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2018-02-01T00:30:59+01:00

M.I.A

Publié par Gaelle.R

hello,

It seems like I've been gone for a while only because my computer was acting up and I only feel comfortable blogging on my own computer at home. I like the privacy of me coming with new found ideas as I seat on my bed with my laptop on my lap which is bad for guys ( I don't recommend any guy to put a laptop on their lap because it's detrimental to their reproductive organs ). I actually love my privacy when I write I feel like It's just me with the keyboard or just me with a pen and paper. I am back and I have been thinking about a lot of things while I've been gone. When wasn't I thinking about new ideas? I can't recall. I feel like I overthink which is bad I know and there comes the stress. Today is the last day of January and I am so happy because this month have been so long and a lot has happened. I was an emotional wreck the beginning of the month I wasn't feeling well at all. I can say that the first day of January came with a lot problems for me I was emotionally unstable. If you know me well you will know that despite everything I will never give up I will keep fighting even when everyone else give up and I like that about myself. Even after being depressed because I don't get sad it's more than that it's unhealthy I know but we all deal with things our own ways. My ways may seem wrong to many but to me it's my creative side. I cannot stand people judging someone else without knowing what they've been through. I am not saying that It is okay to be the victim I am tired of that too. Stop being the victim and always talking about how it's because of someone or something that's why you the way you are. Stop letting other people control you. You've been giving this life to make something out of it and you should never let anyone take that away from you. You have the freedom to chose who you want to be and you have the right to follow your dreams because that's who you are and that's what made you. Never give up even if you fail. Failure is not such a bad thing that's where all the knowledge comes from that's where you gain enough experience about what you didn't know. I would rather fail thousands of times just to become successful because I will know more each time I fail because the more I fail the wiser I become.

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2018-01-28T06:22:40+01:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R

In search of happiness I look into your eyes,

 it's the only thing I know how to do in the midst of the tragedy around me.

Despite of it all I still count on you.

I still believe in you.

I still the best in you when you've giving up. I could see right through you.

Your eyes were not like mine,

they would sparkle when mine would cry. 

they could smile when mine only knew how to frown. 

Your eyes knew how to turn that frown upside down in mine.

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2018-01-21T04:33:19+01:00

Helping.

Publié par Gaelle.R

Hellurr...

How y'all doing? well I'm great thanks for asking. Lately I've tried to come back here more often because I want to spend way more time writing and so far I have been doing a great job. I write more than I did at the end of last year and I have more ideas coming in. It's been a while since I've written a story in French I think this year Is the year I explore what my french side has to offer. I've missed writing in french because usually when I do I find that I love romance and stuff. well enough about all of this...Let's get into to the topic.

Helping...

we all need a little help sometimes some a little more than others nothing to be ashamed of, we all need help. I feel like some people want to help and they may seem like they are helping but really they are not. They want to look like they helping but deep down they don't want to. Some people don't want to see you thrive at all and so they intentionally decide not to help you. Some people help you with a limit enough for you to get by but they don't want you to do better than them. Sadly this is the truth and trust  me to find someone that actually want to see you thrive other than your family or significant other is rare. To see someone who helps without anything in the back of their mind like thinking you getting better than them could be a problem. Trust me there are some good people out here and they are willing to make a lot of sacrifices for people. 

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2018-01-17T05:22:42+01:00

one day at a time

Publié par Gaelle.R

I am no longer living for tomorrow's sorrow.

I am only living for today's blessing.

I am no longer planning for all the bad things to happen tomorrow,

but I am only living for today's happiness.

what's done is done.

No more tears running down my face wishing I could go back.

I am not living in the past anymore.

I don't bring it up.

I'm moving forward what I did don't matter.

What you did to me is all forgotten.

I have to live.

I have to forget it and move on.

I can't keep on reminiscing.

I need to start living for today and forget about yesterday.

I am tired of looking back, wishing and afraid I might be stuck in yesterday trying to save today.

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2018-01-14T05:34:23+01:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R

 

when I thought the leaves were falling outside but as soon as I look out the window I could see the snowflakes hitting the ground.

Hiding away for so long that soon comes the hot dry air and before I could open my eyes again I was shivering with the cold.

where did it all go ? I couldn't see what I've accomplish all year long.

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2018-01-12T06:02:37+01:00

reason why I stop trying and stop talking to you.

Publié par Gaelle.R

Hey there again.

I am here to clear the air it's 2018 so therefore I don't want any misunderstanding between me and anyone. Let me leave this out here I know the right people will see it and understand.

reason why I stop trying?

  • I stop trying to get along with you because I see that I am the only one doing the work and it almost feels like I am begging you to be my friend. One thing about me I have way too much pride to beg (I'm not proud of having too much pride but it is what is) I hate to beg or force anyone to be my friend. I never need a lot of friend so if I am trying to be your friend and I see that you don't feel like it then I will simply leave you alone. 
  • I stop trying because I am trying to make things work between us but you keep messing it up. You keep making me feel like I am not as important to you as you are to me. You don't prove to me that I mean something to you therefore I stop trying. I feel like I am the only one telling you how much you mean to me while you just taking everything and not giving a single thing back.
  • I stop trying because I don't see where this is going and I don't see a future for us. I feel like I am wasting my time so I stop trying. I feel it's a dead end and that what we have will never be something bigger so I stop fighting for it.

reason why I stop talking to you?

