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2017-10-24T04:39:56+02:00
2017-10-24T03:57:22+02:00
Don't wanna be like this.Like them.
I hate that I spend my days wondering about what could go wrong instead of what could go right.
It makes me mad that I am doing the same thing all over again.
I don't wanna repeat the past,
Making the same mistake all over again.
Feeling weak and wanting to give up.
I wanna keep fighting.
I want to keep holding to my teddy bears in a world full of villains.
I want to sip tea while they drown in beers and vodka.
I want to eat all my candy as they start to scream.
I want to keep holding on to my ponytail as they cut their hair.
Preparing for the worse because that's what always comes my way.
But I don't wanna give up even if I wanted to.
2017-10-20T05:30:19+02:00
pet peeves or things that I absolutely cannot stand.
Hi there,
I am tired right now and I am not supposed to be considering I slept a lot more today but I cannot help it. My body is way too tired for only one day of rest, I need 2 days.
let's get right into the topic. Pet peeves or things I find annoying.
- slow drivers: I hate when someone have an empty road in front of them and they still choose to go slow. I am a new driver but I know at least I need to drive the car to go where I am going. I feel like some people are afraid to drive their car maybe they just got the car but like they are driving way under the speed limit. It's annoying ! It can cause an accident. Driving slow does not mean you're being careful because you are not the only one driving there are people behind you. Driving too fast is certainly not safe either but at least don't drive below the speed limit Please dear slow drivers.
- people who stare at me for no reason. I don't even know what they are thinking when they are looking at me like that it makes me uncomfortable. I don't like when people look at me too much like can I help you.
- girls with long hair who lays their hair on my desk please move it before I cut It !! I swear I hate when they do that. I don't care about your long hair by the fact I can cut it for you whether you like it or nah.
- people who smack their gum, chew loudly and talk with food in their mouth. UGH please don't talk to me cuz It's so irritating omg. PLEASE CUT IT.
- kids that likes to hit people now I don't know if because I look small but some kids always trying to hit me and I don't know what to do because I really want to hit them back. Is that mean? I swear I want to hit them but that would be weird... So I don't know what to do I just stand there and say stop. I try to look mean but my mean face is not that believable.
- people who just call me on facetime and I literally just met you. Uhm I don't know what you're tryna do but I'm not going to pick up just text me or snapchat me cuz I ain't about to facetime anyone I just met. Like I don't know you like that to be that comfortable with you.
- people who hug me out of nowhere or lift me up because they think I'm small so I should like being tossed in the air, like first of all I am not kid put me down. I don't like people lifting me up thank you and don't touch me.
- people who ask to much questions. UGH I feel like I'm being interrogated.
- loud people. JUST BE QUIET.
- People who snores...ugh kill me now.
Night y'all !!
2017-10-16T12:47:38+02:00
what you did
It's the way you used to leave while I was waiting for you
that made me leave.
It's the way you used to stay silent as I told you how I felt
that made it easy for me to let you go.
It's the way you would look away as I search for your eyes
that made me run the other way without looking back.
It's the way I felt when You were next to me
that made me stop thinking about you.
It's the way you used to act
that made me forget all about your existence.
It's the words that you never say
that made me despise you more than I admire you.
One day you will want to meet someone like me,
one day you will search for someone like me but you won't find me.
It's hard to find someone like me,
It is hard for you to see that now but in the future you will understand.
I became cold to your love,
I no longer need it and I don't care about it now.
You couldn't see me when you were all I could see and I am not ashamed to admit that anymore.
I have learn so much through your unresponsive actions.
I came to know how much I am worth and what I don't want in my life.
I will never want someone like you ever again and I know exactly how to spot useless people like you.
It was all a waste of time.
I could've been doing so much but I wasn't because I was to busy focusing on you.
Now I see how much time I have for myself that I became selfish to even share it.
Today I am smiling and It's real.
No hard feelings though.
