No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2021-02-15T18:30:51+01:00

checking in

Publié par Gaelle.R 15 Février 2021 à 06:30 PM

Hey guys,

Everything is good on my end, I hope all of you are doing good. I have a toothache today I was supposed to get my wisdom teeth taken out this Friday but I am not ready for my face to feel all swollen and not being able to eat solid food for 2 weeks. I love food too much and I am not ready to stay away from food yet and Archie is going to the vet today I am not sure how he's going to react. He's usually friendly I hope he stays that way which is why I will neuter him very soon before he becomes out of control and sprays on everything.

I am not going to talk about food today, I am going to dive into the subject of mental health and childhood experiences.

I've been reading this book about a guy who went to a retreat for people with unsolved issues and the life coach was touching upon how some of our childhood experiences shape who we are and what we become. I never wanted to believe that some things that I went through as a child really have an impact on my adult life and my decisions making ability, but after some deep thinking, I realize that there is a strong possibility that some mistakes that I've made as an adult weren't totally my fault it was simply because I never had the change to learn that as a child. There was this one woman who said as a child she used to love to sing and she had a sister who sang much better than she did according to her parents, One day there was a party and her sister sang in front of everyone and they all applaud her and cheer but when it was her turn her father laugh and said "please spare us you sing so poorly our ears will not be able to take it" she ran and cried, she vowed to never sing again. All throughout her adult life, she never sings but she bought all the records of her favorite artist and she loved music but when it came to fresh faces and new artists she thought they were awful. She couldn't accept a newcomer because she was one but she wasn't brave enough to keep singing and she always thought she wasn't a good enough singer.

Sometimes we go through some things in life where we act totally different than our usual character but if we took some time to dig into our past and into our childhood, I am sure we can find some unresolved issue that we never tried to solve or we are unconsciously hiding someone inside of us who is desperate to come out...

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2021-02-14T01:27:00+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 14 Février 2021 à 01:27 AM

Hey guys,

This random but were you guys blessed with watching Micheal Jackson growing up?

I was and I am never tired of watching him. The guy could really dance! His charisma and his voice are just wow. I wish I was alive the time he was young and thriving. I would've done anything to go to one of his concerts.

All right carry on, I hope you're having a great weekend.

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2021-02-13T05:04:57+01:00

questions answered about Archie

Publié par Gaelle.R 13 Février 2021 à 05:04 AM

Hey guys Archie is my new kitten and he's asleep right next to me.

1. how old is Archie?

he is 2 months old, he kinda looks older and he looks big because he eats a lot he's probably going to be a tall cat I sure do hope so lol.

2. is it a boy or girl?

I know he looks like a girl because he's super cute but he is a boy!

3.what does he eats?

uhm cat food! to be more specific kitten food. He likes the chicken with gravy entree a lot. He also loves treats before bed.

4. what color is he?

he is white, black and gray and he has gray eyes.

5. his favorite place to sleep?

on my bed and on my lap.

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2021-02-12T04:53:53+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Février 2021 à 04:53 AM

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2021-02-09T03:20:23+01:00

interesting questions answered part 2

Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Février 2021 à 03:20 AM

one stupid thing I've ever done?

One time I drove hours to go to a party, to make it clear I got ready and went way across town to attend this party. Guess what I did? I get there and my friend was in there waiting for me to park my car and come in but on my way to the parking lot, I saw too many people so I back out and went to a restaurant got some take out and went back home to watch movies! If I didn't think I was an introvert well that day it was as clear as water that I am a pure introvert and possibly really shy.

what is something embarrassing but cute have I ever done?

well, I have something from every person that I liked example a pair of gloves because I went to a gala and my crush held my hand, ever since that day I saved the gloves and never washed it because I wanted to keep the memory alive; mind you I don't like that person anymore but I still keep it among others things that I've kept from other people. Sometimes I don't keep stuff if the memory is painful.

what Is one dumb thing I've googled?

Uhm I did it today! while sitting at my desk at work I googled " does my cat miss me while I'm at work" followed by "how do I know if my cat loves me. I just wish I could bring Archie to work with me and put him right under my desk but he's very energetic and would never stay in one place.

would I pay for my food on the first date?

I wouldn't mind but if I do it just know there will not be a second date. I have no problem taking care of myself but being in the company of a man me paying for my food shouldn't be my concern.

Wht is one thing I always say?

easy WHATEVER. I say it in various ways whut ever when I am annoyed whateverrrr when I am mad.

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2021-02-07T04:01:03+01:00

Archie

Publié par Gaelle.R 7 Février 2021 à 04:01 AM

You stole my heart the very first day I saw you,

You just took a good look at me with your big gray eyes and I was in love.

The chemistry between us was as if you've known me for a long time.

I love the way you purr when you rub yourself against my leg.

I love the way you dig your tiny little nails on my skin when I caress your soft fur.

