No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2020-03-02T01:48:33+01:00

questions

Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Mars 2020 à 01:48 AM

1.Is there something that you've dreamt of doing for a long time? why haven't you done it?

well, I always dreamt of going to Paris since I was little. Why haven't ? well anyone want to buy the tickets for me ? lol no but for real I am just not ready for this trip I want to go when I graduate it will feel more like a celebration.

2. what are some things you've had to unlearn ?

I had to unlearn to do the eye wing makeup on my eyes from high school, it was awful I don't know why anyone didn't tell me to stop. Now I can't do it even if I try and I am happy that I can't because it was horrible.

3 what question would you most like to know the answer to?

what will I be doing in 10 years from now? and I want the answer to be very detailed...

4. if you didn't have to sleep what would you do with the extra time?

I would write more and watch all the movies I fell asleep to and it's a lot.

5. what has been the most stressful experience in your life?

finding an apartment and the next couple weeks after my car accident.

6. what's the worse piece of advice you've ever received?

okay the first time I went natural someone styled my hair and I mean no twist out, no styling products just straight up afro and she was like perfect.. you look beautiful... uhm that wasn't good at all I actually permed my hair after that it was a fail but the next year I went natural on my own.

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2020-03-02T01:33:06+01:00

plans.

Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Mars 2020 à 01:33 AM

One thing I realize in order to make anything work in life you will need a plan. I usually plan out my days, I think it sounds so good but I never follow it step by step though It's actually crazy ! I spent a whole 5 minutes planning out a day that will never see the light of day (that was a joke I usually cross out most of the things on my list)

I'm going to answer some questions...

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2020-03-02T01:26:30+01:00

hey.

Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Mars 2020 à 01:26 AM

I feel better... I literally thought I was going to end up in the hospital with an IV bag inject in my arm this how bad I was feeling. I thank God for health...I know how I was feeling this is why I am so grateful right now.

I don't normally say what I am doing on this blog because I don't think my life is that relevant at the moment to be blogging about lol...so far I'm good.

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2020-03-01T05:43:39+01:00

currently.

Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Mars 2020 à 05:43 AM

I had an experience today that almost felt like I was about to pass out... I felt like I was out of my body for a second. I was scared for a minute. I had a coffee with expresso shot and let me tell you my heart was beating so fast, my head was spinning all over the place and I couldn't stand up. I still drove home only God knows how I did it, I can't remember the whole ride home and I drove the car !

I would advise anyone who has not eat or haven't been eating properly not to drink coffee with an expresso shot. I am still not okay. It's been 4 hours since I drink it and I am not feeling well at all. My eating habit is very strange I either eat a lot or I don't eat at all which is very dangerous.

Lately I've been expecting bad things to happen...it's like I am waiting for it to happen not that I want it to but I just don't want to be surprised...I imagine the worse possible scenarios...which is bad.

Hopefully I get better soon,

bye.

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2020-02-28T18:39:54+01:00

when someone makes you feel unwanted.

Publié par Gaelle.R 28 Février 2020 à 06:39 PM

hey there,

I know this topic is kind of depressing but it happens. It doesn't matter how beautiful, handsome, smart, tall, short you are someone is going to make you feel like they don't want you like they would rather talk to anyone else but you, well this is where I come in from this blog lol.

Okay I have been rejected before (shocking) who hasn't ? well all of us have it just depends the extreme of how you were rejected well I think I've been through it all. I have had people whom I wanted to be friends with that didn't want to talk to me for some reason they thought I was boring shame on them who's laughing now? I'm not i'm just saying lol. Okay when You feel rejected you have 2 options.

you can move on and chose to be around other people.
or you can keep trying to feel accepted no matter how stupid you look.

