No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2016-11-27T14:26:15+01:00

The world is big.

Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Novembre 2016 à 02:26 PM

Morning !

You know I always have time for you here. At least I try to be here often. Nowadays I don't know who to trust besides the people who are close to me. I don't know how to trust anyone new. Most people have that problem, it's not that we are paranoid it's just that we are careful. You know I feel like you cannot tell everyone everything about yourself because as soon as they know you they won't treat you the same way, with respect and they won't care what you're going to do because they already know so they will just get ready for you to do it. I mean life is not that bad, life is actually great it's the people sometimes that makes it so difficult. Man when I look at my life now and how it was before I am basically stress free compare to before. You should compare your life from years to years to see how much you've accomplish. I encourage you to look back on your life because it will help your future. You will see where you moving forward and where you're slacking because we all fall behind at some point it's the time we take to get up that counts.

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2016-11-27T05:23:05+01:00

Qu’est ce qu’on fait?

Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Novembre 2016 à 05:23 AM

Bonjour ! T’as l’habitude de parler à quelqu’un puis un bon jours tout s’arrête et tu te demandes qu’est ce que j’ai fais de mal? J’avais une amie comme ça elle était censé être ma meilleure amie. Je n’avais pas d’amis a cet époque donc elle était ma seule amie tu peux tout de même imaginer que j’étais jalouse si quelqu'un d’autre essayais d’être son amie. Je n’aime pas partager mes amis. Elle et moi nous sommes rencontrée à l'école. J’étais très jeune je n’étais même pas encore ado. Tout était juste fantastique tu vois…. On rigolait, baladait, texter toute la journée...puis on se revoit pour parler encore. C’était tellement nouveau pour moi de parler à quelqu’un d’autres comme ça.

C’était du bon temps mais après on n’était plus pareille. J’ai changé et elle aussi. Je me demande parfois si je l’ai fais quelque chose de mal. J’ai jamais eu la réponse parce que je ne lui ai jamais demandé

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2016-11-24T12:46:54+01:00

Happy thanksgiving !!

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Novembre 2016 à 12:46 PM

The day is finally here, all of this preparation for today where families come together to spend time together. I love when family come together. (deep down) I wish I was more available so I could be there more. Anyways it is not about my family it's about all the families. Today they will gather around and express their love. It is a beautiful thing trust me. Being alone is not fun at all you will need your family in time of distress. It is a day were you should be thankful for who you are and what you have. Trust me someone else probably want what you have and you're too blind to see how much it's worth.

Let me start by saying what I am thankful for. I am thankful for my wonderful parents, my family, my best friend and friends. I am grateful that for some reason I am not broke, homeless or worse well I am very grateful that a guy can't make me go crazy for him to break my heart afterwards. I am grateful for having things that I thought I would never have. Not too long ago I was hopeless, miserable... made a few mistakes. One of them was believing I would never own some things, Believing that I wasn't good enough when I was everything I needed to be. In times of despair you will believe anything. I am thankful that I don't believe in those negative thoughts anymore. I love who I am becoming, I am grateful that now I have a voice. Here, my own voice. I am thankful that I could stood up for myself when things are unfair. To summarize I am thankful for everything in my life. Praise God that I am who I am. Still have some work to do but I have taken a huge step that I thought would never be possible and I did that in less than 2 years. so thanks God for everything.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!! ENJOY THE TURKEY

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2016-11-21T03:26:42+01:00

STIFF

Publié par Gaelle.R 21 Novembre 2016 à 03:26 AM

Humm where do I start ? Have you ever forget how to act? Like you are normally a cool person but sometimes you look so serious but really you just be thinking about what you going to eat, the next time you going to sleep or how you going to plan something fun later. Really you are not that serious you just really look like it. Like someone might come up to you and think damn he is so serious like does he even laugh. They don't know how foolish your thoughts are. Lol Like don't ever think someone is serious because truth is they might not be. And you probably look so mean but really you are a nice person !

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2016-11-21T03:17:10+01:00

THANKSGIVING IS ARRIVING...

