No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2017-01-24T04:18:10+01:00

In case this happens just know...

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Janvier 2017 à 04:18 AM

So I am here again and I am going to talk about something that I may have talked about before but not as I am going to say it now. I am going to be direct because I want y'all to understand what I am saying, where I am coming from, why I say it and finally what makes me say it.

So I just said whatever you post on the internet people can see it right? if you didn't, scroll down read it then come back to read this one. In what case did I say that? well I meant to say nudes. Some girls and boys do it too choose to post pictures of them half naked and I am not judging them if it makes them happy then great for them. It's their story not mine. But we all know how society love to disgrace women saying what we shouldn't do, how we should act or behave. All I can say if men can do whatever they want so should women because we are all equals.But I have my own point of view like I say this is my blog and I can choose what to talk about if you don't feel comfortable knowing my opinion on this then just don't read I am grown I am not afraid. So yeah...I have no problem that You believe you should show yourself to feel beautiful what my problem is that you make it okay for a kid to believe that they should do the same to feel beautiful. I have seen 13 years old girl posing in their calving Klein's stuffing their bras just to look like a 18 years old girl why? because that's what they see other girls are doing and they read the comments and they see how guys are falling for them saying "bae AF" hot cute emojis well they are going to grow up and they are going to want that. They are going to grow up and think this okay to do and they are going to the same because they want that same attention those girls are getting. I am glad I did not grow up with the internet always right there, I am glad that I grew up different. I did not want this when I was 13, I was no better I am not saying that I was but I surely did not want to pose half naked for a stupid picture for what? I would say I am not comfortable with that my mom won't be happy. When I was 13 I am going to say that at that age I started to take writing seriously...anyways. I don't think it is okay to allow really young kids to believe that it is okay to be seen naked on the internet because it is not ! even in private sending it to someone. I am not judging anyone who felt like it is okay to please their boyfriend or girlfriend it is their choice just like it is my choice not to believe that it is the right way to go. I am not going to accept that I should be seen half naked to be considered sexy or other terms... I am not hot because I am not a stove. I don't care what other terms that there are out there but I am not them. Just like I don't think it is okay for kids to be posting nudes I don't think anyone should do it. There are many ways one can be or feel beautiful... your body does not define your true beauty. You will grow old it is not forever... You won't always look like you do now. I admit most of the people who does that do not care but I care enough because maybe one day I will have a kid and I will hate to see my kid growing up in a world where there is no morals...I don't care what year it is but I won't let anyone who I encounter think that it is okay to be seen naked by a lot of people because those are the private things. You should only be seen like that with someone you trust, with someone you love not with everyone because it is special.

Why do I say that? because I feel like I need to say it. It is time for me to let y'all know what I don't believe in and what I don't agree with and that's my opinion. You don't have to agree with me.

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2017-01-24T03:40:28+01:00

facts.

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Janvier 2017 à 03:40 AM

Hello ...

Recently well not really it's been a while. I just want to point something out. Before I said that I have a communication problem I said that I don't talk too much or I don't talk at all just because I don't know how to express myself while speaking. Well that's not true, I don't really have a problem I don't know why I said that at the time. I think someone made me feel like I do in fact have a problem but I don't. I am perfectly fine, I can speak my mind I may not be the one taking the lead in the conversation but that's okay... I will answer and I will not be afraid to tell you where you went wrong. I am not retarded, I know how to speak LOL I mean I am sure most of you know I talk but anyways for those of you who think that I don't like to talk well I do love to talk. I want to talk before I used to not speak to someone if I classify you as a stranger but we all are. we just have to get together and talk until you are no longer a stranger. Be careful because not everyone have good intention. You should not let people know too much about you. You may give them the feeling like they know you but actually they might not know half of what you are capable of. I am not out there meaning I stay to myself...for a lot of reasons. The people who are close to me I trust them and I have reasons to. I love a conversation but If you're pushing me to accept you well I may not answer. Don't force me to do anything because I may end up not speaking to you ever again why? simply because I don't like to be boss around. You want to be my friend great ! wait until I get that because I need to think. I don't let people walk into my life like nothing there are a few tests, some questions, what are your intention?, why you want to be my friend? LOL yasss I need to know all that and I am not playing ! When I say I'M DONE OR I DON'T CARE believe me I thought about it for a while I really mean what I said, I won't go back on my word. If I say NO then it's No if you keep coming back and I still say NO then It's a NO I will not change my mind. I know what I know. I am not trying to say that I will not let anyone in my life because I will only be lonely but I will only choose wisely because I can easily be deceived. I can't let that happen. You know how some people get sad, mad or whatever what I feel is worse (...) Get the picture. I am working on that because no one should take their emotions to the extreme not that I do but that's something that I am not willing to discuss here. It is my Blog yes but there some things you can't leave on the internet with your name on it and your face on it whatever it is. You need to be careful this world is not as wide people will find you believe me and you will regret it. whatever you say, post they are all there people can pull them up anytime and show you what you were doing at what time what day. I have shared so many things with y'all only to give you a walk through but it's not my entire life. There are some things that I will not come out and say here. If I say them You won't get it the way I have it in my head because it will be in a poem... and that is confusing.

