No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2025-12-04T15:23:39+01:00

creatine update

Publié par Gaelle.R 4 Décembre 2025 à 03:23 PM

I started taking creatine last month and I am doing amazing on it! I have seen a lot of growth in the little 3 weeks that i have been taking it. I think I look amazing...that is shocking because I never find my body beautiful! but I am slowly falling in love with it. I am falling in love with the muscle definition, and the booty growth. I used to pray to fall in love with my body. I always had a love and hate relationship with my body. There was a time I couldn't stand hearing any comment about my body whether bad or good, when someone criticized how skinny I was I used to cry and feel hideous...Looking back I was a very beautiful girl and I am even more beautiful now.

Realizing ones beauty is not being conceited it's appreciating one self. I had to work hours and hours in the gym to finally get here and I am glad I did. So in conclusion I love taking creatine and I will probably keep taking in until I decide to stop but I probably won't. Creatine is giving me more booty growth and more muscle definition overall :) I am so glad I made the decision to go back on it. I stopped way too soon, yes it does give you a bloated look in the beginning and a lot of water retention but you have to ride out that phase and yes you have to drink a lot of water to fully reap the benefit of muscle growth.

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2025-12-04T14:49:10+01:00

survived another scare

Publié par Gaelle.R 4 Décembre 2025 à 02:49 PM

Honestly after the week that I had last week I feel like a totally different person. I am not even sure I am 100% recovered from all of the stress that I went through, I will take this week end to reset. I plan on going to a sauna, do a cold plunge or getting a massage...one or all of them I don't know. In my mind last week I died...and in a way I did die...a part of me will never be the same. I never cried this hard throughout this year like I did last week, in fact I didn't cry all year. It was all a build up of emotions, past hurt, realization and heartache... all the emotions came back to the surface and I didn't know how to push them back down.

I realize who were my real supporters, my fake friends and my die hard family and friends. Best friends became strangers, family became enemies, lovers became just an after thought. The people I thought would have my back didn't, the people I never in a 10000 years thought would be there for me were! Jehovah stayed with me throughout the whole ordeal....I was suicidal actually no correction the thought did cross my mind because it was just too much to handle. If no one had come through for me in any way I would not be here this week...what I am trying to do is to learn ways to deal instead of looking for a quick way out. I need to be stronger than this and stop faking being okay.

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2025-12-01T19:51:01+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Décembre 2025 à 07:51 PM

Honestly I would not be able to survive in life without a routine, I need structure in my life without it I am lost. I can't live a life where everyday is unpredictable. when I am in that situation because things do happen unexpectedly and we cannot plan every foreseeable situation I get really depressed, anxious and I can't wait until things get back to normal. I need a routine, a plan and a path to follow because I am very detail oriented... any slight change in the plan really mess me up.

Every day is the same for me, nothing new or out of the box... I have the same routine and yes it gets boring but when I try to do something out of ordinary I can't handle it lol I get overwhelmed and I can't wait to get back to my usual routine.

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2025-11-30T02:35:20+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 30 Novembre 2025 à 02:35 AM

Haiti was qualified for the World Cup this month and I was happy when that happened. I am proud of the players hard work, this is my country after all but I don’t have the spirit of patriotism. I am happy for the players who gave their all considering how bad it has been for us over the years and we’re finally qualified after 50 years!. Above all else I love football not a particular country. I love the game and I don’t participate in any biding or any fight because my team didn’t win.

Although I am proud that Haiti was qualified but I hope we’re not the first team eliminated just like Qatar was eliminated first in the 2022 World Cup yet they hosted the World Cup! How embarrassing was that!? ugh… being among the teams in the World Cup is one thing but making it far is another, I don’t think Haiti will make it that far. I am rooting for France yes I am traitor I know lol. But I will always root for Mbappé no matter what and he has to win it.

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2025-11-27T00:06:06+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Novembre 2025 à 12:06 AM

I had the shittiest day of my life today…

thank God for the people who were gentle to me even when I cried, snapped at them and was impatient. I feel a little better now I went for a run outside, I ran so fast to clear my head that I threw up ugh what a mess! Disgusting I know lol honestly I am so glad I went for that run because I was about to lose it.
my cats have been very gentle with me even Archie let me carry him he hates that! But he saw me crying so he came to lay on me! Thank you Jehovah for my cats without them I would’ve died a long time ago… I was about to say I have no one but that’s not true. I have friends…. I just need to trust them more. I have no room for relationship with a man right now, I am not ready.

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2025-11-26T23:19:57+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 26 Novembre 2025 à 11:19 PM

At times I want to hear a human voice, I want someone to tell me “it’s going to be okay” and actually mean it. But all I get is unanswered phone calls and texts… I feel soooo alone… I actually wanna die.

yes I am having a terrible day

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2025-11-25T15:10:36+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 25 Novembre 2025 à 03:10 PM

I woke up not in the best of moods, someone could stare at me and I would be pissed. I don't want any attention, I want to crawl into a hole and stay in there for the remainder of the day. I am a very moody person and I hate that about me. I wish I could always be in a good mood but it doesn't work like that for me. I feel exhausted even though I went to sleep around 7pm last night, I slept for a total of 9.5 hours... I still wanted to sleep more when I woke up at 4:24am this morning.

I started drinking beets, carrots juice to help with my iron deficiency; I chose not to take any pills so natural juice daily it is. I added some apple and strawberries in my juice for this morning... let's hope something exciting happens today to put me in a good mood because right now I could choke anything with my bare hands.

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2025-11-22T15:54:33+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 22 Novembre 2025 à 03:54 PM

After Archie and pixie I don’t think I can have any more cats. My allergies are getting worse ;( I love my babies but the constant sneezing and sore throat because they’re shedding is really driving me up a wall

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2025-11-21T22:15:57+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 21 Novembre 2025 à 10:15 PM

let's distract myself with dumb questions....

what do you do when you're sad?

I look at videos of cats (that hasn't changed ever since I knew what internet was I always seek comfort in cute cat pics and videos) watch Mbappe highlight or any of his interviews, edits or anything with him in makes me smile (I love him so much)

what's your favorite color?

green and sky blue (shocking I know lol) I like pink but only pink accessories.

UHM i THINK i'm good now

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2025-11-20T19:39:19+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Novembre 2025 à 07:39 PM

" Do what makes you happy, I won't be mad. Yes I would love to hold on to you but I can also let you go if that's what you want. I won't hold you hostage, I've survived on my own for far too long to force anyone to stay with me when their presence no longer feel genuine. Don't worry I won't cry when it's time for you to leave, I'll hold the door for you on your way out."

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