No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2018-07-24T07:30:26+02:00

worries and lies

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Juillet 2018 à 07:30 AM

Driving without a destination to clear my mind.

You've done it again.

You lied to me once again and I just stood there and take it because I am afraid to lose you.

My mama didn't raise a coward.

why didn't I give you a peice of my mind and tell you that I am not the one?

why didn't I slap the truth out your mouth?

Why did I take your lies when I already know the truth?

Now I am driving and I don't know where I am going but nowhere near you.

I'm going to hold on to the wheel until I'm brave enough to go back to you and tell you what I know.

But for now let me drive my cowardness away till I can get back to you.

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2018-07-24T06:48:27+02:00

love and material things.

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Juillet 2018 à 06:48 AM

hey there!

what do I think about material things? well that is an interesting question but before I answer that question I just want to say that I am going to elaborate more on my answer after I give it. I think material things destroy us. I say that because I've seen such incredible individuals who were so genuine, caring and nice before they started to get money or the comfort of material things. They become reckless, rude, arrogant, selfish, greedy and disrespectful towards other people who don't have the same money that they have. It's like money make them think that they are all that, Now I know what money can do. I am well aware that we all need it but I wish that we could live without it. I wish we could live in luxury just because we love one another not because of the power that money has.

If I were to go on a date with a guy, straight up I don't care about what brand he's wearing, I don't care about what shoes he's wearing or how many he has at home, I don't care what kind of car he has. Take me for a fool if you want but I am not after his money I got my own and I can support myself. I don't want a rich boyfriend. I want a genuine, caring, nice, someone I can count on, someone who will stand by me through anything and a guy who loves the real me. The me without makeup,with my natural hair out and all of my flaws spreading right in front of him. I don't want a guy who has all the latest devices and clothes because that doesn't make him who he is, to me all of it would be a decoration pleasing to my eyes. what about his character? who he is as a person is what I care about.

I've had the chance to meet inceredible souls throughout the years and some of them made an impression on me and some I had to let go. I will only let go of someone only If I feel like they are not giving me what I think it's the best version of themselves. I will never let someone impeccable go. some people I will never forget that I have known them because of what they made me feel while I was around them good or bad. You can't impress me with all your material things. I don't care about what you have. I am not jealous of you either I just feel like I should be focusing more on you as a human instead of all your "decorations".

*just speaking my mind.

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2018-07-24T06:30:25+02:00

catching up.

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Juillet 2018 à 06:30 AM

Hey there? how y'all doing?

well I'm fine I've been busy.I am sure that I said that last time but the big announcement is that I now own an apartment with my bestfriend one of my favorite human being. I am so excited for this big step. It's like I have more responsabilities now and I feel more like an adult as if I wasn't one already lol but nah this is real. I am my own chief now, I do what I want and I still have to keep focus and keep my head in the game. Do you know how hard that is to stay focus when there's so many distractions. I kknow what I want. I know what I want to accomplish but wanting is one thing, working for it is another. I know some people didn't and still don't believe in me, they congradulating me and still have second thoughts in their heads. I don't care about all that, I know what I came here to do and I am not going to stop no matter what. It's a tough game to play and some people will have their own opinions and that's all they going to have an "opinion " about what they think of me or who they think I might turn out to be. I've heard enough and I know who's with me and who's not. I just want to say that I am happy and I very grateful to have my own place. I am grateful for everything that happened to me this year. It doesn't stop here...there's more to come.

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2018-07-19T06:46:23+02:00

what's been happening.

Publié par Gaelle.R 19 Juillet 2018 à 06:46 AM

Hi there !

it's been a while since I have been gone. The last I came here things were so different. I have been busy and there's been a lot going on. I know some of you are wondering what am I talking about...well be patient with me and I don't like telling everything all at once it takes a while for me to say what I wanna say. Bad or good thing but i'm never in a hurry. I like to take my time. I hate rushing. Although I move fast and I walk fast, some may say I drive fast but I don't take that as a good thing because nothing good comes out when things are in a rush.

Things are good for me and I am happy. Not always happy because bad things happen but I have a good feeling about life and I hope that more good things are on the way.

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2018-06-21T14:19:25+02:00

hello there.

Publié par Gaelle.R 21 Juin 2018 à 02:19 PM

It's the first day of summer and it's not really bright and sunny outside, although it's been really hot these past few days. I felt like it was summer since may oh well!

how are things?

well, things are great except that I recently took out my wisdom tooth. It did not hurt like hell I was sedated so I don't even know when the tooth came out but I know it did because my mouth is a little swollen. The whole experience was quick. I have been busy and my laptop is acting up still which is why I have not been blogging. I will never leave this blog like I always promise each and every one who takes time to actually come here. It means a lot that you wanna know about me and to see how I am doing. Some of the people close to me that I see every week don't even know how I am doing so you can feel flattered that you know a little about me. I don't put everything I am doing out there like that rather I am a very reserved person call it a bad thing but I've been like this ever since I could talk. I will never let everything out at once, I think it's part of my character but who knows. Everything I say or do has a little bit more meaning and I may not be able to tell you but that's how it is. I try to make everything count for something in my life because what's the point of doing something if it does not count? I hate wasting my time which is why I am always on the go and ready to move on to the next.

