No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2019-07-21T17:03:07+02:00

this was actually from march lol

Publié par Gaelle.R 21 Juillet 2019 à 05:03 PM

hey there, (finally post it)

I said I was going to come back. I was taking a break from a lot of things (I still am) but a break from writing was not a good idea. If I wanna get better at it I have to keep doing it just like anything else in life. If you want to be good at something you have to keep doing it until you're good it or become talented at it. Let's talk about something.

Life decisions?

OK I know there are many decisions that one can make but I am going to talk about decisions that will matter in 5-10 years. Do you agree that some decisions you make in the prime of your life or when you're young will matter when you get older? If yes keep reading, If no scroll down to the next article. I don't have time to explain myself anymore you either get me or you don't.

Fast forward I digress once again... (It's really not about me) It's for you the reader.

In my opinion, If you think before you make a decision you have a better chance to choose a good one, at least give yourself a day or two to ponder over it if that decision will affect your life in any way possible. For example when you're choosing a mate you have to make sure you take your time to study the person...learn everything about them like what makes them happy, mad, jealous, anxious .... so when things get hard you know at least how to make things better based on your knowledge of that person, make sure you don't just jump right in because the person looks appealing. Beauty fades, I am not saying you should find yourself an unattractive mate no that's not what I mean. When I was younger I used to look for the cutest guy because I thought we would look good together but with time I realize choosing a mate is more than just looks. If you plan on buying a car that's a decision that will affect not only your life but your finance. It would be good if you don't rush the process to take your time to look at different cars and pick one of the best based on your taste. I remember when I was getting a car this year (I think I can share this with you lol) after my car accident I needed a new car and a way better one than the one that I had because I was traumatized. I needed one with great tires (don't ask me why just read my testimony post you'll find out) I wanted to get a car right away but I had to wait for a month to chose the right one for me because it is my responsibility I needed to make a budget and to create a plan to get this car and maintain it. After I created a budget:

I look to see if I can keep up with the payments and find out how much is the payment.
car insurance how much am I going to be paying a month. Although the accident wasn't my fault my payment will change and I needed to find a cheaper insurance (I had to say thank you next to my old insurance)
I had to create a budget with my other personal stuff included to see if I can balance it all.

You also have to make sure that you chose a car that is safe to drive on the road. Same apply to your life when you're making a decision look to see if it would make your life better, easier and will it make things safe for you.

we all have made decisions that we regret in the past but we have to move forward and learn from what went wrong. We are all imperfect so it makes sense that we make a mistake.

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2019-06-20T06:35:38+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Juin 2019 à 06:35 AM

when I look into your eyes I can feel the world stand still.

when I hear your voice in the middle of a storm it calms every nerve in my body.

when I see your face my heart jumps with excitement as if it never saw anything exhilarating.

when you hold my hand I can feel my whole body shivers at your touch.

when you look at me I can feel the whole universe shrinking and it's only you and I still standing.

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2019-06-15T04:36:18+02:00

life

Publié par Gaelle.R 15 Juin 2019 à 04:36 AM

hey there,

How is everything? for me, it's not perfect but I can manage. I've learned that if you expect things to get worse it will and if you expect them to get better they will. I've been through enough to know that life is not all sweet.

We all go through things that made us feel small, weak, discourage but don't forget that you got back up and that is something you should be proud of. Looking back at what broke you is not going to change anything.

I just thought I should say this but besides everything. sadly I haven't been writing I wish I was because that is the only way I feel more like myself. Not that I am not myself lately but I wish I was writing. There are some wonderful that I am experiencing at the moment that I wish I could transfer on a piece of paper. sometimes what you're feeling is so good you're afraid that when you write it all out you're going to ruin everything. I wish I could save all the memories but at some point, I would either cherish them or let them go.

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2019-05-22T07:28:54+02:00

a book cover

Publié par Gaelle.R 22 Mai 2019 à 07:28 AM

Looking the same but my whole life has changed.

walking the same way but my legs don't take me there anymore.

Same voice but my words mean different things.

dressing different because my closet is up for sale.

waking up at the same time but I am not doing my usual routine.

sounding different but my voice is used for a different purpose.

