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2020-05-22T06:36:46+02:00
I am doing quite alright, how is everyone doing?
At the moment I am tying to keep my life peaceful while trying to stay healthy. I want everything to go back to normal and I want this virus to be over. I think we are all tired of it. I just want things to stop getting worse. I hope that everyone is being safe out here because this virus is real.
2020-05-11T22:35:57+02:00
How is everyone doing? I am doing okay, as I said last week that I was tested positive for the coronavirus it has not been 14 days yet, I am doing okay except for occasional headaches. Besides all of that I have been staying to myself not only because I am contagious but because I just don't feel like socializing, a lot of things have made me feel like I should just take this time to reflect on myself.
I love those friends that keep on checking on me they could be miles away and frankly it wouldn't be much of a surprise if they stopped checking on me but they do it anyway, I love that because they don't have to yet they still do it because they want to. Meanwhile I have encounter people who are less than 2 minutes away from me who wouldn't even call, text or even talk to me.... I don't hold a grudge, I welcome everyone and to be honest I don't really have time to waste I am just focusing on my health and my immune system at the moment.
2020-05-08T05:31:43+02:00
Hey there,
how am I doing? well I probably still have the virus in my system it's been a week since I got tested, i'm in quarantine for another week. So next week I am going to get tested again. Hopefully it will be gone by then. I took it like a champ, when I say I'm strong I mean it. I could be dying in my last day and I would still be out there saying"i'm good" I would still go to school lol while dying omg I cannot believe how strong I was until now. People have been calling me saying oh My God you're really sick ? and I am like yeah I am and they're like oh my God you're too young to die and I'm over there smiling like no i'm not dying the doc just told me I'm sick and contagious but it's not like i'm dying. I even laugh at my own self like why shouldn't I? I just can't be stressed right now, if i'm dying I would rather die happy than stressed. I am feeling better and to be honest I did not feel like I was about to die but I was scared and I am still scared, I just want to this be out of my system forever.
2020-05-05T18:11:52+02:00
I just feel super annoyed today, I am not sure why. I want to hear good news...I don't want bad news.
2020-05-04T17:08:53+02:00
BREAKING NEWS ! BREAKING NEWS ! wow this make me think of a Drake song ...
but anyway turns out I have coronavirus. I still cannot believe it but I am doing good because I never had any health issues thank God. Physically I feel really weak like if you push me with one finger I would fall but the worse thing is when I lay down my head keep on turning as if I am in a rollercoaster, I hate laying down. My head feels so heavy at times...I don't have any shortness of breath but I am isolated from everyone and my roommate too just to be safe because we don't know if I gave it to her, hopefully not. Am I scared? hell yes ! but I try not to think about the worse thing that could happen... I feel like I have a cold you know, I am still able to eat but some people told me not to eat too much meat and to eat healthy so I can still keep my immune system strong so I can beat this, It might be hard for my digestive system to digest red meat at the moment.
Mentally... I am okay but I am fully aware that I can get bad at any moment because of my history with (a lot of things lol) but I pray and I will keep on reading the word of God to find strength. Being sick with this virus is worse than anything because no one can come near you, no one can come see you... no one can hug you and tell you that you're going to be okay...I do feel alone at times. But I think my strategy of having fun with myself alone was a good one because I am able to still have fun alone. I can't dance because I will fall but I listen to music while I sing (with my crusty voice), I write but I can't really focus on poems at the moment I try to think of happy stuff, I am learning new songs, I watch movies but I can barely concentrate. To be honest I feel like this virus hit everyone different some people it's really bad but for me it's just a cold and a heavy head with lots of headaches, runny nose, sneezing I am not even coughing... I am grateful to Jehovah for not letting it attack my lungs. But I still have to be careful because I am very contagious.
what I do?
I boiled ginger in a big pot of water after it boiled really good I put the hot water with the ginger in a bucket I take a big towel over my head and inhaled the steam.
I also drink a lot of ginger tea. I drink warm water no cold juice or water for me at the moment.
another remedy:
put all of this and a blender. once you finish put some in a mug microwave it for 30 seconds and drink while hot (not too hot tho)
2020-05-03T03:49:18+02:00
how are y'all doing? I am not doing too good at the moment but I am better than I was yesterday. I am going to answer a few questions because why not? I am bored and those questions are interesting.
1. what do I like to do in the morning?
okay first thing I do is check my phone I don't even check if i'm alive LOL no but for real when I wake up I like to lay there for a minute and I either pray or read the bible after that I read the daily scripture. I like to give God thanks in the morning when I start my morning that way I am more positive and happier. I also like to eat breakfast right after.
2. what is one thing I cannot live without?
my family most importantly my mom because she is my everything, my best friend and my number one fan. Before I do anything I check with her to see what she think not that I cannot make my own decision I can but I like her input because mamas knows best.
3. favorite pets?
