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2017-10-03T12:56:33+02:00
2017-10-03T12:52:55+02:00
this could be extremely fun or sad part 2
I will finish answering all the questions ...
- what's my favorite place? If you know me then you know I love Paris and everything about me screams Paris LoL I just love the place that's all
- favorite food? I don't have a favorite as long as it taste good but I know that I am a very picky eater. I love fried food I know I like chicken not because I'm black I'm suppose to love it, I just do personally.
- Do I use sarcasm? YES I do !!! I use sarcasm a lot that's my way of talking.
- what am I listening to right now? wow really I am listening to chains the remix by Nick Jonas and Tinashe
- First thing I notice in a person? Their style meaning what they are wearing and how they walk the talk.
- shoe size ? really Y'all want to know my shoe size !!! Damn it's 8
- what's my eye color ? It's black but I could've sworn that it's dark brown
- what's my hair color? it's naturally black but right now my hair color is reddish brown
- What's my favorite style of clothing? jackets I love jackets and long shirt and skinny jeans
- Did I ever do a prank call? No I have not
- The Meaning behind my URL? well It's my name and creativity in case you didn't know
- What's my favorite movie ? wonder woman
- what's my favorite song ? Drive by Miley Cyrus(it's good just listen to it)
- Favorite band? I would go with Little mix for this one although I have other band that I like.
- How I feel right now? I just woke up so I feel a little bit sleepy.
- Someone I love? I love many people like my mom, dad, family...
- My current relationship status? I said I am not going to say what my relationship status is and I am going to keep it that way but let's just say it's "complicated"
- My relationship with my parents? It's going well and I am really close to my mom as usual.
- favorite holiday? CHRISTMAS all the way !!
- Tattoos and piercing that I have? I don't have any tattoos but I have 5 piercings.
I took a while to answer all the questions because I am very busy at the moment. I barely have time to do anything which is why I am doing this early in the morning. Don't get me wrong I still write even if it's on my phone...I hope y'all are satisfied with my answers and appreciate my honesty.
have a nice day lovelies.
2017-10-03T05:03:10+02:00
This could be fun or extremely sad..
Writing definitely keeps me sane...
I will be answering a few questions for my readers. Although I am a very private person but I will try my best to answer the questions that I've been asked.
- What is my my name? well my name is Gaelle and my legal name Is Melodie they are both french names; yes I do speak french also.
- My age? I am 20 and yes I know I look about 16 But trust me I am way older than that.
- what are my fears? well I have many, the first one is -------- I hate them and I am afraid of them. My other fears are different such as my fear of loving someone who doesn't love me back. My fear of losing my phone. My fears are different from one another such as losing someone close to me. Lastly I fear death I am not really scared of dying but I am scared of someone else dying...
- things I love ? well I love music a lot, I love reading. I love going out, to the restaurants, going to the park or going to the movies...I love shopping online...I love getting paid and I also love working and keeping busy. Lastly I am in love with sleeping. I'm not quite done yet I also love Christmas and anything about it starting from Christmas carols, decorations, hot chocolate, warm socks, fuzzy blankets, mittens. I love watching the stars, a walk on the beach at sunset and I love watching the sunrise... I love all the romantic stuff.
- turns on? well how do I answer that? are you asking what turns me on? hummm... music does, low voices and eye contact.
- turns off? people who likes to show off, talk a lot, don't know how to act, clumsiness but try to be cocky at the same time. People with no self esteem but try to make me feel bad about myself too. Too many people butting in. people who have no manners. People who think I'm always going to be around and take me for granted.
- my best friend ? I have one best friend and we are very close she is more like a sister to me and I love her very much.
- sexual orientation? I am straight. I love guys. I am not interested in female sexually never been and never have.
- my first date? happen not too long ago it was more like an "experimental date" I was not interested in the guy romantically but he was interested in me. I did not make him feel like I was interested well at least I thought I didn't but there was mixed signals so I guess he thought I was interested. It was awful !!! I mean It couldn't have gotten any worse he try to hug me and kinda touch me and I pushed him away, but I said sorry. He felt bad and drove me home. Oh well... Shouldn't have never touched me out of nowhere especially when you knew I am not that type.
- how tall am I ? I am 5'3 but I look about 5'5
- what do I miss? I miss being 16 and worrying about what to wear.
- what time were I born ? I was born at midnight on christmas eve
- favorite color? Pink
- Do I have a crush ? At the moment No I don't have a crush but I did not too long ago but It went away like always.
- favorite quote ? I have a lot of them one is " nothing is impossible the word itself says I'm possible" by Audrey Hepburn I believe
to be continued...
2017-09-29T05:00:42+02:00
Attached?
Hi there !
Life is good...how's yours? well things are looking up and I am grateful. So what should I discuss tonight? Okay so I wrote the title before I even decided what I was going to write so I guess I am going to talk about that.
being attached?
Honestly I wouldn't say that I am too attached to anything. I can move on from anything with a little time not so much depends on what it is. For the most part I am never attached to anyone for too long If I see that I am the only one trying best believe it I will move on to something better because I hate to waste my time. I don't like depending on anyone, so this is why I rely on myself and I never let anyone have power over me. I may like someone but I am not in Love. I feel like Love is a form of attachment because you love someone they have power over you and you are depending on them to love you back. What if they don't? unrequited love is my biggest fear. I don't fall in love easily... did I ever fell in love ? I can't recall but anyway I feel like Love is too big, too wide, too fragile and it makes you weak. Don't get me wrong I love my family the love I am talking about is the other kind...the one where you want to get married, have kids and see yourself getting old with that person by your side. Maybe one day I'll get to that point of loving someone like that but for right now everything is just temporary. I am not attached to anyone like that. I love my family and my best friend well she's like a sister to me now but after that...it's a wrap. Man I have been sleeping a lot today so my thoughts are a bit crowded right now ! so I am talking about being attached right... there's nothing wrong with being attached to anyone. You can I am not saying that it's not a good thing. It's just that I have never felt that way so I don't know what I have been missing. Despite everything I think Love is a beautiful thing because I am a hopeless romantic.