Truth is not everyone is supposed to accept you, see it this way if not everyone accepted Jesus (who came from above the son of God ) when he was on this earth what makes you think everyone is going to accept you? Don't get me wrong all of us are special but not everyone is going to see it. Some people will reject you because they envy you, some because they can't stand how other people love you, some because they don't want to get attached to you, some because simply they feel like rejecting you. If you chose the first option and you chose to move on and you surround with other people you're the one winning...at first it can be hard to accept someone did not like you or wanted to be your friend but that's okay there are a lot of people who will love to be your friend. You don't have to be stuck on that one person there are a lot wonderful people out there who will make you forget about it you just have to be open to make new friends. You deserve to be happy don't let anyone take away your smile always think that you will forget all about it and soon enough you will meet someone who will erase all those times you were chasing for no reason, accepting things that you didn't have to accept. Always try to see light at the end of the tunnel.

If you chose the second option and you chose to keep trying to be accepted by that person who rejected you. Don't feel weak, sometimes we have to go through tough experience to become stronger. I did that too in the past but I realize nothing can make me be accepted by someone who chose willingly to reject me and not like me. The fact that the person did not like me doesn't mean I am not enough,stupid, ugly it's just that I am not meant for this person but I am still me nothing has been taking away. you are still beautiful, you are still smart and you don't need to be accepted to feel it; you're already all those things. Keep your head high and never ever feel as if you're not enough that's the enemy trying to tear you down... you're a lion, you're a tigger lol all this to say you're strong and you will get over it. Chin up.

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2020-02-27T20:54:55+01:00

Blogging.

Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Février 2020 à 08:54 PM

When I tell someone hey I have a blog if you want to visit I can give you the link and tell me what you think. Sometimes I can almost hear some of them saying "ok like how does it work?" like my blog how did I create it? do I get paid? why do I have this blog. To answer some of the questions I did not create this blog, I had the idea in high school and I spoke to my cousin about it. I gave up after multiple tries but he kept going at it until he stumble across this website and he did what he had to do and boom here's my blog thanks to him

*side note: I do not like talking about how this blog came about because the person who created it for me was my cousin and he passed away... it's still a sensitive subject and I am still grieving.

well honestly there's no science or math equation to how this blog function or how all the contents got here lol I just pick up my laptop and start typing when i don't have anything to say I stay off of it. Like today I don't have much to say but I pick a very irrelevant subject to discuss (lol) just because I want to. I have to be motivated to come here and if I am not I don't I opt for my journal instead so I guess I write for myself when I don't have anything to say to anyone...

I have this blog because I want to reach out to the people who keeps coming and because I want to leave something behind when I leave this earth... this blog is like a milestone I grew up with it ever since high school and now I am in my early almost mid 20's which is so cool. I can re live some of the things I wrote and I can kind off see how much I've grown since then. It's just amazing I can't wait to show my kids this blog when I have them but they must be in high school otherwise it's going to be too much for them lol.

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2020-02-26T04:34:00+01:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 26 Février 2020 à 04:34 AM

Hey there,

This one has no title because honestly I couldn't think of one I just wanted to write this as it was already in my mind. Okay I saw a post online and it says "Not all relationships will lead to marriage, some will help you discover new restaurants" At first I started laughing because it's true for some people they just casually go on dates just for the food with no interest for the person they are out with.

Besides the humor behind the post it's actually sad you know. Like I was thinking the whole point of being in a relationship with someone was not for not the cute pics on instagram just so people could comment "relationship goals" and it was not really about you proving to your friends or anyone that you have a man or a girl...I think It's wayyyy deeper than that. I see relationship as a commitment and I think personally if someone is not in it for the long run they should wait and take some time to get their mind in the right place. I am not scared of the process of being single, you could do a lot of things when you're alone like you can hide things, you can be the version that you try to hide in front of the person you really love and care about just because you feel that you have to be just right for them. When you get in a relationship all that is doing is shed some light to who you're really are, it's showing someone else your flaws, your weakness, your worse days, your fears, you being upset, you being selfish...when you're alone you don't see all of that, you think you're just right until you get in a relationship for the first time you realize how imperfect you are.

Relationship is not always about agreeing on the same thing always. If you find someone who agrees with everything you say it's just boring, there's no growth like you're not learning anything from each other. It's about teaching one another, supporting one another, being there for one another, lifting them up when they're down and that is vice versa, appreciate them despite their flaws, accepting their bad qualities because at the end of the day we are all imperfect and being patient.... So no relationship is not about going on restaurants and eating good foods that is just a bonus.