I feel like this question keep popping up because some of you want to know if I still like cats and yes I do I am a cat lover and I will probably end up being a cat lady.
4. are you in a relationship?
you know what I feel like there are more important things in life than to be in a relationship how about getting that degree? graduating? starting a new business? becoming an entrepreneur? I guess those don't matter. Yes I am in a relationship with food and we are having the best time of our lives lol (by the way I am not salty but for real lol)
5. who I am close with the most?
My mom.
6. Do I like making new friends? and why I am not active on social media?
yes I like making new friends I think it's a cool experience and I am open to it but to be honest right now I literally stay to myself it's for no reason, I am taking this moment while I am in quarantine to learn how to enjoy my own company so I don't always need someone else to make me feel happy...so far I am succeeding. I spent most of my time cooking, reading, singing, dancing, eating and sleeping lol yup I like my own company so much that I can be talking to someone on the phone and I cannot wait to hang up to go do something fun with myself. wow saying that makes me proud because I was always looking for a friend now I am not I literally just focus on positive things and keep it pushing.
why I am not active on social media?
well there's no absolute reason to why I am not I guess I grew out of that stage and I am busy working on new things. I feel like social media is so draining and took too much of my time while I am on it.
7. favorite music I like to listen to?
I like afrobeats and I like their dance...I am currently learning that and I am having a lot of fun.
8. do I like tik tok?
uhm no I think it's childish the only time I used it was to make the don't rush challenge because a few of my friends encouraged me to do it and I was bored so I was like hey why not? but after that I deleted the account.
9. What is my religion?
I am a jehovah witness. I know I never openly said it but it's for no reason in particular I am proud to be, I am not hiding it.
10. am I still shy?
lol yes but not as much some will say I am not shy at all but I think that I can be in a big crowd or at a party but after that I am not shy.
11. do I speak any other languages?
lol yes I do I speak haitian creole, french and a little italian (si io sono Gaelle) lol I said yes my name is Gaelle.
12. what do I like to do for fun?
I like to write, dance, sing...taking snaps singing that I never post
13. a guilty pleasure?
ok this is going to sound weird but I like to wear guys underwear omg it does sounds weird...I buy them my size because you guys have the most comfortable stuff.
2020-04-27T16:54:46+02:00
Morning y'all?
how is everything? I'm good. I have been home and work ...work was a mess last time. I don't think they are following the proper guidelines to protect the people there both employees and residents. I don't want to work at a place where my safety is on the line, my health comes first because the job is not going to vanish when I am gone they are still going to hire people to replace me so why am I putting my life in danger for them? that's what it felt like...I said hell naw I got too many thing to do with my life and this job is temporary I am going to start working in my field soon. I did not quit but I told them I am leaving I cannot stay at a place like this, they couldn't force me because all of the employees has a choice to either work or stay home and most of them stopped coming in! it was only me and someone else last time !! like how nice am I ?. I can't do it anymore it was really draining me mentally...being over there made me paranoid and anxious...I don't like working like this.
Besides work what else? well I can say that I am working on something new. I am not going to publish it here because I think it should not be free. I am trying to publish them on my own...I am talking to a few people to see how I can do that. For the first time I am working on something that I want to publish and I think it's worth the try.
deep thoughts? lol y'all know I am always talking about some deep stuff.
All I can say is that each day I am evolving, I am getting to know myself more. I am realizing what I want and what I don't want. I also accepted that true joy comes from within and that it is not given, I knew that but I had trouble accepting it because I was still relying on people to make me feel better and to make me happy. It was never enough and I would always expect more from them, I would always ask them to be there for me when all I needed to do was to be there for myself. I have been the toxic person in some of my friendships and for that I am sorry. For a reason or another I was looking for something and that thing I was looking for was not in someone else for me to find, I had to dig deep into my soul to find it. I can say that I am much better now and I love who I am becoming. I am more independent with my feelings and emotions, I am learning how to process them on my own because the perks of being an introvert and a melancholic is that you think a lot and we let our emotions take over which is bad. I learned to create distraction, to accept my feelings and I stop being hard on myself or saying mean things to myself. I learned to be nice to myself and to be patient with myself just like I would be with someone else. To be honest I have been mostly been keeping to myself. I am at a point that being around a lot of people makes me uncomfortable (maybe it's the quarantine in me talking haha) nah for real I rather have a small group of friends than to be surrounded by people who talks bad behind my back or don't even like me like that. The more I am being myself the more people will either love or hate on me and guess what I do not care. It took me a long time to accept who I am and to feel okay being me and I am not going to stop.
alright I said too much! have a nice day.
keep a smile on that beautiful face !
