No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2016-09-09T21:30:13+02:00

The reason why...

Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Septembre 2016 à 09:30 PM

hello how is life? well mine is sure is busy like i don't even have time to eat or think for hours like i used to,everything is in a a rush now !! lol how is your life? well since some of y'all never comment but i'm glad that some of you do send me messages...to tell you honeslty you do not need to comment. This is more for me than it is for you lol i mean if you are a late teen who doesn't communicate that much since you have a few people whom you trust then you would understand. i admit that i either talk a lot or i just don't talk at all and this blog is to tell you how i think and how my mind works. Some people think that it is not normal well this blog is for you to see that yes it is not normal but i have my own reasons. I do not care if you like me or not you are here and what does that say? well you either want to know something so you can critize and hate on or it's just that you are interested...either way i am glad you here. To tell you i had this blog for about 3 years now and i am glad that i have it. The reason why i'm glad is because i can leave my anger out here. I am calm on the surface but if i didn't have this blog maybe someone would have died lol. I am glad that i did not kill anyone. wait what am i talking about? right the reason why ! well i am not a normal person...well i think normal is boring and i live my life purposely not to be normal. I hate being normal and thank God i was born different everything is different and i am not ashamed of that. I embrass my weirdness, i embrass my lack of communication. I embrass that i express my feelings through my clothes and style. It is a wonderful thing not to always speak. You learn more about people and you even learn more about yourself when you are quiet. You have time to listen which is the best thing in life learning and knowing. But you need to have a voice. My voice is here,through my style and finally my closest friends. I just think people discover too much about you when you speak too much... ugh i hate when people tell me all about themselves trying to brag like i do not need to know all of that. Your personal bussiness do not need to be out there like that. Hold on to your privacy and work on your weakness within yourself i do not need to know all of your fears and weakness.

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2016-09-04T16:17:19+02:00

No idea what people are saying and why should i care?

Publié par Gaelle.R 4 Septembre 2016 à 04:17 PM

Morning ? the tittle explain itself lol i did not want to be so obvious but i might as well get to the point as soon as i can. Have you met those types of people who judge you for everything that you do i mean sometimes you even ask yourself am i that bad? Well you're not but what you need to do is ignore them...some people will talk about your hair, your height, your appearance when that happens to me i just smile because of how shallow these people are. There is nothing i can really do about my physical appearance i am here already i might as well just live my life. I love quiet and peace i hate noise and all of the talking about how i could be better is driving me crazy. I just want to live my life and be happy. unless i choose to be happy no one can really help me do that and same to you too. If you don't decide how you want to live your life and you let other people decide for you then trust me you won't be living your life right. You will be confuse if you don't know what you want in life. I am not saying that you need to know everything you want to do because i can barely do that but you can at least have an idea about who you want to be, how you want to live your life and who you want in your life. Some people are in your life and you can't really see the positive side of them because they are so judgmental and you can't really see why they are there. Sometimes i would catch some people looking at me a certain way because i just speak my mind while other people are also speaking...like what the hell did i do? i think some people love you as long as you are not a threat, honestly i don't think i am a threat to anyone and i wish other people could see that too. I admit i am not much of a talker if i don't know you, don't trust you or don't know what you think of me...but i have a voice i just choose to mind my business because ii hate drama. There are some people i ignore not because i hate them but because i like them in a way that it becomes my weakness so i move away so it doesn't bite me later...lol what a theory i am happy to share this because some of y'all be getting your heart broken my MO is crushes is for amateur why wasting all that love if you are not going to tell the person? you might as well let it die...you do not need to fall for no reason believe me it is a waste of time, energy, thoughts and whatever you do to cope when you like someone who doesn't know that you like them. If you like someone and you feel ready to engage in a relationship then go ahead take your chance pick a way to tell them. You can tell a lot by how someone handle their crush on someone. Some are persistent, distant, rude, sweet,harsh,bittersweet,idiot lol some people just don't know how to be around their crush. For these rude people they come from a different planet. So because you like someone you have to hurt their feelings to make them notice you? it should be the other way around. Even though they say nice guys finish last but just be yourself.

