No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2021-03-12T04:18:00+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Mars 2021 à 04:18 AM

Hey guys,

how are things for everyone?

I hope all is well.

I have not much to say except that I am trying to stay afloat while I am on the verge of drowning well it's hard to stay above water at times -. But one thing that will always make me happy is my baby boy Archie. He's getting so big but oh my God! he is really aggressive, he's always biting my hand off or scratching me. I am trying to train him not to bite or scratch me all the time but soon I have to take him somewhere to cut his nails down not declawing him because I think that is so awful to do that to a cat.

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2021-03-11T02:42:54+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Mars 2021 à 02:42 AM

"Hatred is just as strong as love, because of how emotionally invested you are." me

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2021-03-11T02:26:47+01:00

to past lovers and old friends

Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Mars 2021 à 02:26 AM

It baffles me how you let me go,

after a long look at what we went through, I am still shocked about how poorly you've treated me.

when all I ever did was giving you all my love and affection.

I didn't know when you were criticizing every little thing about me that you really meant it,

I didn't believe that those jokes you made were how you really felt about me.

Now that I am falling more in love with myself,

I realize that there was nothing wrong with me I was beautiful then and I am even more beautiful now.

You were too blind to witness this rare beauty.

I was not wrong for being kind,

because now I know that my kindness is one of my greatest attributes.

It takes someone out of the ordinary to handle things the way that I did.

You tried to ruin me,

But I was made to be challenged.

It would take an army to destroy half of me,

you alone would never be able to tear me apart.

In the end, you've lost something valuable that you will never get back.

Despite everything I have no hate towards you,

nothing comes to mind when your name is mention because It's irrelevant now.

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2021-03-08T18:31:23+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Mars 2021 à 06:31 PM

I mind my business so much that I have no idea what’s going on, it could be a bad thing but it works for me.

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2021-03-05T12:15:51+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 5 Mars 2021 à 12:15 PM

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2021-03-02T02:15:18+01:00

Some questions answered.

Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Mars 2021 à 02:15 AM

What is the best thing that has happened to me this year?

There are many things but one thing that I cannot ignore and that makes me extremely happy is getting my kitten, Archie. I talk about him a lot because in some ways I feel like he found me because I wasn’t looking for him. He’s so sweet, so lovely so cute, so independent and he came to me potty trained. I was feeling kind of sad and alone but now I got him, he truly brings me joy.

what questions do I often get asked?

How old am I: because apparently, I look way younger than my age which is fine now although that used to bother me but not anymore.

Where am I from? Especially at work when I am speaking with a patient. Most of them ask me that at least one time.

What music did I listen to growing up?

I had a very interesting taste in music and I still do but I wish Billie Eilish was there because it would’ve been great to have a singer who understood me like that because most of her music relate to my teenage years.

but I used to listen to a lot of Akon, Rihanna, Leona Lewis, Iyaz, Jordin sparks, Christina Perri, Jason Mraz, Enrique Iglesias, some Beyonce, Adele, Sean Paul and a lof other singers but those were my top 10.

Do I talk a lot?

Nope not really, ever since quarantine started I became quieter and quieter but I write a lot more than I speak.

What are my favorite characters in Cartoons that I watch?

Squidward from Spongebob.

Daffy Duck and I like Lola too because she's crazy, from Looney tunes

I love both Tom and Jerry equally

stewie Griffin from Family guys

My head hurts guys gotta go.

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2021-02-27T17:33:48+01:00

one thing that I want to experience someday.

Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Février 2021 à 05:33 PM

From my time of being on this earth, I've had many dreams and many goals but it's very rare for me to find someone who supports all of my crazy dreams which is sometimes understandable because some of them are unreasonable but it would've been nice to feel supported. I have been writing at a very young age but I started taking it seriously in high school. I was about 5-9 years old when I was writing my mom heartfelt letters, I think she kept some of them and I started journaling at 10 years old. It wasn't the typical kid journal about how what I did at school or who my friends were it was more so about my emotions and feelings. I barely wrote about my friends which is why I kind of forget who some of the people I was acquainted with were when I was young if we were not close. The things I wrote at that age are some of the things I still feel to this day, I can proudly say that as a kid I was mature for my age. I sometimes wonder if I ever thought like a kid? Ok, now we're getting deep let's divert back into the subject of the things that I have yet to experience.