Good night y'all, talk soon.
2017-09-29T04:38:41+02:00
new wave.
That feeling is been there for so long that it almost felt like it's impossible to get rid of.
It's no longer there but it's hard at times.
The memories don't want to fade away.
I would wake up thinking about you forgetting that you are no longer here with me,
Forgetting that you are from the past.
You are not from this chapter in my life.
It is hard for me when you are still standing close.
I took a step back because I don't want to be a prisoner to this feeling.
I couldn't Ignore it for so long.
Slowly I am returning to my old self as you start fading away.
2017-09-21T14:43:49+02:00
hello
update,
so I have been busy with school. Right now I am working on a new project. It's a biography about my life so far. I am not going to publish it yet because I only started it yesterday but so far it's coming alone really well. I have the tendency to start something and leaving it because I lose interest halfway through. This one is about me and about how my life is evolving so there's no way I can lose interest because I am interested about my life right now. So many things are happening but I rather stay on the low and live everything in the moment. I don't want to spoil anything. I hold everything dear because it's the beginning. I am also working on it self help book but I hate to admit that it's a "self help" book because that would mean that I am telling you how to live your life. Maybe I am wrong and I have a feeling that I am because a self help book is suppose to help you help yourself right? but I am still telling you about life. I feel like I haven't really live life fully to help someone but so does everyone. Life just keeps going and we are all realizing things as it goes and so am I. Maybe I should tell someone about what I have learn so far...
one day it will all be published but for now I am working on the low and trying to improve my writing techniques. As you all can see it is not perfect because I am still new but I will get better with time and practice. I am not going to say English is not my first language and that's the reason why because that sounds like an excuse to me. I need to improve if I want to make it as a writer and that's that. I want it so bad that I know for a fact that I will succeed.
have a nice day. Love you all. Talk soon.
2017-09-15T16:45:33+02:00
under 20 Minutes challenge
I look in the mirror and all I can see is my enormous eyes,
I am mad because I am still not able to see what is wrong me.
Why such big eyes when I still have no clue about who I am?
What is my purpose?
My small ears cannot hear the echo in my brain telling me what to do in dangerous situations.
I always make the wrong decisions choosing to ignore that voice in my head.
Looking at my head I wonder what goes on inside of it.
Am I smart ?
Why can't I figure this out on my own?
Is my brain not big enough to give me an answer about my own level of intelligence?
Why do I need someone else to tell me my IQ?
I was created with a mind of my own so I should be able to determine this by myself.
I can see them looking at me they must be analyzing my body.
From the way I walk to the way I pause to pick up something from the floor.
They are looking at me because I look different among them.
I know that I am not perfect and I will never be.
My body is flawed with cuts and bruises that the past have left on me.
There is no bandage to cover all the bruises.
I can't wash my flaws in the shower.
I have to live with them for the rest of my life.
My big head, my huge eyes, my small ears and my bruised body define me.
Last week I wanted to change my body.
I started wishing that I had smaller feet but then I see other people with no feet.
so I felt bless to have a feet at all.
I wanted a flatter stomach but then I look at one of my friends and I saw that I am not that big compare to him. So I rejoice and accept my not so big stomach.
I am not happy that I was made this way but I am joyful that I have all the body parts a human should have.
2017-09-15T01:54:03+02:00
2017-09-12T02:55:55+02:00
what you see
You've seen me and you saw how wonderful I can be,
But you never know about those dark times those times where I wish I was never here.
You never knew the times I wanted to walk away but all you see is all the times I stayed and fight.
When you thought I was beautiful I could never believe that I was because the things I was going through were so ugly,
But you will never know.
You saw me laughing but you never knew about all the times that I've cried,
you don't know how many times I fought those tears but they would run down my face anyway.
You can never imagine me that way because you never see that side of me.
If you saw the me that you never see you would change your mind about me.
You wouldn't think I was still beautiful and kind.
You wouldn't think that this was me.
All I think about is how you never know the real me,
The me that keeps me awake at night.
The me that I tried to wash plenty of times in the shower.
That me stays hidden and you will probably never wonder about her.
2017-09-10T17:54:34+02:00
Decorating..
Morning !
How are y'all doing? well I am great... I am feeling better as if I was hurting for a while but now my mind is clearer and I can see things in a new light. I am thankful for this feeling because I haven't felt that way for a while now, I always had something bothering me in the back of my mind and right now I don't feel that way.
So I am currently decorating my room from scratch I already got the bed frame now I am working on getting a comfy mattress. I mostly look through pinterest for ideas and the app have been so helpful to me. It's my go to app every time I need ideas on something new such as hairstyles even though I always ending up coming up with something that I thought about before going on the app but it is nice to see other ideas from other people. I also look up how other people match their clothes... My style is unique from school girl to street style and casual... I love switching things around. I am a modern day woman. Lol I said I'm a woman well I am becoming one each day that goes by and every responsibility I take I become older and more mature. Back to my room well... I need a nice carpet made out of fur and a dresser that matches the color of my bed. I will need some picture frame to put some art that I have on my phone... I will need to print them out I publish one of them here... I it's beautiful it will be up on the wall above my bed. Gosh I am so excited.