I am no longer living my past life '

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2019-04-24T18:39:39+02:00

Rejection

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Avril 2019 à 06:39 PM

Hey there beauties !

Today I’m going to talk about rejection. Feel free to get a glass of wine, some tea and get into a comfy position this might get ugly. I know pwe all can relate, I know at some point in time we all felt rejected or been rejected by someone. Well I’m here to tell you rejection is not so much of a bad thing. It shows that you had the gut to go for whatever that you wanted even if you didn’t get it, that’s a great mindset to have when you see something you want and you go for it. We are not chickens over here, we are go getters, we are hard workers and we fight for what we want.

Now if it’s someone that you want to be with and that person says straight up “no I’m good or I’m not feeling the same way” it will hurt in the beginning because we are humans and I’m pretty sure we all have a heart and an ego. If the person is honest with you and tell you that they don’t feel the same way be glad ! It’s not to crush your ego, be happy because now you can focus your attention on someone else that would probably feel the same.

Don’t take it personal, move on and if you need to take your distance from that person do it. Just take some time apart focus on yourself, go out with your girls and do some fun things.

You are not going to always get what you want in life there are some things you have to let go no matter how hard it may seems at the moment but you have to let it go if it’s bringing you down. Let anything that’s dragging you down go. You are so much more than that rejection, don’t give up. Push forward you will thank yourself for moving on because you never know the right person might be right around the corner but you were too busy looking at the wrong one. Know your worth put a price on yourself and whatever that price is keep it and never lower it for anyone, never put it on layaway or on sale. That price that you set on yourself should always be the same not even a penny less. You will thank yourself in the future when you get married and start a family. If you put yourself on sale that means you will let just about anyone have you and that should never be the case.

That person who rejected you had a price and they kept that price. Not that you can’t give them what they want well sometimes you just can’t and what you have to do is let them go because someone else might be able give them what you weren’t able to give. That’s okay because you don’t want to pursue something that’s too far out of your reach or so expensive that it cost you all your fortune. Just like you don’t want to be with someone that you give your all to and who’s only there to take and take from you without giving you anything.

You both should be uplifting one another, help one another, be there for one another not tear apart, break one another or hurt one another.

Back to rejection.

If you have been rejected in the past it does not mean that you will always be rejected even though it may feel that way the moment you feel rejected. It’s only a matter of time you get over it and start feeling like you again. All will come to past and the right person will come along.

It’s good to wait even if it’s frustrating unless you want to drag a lot of wrong people along for the ride.

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with that been said have a good day.

Love you all.

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2019-04-22T20:07:59+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 22 Avril 2019 à 08:07 PM

Rainy day.

Thoughts racing through my mind.

wish I could forget and let it all go to waste.

wish I could press an erase button and move on.

Just like the rain hitting the ground so are my tears running down my face.

Reaching for a napkin to wipe them away but they keep falling effortlessly.

The memories are still fresh.

Talking feels impossible,

the words aren't coming out.

I forgot how to create a sentence.

...

Unable to make a single sound,

I reach for my phone and type "hey"

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2019-04-18T19:53:41+02:00

confident.

Publié par Gaelle.R 18 Avril 2019 à 07:53 PM

Hey there,

I usually start by saying how I’ve been absent on here and how I’ve been busy but today I don’t feel like starting off like this. I mean we are all busy and for me to say “I’m busy” that’s the reason why I can’t come here sounds like an excuse to me. I was doing other things and none of them involved me coming here LOL and that is the truth.

Besides everything I still love blogging and it’s such a shame that I get the chance to do it and I don’t do it everyday but that would be another topic for another day. Today I’m going to speak my mind on some things. Some people who know how I think sometimes will be like OMG here we go again (...)

Yes I do think about a lot of things and I overthink sometimes which is not good ( we all have flaws, I’m working on that one) . But today I will share what I think on this particular topic.

This is mostly for the ladies but I want the men to know this too. Us ladies we are entitled to have our own opinions, some guys are intimidated by a girl who knows exactly what she wants and what she deserves. Those guys who are chickened out by ladies who know what they want are simply “boys” they themselves don’t know what they want and finding a girl who goes after what she wants and reject anything underserving of her attention simply means she is “stuck up” to them. I feel like a girl needs to know what she wants for her life, in a guy, for her well-being, her physical and mental health. In the past I’ve been struggling to find out what makes me happy and I have been taking some time apart from anything that was distracting me from getting to know my real self and so far I’ve been getting to know myself way more than I have in my entire life.