One thing I would love to experience is for someone to fully support my dream of being a writer, not just anyone but someone who is close to me because I get more support from strangers than the people who are close to me. Right out of high school I admit I never told anyone that I just wanted to be a writer because my family didn't support any career path that had to do with art. Silently I hid the burning urge that I have always felt to just drop everything and to just dedicate my life to writing. I went to school and made my way into the world of medicine because at some point in my childhood I had mentioned to my mom that I wanted to be a nurse just like my aunt. I mean it was just a vague desire but it wasn't as strong as the desire I felt about being a writer. It took me many years to fully realize that nothing else would make me happier than to be known as a writer. I have hidden that for so long and I've come to a point where I am confused about which way to go because all I ever wanted to do was to make my way into the world of publishing, editing, and storytelling. No one close to me was supportive enough to let me dive in that direction. I just want to meet someone who truly supports me and encourages me to write because if I didn't push myself I would've stopped writing a long time ago. I used to write in french before I started learning English and in the beginning, my writing piece in English was not my best work but those were the only work I have kept. I lost most of the stories, poems I wrote in French and I used to be so proud of myself for learning English at a fast pace that I would show everyone what I've written even if they were not great. They would criticize me and make me feel like I was not a good writer but despite all of what anyone told me in the past the desire of being a writer has never disappeared.

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2021-02-26T21:10:17+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 26 Février 2021 à 09:10 PM

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"We met when I least expected someone like you to walk into my life. I can say that I didn't imagine coming across anyone like you. I've given up hope on finding someone who would reciprocate my feelings, who would sit down with me and make plans for the future. I can say that since the day I met you you've shown me that I was not insane for wanting someone like you to knock on my door. You've shown me that I was not hard to love but simply I was in the wrong hands and I was asking all the wrong people for the things you so freely give me. I never ask you to fall for me if anything I asked you not to bother me but you never gave up. In such little time, you've made me feel so many things that I have never felt before and I cannot imagine what I will feel in the long run."

The reason why I was inspired to write this is a mystery...

The next day: now that I am reading this it sounds a lot like a wedding vow!

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2021-02-26T20:59:18+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 26 Février 2021 à 08:59 PM

You've taught me that life is not so grim,

and that it can be colorful.

You've taught me that I can close my eyes and daydream for a minute,

and that the world would still be here when I open my eyes.

You've taught me that laughing is contagious,

and that the world is a little more fun with a laugh.

You've taught me that love is more than just a feeling,

and that saying I love you is just the beginning of something great.

you've taught me that some emotions aren't meant to be avoided,

because each time you reach for my hand I can say my heart just stops beating.

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2021-02-25T23:02:22+01:00

One thing I would love to do.

Publié par Gaelle.R 25 Février 2021 à 11:02 PM

It's not surprising that I love to disappear and staying out the way but I've never really been off the grid, I have been off social media for a while but I've never completely disappeared. I want to disappear but I have a good reason this time! I want to have a place in Maine far out of the city or anywhere far away and quiet... I would even go to Alaska, I want complete solitude no smartphones maybe just a burner phone. I would just shut off everything so I can finally write a book it could last 6 months to a year.

I need to do that because I have the time now while I am young and free, it has always been my dream to be off the grid to write the story I've always wanted to write. I have this amazing plan in my head but I cannot seem to put it on paper while I'm swamped with work and all the noise coming from my TV, phone, music well I cannot live without music my name is Melodie after all, maybe I'll listen to just classical music nothing with profanity. I want to dedicate my full attention to writing an amazing story and what comes after that will be a mystery.

FYI: If I stop blogging for a while just know I am off the grid in a cabin somewhere writing.

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