You are so full of energy,

one minute you're sleeping and the next your bitting my arm.

At the moment you are right on my lap trying to stop me from typing so I could pay attention to you.

I don't want to leave you alone for too long this is how much I already love you,

even if I have known you for less than 24 hours I just cannot imagine my life without you.

You are so tiny and cute I just wish I could freeze the time to keep you this small.

I love you so much baby Archie.

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2021-02-07T01:32:30+01:00

Motherhood.

Publié par Gaelle.R 7 Février 2021 à 01:32 AM

hey guys,

I am a cat mom now! I have a kitten let me tell you about the first day I brought my baby boy home...

I was excited all week guys, I sleep, breathe thinking about the day I will finally bring the cat home. Finally, the day arrived I was so excited guys I couldn't eat I wanted to shout to the whole world that I have a kitten! I could not believe that me an obsessive cat lover finally getting a kitten! I have never been so happy in a long time like that it was like my heart was going to explode with joy. I just love cats so much as you guys know. I drove 1hour in a half to get the cat, I brought a pineapple bed for him so he could sleep through the ride back home which he did !. He was so cute and tiny I just fell in love with him right away. He was so calm but still a bit shy! He barely ate out of his bowl he only ate some snack from my hand well not entirely I had to put the treats on his bed so he could eat them there.

who knew that I could fell in love so hard with a tiny animal!

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2021-02-04T23:14:38+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 4 Février 2021 à 11:14 PM

"I don't know what's more sad two people unhappy in a relationship or two people in love but are not in a relationship."

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2021-02-01T00:15:20+01:00

can you love two people at the same time?

Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Février 2021 à 12:15 AM

Honestly, this is my own personal opinion based on my own understanding of love and relationships. First of all, let me just say I don't think I can ever love two people at once simply because I take love seriously and I experience things on a deeper level. I don't think I can give both individuals the same energy and the same amount of affection. Other people might beg to differ because they can give love easily but honestly, I do not think someone can love two people at the same time, let me tell you why.

A lot of people confuse love and infatuation, love and physical attraction which is why they may think that what they are feeling is love just because they are attracted to two people. I can assure you that between those two people there's one person you are more comfortable with and things just fall through. Love is more than just a physical attraction because you can find someone attractive but you don't necessarily love that person. Love is more than just physical and this society has made us believe that you love someone when you want to spend the night with them.

I honestly believe that love is way deeper than just wanting to sleep with someone it's being attracted to someone's mind, thoughts, wanting to know that person fully, not being able to spend a long period of time without speaking to that person; can you do all of these things with two people? I don't just mean talking to two people but putting the same amount of energy and feeling the same emotions?

How can you love two people, does that mean you don't love the first person? I would say no because why would you go ahead and love someone else too? to me, that is just impossible because it's either you fall out of love with the first person but you stick around because you're comfortable or you just physically attracted to the second person and you truly love the first person. This equation is a lot for me!

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2021-01-31T01:09:12+01:00

checking in

Publié par Gaelle.R 31 Janvier 2021 à 01:09 AM

hey guys, how are you all?

I'm doing much better than I did last week. I've been going through some things quietly and it's almost as if It's not happening, but that is just me. I take things as they are and at times I don't talk about them. I have been meaning to write about it here but I was just not ready because emotionally I was a wreck and I needed to get myself together before I let it out even though it's noticeable.

I have been struggling with acne and scars on my face. I don't think any woman should ever have to go through that because your face is extremely important and it's the first thing that people see especially when you're a woman. Some people cannot see it because we have meetings, classes on zoom so it's not as revealing which I thank God for that because if I would have to show up in person I would simply just die.

I have always been serious about my face and skincare routine, I've spent so much money trying to get my skin cleared up but it was just not happening. What is happening to me cannot be cured with just a simple skincare routine. I had to go see my primary care doctor and a dermatologist they both prescribed me medication that I should try. I remember waking up one morning and I was just horrified I could not look at myself in the mirror and I was a mess. I was crying, I am still trying to recover and to stay strong. This issue has taken a toll on my self-confidence and just everything that I used to rely on. My face used to be one of my favorite things on my body so now I am literally feeling as if my face is not good anymore... I always say mental health is important but don't beat yourself over it if being strong is not something you can do, I had multiple nervous break down last week. My mom has been the best friend I needed she helped me to stay strong, she uplifted me. I realize one thing you will not always be strong and that's fine but make sure you have great friends you can reach out to. It's okay to cry when things are overwhelming.

I think because I am or rather I look like I am handling everything well with my calm demeanor people just assume that I'm good and that my situation is not that bad; it is that bad! it's actually worse than you can possibly imagine. Aside from battling with this acne, I am doing good actually it's very weird that I crave to be alone. I just don't want to be around people at the moment and it's good that I can blame it all on the pandemic.

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