Publié par Gaelle.R 21 Novembre 2016 à 03:17 AM

Heyyyy... so today was nice right? but it's cold again tonight. To tell you I hate when people complain about the weather like it is supposed to get cold and snow in the winter and it is supposed to get hot in the summer. I am not going to complain because of the cold like I already know how it is in the fall it's no surprise LOL just saying. I don't mind if you tell me it's nice outside but don't ask me why is it so cold because truth is I have no idea !

what do I want to talk about?...actually I don't even know. I am trying to come up with something that is probably bothering someone right now. You know what why don't I talk about the good things it's thanksgiving week so let's talk about that. Let me start out by Saying thank you is really important because trust me if you went out of your way to help somebody and they just stand there looking at you in the eyes without saying thank you will not be pleased am I wrong? I know how much you probably want to slap that person but don't do it. Let it go. The person probably din't even notice. Sometimes someone do something so nice for you and you just forget to say thanks because you are too busy thinking about what the person did for you and how you should give them something in return. How many times have I done that I don't know... are you one of these people that dream with your eyes open? drift off to places? well some people do and it is so hard to stay focus they could be looking at you dead in the eyes and they still can't see you instead they are seeing flying monkeys HAHA flying monkeys ??! it sounded funny in my head OK ! tell me it was funny where is your sense of humor? like I know it's funny I don't care if you are not laughing LOL

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2016-11-18T00:34:46+01:00

No softer spot...

Publié par Gaelle.R 18 Novembre 2016 à 12:34 AM

hello there ! it's been a while but trust me it is good to keep busy. I think most crime would never happen if the criminals were busy trying to become something good. " whatever you are be a good one" from someone incredible. To tell you life is amazing until you turn 18. Everything you thought was the worse is nothing up until that age. I used to think that my life was a dream one that i will wake up from until i turned 18. I didn't know what the real world was...i didn't know how much painful it was and how much of my good heart would gone away with age... i didn't know that i would have to create a life for myself on my own... no one else can do that for you and you have to know what life you want. Up until that age you thought that people most importantly your parents would always be there, they will be there but they won't choose for you. You have to choose they don't know what you really want. There are some things better left unsaid. The subconscious mind is not a place where one is fully understood.They knew who you were then but they don't know who and what you will become they can predict, prevent but you are the player so you choose what you want. Some of us will falter and some of us won't know what to do when things go wrong but remember you are not alone. I needed to hear this from myself... I am who I am and i need to hear what I hear inside of my head. These voices are not there just for me. One can never get smarter on their own, we are all a team even if we like to be alone. Hearing this from me now is surprising. I know how i act i know what i look like on the outside but inside there is a whole universe. What's your goal? mine is that simple and i will share it with you because I know deep down y'all want the same thing even if you want to strive in success but I know you want what I want. My goal is happiness a place where there is complete satisfaction, accepting me, accepting other people for who they are without trying to change them. What is life without happiness? I mean you can wake up every morning get to work make that money go home with that same look on your face... you may have wealth but you heart is broken. It's like a beautiful house with a dead owner... you need happiness in your life. You need to accept who you are it's hard I know. Do you how hard it is to shut that voice in your head? other people talking telling you all the things that you are not? when you are everything that you need to be ! you are enough (I need to hear this) and you need to be strong enough to stay who you are.

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2016-11-13T14:57:05+01:00

true feelings.

Publié par Gaelle.R 13 Novembre 2016 à 02:57 PM

Morning although i am suppose to get ready to leave but here i am blogging for a few minutes let's hope i type fast enough to get to the point. Well what happen was i feel like more people visit and i am glad more people keep coming and i wish that y'all will come back. If not, don't worry i won't be disappointed at least i know that some of y'all don't fake and do what's right. If coming here doesn't feel right to you then please don't come back. If you like to read stuff written by me an amateur(still hate that word) writer then feel free to come anytime. I know that my writing style is not perfect and none of the writers were. Maybe i'll reach my full potential when i am 60 years old. But for now i will keep doing this and no one will stop me because that is what i like. I know some of y'all don't like me but you might come here to find something about me that you would want to use against me...because there's a quote that said "keep your enemies closer" Honestly i am not your enemy you may feel like it. But i don't pay attention to that stuff well not anymore. I don't focus on the amount of people that may not like me

"when you accept yourself the whole world will accept you" I do not care how many people can't stand me, i don't care how many people don't look forward to my existence because each person that doesn't me another person is dying to be with me. I don't know who would actually want to stick around me besides the friends that i have well let me be honest beside my best friend and most of my family... i don't who else but I don't know someone else might ...