  • I stop talking to you because you allow me to. You see that I don't talk to you and you don't even wonder why I stop so I simply stop for real because I see that you don't care.
  • I stop talking to you because I can see you don't have the best intentions at heart. I see that you don't want the best for me, you hate it when I'm too happy or hype you hate it when I'm doing better than you and I can see how jealous you are. So I stop talking to you because I don't like the negative vibe you bring around me.
  • I stop talking to you because you disrespected me and you never apologize therefore I stop talking to you.
  • I stop talking to you because you don't do me any good. You make me feel a way I don't like so I chose to avoid speaking to you

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2018-01-12T05:38:01+01:00

being wrong.

Publié par Gaelle.R

Hey there,

Although I have a mild headache but I still decide to blog because I've had had this idea for the last 4 hours and I was like I can't wait to get home on my laptop and share this with you. Even though I got home eat, watch TV for a while and browse on social media but here I am.

so... being wrong uh? to be honest that's not the right tittle "being wrong" is not my point it's part of it. I am here to talk about forgiveness and saying sorry. We've all been wrong and said some things that may have hurt someone we love and care about. I personally have and perhaps it was unintentional because I would never plan to hurt someone that I love. I wish I could go back and take what I said back but I can't. I made a mistake and I won't let that be the end. What I should and must do next is go over there and sincerely apologize and hear what the person has to say to understand the hurt and the pain that they feel. we are humans and we are prone to make mistakes but what we need to do is own up to them. even though you don't know how you've hurt someone because you simply can't see what you did wrong but understand that it is not your place nor up to you to decide if the person should be hurt or not. you are not inside their head or in their feeling to know how they feel. sometimes one simple thing that you say can hurt someone. sometimes you may not speak just your body expression or because you ignore someone can hurt them. The human mind is complicated and trying to figure that out when someone is hurting is wrong. Instead of fighting to prove that you are right you actually making it worse. A loving friend don't care about who's wrong or right they care about maintaining the relationship and about being on good terms. I see great relationship get ruin because none of the people involved wanted to apologize so they would rather move on instead of making up and apologize. It takes a lot of pride to admit that you are wrong and I know that it is not easy but we have to put our pride away if we want great relationship. when you are in a relationship with someone you will fight with them, disagree but at the end of the day what you have with them is greater so you work it out with them because you realize how much you need that person and how much you love that person that you cannot live without them. Love is about forgiving, accepting, realizing, apologizing and simply love them because you just do and there's nothing else you can do but love them. Once you fall in love you're in trouble because you've open up your heart, you let someone in and now you just hope for the best and try to protect the bound. Love is not a bad thing...It's the closest thing there is to magic, no one knows what it is poet like myself have tried to define love but it's not simple.

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2018-01-09T00:09:54+01:00

2018

Publié par Gaelle.R

hello,

I don't know where the time is going but it surely doesn't wait for anyone.  So far this year has been full of surprises. I just hope that this year is better than 2017 because last year was the hardest and there was a lot of change and transitioning. I don't mind the change as long as it's good but deep down I still wish things were great and that I didn't need to change anything. Life is unexpected and one can only hope. we don't know what the future holds which is why we are constantly looking for ways to make things better because we cannot see that things will fall into place and be exactly the way that the are suppose to be. We just want what's great and what's good forgetting that what's bad is what shape us. The good times are just a bonus, we do need the good times to be happy and to keep going but we need the bad times to learn and to become better human beings. I am not going to sit here and type that I am looking forward for the bad times,no one is and I hate when things don't work out. I hate starting over sometimes but I have to sometimes because that's how I move on. We all have our own ways and as the years flew by we learn what's best for us and what we really need.

despite all,

2017

  • It was the year that I grew the most, that year I learn to accept myself the way I was flaws and all. I learn to accept my natural hair I mean I used to love my hair but not enough to leave it the way it is which is thick and all natural. I used to perm it and wear braids all the time but living with two women who truly love their natural hair taught me how to fall in love with mine and I did. I felt great after I  cut my hair so short that the old me would've hate it but the new me loved it so much that everyone else around me accepted it. I didn't cut my hair for them I did it for me as a new beginning and it was. I've learn to fall in love with my body flaws and all. I've learn to block out the negative comments about how small or petite that I was I simply love me for me. Even though I am still small I have no problem being that way because it's my body type and I learn not to change for anyone if there is any change to be made I will simply do it for myself. I've learn to embrace the music in my culture well that happened at the end of the year and  I used to listen to any other music but the one from my country I used to think they were corny or whatever. By the end of the year I could see how much I've been missing out and so I started to find them so inspiring that instantly fell in love with the sound. I've learn to move one from any relationship that wasn't good for me. At the beginning of that year I was dreaming about someone and I wanted so much from that person but with time I realize that I was wasting my time so I walked away because I loved me more. It was a waste of my time and It did not work out I thought it was very promising only to realize that it was a dead end. I don't think that I wanted a relationship that time because I wanted to be single too. I wasn't ready for a relationship but I can't say what I would've done if the person wanted the same thing that I wanted. Still at the beginning of year I was over that person but I had respect for our connection but after I realize that It was a dead end I cut all ties and moved on completely and it was the best decision I ever made. I have learn to take on responsibilities and I started working on greater things that I have not before... 

I only talked about the good things that happened to me that year because I am all about positivity and being optimistic I want to focus on the good things. I am grateful for everything and I am happy to share some things with you.

hope y'all had a good day !! 

bye for now.

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