I feel bad for the people who try to make other people feel bad about themselves like how are you going to make someone feel like nothing because you are jealous of them. You can't tell them how amazing they are so you are going to make them feel bad about themselves? If someone is amazing and if their soul is just beautiful you need to tell them how wonderful they are in your eyes. They probably don't even know how beautiful they are they probably don't even think someone notice them. I love to see amazing people who are so beautiful inside and out I just want to tell them...

Other things you won't see me write about is my private life(relationships, friends, frenemies, ex whatever...) unless it was in the past, why? because I am a private person do not ask me questions... I won't answer if it's too personal. This blog is not meant for that... among other things I am not going to specify the event but whoever wants to know about ... you know what forget it I rather do it in person I am not going to leave a message for someone... I rather call up that person tell them to their face. LOL alright that's it hope y'all have a good one.

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2017-01-23T00:40:58+01:00

one simple thing

Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Janvier 2017 à 12:40 AM

Hi there...

It's been a while and I have been busy. Getting my life in order aren't we all ? I am making sure that this year is in fact different. I am not changing myself... I am simply making some decisions that I was scared to make before. I want to be free I want to be able to laugh knowing I didn't do anything I might regret. Don't you want that peace of mind? well I want that and I have been making decisions that can only give me peace. I have let some people out the door but only for the best. I won't lie to anyone and I won't try to hurt anyone's feeling. I will be very professional about it. I am not a bad person but some situations can bring the worse out of me. I wasn't planning on hurting anyone. I am not trying to confess anything LOL I am trying to grow up. I won't put up with things that I don't need, I won't let anyone disrespect me or the people I love. One thing that I can say...If you want something that would make you happy then it's simple just go and get it. If someone doesn't make you happy or is abusive then it's simple let that person go do whatever it takes to be safe fill a report get a restraining order or whatever but make sure you are safe. Nothing say you have to stay and let someone abuse you. You have a voice, you have your own opinion and feeling you should know what makes you happy. I am tired of seeing women being taking lightly simply because we seemed as weak. Well not all women are "weak" some can take care of a man get the house in order and still take care of that man's baby...Now tell me women are weak.

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2017-01-16T19:58:35+01:00

(Found this from last year on a napkin)

Publié par Gaelle.R 16 Janvier 2017 à 07:58 PM

Bright as the snow,

who knew she could burn so bad?

cold as snow yet warm as a summer night when she wants to.

she will beautifully walk away from all the nonsense

Gracefully she will pick up the pieces back

She won't turn around for anyone

because she's the queen.

It doesn't take much to notice how bright she is.

From miles away you can see the light shining up from the mountains.

The wind plays with her wild hair.

She doesn't have time to pull it back.

She is ready to put the whole word on her shoulder.

It doesn't matter about what people think.

She has dream to fulfill and a long road ahead.

she won't stop for anyone

Not even the people she used to stop for.

Everything changes now and she is a new person.

Nothing can hold her back

she will break the rules for fun

You had your chance

and now it's her turn to show you how wrong you were.

She doesn't care and she never did.

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2017-01-09T21:32:58+01:00

wondering

Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Janvier 2017 à 09:32 PM

I wonder how many lies we have to hear to finally know the truth...

I'm here and I am listening yet I wish I wasn't

for the things that are coming out of your mouth do not make sense at all.

I wish I didn't have to listen to you,

But I owe you respect so I am going to sit here and pretend like I am listening.

But I am not.

I know the real story but I am not going to stop you.

You think that I don't know and you think that I will never know but baby I already know.

I'm just playing the same game that you're playing.

I saw it with my own eyes yet you pretend like I wasn't even there.

Do you think I was born yesterday?

I am not booboo the fool I know what I know that you don't know I know.

I am not going to tell you what I know until you come clean and really talk to me like you should.

You may think that I am losing but baby I'm gaining.

I hate you but I love you but all these emotions don't fit.

I know I may not act like I know that I love you because all that comes out is the hate.

