No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2021-02-23T03:05:10+01:00

The signs

Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Février 2021 à 03:05 AM

Despite everything you can't say the signs weren't as clear as water.

I don't drive far for anyone or anything unless food is involved,

How can you not see that?

I don't like talking on the phone,

Why would I talk to you for hours?

I don't like texting and I never text back quick,

so would I text you all day?

I am not nice out of nowhere,

why was I always nice to you?

I don't like talking about myself,

so why did I tell you my deepest secrets?

I never like sharing what I am doing,

so why did I post all day about what's happening in my life?

Why do you think I drove all the way across town to see you?

I am always busy,

I am not always nice,

I never smile as much as I did, unless I am watching an SNL skit.

I don't like talking.

I am never available yet I was to you...

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2021-02-21T17:39:46+01:00

when you're feeling not being good enough.

Publié par Gaelle.R 21 Février 2021 à 05:39 PM

Sadly, the feeling of not being good enough has been present in all of us at some point in time, could be because someone told us we were not what they wanted or because they pick someone else. Personally, I have felt this way, it doesn't matter how confident we are how beautiful, powerful, tall, short, small, big we are there's always going to be someone else we think is better than us. One friendly reminder we all should keep in mind is that we are all different and that's what is so unique about each in every one of us. Comparing yourself with someone else is not going to help, it will only make you feel bad about yourself. We can't all be the same because life would just be boring, imagine that you are dating someone who agrees with everything you say and always want the same exact thing you want, don't you see how boring that is? I personally would not last in that relationship because I love people who have opinions.

I wish that I understood earlier in life that "no matter how good you are you will never be good enough for the wrong person." Don't beat yourself over how someone else doesn't love you because I can guarantee you there is someone else who's going to love you so much that you will wonder why that person loves you so much. I saw this quote somewhere about how one day you will meet someone and you will understand why it never worked out with the others... In life, you will meet people who will not like you for no reason but it is up to you not to take it personally.

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2021-02-18T02:22:17+01:00

stuff that my kitten does that I absolutely love.

Publié par Gaelle.R 18 Février 2021 à 02:22 AM

I love when he run-up to me when I call his name mostly because he thinks I am about to feed him but that still makes me happy. He doesn't do it every time because he's a cat and he wants to act all graceful but when I come back home and he runs to see me that just makes my heart melts.
when he smooshes his face next to mine. I just fall in love.
when he looks at me straight in the eyes and gives me love eyes. Google "cat love eyes" it's a thing! It's incredible they say cats are evil I can never imagine my kitten being evil at all.
when he lay on my chest to sleep, it's like I got a motorcycle on my chest because of how he purrs!
When he turns on his back and exposed his belly, although he never let me pet his belly but I always want to.
Every time he looks at me I just fall in love with how adorable he is.
I love when he opens up his small paw when he stretches in the middle of his sleep.
when he licks his paw
when he yarns! absolutely gorgeous.

oh well the clicking of the keyboard woke him up he was taking a nap next to me.

bye ! I gotta go pet him now he's giving me love eyes wait could be sleepy eyes either way he got me.

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2021-02-15T19:49:51+01:00

pet peeves in relationships.

Publié par Gaelle.R 15 Février 2021 à 07:49 PM

Unstable relationships: meaning one day we're good and one day we're not. One day you want to talk to me and the next day you're avoiding me. One day you love me, one day you want space. Pick a side for Godsake! I hate not being able to know where I stand with someone. I am not necessarily talking about romantic relationships but friendship also. It is not exciting for me not knowing where I stand with someone.
empty promises: I hate when people say they will do something example" I am going to call you" which results in me looking at my phone every minute expecting a call that never comes Or "we will hang out soon." like how soon? when are you going to make up your mind ? because as soon as you say that I am already fitting you in my schedule and usually I am very busy but now I am clearing my schedule for someone who has no intention to hang out with me like how awful is that!
people who don't know what they want: I am not saying you should know everything that you want but you should have an idea and if I am not part of that equation what gives? why am I wasting my time? honestly, I am tired of indecisive people it drives me crazy and I hate being crazy because I am not supposed to be crazy! I am a calm and collected person, that is simply out of my character which turns my world upside down and I hate that.
people who act differently in front of their friends: if you're trying to show out in front of your friends please don't invite me. I hate phonies like don't try to be someone just so you can appear cool or that I am more interested in you than you are in me. I just want to flee the scene and never speak to you again best believe me once you are on my" people I don't want to talk to" list it's hard for you to get out of it!

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2021-02-15T18:30:51+01:00

checking in

Publié par Gaelle.R 15 Février 2021 à 06:30 PM

Hey guys,

Everything is good on my end, I hope all of you are doing good. I have a toothache today I was supposed to get my wisdom teeth taken out this Friday but I am not ready for my face to feel all swollen and not being able to eat solid food for 2 weeks. I love food too much and I am not ready to stay away from food yet and Archie is going to the vet today I am not sure how he's going to react. He's usually friendly I hope he stays that way which is why I will neuter him very soon before he becomes out of control and sprays on everything.

