No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2020-08-30T04:33:20+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 30 Août 2020 à 04:33 AM

Always felt like the need to do way more like what I'm giving is not enough.

Always felt the need to say something as if my silence doesn't already speak for itself.

Always felt the need to show up, when deep down I just want to hide.

Always felt the need to occupy more space as if my presence is not enough.

Always felt the need to speak louder as if my soft voice can't carry itself across the room.

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2020-08-29T06:22:29+02:00

what quarantine taught me.

Publié par Gaelle.R 29 Août 2020 à 06:22 AM

I am going straight to the point.

To keep a skincare routine for clear skin. This is a huge subject for me as a woman before quarantine my skin was ok but I had a lot of dark spots on my face and I always felt the need to wear makeup when I am going out. To be honest, I didn't feel good about putting my face on camera without a filter and I am not ashamed to admit that because now I have no problem to facetime someone without feeling disgusted with the way my skin looks on camera. All of this is growth, admitting your flaws is part of growth and by seeing your flaws you can either accept it, embrace it, or fix it if you can. In my case, I chose to keep a good skincare routine to keep my face clear.I don't like a lot of makeup I always keep it light but I would always feel the need to wear some type of makeup when I am going out. I barely wear makeup now and I feel so much better in my own skin. I feel so beautiful without makeup, it was a struggle for me to step out of the house without feeling like I need to conceal my face. My face is much clearer and I couldn't be happier.
to drink water. I made a second part to this, although drinking water is good for your skin it's also good for your internal organs as well as your skin. To be honest I never really drink water every day until this year. At the beginning of the year, I started to motivate myself to drink more water by getting those fancy and nice big water bottles. It worked because I found myself drinking so much water and my skin is looking amazing.
the power of letting toxic habits and people go. Before quarantine, I always felt the need to keep people around even if they were mean to me (sadly) because I used to believe that they were going to change and that one day they would start to appreciate and respect me. I am not proud of that and that was a huge mistake. I didn't honor myself by accepting this type of behavior or those type of people in my life. Although I gotta lot of love for everyone, I do not hold grudges because it's too much work. If I let you go and you're reading this I do not hate you, you're just simply not bringing the best out of me and whatever you were bringing to the table I don't want it. I feel much better when I let toxic people go, I feel so happy and at peace. Please let the toxic people in your life go. You will gain a much better connection with other people and better friends. You deserve the best of the best.
decluttering. I used to keep a lot of things that I don't use, I still have a few things to get rid of but so far I am doing good. I feel much better when I have a clean room and less clutter. I just find myself breathing better.
The power of saving money. I am learning to save my money now and not to spend money on things that I do not need. I may want something but do I really need it? don't I have something similar at home? those are the questions I ask myself.
the power of working out. I always wanted my body to look a certain way and I realize that I have to work out to get the body that I want and I realize that It's possible as long as I work hard for it, it's slowly coming along and I am so happy.

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2020-08-11T23:58:29+02:00

Decluttering

Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Août 2020 à 11:58 PM

Hey there!

Let's get right into the topic.

One area of my life that I really struggle with is decluttering. I hold on to things more than I should I am a memory hoarder, I am that person that will hold on to an empty pack of gum because someone special gave it to me. It is so bad that sometimes I don't get rid of my lotion bottles simply because "I might need it" like what am I going to do with an empty lotion bottle? I realize that it's time for me to clean up my life not only physically but emotionally too. Like I am letting old feelings go, I am letting go of things that used to hurt me in the past go because every day is a new chance to start a new life. I felt like there was so much chaos in my life but now I want to clean up things a little bit to live a more simple life. To be honest, you don't really need a lot of things to survive, I know the world wants us to believe more is always better but all of those things you are bringing into your life only bring debt, a lot of clutter ... I want to live a minimalist lifestyle now where I believe less is way better for my well being. so this is what I started doing.

cleaning up my room and throwing out any products that I don't use. (trust me those products needed to be thrown out they've been there since 2015)
I am donating items that I don't use because I feel like I am no longer using it then someone else can benefit from it. I am donating old clothes and clothing that doesn't fit anymore, donating shoes (I have way too many shoes)
I am also cleaning my playlist. I am getting rid of songs that are vulgar or that I never really listen to so that it could be a lot easier to find the songs that I want to listen to.
I am learning to buy things that I need. In the past, I have bought a bunch of clothes, shoes, items and I haven't really used all of them.
make home-cooked meals instead of eating out every day.
not opening too many tabs on my computer when I am working so that I can find what I am looking for faster.

