No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2019-11-30T03:54:12+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 30 Novembre 2019 à 03:54 AM

hey there.

I am obsessed with looney toons at the moment I have been watching some episodes in french on you tube.

I feel like on those lazy days when you are not feeling your best self it's okay to watch cartoons and to just lay there and reminisce about those days when you were a kid watching the same exact cartoon... well anyway I have been watching a lot of cartoons and I feel great. I want to block out so much from the outside world like scary movies which makes me scared... weird tv shows that just confuses me... anyway I have been trying to run away from things that I don't want but I feel like I have to try harder because I have to protect my spirit and my well being. You need to protect yourself from becoming someone you don't want and it can be hard because of a bad situation you've been through or some people who are around you who only bring out the worse in you... stay away from them.

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2019-11-29T04:06:25+01:00

powerful.

Publié par Gaelle.R 29 Novembre 2019 à 04:06 AM

Before I start talking about being powerful let me say what I thing it is. To me I think It's being able to stand tall and to have your head held high in situation where you could have been crying or weak, It is also to have a voice to speak your truths and not being afraid to be criticized or ridicule for it. There are other ways of being powerful

(if you're reading this and there's only a few sentences come back chances are I am not done with it and I am going to finish later, I have a massive headache at the moment which may cause the delay of this article...the idea is there but the mind is not.) *10000000 hours later...

being powerful to me has nothing to do with money because you can be rich and still not be powerful. It is having a mind of your own and stick by what you believe in. It's pursuing what you want and not giving up when It doesn't work. It is persistence and hard work.

Being powerful is being who you are and not apologize for it. Yes there are other girls or other people who have way more than you, they could be bigger,skinnier, smarter, taller but none of them is you and that is your power, if you believe in you than you are already powerful.

After all it is being able to stand back up after a fall. It is being able to stand on your own when no one is standing by your side.

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2019-11-27T15:02:34+01:00

don't worry.

Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Novembre 2019 à 03:02 PM

Let things be. Sometimes life may throw at us something that may seems like a big problem but when you really look at it from another angle you can see that it is not a big problem it's just a simple issue. Don't make little issues become a big problem just let it go, it's not deep.

Sometimes I tend to create a big problem in my head but after a while I realize that it was not and I was worried for nothing. I chose to not let anyone or anything steal my joy. I will be happy, I will keep going and have a smile on my face, I will make new friends, I will meet amazing people who will see the goodness in me, I will meet people who will uplift me not tear me down. I will be okay. This is just a glitched in the engine but it can be fixed. From now on I will be more on guard and I think we all should. I wrote this because I have been feeling this way for quite some time now about some people. I don't hate them but I have to keep them at a distance to keep my happiness. I am not going to worry about things that don't matter. If It was not important to you then it shouldn't be for me. I am not going to be intimidated for nothing, I did my best and I did put my best face forward. I will be okay.

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2019-11-07T18:59:21+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 7 Novembre 2019 à 06:59 PM

one thing I learn so far.

instead of me starting by saying it's been a while since I haven't blogged but let's act like I never said that and get right into the topic.

I feel like we are learning everyday and sometimes we are learning stuff without even know that we are retaining information. Like it's inevitable if you're living on this earth you will learn one way or another.

My life has drastically change to a point where the old me from like a few months ago would be staring out the me today and be like who is she?

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2019-10-18T03:24:33+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 18 Octobre 2019 à 03:24 AM

It's been a while and to be honest I don't like getting too personal with the public I don't think I have ever been and if I had I don't think it was straight forward.

Like I feel showing emotions and crying in front of everybody is weak but now that I think about it it probably shows vulnerability but in a humanly kind of way. It's good to know that someone is just as human as you. I feel like some people wear a mask on their face just so they don't have to show any emotions and somehow they actually look less human

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2019-10-01T04:57:48+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Octobre 2019 à 04:57 AM

To begin let me just say that what I am going to share is real life stuff lol. I know it may look like I'm just blogging and talking about just anything (which I am most of the time) but today I come here to let out my frustration with life lol. I am in a good place I am not falling apart nor do I need any medical assistance, I am just being human.