My advice to someone who doesn’t know what makes them happy or feel joy. Is to take some time apart from anything that is distracting them that may be some toxic relationship, toxic friends or family members, social media or anything you know for sure doesn’t make you happy and avoid places that you don’t like. Take some time away from all these things. By knowing what you don’t like which is the first step of finding out what you like . Try some things you would like to do instead of what you don’t like.

For example if you know you don’t like crowded places well try something opposite of that like going to watch a movie, going for a walk in the park on a nice day... or stay home with a good book and get your favorite beverage could be a glass of wine, tea or coffee. (I like peppermint tea, off topic I know lol)

When you take time away from things you don’t like try spending time with yourself for example of what you can do with yourself.

Go watch a movie alone.
Take yourself out to eat (not a take out) no ask for a table for one. Something about asking for a table for one makes you feel so strong like yes I’m here alone and?
Read a book.
Stay in and watch a movie or your favorite show.
Listening to music, dancing and goofing around LOL
Take a long drive somewhere
Go to a park for a walk or to sit whatever you wanna do.

Something about doing things by yourself gives you the power of not depending on someone else to make you happy. You should feel joy from within. When you hang out with yourself you learn more about your strength and weakness and you should what they are before you let anyone in your life. You should know what makes you tick, what drives you over the edge, how to control yourself when mad... you should get to know how you are when you get mad, sad, happy ... so you’re not shocked by the outcome when someone else is involved.

One more thing you should love hanging out with yourself because if you don’t how can someone else would love hanging out with you. You have to love yourself before someone someone can begin to love you.

There’s something about a girl who loves herself and happy with herself that attracts the best people. You have your head on your shoulder, you’re content with yourself, you’re praying God because let’s be honest how can one can truly be happy and find peace without the creator of everything? *that’s another topic (I will come back to discuss this)

If you’re focusing on your flaws you will miss out on all the beautiful things about you. We are all imperfect even Beyoncé believe it or not I’m sure she has some flaws she would want to change but does that stop her from stunting on y’all ? he’ll nah !

Your flaws should not stop you either you are beautiful beings (believe it) you’re wonderful (trust that you are) you are all beautifully and wonderfully made.

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2019-02-26T17:14:17+01:00

trying to live a positive life.

Publié par Gaelle.R 26 Février 2019 à 05:14 PM

hey there,

I have been trying to make a few changes in my life and yesterday I shared some tips that I am currently taking. I don't come here to talk about what I am doing or all the wonderful things I am trying to do for no reason. There was a time I couldn't possibly imagine being positive and having so much hope. I feel like the more time we spend in our heads thinking about our issues, about things we don't have and things we wish we had...we somehow forget who we are and we forget to see all the blessings that we are currently receiving.

This world and this society have taught us to be greedy, to want more. It's good not to settle and to keep going further than what we set out for ourselves but we should realize that somewhere along the way we should be satisfied with what we have. If we never get satisfied then what's the point in working hard? do we work hard so we can work even harder on things we actually want ? I would think that if I work hard at someting it's only because I want to stop working on it someday right? well that's just me ...

Anyway whatver I was talking about in the beginning I think I lost track of it.

I guess I'll start another article...

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2019-02-25T20:09:54+01:00

self cleansing.

Publié par Gaelle.R 25 Février 2019 à 08:09 PM

hey there,

I have been trying to make some changes in my life and I belive that it's working. I want to share with you a few of these changes that I've made perhaps you can take something from it. I want to inspire somebody to be the best version that they can be. I wish someone would do this for me. But I will do what I wanted someone to do for me, I will tell you what I needed to hear... I will tell you things that I wish someone else told me. I will write a book that I wish was written because I want to read it myself... I took a few step.