I realize that I was spending way too much money on things that I didn't really need and I wasn't saving anything. By decluttering my life I believe that I will manage my money better and save more.

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2020-08-09T08:07:39+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Août 2020 à 08:07 AM

I am always growing and expanding.

blossoming into a full blown camellia.

my last year self can’t compare to who I am today.

The way I looked the beginning of this year is such a disgrace to the woman that I am now.

I am in competition with no one but myself.

I am no longer chasing anything that is toxic.

so sorry if who I am now doesn’t match The idea of the person you think I am.

I may fall but I rise beautifully.

Like wine I only get better with age.

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2020-08-08T06:38:49+02:00

the power of a positive mind.

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Août 2020 à 06:38 AM

I am currently reading a book in French the title is " apprends moi a revivre" a part of it talks about the power of thoughts on the human mental state. While I was reading the book I had a moment of epiphany and I was literally like "wow". So basically I can see that the outcomes of the way we see life itself depend on the way we see things. In the book there was a woman who cannot get pregnant; the doctor told her that there's a problem with her and that is why she can't get pregnant so she went to a retreat where she met a sort "life coach" which was a woman. The life coach told her" so you cannot get pregnant because you believe that the doctor told you that you have a problem and that you cannot get pregnant", she also said there is 2 possible ways that you can take this.

the first possibility is " I am confident that even though I cannot get pregnant because it's not the right time or that the condition doesn't allow it now that I can still learn from this and gained more wisdom about life itself" that was a possible way to see things.
the second possibility was that " something is wrong with me the doctors are right and my marriage is going to be ruined because I can't have children."

with tears in her eyes the woman chooses the second option, she actually believes that something was wrong with her while she had another option to believe that things can change and that her marriage is not going to be ruined. Now, what do I get from this?

to be honest we all go through hardships in life but it is up to us to chose if we're going to look at life with a negative eye. we can be in the worse possible situation while still be positive and happy. when we take things so hard and we take it so personal to the point where we sabotage our own lives. I do it personally I am not perfect. I come across as being quiet and shy but I am none of those things all of that is a result of all the conversations I had in my head which was " someone can say what you're about to say better" or" I am going to mess things up" which is why I don't say much. In some ways, all of us have done it where we say negative things to ourselves where we stop ourselves from succeeding and stepping up to the plate.

we need to be more positive because that will make a big change in our lives. we can change the way we think and stop being so negative about our current situation; life will feel so much better if we try to stay more positive. We have to stay realistic but for the sake of being happy, we do have to think more positively.

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2020-08-06T22:16:18+02:00

currently.

Publié par Gaelle.R 6 Août 2020 à 10:16 PM

I am working on an article about self-care and mental health. I think It's great because I am learning a lot of things about myself and I am finding a lot of new tricks to help me relieve stress... I might post it later if it doesn't get too personal.

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2020-08-02T04:06:04+02:00

update.

Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Août 2020 à 04:06 AM

Hey there, I usually start talking but now I want to take some time to acknowledge some things that are going on. Like how this pandemic has changed a lot of things for so many people. There have been travel plans that are canceled and a lot of things were and are still closed. All of that can be overwhelming and can make someone feel lonely. Here are some things that I do to stay busy.

work out (actually, I just started this year and it's been really fun. At first, I was doing it to build muscles and to get toned but now I just do it to stay active or to get rid of some negative thoughts. )
read. I do not read every day but when I want to stop watching tv I try to do it. After all, reading is food for the brain.
start a new show and binge watch it. It's usually fun to do it when you're bored, it's a great way to distract your mind from overthinking.
change your closet. You can shop around to change your style or to improve it but don't go crazy or anything like that because you need to save.
do not attract toxic people just because you're lonely. It can be kind of hard and you may feel lonely but be careful who you're building a close relationship with during those times.