I am not going to talk about food today, I am going to dive into the subject of mental health and childhood experiences.

I've been reading this book about a guy who went to a retreat for people with unsolved issues and the life coach was touching upon how some of our childhood experiences shape who we are and what we become. I never wanted to believe that some things that I went through as a child really have an impact on my adult life and my decisions making ability, but after some deep thinking, I realize that there is a strong possibility that some mistakes that I've made as an adult weren't totally my fault it was simply because I never had the change to learn that as a child. There was this one woman who said as a child she used to love to sing and she had a sister who sang much better than she did according to her parents, One day there was a party and her sister sang in front of everyone and they all applaud her and cheer but when it was her turn her father laugh and said "please spare us you sing so poorly our ears will not be able to take it" she ran and cried, she vowed to never sing again. All throughout her adult life, she never sings but she bought all the records of her favorite artist and she loved music but when it came to fresh faces and new artists she thought they were awful. She couldn't accept a newcomer because she was one but she wasn't brave enough to keep singing and she always thought she wasn't a good enough singer.

Sometimes we go through some things in life where we act totally different than our usual character but if we took some time to dig into our past and into our childhood, I am sure we can find some unresolved issue that we never tried to solve or we are unconsciously hiding someone inside of us who is desperate to come out...

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2021-02-14T01:27:00+01:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 14 Février 2021 à 01:27 AM

Hey guys,

This random but were you guys blessed with watching Micheal Jackson growing up?

I was and I am never tired of watching him. The guy could really dance! His charisma and his voice are just wow. I wish I was alive the time he was young and thriving. I would've done anything to go to one of his concerts.

All right carry on, I hope you're having a great weekend.

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2021-02-13T05:04:57+01:00

questions answered about Archie

Publié par Gaelle.R 13 Février 2021 à 05:04 AM

Hey guys Archie is my new kitten and he's asleep right next to me.

1. how old is Archie?

he is 2 months old, he kinda looks older and he looks big because he eats a lot he's probably going to be a tall cat I sure do hope so lol.

2. is it a boy or girl?

I know he looks like a girl because he's super cute but he is a boy!

3.what does he eats?

uhm cat food! to be more specific kitten food. He likes the chicken with gravy entree a lot. He also loves treats before bed.

4. what color is he?

he is white, black and gray and he has gray eyes.

5. his favorite place to sleep?

on my bed and on my lap.

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2021-02-12T04:53:53+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Février 2021 à 04:53 AM

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2021-02-09T03:20:23+01:00

interesting questions answered part 2

Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Février 2021 à 03:20 AM

one stupid thing I've ever done?

One time I drove hours to go to a party, to make it clear I got ready and went way across town to attend this party. Guess what I did? I get there and my friend was in there waiting for me to park my car and come in but on my way to the parking lot, I saw too many people so I back out and went to a restaurant got some take out and went back home to watch movies! If I didn't think I was an introvert well that day it was as clear as water that I am a pure introvert and possibly really shy.

what is something embarrassing but cute have I ever done?

well, I have something from every person that I liked example a pair of gloves because I went to a gala and my crush held my hand, ever since that day I saved the gloves and never washed it because I wanted to keep the memory alive; mind you I don't like that person anymore but I still keep it among others things that I've kept from other people. Sometimes I don't keep stuff if the memory is painful.

what Is one dumb thing I've googled?

Uhm I did it today! while sitting at my desk at work I googled " does my cat miss me while I'm at work" followed by "how do I know if my cat loves me. I just wish I could bring Archie to work with me and put him right under my desk but he's very energetic and would never stay in one place.

would I pay for my food on the first date?

I wouldn't mind but if I do it just know there will not be a second date. I have no problem taking care of myself but being in the company of a man me paying for my food shouldn't be my concern.

Wht is one thing I always say?

easy WHATEVER. I say it in various ways whut ever when I am annoyed whateverrrr when I am mad.

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2021-02-07T04:01:03+01:00

Archie

Publié par Gaelle.R 7 Février 2021 à 04:01 AM

You stole my heart the very first day I saw you,

You just took a good look at me with your big gray eyes and I was in love.

The chemistry between us was as if you've known me for a long time.

I love the way you purr when you rub yourself against my leg.

I love the way you dig your tiny little nails on my skin when I caress your soft fur.

You are so full of energy,

one minute you're sleeping and the next your bitting my arm.

At the moment you are right on my lap trying to stop me from typing so I could pay attention to you.

I don't want to leave you alone for too long this is how much I already love you,

even if I have known you for less than 24 hours I just cannot imagine my life without you.

You are so tiny and cute I just wish I could freeze the time to keep you this small.

I love you so much baby Archie.

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