No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2021-01-20T03:12:42+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Janvier 2021 à 03:12 AM

Today I picture myself driving to your location.

I ask myself how can you be fine after everything we went through?

after all the conversation we ever had?

I took my time to get to know you,

I never do that for just anyone.

I learn your language,

I couldn't resist your quirks and flaws.

Everything about you made me feel like coming home when we talked for the first time.

How can you be okay that I am not there anymore?

Maybe I was the only one who thought we would be forever.

I can still hear your voice at night...

so soft, it's like you're barely speaking to me.

Some days I forget everything,

other days I remember everything like it was yesterday.

I can still remember the day we met like it was yesterday.

I know you already forgot all about it but I just can't.

why did I meet you to only throw all my feelings away?

why did you speak to me?

why did you come to me when I was fine on my own?

Now I have to train my mind every day, every minute, every second to forget the very day that I met you and all that came afer that.

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2021-01-19T03:38:41+01:00

to be honest.

Publié par Gaelle.R 19 Janvier 2021 à 03:38 AM

hey guys,

I'm about to be real for a second because some days I just say how I feel and today is one of those days. I always write about love and I even write poetry about love while i've never been in love... I sometimes feel like a phony because of the way I write but most of the things i've written i've felt it at some point so was I in love without knowing? there's a lof other stuff that I wrote that I haven't post here because they are way too personal and it's about some people...I just don't like putting my private stuff here but they might be my best work !

I am not mad that I write about love and to be honest, I want to be in love but maybe I am already in love yes with myself, my surrounding, my life, my family, with cats (lol I do love cats)...I am in love with many other things I just realize something we are all in love with something and it doesn't have to be someone special it could be anything...I always say that " I want to find love someday" but I have already found it because I have love in my heart.

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2021-01-17T02:58:24+01:00

what I do when I am stressed

Publié par Gaelle.R 17 Janvier 2021 à 02:58 AM

we all get stressed out and even if we don't want to be it's just something that is bound to happen. Well here's a few things that I do

I take a walk when it's nice out and when it's cold I go to my favorite store and walk around. Although going to the store is not a good way for me to save money but it's a good way for me to distract my mind and relieve stress.
I write but depends on what happened when I feel overwhelmed writing down my feelings doesn't seem tempting because at the moment I just want to walk it out or do something.
I lock myself in a dark room with some lit scented candles. I know that's weird but it helps me escape especially after a long day, I just sit back or lie down with my eyes close & I do some deep breathing while emptying my mind.
I go back on youtube to watch my favorite video of a kitten enjoying a spa day. I did attached the video but I hate to post anything that is not mine on my blog plus I don't want to promote anything, aside from that it is a very satisfying video. It just calms me down and makes me smile. Search kitten spa day on youtube if you actually follow my advice and look for that kitten getting a spa day you're a real one !

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2021-01-16T18:17:44+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 16 Janvier 2021 à 06:17 PM

"The final say in the matter is that we want what we can't have.

We love harder when the person in question is forbidden." From my own understanding.

Although I am not in love but I understand this matter quite well.

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2021-01-14T02:50:29+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 14 Janvier 2021 à 02:50 AM

"Just because you are no longer my friend doesn't mean I don't want you to eat, I do just not with me."

This was a post I saw and it's accurate.

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2021-01-13T03:28:44+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 13 Janvier 2021 à 03:28 AM

"Turn that pain into a best selling book."

which is what I intend to do !

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2021-01-13T03:09:56+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 13 Janvier 2021 à 03:09 AM

“I don’t want to be a flower beautiful yet plucked by many unsuited admirers.”

by Me from "a love letter" book.

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2021-01-11T03:21:21+01:00

lost in translation.

Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Janvier 2021 à 03:21 AM

Unnoticed, quiet, and out of reach.

Somehow I manage to stay out of the way.

I can't blame you for not understanding.

The things you say aren't making any sense,

and my lips aren't saying anything.

Your eyes don't seem trusting,

I am not listening.

My eyes are fixated on you but my mind is elsewhere.

Your words aren't getting to my heart.

I seem to be drifting away,

You drove me away.

I felt a thousand emotions and none of them made me want to stay.

Your presence is becoming heavy.

I cannot revisit our memories without crying.

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2021-01-11T02:18:08+01:00

checking in.

Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Janvier 2021 à 02:18 AM

hey guys,

I've been sort of busy and trying to stay afloat. Am I the one who is struggling with balancing everything during this pandemic? I am sure that I am not the only one. If you feel that way know that we are in the same boat. I have been inspired off-screen, I could be sleeping and I just wake up to write a paragraph down. If I was sharing the same bed with someone they would be pissed lol because I just wake up out of nowhere. I don't just sit down to write I mean I do but I am usually transported into a memory, a feeling, a bad place, a beautiful place...I can't describe it.

Besides all of that, I just literally watch cartoons all weekend. I just don't like looking at some things that could poison my mind (that's a personal subject). Just to be safe I just watch cartoons.

I'll be back when I have something interesting to write.

Good evening.

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2021-01-07T02:04:33+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 7 Janvier 2021 à 02:04 AM

The universe often finds a way to teach us things that we are unaware of or often forget due to our lack of understanding, experiences, thought processing. We might find ourselves in what may be called "a dark hole" and we don't know how to get out of it...while you are in that "dark hole" learn the ways of how you can get out of it instead of how uncomfortable it is to be in there.

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