Can I just say how tired I am ? I mean with a lot of things starting with how hard life is. I wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth and I have to work for everything I have. If my parents can take me back to their house I would go back for real but they can't take me back. I have to struggle and make it, by the grace of God I will make it. I will accomplish all my goals if not all well most of it and I will publish something whether or not it would be successful is unknown but the joy of having it publish will fulfill me. I have never felt so alone in my entire life I've been here talking about how lonely it gets but never like this. I feel like when you're changing your normal ways of doing things, you become lonely because you're getting rid of old habits now you have to fill that empty space with new habits...I don't know what's more to come but I want to be ready when life strike at me again.

`the feeling`

it's like staring into an empty window with nothing in sight.

No one is talking or wondering where you are.

It's like being in the dark in a room filled with silent people.

It's like being blindfolded in a room filled with lights and not being able to see anything.

It's like being deaf with a blurred vision...

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2019-09-29T16:07:45+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 29 Septembre 2019 à 04:07 PM

hey there,

I felt compelled to reach for my laptop and to blog about this. I have been thinking about this subject since the beginning of the year but I have recently apply it to my life and I am just starting to believe it.

Being different,

First let's talk about that and some of you may relate. Personally I have always been identified as someone who's different, always have a different vibe, Not easy to understand, quiet and possibly shy, awkward... but let me tell you I am none of these things and If I choose to believe it then I will start thinking that's who I am.

I am only being myself I am different because I don't think or feel the same way that you do and that's okay,
I have a different vibe because I don't have to match your vibe,
I am not easy to understand because you didn't try to get to know the real me.
I am quiet and shy to you because I don't know you and if you barely talk to me I am not going to be in your face trying to talk to you.

some of you may relate to me and it is okay. You were not created to be hanging out with everyone and you always have to stay on guard of who is entering your life, you have to preserve your good values because they can easily be deluded. You don't have to follow anyone or doing what everyone else is doing, you don't have to try to be like your friends. Who do you want to be? a follower or your own leader? You don't have to fill your life with those temporary things that can only bring happiness in the moment. Try to fall in love with something meaningful that gives you a purpose and a reason to get out of bed daily to do it again. I have recently started my path with God, I have been a christian all my life but having a relationship with God is more important to me now than it was before and by doing that a void has been filled. I used to follow trends and trying to be like this person or that person I realize that I will have to dig in deeper and I have to try to figure out who do I want to be and who am I?

It is easy to follow the crowd and be like everyone else and it is 10 times harder to stand on your own and believing in your own truth. It will get lonely when you're the only one trying to do what you think is right. It will be hard at times but don't be discourage talk to someone, read a verse in the bible one that has helped me is Genesis 28:15 " I am with you and I will safeguard you wherever you go, and I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you." So whenever you're feeling alone remember that God is always with you and he will never leave you. Knowing that the creator of all things is with you what more can you possibly need now the next step is to reach out to him and talk to him.

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2019-09-28T06:00:44+02:00

feeling small.

Publié par Gaelle.R 28 Septembre 2019 à 06:00 AM

Have you ever felt so small that you questioned your whole existence? and you start asking yourself am I smart enough? good enough? pretty enough? worthy enough? I think we all have. If I feel that way from time to time that means someone else is going through it or have been through it. I don't really care about physical appearance because deep down I don't want to be faced with the idea that I am not pretty in someone else's eye (truth is we can never be attractive for everyone) there's always that one person ready to point out your flaws and always there to remind you that there are girls that are prettier than you. Honestly my main focus is not about being beautiful it is more about self love and feeling comfortable in our own skin and that my friend is true beauty, to be able to love yourself entirely and to accept yourself where no one else can make you feel bad about who you are or what you look like because you have already accepted who you are.I am talking to the ladies right now, I know we are worried about what we look like in someone else's eyes especially our significant other, but all of that have to stop when we start focusing on ourselves and not relying on someone else's approval. God created each one of us at his image and he made sure that we have all that we need, it's up to us to reach in from within us to access our strength. We may get weak and weary which is why I always advice someone to pray because we won't always be strong... some days we may feel so weak that we may not be able to see ourselves making it through the day.