But truth is with You I found my balance until you started lying to my face.

You thought that I didn't know but I am already exhausted from all the chances that I already gave you.

Why do you give in?

and why are you trying to make me think that you're strong enough to take the hate

and to feel the heat when your heart is ice cold.

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2017-01-08T05:46:56+01:00

scroll down

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Janvier 2017 à 05:46 AM

I already greet most of y'all in the previous one...

You know what's funny tho I mean I talk about so many things and some stuff don't make sense because I like to joke around and you might actually think that I am in fact serious. well I'm not. You need to really hear me out sometimes and you'll know when I am serious and when I am not it is not that hard to guess. I believe in laughter, a laugh can actually change your life I mean I will laugh anyway no matter how ridiculous it is. Okay so last year I was talking about quitting social media and slowly I was back at it again maybe a bit stronger LOL I didn't give up I just realize something...who am I to say I won't use social media? There is no one in this century who is my age and don't use social media...they at least have a Facebook account. I can't remember when I create my Facebook account tho...I mean that's irrelevant. I don't like social media and I wish I wasn't so hooked but I am not going to lie to myself It helps me kill time, stay connected, have fun, learn about real stuff, stupid stuff I mean you can practically do anything with it. So yeah I use my accounts maybe less well I try but I'm there.

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2017-01-08T00:16:40+01:00

so far

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Janvier 2017 à 12:16 AM

how is it going?

Notice how I always greet all of you before I start speaking? unless it's a poem then You won't see me say anything and that's when you know my artistic fingers are going to take over. But I am not going to talk about that. It's not what I am thinking right now. It's a new year and you need to start thinking differently, I have. I started accepting some things I was denying in 2016. Reason why I am doing this is only because the first thing in moving on and changing things about yourself is realizing your flaws and what you were trying to hide. Writing these stuff down I mean the things that I was hiding was not easy. Talking about them is repulsive I can't believe I wanted that, said that, look like that, look at that....I mean sooo many things that I had to look back on. Reason I am telling you this is because sometimes you think ignoring or hiding something will make you not notice it, wrong ! It will be there you just don't think about at it as much. One day you are going to sit down and think about it and it will be hard on you because you had all this time to take care of it and you didn't. That almost happened to me but this year I am reviewing, taking stuff out right now, bringing new stuff in.

If someone doesn't make you smile you need to let that person go. Don't hold grudges forgive them and let them go. If you want to be with someone and you see they don't want you as much you need to move on. When I was younger I wanted to be with someone older I said that before and I was not ready clearly lol and I am glad that we didn't end up being together because he did not want to be with a kid lol common' I mean he had options all I am saying is if the person you want has option well baby girl they were not meant for you. When you find the one no matter what you look like no matter what you do they will still want you and no one else and the thought of being with someone else would be disgusting to them. That person will speak your language, he will be by your side wiping the tears away and cry with you. The person you are looking for or rather the person that will melt all your senses away may not be handsome or gorgeous but they know you and they won't do anything to hurt you.

If you are a guy the one girl you are looking for doesn't only have boobs, ass and a pretty face but she has a heart and she will give you everything that she is. She will hold you down and be by your side no matter how broke or rich you are. She won't need another man to feel great because she will have you and that's everything. You in the other hand you need to make her feel like a queen you need to be with her, you need to know how to love her and treat her right. You don't need another female because you have everything right here by your side. You don't need to go to the club with your boys and getting a lap dance by some exotic dancer because you will find yourself alone afterwards wishing you didn't go astray when you had everything. Now that you have her it may feel like you can do whatever you want because you think you have her but don't forget that she can leave you anytime. She is not here to put up with everything that you are willing to give. She is not a welcome mat you cannot walk all over her. She is not just anybody she is your soulmate and your right hand you need to get that to your head and stay faithful.

If you are a girl the right guy you're looking for is not always who you expect he may not be as handsome as Leonardo Dicaprio but so what? The right guy that you need is the one that will protect you, hear you even when you are babbling about stuff that doesn't make sense. He is the person who is never tired to kiss you, hold you or give you a hug even when you don't feel like being touched. When you are on your mood swings he is the one willing to wait until you stop PMS'ing, he is the one who wakes up at 2 am to make sure you Okay when you are crying. He is the one who is always constantly checking on you, doesn't want you to go anywhere, gets jealous when another guy is staring at you. He is the one who let you be yourself, never let you overthink because he knows that it will bring you down so he will try to distract you and make sure that you are happy. He is the one that makes your heart racing, makes you want to be at your best, makes you feel like the most beautiful girl in the world. He is the one that makes you smile, laugh and finally he is the one you can never run away from. So you don't need another man because you have everything right next to you. You don't need to go to the club with your girls getting drunk and embarrassing yourself because honey those days are over and it is not for you. Now you need to get your ass back home and love him.