2020-04-21T05:17:57+02:00
Being a healthcare worker right now is draining, both physically and emotionally. Having to do extra work because someone has the virus, trying to take care of someone who's infected and trying to be cautious enough not to get infected. Every time I go to work I pray to God that I don't get sick and I am so paranoid already. I'm always thinking "what if I just caught the virus?" yes I am being careful but that doesn't mean that I am not scared, I am brave enough to show up to work and do what I have to do to make sure that the people are being taken care of. I am protecting myself and I gotta think about all the people I come in contact with, I don't want to infect anyone or for anyone to infect me.
some days I wish I could stay home and still get paid but I have a job to do. Don't get me wrong I am very grateful for my job I am just worried because I am in the front line fighting through this. I think it takes true bravery to be out there in hospitals, clinics, home care, nursing homes ... taking care of people. It is not easy...it can makes you freak out and go nuts at times. I try to talk to my mom to feel better when it gets overwhelming but all I can say is working in healthcare is no joke it's a "go hard or go home" type of stuff.
stay safe y'all.
2020-04-19T23:00:15+02:00
It was a long day or rather a long morning. A lot of things has happened and I am happy that things are okay now. I've had time to think about life itself and the people around me. There are a lot of people that I used to know, talk to or were friends with that I no longer talk to; not because I have a problem with them but simply because we grew apart. I am always changing, always growing (I thank God for that), always moving on to the next because why stay focus on something that is dead? the same way that I believe in moving on I also believe that things can get better with a little more work. Before I give up on anything I always ask myself can this get better? can I live with this the way it is or should I let it go?
I am always telling myself don't let people turn you into a mean person, into a narcissist. Be nice, be giving, be authentic, be pure and raw, be yourself because everyone else is already taken. No matter how bad someone has treated me I am always going to have a smile on my face, I am always going to push myself harder because if I don't who will? If I don't chose to make it through the pain then I will never find true joy. I am not trying to shut everyone everyone out right now, I am just being cautious I want my privacy. I could be going through the worse possible scenario that you could think of right now and I am right in front of you with a smile and you won't know because I Choose not to tell you.
I believe that we all can be happy It's a matter of the life decision that we make. If you choose to stay stuck right where you are with the broken heart, with the what if, with the I wish I was like this or like that, the "no one likes me" excuse, the I am not enough mentality and you don't try to work on yourself daily ( I say daily because it's not easy and you should ways try to work on yourself continuously) because you won't be happy or okay with yourself. I know it's hard...I have been through this, there is a lot going on in my life that I don't say not because I want to hide everything but because I believe that those hardships are going to shape me to become a better woman. yes I am struggling but one day it will get better; that's what I tell myself. Yes I am hungry right now but tomorrow I will eat. Yes I am not in a relationship right now but who cares? one day I will meet someone who will love me for me. Yes I am not as this or not as that but one day I will be better or much better even.
" women are like wine we get better with age." that's what I tell myself yes I may have been naive, stupid even but as I am growing making mistakes, going through life and I am only getting better. I am proud of myself for being this strong, for laughing through the tears, for showing up when I was sad and wanting to stay away from everyone, for trying when I felt weak...
thank you for the support to anyone who has helped me through any tough situation or by simply being there for me.
2020-04-18T07:00:58+02:00
Hey y'all doing?
I'm trying to stay healthy over here. Let me tell y'all something that happened to me yesterday. So I went to work when I got there we had a meeting and the nurse told us 12 people on the floor that I worked are tested positive for the covid-19 virus when she said that I was like I'm ready to go like I was literally trying to lowkey grab my keys but she said that she doesn't know how long those people I've been sick, so that puts me at risk like what if I worked with those people and got infected? I have been wearing mask and gloves but my eyes were exposed. The droplets can get in your mouth, nose and eyes...I have been washing my hands but what If I didn't wash them immediately after someone touched me or I touched someone and I touched my face right after? I touch my face a lot, Oh God I was panicking in my head(I am now too). I tried to stay calm because everyone else was trying to act like they got this, except this one girl cried which made me want to cry. When I see someone crying it makes me want to cry too.
I wanted to go home but I don't want to contaminate my friend. I was like okay I need a strategy so I went back to my ancestors lol my mom got a lot of tea remedy and a lot of stuff to take. since I got home I have been drinking medicine. There is a possibility that I could be infected with the virus. My problem with the place that I worked is that they didn't tell us right away who are tested positive...as a healthcare facility they should have given the people on my floor including me a full gown and sterile gloves...they did not so my eyes were exposed. Working with people who are infected is not that bad if you have gowns, gloves, shield... but they let me have my clothes that I am going home with on me while working with them (by the way I put those clothes in a bag right by the door) I really don't want to get sick. They say young people have a better chance but some young people died it doesn't matter who you are it's your immune system that will determine everything.
I wanted to get tested tomorrow but I cannot I won't be showing symptoms and it probably won't show in my system until after 6-14 days. so I have to wait and keep taking those haitian remedies. Hopefully I am not infected and if I am hopefully it doesn't get to my lungs (it would be a wrap) hopefully I get better if I am infected.
Stay safe y'all
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