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2018-05-29T05:51:04+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 29 Mai 2018 à 05:51 AM

How are y’all doing?

I’m doing good. I have been busy lately figuring things out and finding out things about myself. I love the way things are right now and it’s been a while since I truly like the way things are. I have this urge to smile and to be the best version of myself because of the way things are. I can’t quite put my finger on it but something is giving me the confidence that I was lacking. I am not scared of the future I feel like things will work out just fine. I have been through a lot in such little time that whatever comes, in the long run, don’t even scare me. I am more than ready for whatever comes next. I am happy with the things that I am doing or experiencing. It’s all new to me but somehow I want more of it.

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2018-05-27T06:27:31+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Mai 2018 à 06:27 AM

Hey guys.

It’s been crazy my laptop crash again and this time I think it’s for good. I am using the notes on my phone to reach out to some of my readers who care. I know some of you who’s been here for a while might care a little. I know some of you of who just met me want to know more about me and you here because you want to know more. To be honest this blog is not going to help you get to know me the right way. I try being myself here and I try to express myself but sadly not as much as I should. I have been doing a lot and growing a lot more than I thought I would in such little time. I realize one thing. I realize that I need to be there for myself. Not only taking care of myself physically but mentally. Some of us give up on ourselves without even knowing. We tend to neglect our mental health and what we should to live our lives in peace. We tend to involve ourselves in drama in and things that would only destroy us. Not because we don’t know better but because we are afraid.

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2018-05-08T05:18:48+02:00

growing up.

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Mai 2018 à 05:18 AM

when I was younger and I was looking at older people I used to think that they were lucky. I mean they can eat ice cream whenever they want to and they could even have it for breakfast. I used to think that grown ups were lucky because they could go to bed late and whenever they felt like going to bed. They could go out whenever and come back whenever they want. I used to think all of this and more. Now I am growing up and I am experiencing all of this and I am being faced with making my own decisions on my own. I don't think we are lucky for being grown anymore and I don't think that anyone ever really get to do what they always want to do all the time. We are humans and we have needs but we also have responsibilities and sometimes it takes a while longer before those needs are met. Being a grown up is not all about fun and it's not all about having ice cream whenever, It's much more than that. I've always wanted to be an adult even at a young age I was already fascinated by it and now being a young adult I don't think it's that simple. Things are not always black and white, there are some greys and maybes. sometimes I feel like giving up being a young adult only because I am taking care of everything but for some reason I never really fully want to give up just yet. what's my secret? I trust that God will lead the way and that he will help me whenever there are some greys and maybes that I don't get. I know that some people say people only come to God when they have problems...I don't have any problems I just need hope and to have faith so I put my faith in God instead. There a lot that comes with adulating.

for example

budgeting. being a responsible adult means avoiding spending spree and buying unnecessary things. It is not always easy when you're going to the mall because there's a store that sells toothpaste but suddenly you are being faced with a beautiful purse on the window next door while you look down at your old purse and starts asking what it would feel like to have that brand new purse right on your arms? then you forget all about your toothpaste and suddenly you want that purse and you can feel your feet marching to the store to get it. But your conscience stops you right in the middle of you trying to get that purse then you remember that your car insurance is due and maybe just maybe you weren't able to afford that toothpaste anyway let along that beautiful purse.
saying No. Back then when you were younger you probably thought going along with your group of friends and doing things with them is always good and fun. Now you are growing up and you have responsibilities so you start saying No because having fun is not always going to pay your bills. Sadly but the truth.
you gotta get to work anyway. being independent means working. not a workaholic but working enough to take care of everything. even though you feel like calling out because you spent the whole night watching 2 seasons of once upon a time but you still have to show up to work anyway because again you gotta pay your bills.

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2018-04-11T17:14:32+02:00

the love of your life.

Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Avril 2018 à 05:14 PM

Hello there,

I am back and I am here to discuss another interesting topic. I have not talked about love for a while now and I admit that my views about it have changed. I've become more hopeful, positive and almost as if I am feeling this way too. Let's get right into it...

I admit some people have guarded their feelings about love or meeting the right one simply because they've been hurt before or been through so many relationships that did not work the way they want it to work out. Despite your feelings about love meeting the right one or the love of your life is inevitable you just won't be able to avoid it. At first you might try to run away from it or even ignore it but you won't be able to do it. The feeling will be so strong that it will be the only thing you think about. It will be different from all the encounters you've ever had. It won't be weird between the two of you, it will almost feels like it's so natural that it's familiar even like you've known the person your whole life. You won't be thinking about the certainty of the relationship rather you will look for what tomorrow have to bring and wht more you can achieve with that person. There won't be any bad blood between you two it will almost feels like it's the only person you cannot stay mad at the longest. There will be a lot of communication between the two of you and you will know the person like the back of your hand...

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2018-04-07T04:58:07+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 7 Avril 2018 à 04:58 AM

hello there, how y'all been ? well I am great I feel much better. I have been busy and figuring out a lot of things but thank God a lot of things got taken care of. I am stressed but not as much slowly but surely I am letting a lot of things go. I pray a lot and I think that's why I feel great because without God I wouldn't be able to stand on my two feet. I believe in God and I believe that he is watching over me and over us.I think the best thing I ever did was developping a relationship with him. I feel like this darkness is not so dark and I can see light at the end of the tunnel.

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