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2016-11-10T16:35:13+01:00

how can you not understand...

Publié par Gaelle.R 10 Novembre 2016 à 04:35 PM

I don't know where to begin and what to say. I feel like i am making a mistake and i probably am but who am i to know what's going to happen. I don't want to take my chance because of what i don't know; i hate to be in the dark. You make me feel like i am in the dark yet i can see the light shining through telling me "go ahead take your chance it will be alright". I don't want to be wrong and i don't want to ruin everything. I would hate to lose the whole prize looking at what i want that i might not even need. When i look at the light i start to dream about what's on the other side i would love to see it but will it be the same way living it? i don't know yet and maybe i'll never know. I can't let it go, yet i must. I started and it's only ONE final decision one that i wasn't able to make (yet)...someday if not tomorrow i will make that decision final and i will not go back on it. I don't care what's going to happen and if i will keep dreaming about what's on the other side because right now it doesn't matter. It cost me no good. If it doesn't bring a smile to my face then what's the use? why i am forcing myself to worry about something that never happened and that will probably never happen? I have to let it go. I want to be done it's way too much to handle. I wish it was simple just letting everything go but somehow i have gotten used to it and now it's time to put an end to it unless you want to do something about it....soon you won't be able to change anything.

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2016-11-08T16:54:06+01:00

one of the first time sharing.

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Novembre 2016 à 04:54 PM

So you probably know that i like to write and if you really know me then you would know that my whole life is based on that i live it. I mean it's one thing i really hold dear and that i am really passionate about and i don't do well with criticism that aren't based on what i wrote but on me as a person or a female. If i wrote something and i show you and i ask you for your opinion don't tell me anything other than what i wrote don't ask me how old i am, where i am from to evaluate my sense of thinking because to me that's irrelevant.

To start my English professor who since the beginning of this semester ask who wants to be a writer then i automatically raised my hand. At first i thought it was a bad idea because every time he talks about writing he is looking at me and wondering what i know about that. I love writing and i don't mind talking about it. Eventually he ask me to share a poem in class so i choose "broken city" a poem i wrote a while ago. Although i don't fully understand the meaning of it sometimes because it can mean a lot of things that sometimes i am lost. i gave him three of my poems and i chose one so he told me after reading them that my poems are...a downer is that the word i know i don't do rainbows and sunshine lol but he was like after reading them i feel like committing suicide i don't know if that's a good thing ?! i mean he is basically saying i am not the most positive person in poetry. I agree with him that i am not all smiley, lovey dovey in poetry because i don't know how to all i know is how life end so sudden lol. actually i don't know what i know until i put a pen down on a paper. I am not saying that i hate it when someone have a negative view about my poem actually that makes me want to see me grow i have to hear what you gotta say about what i wrote i just don't have to accept what you said about me. Same to you, you may be in school and you wrote a paper for a class and you give it to a tutor to tell you what they think...you're not going to like it if they ask about your background if the paper is not about that like just tell me about what you've read. Like i like it that my English professor told me his opinion no one ever told me something like that and i want more criticism like that. Tell me if it made you cry, laugh or happy; just tell me what you feel inside when you've read it. I know there might be some grammatical errors not too bad to kill the vibe but i have to say English is not my first language and i have less than five years speaking it and writing it so far i am proud of my accomplishment but tell me when you see some errors i like people who aren't afraid to help others in that sense.

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2016-11-07T22:03:54+01:00

H'

Publié par Gaelle.R 7 Novembre 2016 à 10:03 PM

some articles are posted later because of final edits... sorry for the wait LOL actuall i ain't sorry LOL.

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