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2020-07-27T03:06:45+02:00

new beginnings

Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Juillet 2020 à 03:06 AM

I love new beginnings and starting over after I've given myself enough time to move on. I don't like letting go but I know that I must do it because my happiness means way more. No one should ever make you feel like you have to sacrifice your happiness for them. In the past, I have been through a lot of things which makes me proud to say that I am stronger and I say that in the most humble way.

A new beginning is good but it can be scary, the feeling of being calm will take over and little by little you will accept the change. Give yourself more chances and take risks because life is boring when you do the same thing over and over.

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2020-07-26T06:55:51+02:00

how to bounce back. (will add more later I have an excruciating headache)

Publié par Gaelle.R 26 Juillet 2020 à 06:55 AM

This is for you if you're trying to bounce back or trying to get back up after something that was meant to break you. to be honest we all encounter problems and hardships in life that can make us feel down and read ready to give up. I am going to try my best to tell you what I have done in the past when I was going through something that was meant to break me.

Allow yourself to cry. Most of us think that it is weak to cry but t's not; it's okay to cry just give yourself a few days or as long as you need because some of us may need longer time...just give yourself that time and no you're not weak the more you cry the more you allow yourself to be free from the damages that were caused. Let it out and let yourself be sad. You need to express your emotions and feelings.
talk to someone you trust. I learn that when I keep things to myself and when I make my own assumption it sounds more dramatic in my head but when I explain my true feelings to someone and I say out loud what happened it sounds less dramatic and I realize that I can solve the problem and get through it.
focus on yourself, now I know people say "just focus on yourself and you will be fine." it does sound easier than it looks when all you want to is to focus on your problems. Focusing on you won't be easy when you're sad because you won't want to eat, you won't even want to take a shower all you would probably want to do when you feel like you've been beaten emotionally by something is to stay in bed and do nothing. Start slow and I am going to be very detailed because most people say "focus on yourself " but they don't really tell you what to do or what that means well I am going to tell you a few things. Start by brushing your teeth every day (not that you've never done it but really focus on it while you're doing it it's like you're being self-aware that you're brushing your teeth), keep a skincare routine (there's a sort of feeling of accomplishment and a feeling of being beautiful when you have good skin), eat different types of food try not to eat the same thing every day it can be boring and that's probably why you don't even want to eat because you don't try to eat anything exciting so really try new food.
Read a book that will uplift you. when you read positive things that will uplift your spirit you will slowly become positive and that dark cloud that is looming over you will slowly disappear. Personally reading the bible helps me a lot because there's nothing more comforting than to read the words coming directly from God to help you get through a difficult situation.
Get your hair done and your nails done. If you're a guy just get a hair cut and yes you should keep your nails clean so get it done. You will feel a lot better and prettier. Change your hair by coloring, adding highlights, or cut it if it was bad break up trust me there's something that happens to your soul when you cut your hair it's like a detox as you letting the past go. But get a cute hair cut that goes well with your face, hair grows back so it's like new hair with a new life lol

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2020-07-25T06:47:59+02:00

you and only you.

Publié par Gaelle.R 25 Juillet 2020 à 06:47 AM

I never thought that it was possible but you make my heart beat fast as if it's about to jump out of my chest.

I want to hear your voice every day.

when you're near nothing else matters.

when your eyes meet mine the world just stop.

when you smile at me I feel like the luckiest person on earth.

when you touch my hand electricity run throughout my whole body to light up my heart.

I want to run but I am mesmerized by you and that is the first time I feel this way.

For you, I let everyone and everything that can be a distraction go.

I have never been so sure, but I can say vividly that "I want you" to you and everyone.

Something that made me cry 2 weeks ago seems like a faraway memory because here you are erasing everything.

where were you all this time?

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