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2016-08-31T05:07:20+02:00

I will never let you go

Publié par Gaelle.R 31 Août 2016 à 05:07 AM

I don't know what this is for us but i will let faith decide. I know i haven't been there lately and i am sorry but i have to go to do other things to clear my mind. Being near you suffocates me. It's not entirely your fault but you make me feel that way and i can't deny how much i hate it. It was not like this we used to understand each other. Now i look at you for a split of seconds and i wonder who are you? but i can't seem to find out who you really are. I miss the old you i wish you could show me a piece of who you used to be before it's gone. I don't know what to say and how to talk to you. It was never like this. But one thing i know if i could change this i would but i don't know how and i can't ever do it alone, i need you to help me. Help me understand what i did wrong because i am trying to keep it good between us. I hate to chase and i can't do that because it's not in my nature. But i would love to talk. I am not begging you. If you wanna talk, fine, if you can't then be it. I will not make you change your mind i just want to know. Because i feel like a fish swimming through the ocean...i do not know where i am going and where this path is leading me yet i want to keep going. i am not sure i can keep doing that. I am getting the vibe that you could care less and i hate to admit that i am starting to feel the same way. You can leave and do whatever you like and i can do the same yet i would still wonder about what i don't know. I feel like you are hiding something from me and i am not surprised, you've done it before. I just thought this time would be different but i guess it's not. You are still the same person i met not too long ago. I am not asking you to change. Be who you are but just not with me well not on my watch. I can't stand the thought of you trying to make a fool out of me ...if that's what you want to do well go ahead and try let see who wins rather let see who will discover the truth first...there are some things i don't know and it is better this way. There are some things that i don't know that i like not knowing. But there are some things i can't not know ! yet i still can't let you go.

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2016-08-25T07:06:14+02:00

be who you are armed with confidence

Publié par Gaelle.R 25 Août 2016 à 07:06 AM

well i am sure that i have already talked about being yourself here. Saying it is easy and the ideas seem fun for some people like me i love the idea of being who i am supposed to be. What if i stumbled well many times? so what? we all make mistakes as long as we learn from them then we get something in return. Well it's almost 1 am and i get inspired that time let see how i am going to develop this " be who you are" article...

who are you? and i am not talking about gender we all can see if you are a girl or a boy. what i mean is who are trying to be? are you happy with who you are? some of us hide our insecurities so well that it is so hard to believe that they might be depressed or desperate to change. Let me tell you something ... being here for over a decade and 9 years added i can tell you accepting who you are is the best way to start by making your way to happiness. If you do not love yourself first then how are you going to allow yourself to let someone else love you let alone believe that they actually love you. It is hard to believe that someone love you when you have no experience in love yourself. You wouldn't know how hard it is to love something so beautiful but easy to break. when you look at yourself in the mirror what do you see? besides your face, body do you see other things? your qualities? well i am not perfect and i am not going to sit here and preach about accepting yourself when i am still learning myself. Being a girl especially in this society is hard. All the girls i see nowadays have a big butt, big boobs and they are all about the BODY. As much as i hate to say this but i feel like i am missing a lot of things when i look at another picture of these girls. I am not like them. I am not curvy no i am just me some most people think i am skinny ... which is good some people say it is while others are competing with me saying they are skinnier than me. I do not want to compete... i am not perfect and i will never be ! i am just who i am...flaws in all. To be honest sometimes i look at these pictures and i wish i had bigger things in my body but what can i do? there is only one thing i have to do and that is to love myself and to accept that i am not these girls but i am just me. I won't spend a lot of money on make up such as contour or whatever girls are buying these days rather i would gladly spend it on a great book or sneakers... i do love lipstick but who doesn't? lol if you are a boy and you are reading this well i am sorry (i ain't sorry) the reason i am saying all of this tonight is only because i know that there some girls going through the same struggles...that does not mean you're not beautiful. Believe we are all beautiful in our own way. And to believe that you are not because you are comparing yourself to someone else is crucial you do not need all this stress in your life, you need to let it go. You are beautiful just the way you are and you do not need to change everything about yourself

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2016-08-19T03:32:56+02:00

be honest

Publié par Gaelle.R 19 Août 2016 à 03:32 AM

well today i just want to start something and leave it here... Some people just don't like to say the truth when someone can get hurt if it is the truth then you need to say despite everything. When you want to tell someone the truth don't beat around the bushes just go ahead and say it. Don't let people believe in something that is not there. Do not make a girl believe you like her just because you feel like it you need to tell her the truth. Do not make a guy believe you have feelings for him just because you feel sorry, wanna play, prove a point just tell him the truth. Tell him he is not the one and you need to move forward don't look back because if you do you might make a mistake because you didn't like him in the first place.

