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I see you and I know that you can see me. I wonder what I should do to make you really see me for who I am. Maybe I am still confused about the person that I am. But I know that you see something. I don't know what it is. They say tell your secrets before someone else find it and tell it for you. But even if someone else tells my secrets or I do it instead it will still be out there. They can do whatever they want with it. It's pretty much the same. They'll know my secret either way. I am willing to give you a chance because I believe that there is something there that you don't see. I don't know how many times I can keep on giving you these chances because you keep making the same mistakes that I told you you didn't need. You look me in the eye and tell me that I am right to do exactly what I told you not to do. I thought you were broken so I didn't say anything for a while. But now I know that this is the only thing you know. You only know how to be broken and you won't let me fix you. All I want is for you to be happy. Not those pretend laughs and smiles because don't forget that I see you and I know all the little things that you don't think other people see. The friends you have who you think know you because they spent so much time with you well I'll say that I know you better. It scares me to see you keep on being broken because I want to fix you. I want the best for you and you don't even know that.I don't know how to tell you because I know it won't matter to you. I am sure that you've heard this before. I am sure you heard them calling your name, over and over again. Yes I am sure you know that some people are scared for you but you don't know that I am too. I hate to be the one to save you because no matter how hard I try you still don't want to be save. I look at you I see the same eyes, the same people but I don't see the sparks that I usually see in the eyes of those people who have hope. I wish you could let it go, I hate that you've been judged for something that you are not. They see you different because you act this way, They don't know but I know. I would tell you to hush and to let me take care of it but I am afraid that you hate it when I try to take over. I know that you don't want to tell everyone. I know that you keep it a secret and I know that you keep my secret with you. I told you some things and I hope you keep it to yourself. Every time I see you I just cannot help but stare I hate to see so much wealth go to waste. I wish I wasn't the only one who really saw you. I know that they ignore you. Don't you ever wonder why I don't ? I don't know what you have running in your head but I care about you. In ways where I can identify with you. I know you push some thoughts away when you see me. You've been in my head so much that I feel like I have been in yours for some time.I feel like I live there like you live in mine. I wonder what you do when it happens? I don;t know what to do because I don't know what this is. Maybe I care to much and maybe I want to be there so bad that I force myself to stay away. Because if I were to stay it wouldn't be the way I imagined it. I am afraid to mess things up and I know that you do too. It's hard to stay focus when you have so many thoughts running around in your head. I know there are scars under your skin but who am I to say that you are the only one who has them. But yours speak to me they tell me to stay close because something better is waiting to heal your scars I wanted to be there when they heal. But I don't know If I will be there maybe I don't have to stay to see the finished product. Perhaps I am doing all this work to make it easier for someone else.I wish I could be the one to see the result but from the way that I see us going I don't think I'll be around. Maybe You don't want me around but know that I wanted to stay and help you. But I feel like you pushing me away sometimes. If you didn't and If I could only stay I would have but I have a choice here. I can't stay and let you hurt me like that. Because I want to heal you. If I am broken too then I won't be able to heal you, I would need to be healed and you would have to help me. I know that you can't help me. I have to stay strong for you. You need me more than I need you. I know that you don't think so and that's okay. I can see in your eyes that you are not sure about a thing. I am not sure either. But one thing I know for sure is that I will listen to you, I will be there whenever you need me. I am not worried about the look of other people anymore. I know that they can see something between us. I know that they are wondering what it is that we have and maybe they try to define it or put a label on it. But what we have is an infinite bound. I would go where you go and somehow I feel like you would go where I go too. Although I am not sure if you will follow me even though I am willing to follow you. But that's ok because it's part of the healing process. I know that You don't always have the positive thoughts and I know that you don't see some things the way I see them. I am not forcing you to see it my way. I am not trying to change you I already accept you for who you are.
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