact with others or to change who he is, I would simply provide a very safe environment for him to grow and to feel comfortable enough to let himself be free whenever he is ready. The world needs more introverts who take pleasure in who they are and who can prove to society that we are in fact powerful in our ways. We may be quiet but our world is not small, we can discover a variety of things in our alone times. We have the power to be so focus on a particular subject that we know everything we need to know about it.

As a kid, I was really shy and I did not have many friends. I was always reading a book alone in my room or in the garden (one thing introverts feel connected with nature). Believe me, I was happy because I was being myself but now that I've grown I am less shy, I interact with strangers, I read less (which is bad). All this to show that being an introvert is not a bad thing...

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