1. I took a break from social media. I am not as active as I was before. I deaactivated almost all my accounts except for one. I delete it and download it again but I am not always checking on it anymore. My goal is to be social media free but somehow I am trying to reach out to you so I gotta have a platform. Reason why I took a break from social media is because I am not getting what I need from it, I don't need to see any more fitted models, any more people trying to show how wonderful their life is when in reality we are all messed up inside. I am messed up, you're messed up we are all messed but somehow we walk around beliving that we can be less messed up each day that goes by because we can never be perfect. You hear me ? you can never be perfect and you are fine the way you are. If you can't get taller that's fine...you can't get that beach body that's also fine because who you are on the inside is what matter the most... I am taking a break because I am trying to grow I am trying to learn something diffrent by living in the moment.

2. I try to pray daily or each time some things go wrong. I belive in the power of prayer now. I belive that God is listening to us when we pray and when we are honest with him. He knows who we are before we even know who we are. asking him for help is one step closer to finding out who we need to be.

3. I try to keep a positive attitude even when things don't look right. I smile even when I don't want to. I say thank you and please more now. I try to humble myself instead of shouting my rights I kindly point out the issue... I put myself In someone else's shoes. I pray for humility... as human being we tend to have an ego so big that we only think about ourselves and we forget to consider someone else's point of view.

I am only sharing those 3 steps for now but there's more...I will try to tell you more daily.

thanks for reading.

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2019-02-25T19:14:44+01:00

my testimony.

Publié par Gaelle.R 25 Février 2019 à 07:14 PM

hey there,

As I sit here on my bed in the middle of the day and somehow I feel the urge to share my story. Believe me when I say that this is not as easy as it looks, I never tell people let alone people I don't know what I am going through. I put on a show and I am so good at it that no one never notice how broken I am on the inside. I don't tell people when I am hurting and for me to tell you this before I tell you what changed me , for me to tell you about what happened to me recently and put me in a place where I am able to be honest. In a place where I am able to tell the truth about who I am on the inside not the one I am on the outside because I was acting. I realize that as long as I put on a show I will never figure out who I am, who I can be and who God created me to be.

so here's my testimony.

Some of you may not know but I got in a car accident on valentine's day this year. while I was driving on the highway one of my tires blew out and I lost control of the car. I got off the road and I ended up in a tree that was nearby, I knock it down. The whole front of my car was broken the air bag blew out on my face. The way I hit that tree I remember when I lost control of the car I didn't know where I was going to end up. I didn't know that I was going to be okay when I was about to hit that tree. I thought I was going to die at that moment. I though this is it God I am going to die I let the wheel go but God saved me the car took the hit and I was fine, I wasn't hurt no broken bones yes I was shaking and traumatized but physically I was okay. some people had car accident that day and didn't make it but I made it out alive ! who am I? how did I deserve this? I needed to humble myself ! because God saved me I couldn't have saved myself because I gave up when I was about to hit that tree. I had already accepted my death but God had better plans for me. In anyway I look at that accident when I get out of the car... when I saw what was left of the car all I could see was how God protected me. How he said NO THIS IS NOT IT FOR YOU. I realized that I had to live because God wanted me to live to fulfill my destiny. I don't know what it is but I know that I want to become a writer and a nurse. I know that I want to help somebody physically and mentally. What's our physical health if our minds are not healthy. Our mind is our power. Your mind is what keeps you alive and makes you want to keep going and not give up. I have been so negative in the past and I was not able to see the work of God and I didn't leave room for God to work in me. Today I am sharing with you how a car accident made me realize how precious life really is and how God can shift your current situation to make you see something that you didnt see before. A negative mind is the devil trying to get to you, trying to break you down so you can lose faith in God. No matter how bad the situation may seems there is always a solution and you can leave anything that you can't control in the hands of God. I lost control of the car and God took over to show me that I was never in control... He's the one directing me and I realize that I thought I was in control and here he was showing me that no I was not in control that GOD IS IN CONTROL.

whatever you are going through at the moment trust God, trust that he can help you and he will. Trust that he will take away whatever that is holding you down if you let him take it. Pray to God, give him thanks. Tell him everything and believe that he is listening because he is and he is watching over you. TRUST GOD in whatever you do. Even when it may seems dark and you think that there is no hope but God doesn't think that. He knows more than you know, he knows the future andy ou can only see now... you know nothing. Let God take over you...

I didn't think I would do this here but something in me is telling me to write this down and publish it, maybe someone may come across it and see how God saved me...

thanks for reading.

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