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2016-08-14T14:32:33+02:00

being genuine...

Publié par Gaelle.R 14 Août 2016 à 02:32 PM

this morning i just feel the need to talk about some types of people whom for a reason or another they go unnoticed for their great personality just because other people don't believe that they are genuine like they seem. I don't blame you for being cautious because people hide themselves so well these days you'll never know who they really are. I am not saying you should be very upfront about yourself because some people are discreet and i am one of those people. what i am saying you should not lie about who you really are don't make people believe that you are something that you're not. I saw a quote on Instagram i don't know who wrote it but "no one can never be you and that is your power" believe me when i say this no one can be who you are they can copy you but they won't be like you. I love the people who are not afraid to be kind even when other people are trying to hide their emotions, i love the people who speak their mind freely. I also love the ones who cry during sad movies because it shows me that they have a heart somewhere and a soft spot. It's good to know that someone is human and not a wall. They can be sensitive and loving...i love when people are not afraid to show their love for one another. Some people just hide their love and they never show it simply because they are scared or they don't know how to express it. There is no right or wrong way in love because you will treat the person all the right way if you really love them. I heard some people say it's because i love you that is why i am punishing you !!uhm what kind of nonsense is that ? that is not love because love doesn't hurt. It heals you and make you feel amazing inside and out.

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2016-08-13T03:55:36+02:00

Moving

Publié par Gaelle.R 13 Août 2016 à 03:55 AM

Travelling is sure is fun i mean if you don't travel and you stays in one place it gets boring right? I mean i hate to stay in one place and moving around seeing new places, new people get your mind ready for everything. I love to change things like that in my life...i mean we all should it is fun to get new things and to switch things up. Staying in one place can be boring and trust me you don't want to do that for the rest of your life. You have to get up and move around because you will learn new things and be more open minded. You need to go see how people in the west, south, north do things. You must go out and see things. It's not just about one place it's about THE PLACES ! i mean it is summer you out of school and you can take that time off at work to take your sweet vacation.

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2016-07-28T03:49:43+02:00

what is one thing you like to do?

Publié par Gaelle.R 28 Juillet 2016 à 03:49 AM

well if i were to answer that question i'll say aside from writing reading is one thing i love but i also like listening to music like i am doing right now...but really i love meeting new people talking to them and getting to know them it educates me and i love to know something about someone i never met before there's something exciting about it. It is fun talking to the people you usually talk to but talking to someone new sort of makes you feel that spark like wow i just meet someone amazing then after... the spark is gone right? or not...some people stay amazing throughout the whole time you know them and get used to them that is something i admire, those people stay real because they were not fake in the beginning, you always get that same vibe since day one. They don't change to become someone new or stop talking to you. I admit i have met someone in the beginning it was all spark and everything then it was gone like in a split of seconds and i changed immediately i didn't mean to but i just could not take it because i hate to lie and to pretend. I could have said something, i guess. I did not i just stay quiet and move on i cannot be straight about these things. Telling someone well i thought you were different i was too high on expectation and you are not who i thought you were is not my cup of tea. So i moved on. I still think about these people i do not hate them i just have a bad feeling either about them or about myself for not saying anything. I am not proud of it i would hate it if someone did that to me but that is how i deal.

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2016-07-25T04:53:13+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 25 Juillet 2016 à 04:53 AM

How many irrational decisions ? how much can you take ? you will make bad decisions and you will need to learn from it

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2016-07-20T04:07:18+02:00

attention.

Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Juillet 2016 à 04:07 AM

some people can't stay without their friends or someone around them, they want to be part of the crowd. I wouldn't know how that feels like because i have never wanted to be part of the crowd. It is not for me. I hate to be where everyone is you will find me there sometimes because that is where i'm supposed to be but my mind is not there and i am not enjoying it. What do you like? do you like being in the crowd or somewhere having deep conversation with someone who matters to you? that is what i like. I hate to be in the crowd because i feel like i am missing out on something that i really care bout and i would really want to be doing it then to act like i'm having fun. I rather stay alone than to pretend like i am having fun with people whom i don't know and whom i don't trust... the reason why i don't trust many people is personal and i cannot talk about it here. I am sorry if you love attention because i hate it. You should not judge me for voicing out my opinion just like i won't judge you for yours.

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