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2017-01-06T04:26:59+01:00

the way the world works in my eyes

Publié par Gaelle.R 6 Janvier 2017 à 04:26 AM

Hello..

Life is amazing ain't it? And so many surprises ! I wonder how much we can take in a week or a day !! If you see me writing this you would be like why is she so excited she doesn't seem that happy. I don't believe in pretending to be happy anymore, if i'm sad then let me be sad. You can try cheer me up but I was sad for a reason and that reason still remain. No matter what happens, no matter how loud you laugh you will still have problem it's just how you treat them. Some people can't function if they are missing someone while others just try to be busy as much as possible. We are all different and that's something I like about humans. We don't act the same way, we think differently, we love differently and we live different. I am just here wondering how can we were made by the same person but we are still different ? I mean we are all made by one creator.

It was a wonderful way to start what I am about to tell you but what I am about to say is not something I take lightly and some of you may not agree but this is my blog and I am allowed to leave my opinions here. Not to be rude lol. First of all when I say we all love differently I mean some of you may love with your all while someone else measure that love and may not want to give their all. I don't blame those people, not everyone care about your love it's the way of the world. Not everyone care that you care about them. Maybe they are so blinded that they cannot see the love. In my opinion if you care a lot for someone that doesn't seem to care about you then you need to let them go. Honestly I have never care about someone that act like they didn't care because I used to make sure to leave before I even care LOL I am not cold blooded I just hated the idea of getting your broken but nowadays as I am growing up I feel a huge hole without love. I realize that you need to love someone, you need to care about someone because that's what humans do. You supposed to love and care about someone else because you were created to do so. You were not made to love yourself. And if you repressed that love you will regret it... you need to let that love flow out. I am only realizing that not too long ago. Last year I used to say no to love, I am not ready but I don't think It's the right way to go. It may not be the best for me now but who I am to know when I am ready to love? Actually I do not know much about love I have been avoiding it for so long that I think I may start looking like those full on hard-working women who are married to their job and I don't want to look like that.

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2017-01-04T00:30:12+01:00

if it was not for real

Publié par Gaelle.R 4 Janvier 2017 à 12:30 AM

Hi there...

I am currently deciding on what to write about, it is in fact a new year and I feel different maybe it's because I want things to be different this year but so far I am doing little by little all the things I have been avoiding. Why? because while I was avoiding all of these things I was still sad about what could've happen if I did. Right now this year I will go ahead and do it because I am only getting older. I won't do any stupid, reckless stuff I am just going to be the person I was meant to be.

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2017-01-01T20:52:31+01:00

goals

Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Janvier 2017 à 08:52 PM

hi there !

So it's a new year and I am not all about the new year new me stuff because I like myself but I still need to change a little bit but I don't think I should change myself completely. Why would I choose to do something like that? I mean I am not judging you if you believe in that new year new me stuff. All I can say is I need to switch my game cause some people be all up in my grill like hey chill, I am about to switch so that they won't even know what i'm going to do next (hahahaha)

Anyways this year when I want something and I really put some thought into it I will go get it. I will wake myself up and force myself to do all the things that I said that I will never do before. I will challenge myself, I will open myself up to some people who were in my life for sooo long but still don't know me. After that I will still have a small group of friends I don't want and I don't need a lot of friends I feel weird when I have too many people that I have to keep tract of because once you're my friend you're mine, you're life is now my life we are living it LOL !!!We are in this together. I mean I have many friends but I know who are my closest friends and it's not that much. I can say that I feel more comfortable in one on one type of friendship because I do not like to share. Unless we are all close the same way then I won't have a problem but after that.... we have to talk LOL. OK so this year if I change then be it but I like the person that I am I just need some adjustment but that's about it.

Honestly this year I will not be scared to say how I feel because holding it in is not a great feeling you just have all of these thoughts bottled up in your mind and you don't even know how to get them out. You're just here thinking what am I going to do with all of that...what am I going to do now? all you have to do is say how you feel or express how you feel through actions... do whatever it is to get all of those feelings out of you. Don't hold grudges or anything that can interrupt the peace in your life. Let the people who did you wrong go but forgive them because if you don't forgive you will still talk about it and that is not peace. Let those people go, you might not forget what they did to you but you can still forgive them. Don't talk bad about people you don't know because you don't even know them.

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