2017-10-16T12:35:58+02:00
what used to be.
If I were to write a book about you it will be blank,
Representation of what I now think of you.
My mind is empty when It comes to you,
I don't remember a thing.
I don't remember how it felt to think about you because I no longer do.
I don't remember How it felt to be near you because I haven't seen you in so long,
that I forgot your face.
I forgot the way you used to walk,
I forgot the way you used to talk.
I forgot the way your eyes would feel on me.
I used to think about it all the time,
even in my sleep your face used to be playing in my dreams.
I used to wake up and eat while thinking of you.
Now I have nothing to think about.
Slowly I am forgetting every lies you were feeding me.
I am letting go of you so fast that I can't remember why I thought about you in the first place.
I ask myself what I saw in you and all I got is a silence.
I can't remember why I chose you,
I can't think of a reason why you were my number one.
Today I am happy to say that you're no longer in the top of my list and that your name is not in it anymore.
I am happy to be free from you and all your lies.
2017-10-10T16:57:20+02:00
STABILITY
Hi there,
I am surprise that It is not cold outside yet. It's the month for all the "spooky" things to happen even though I don't really care about all that stuff. As I said this I don't really like Halloween I just like costumes and because I can't wear a costume everyday without looking weird so I have to wait for this day but I'm not celebrating.
Enough about how I don't like Halloween, let's talk about something relevant. Do you like stability? the type I am talking about is the type where you stick to one thing for years and you like it. Some people like to change things like their jobs, friends and their surrounding. I don't like that I need something that I am used to in my life otherwise I won't feel complete, I need stability. Which is why when I have a job I stay there until something have to make me switch. If everything is great why switching? I like to have the same friends for years, I like to be surrounded by the same people I always knew although I like making new friends but I like my usual friends too. To be honest I don't like changing but sometimes it's required so I guess I had to. When I do I either completely disappear or it's like I never left. I only disappear when something wasn't right and I need time to get over it or feel better about it. It doesn't take long for me to move on as long as I cut all ties then I'll move on and when I do I will never feel the same way I felt again.
2017-10-06T04:23:16+02:00
Q&A what would I prefer?
Hi there,
How's life ? mine is going pretty well and I am very grateful. So I will take some time to answer some questions to let y'all know about me. I don't mind letting you get a glimpse of my life... so let's get right into it.
- Do I prefer coffee or Hot chocolate? I don't really like coffee so I would prefer hot chocolate. I only drink coffee when I'm extremely tired in the morning and it has to have a lot of stuff in it like whipped cream, milk, caramel and possibly some chocolate sauce.
- Halloween or christmas? well I love christmas and nothing can replace it. I would choose christmas over halloween any day. I only like the costumes about Halloween after that I don't celebrate it and I don't believe in all that spooky stuff.
- Talking or texting? Texting because I can think as I type and I have time to make my mind up but when I'm talking I just say what I have in my mind at the moment and I might change my plans sooner or later.
- Blue or Red? Red of course something about this color is so festive and attractive that I can't quite put my finger on it. I do love Red and It goes with my skin tone.
- autumn or winter? I love winter but sometimes it's annoying when it's snowing a lot so I would choose autumn over winter. I also like the color of the leaves during that time it's such a beautiful sight.
- baths or showers? I would choose baths although I always shower after I take a bath (don't ask me why) I just use both but baths are really relaxing and I need that right now.
- Football or soccer? soccer because that's the sport I'm used to.
- Pizza or cheeseburgers? I would choose pizza but the ones with buffalo chicken because I am tired of cheese and pepperoni pizza; that's all I used to eat in high school NO MORE !
- Cake or Ice cream? I would pick Ice cream because I just love it more.
- Grapes or watermelon ? definitely watermelon because I am in love with it.
- sunrise or sunset? I would pick sunset because something about it is so calming and romantic that I just love it more.
2017-10-03T20:41:10+02:00
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