Beside that I personally hate comparison because simply it doesn't help anything. I am already created, I cannot be reborn and I cannot be like another I was made to look like this and to be myself(I can change for the better but I cannot change my whole self, like you asking for too much bruh). Why would you compare me to the next person simply because you think that I am lacking something? as If I can get what I am lacking from the next person when you compare me to that person, so you're just doing it to make me feel bad. I don't care how many mistakes I've made, If I hurt you it may be intentionally or unintentionally you have no right to tell me that I have to be like someone else...I am not saying that what I did was right but you can simply talk to me directly. It is up to me to change don't make me feel ashamed of what I did by comparing me to someone else that you think is much better than me. Parents do that when they compare one sibling to another, that is not okay because both of them are two different people. As they grow they may get jealous of one another.

we all have our own strength and it may take a while for you to discover what you can do. I personally am scared of a lot of things and one of them is public speaking but I was surprised to see how well I did a presentation in class the other day, yes I was cared and shaking like a wet dog but It got easier as I started talking and I was like "uh that's not so bad." I believe that each one of us can do way more than we think. we are stronger than we imagined, we just have to be patient with ourselves and allow us to grow to find out what kind of superpower we have underneath this skin.

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2019-09-23T02:49:31+02:00

currently.

Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Septembre 2019 à 02:49 AM

hey there,

I have been taking a little break from some things because I need a little time to process some stuff. I want to be someone great. I want to leave something meaningful behind when I leave this earth. I want to inspire someone and for that to happen I believe that I need to preserve my energy so I can stay inspired. When I am frustrated I cannot write, when I am too happy I forget about writing, when I am sad I want to stay in my bed and reaching for my computer seems like a hard task. When someone do me wrong I become defensive ready to say what the person did to me which is why I think I need to stay quiet and take time to learn from it instead of trying to figure out who's at fault, chances are we are both at fault. I don't like starting over which is why it is hard for me to let go but when I do it's done. There are some people that I am taking my distance from not because I want to let them go but because I think it's best if I don't say anything for a while. I don't want to hurt anyone and I don't want to get hurt but some things are not that simple. I think that It is okay to take a break from some things once in a while when things are getting a little out of hand.

we all deserve to be happy. we all deserve good things and I think some of us forget that we do deserve the best but instead we settle for anything that seems "about right". I want to make sure that I take my time choosing a job, finding a mate, getting a good car, buying anything (especially if it's online). Honestly I think we all should take time before we make some big decision that will probably affect our whole future it can be getting married, finding the right major, deciding who should be our friends (although some us don't care and we just want to make our circle bigger forgetting about who we are adding *that's another topic) we should be cautious of who we let into our lives, who we tell our biggest secrets and weaknesses, you should always stay on guard of your feelings and your emotions sometimes they get the best of us and we get carried away. You may see something that you like doesn't mean that it is good nor right for you.

I don't mind waiting as long as I get the best results...

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2019-09-21T04:49:05+02:00

TIME.

Publié par Gaelle.R 21 Septembre 2019 à 04:49 AM

I feel like I need more time in general. I am running out of time. I wish that I wasn't doing so much. I wish that I had some leisure time because it always feel like I am busy doing something or getting something done. I miss doing nothing now when I am not doing anything I just feel guilty about the time that I am wasting.

Let's move on from talking about the little time that I have for myself but let's get into something a little deeper. I think time is important in anything that you're doing, you gotta give some things time to get better. I always feel like people need time when they are going through some things so I distance myself and other times I just need time for myself for my own personal reason.

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