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2020-02-24T15:46:26+01:00

what you want is not always what you need.

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Février 2020 à 03:46 PM

Morning ! How are y'all doing? I am alright.

Let's get right into it, no time to waste.

Often times we want something so bad, it could be a material thing, a person,food actually it can be anything. For most humans when we want something we want to have it right away, doesn't mean that we should. Sometimes the things that you want the most is what end up killing you.

Let's talk about material things first, like I know at first you want to buy something or get something however way you plan on getting it but for some reason you can't buy it could be because you can't afford it or you can't have it at the moment. Of course you're going to feel frustrated we don't like being declined for something we want. Maybe you're not suppose to buy that thing now...I remember after my car accident I wanted to buy another car the next day but it was not possible because there’s a lot of factors that comes with purchasing a car especially if you're not a millionaire (ahah) even millionaires struggle. By the way I have nothing against rich people neither am I obsessed with being rich. (that's another topic) Okay so you need time and preparation to have something and to actually maintain it.

What if it's a person. You can want someone today and you can pursue them but if you don't get them don't be discouraged. Move on because chances are there is someone greater out here for you. I know it can be frustrating and maybe that person was going to break your heart but you were saved by staying alone. Don't take it as rejection, see how brave you are you wanted someone and you were brave enough to go after that person you are powerful my dear. Do you know how many people out here keeping their feelings in and dying with it? I would rather spit it out than to die while not knowing if I had a chance with someone. When I know it wasn't a match I feel more at peace and I can move on with no regrets. That's how I see it.

Okay this not about me and my boring experiences. One thing I realize is that it’s not that you couldn’t be with that person sometimes it just means that you’re simply not ready. There are some work that needs to be done in you before you get the person, you still need to grow and you still need to let go of some things. In the process where you are alone and single focus on your growth, try to be a better person but for that you will need God’s help....like I said I am a Christian so that is what you will see all over my blog. I believe in the power of God and I believe that he can make a lot of things that you didn’t imagine become possible in your life. Instead of focusing your eyes out for the person focus on God and your growth; everything else will take place in its due time.

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2020-02-24T01:11:56+01:00

safe place.

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Février 2020 à 01:11 AM

hey there,

I just want to say how this blog is my place of getting some things on my chest out, however I will not put absolutely everything out but I will put things that can help both me and you out. I will not come here and bash anyone or say what anyone did to me (that's what twitter is for ) lol poetry does it for me...I pour out my pain and love in there. Anyone who's too stupid to receive my love will have that love be poured out on some amazing poetry (that was a joke we don't bash anyone here)

Anyways if you're new here as I did gave my blog to some new people I no longer have my link up on instagram, consider how I deleted it about a year ago. Although you will find my new account on instagram which I created last month it's a matter of time before that gets deleted too, I don't use it...I have no passion for anything like it nor facebook or twitter anymore I guess my view on a lot of things have changed. I really don't like wasting my time on anything...

alright welcome here !

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2020-02-23T06:43:51+01:00

Forgiveness.

Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Février 2020 à 06:43 AM

Hey there?

It's midnight for me at the moment and It's not that I cannot sleep, I can if I want to but I wanted to write this down before I fall asleep and forget everything...

Some people has the power to hurt others not only with their actions but with their words that cut like knives. They may not know how much damage they have caused. They may go on with their lives like they did not just hurt you so bad that you can't even to look at yourself in the mirror, tears falling down your face like a waterfall, heart breaking into million pieces because of everything they've done to you. You can feel broken because of what someone did or said to you. You do have a choice to accept what you want to believe when others speak about you but this is not about being strong right now. Let's say you're totally broken because of what someone did or said to you and you're replaying it over and over in your mind...you know how much it hurts and there's a lot of chances that the person who hurt you don't even know what they did to you and how deep it was.

If you want to heal and if you want to find yourself again, do what I am about to tell you not because I said it but because it's written in the bible. I have been in situation where people hurt my feelings so bad and I pretended that they didn't and that it wasn't all that bad until I came to this process that is called "forgiveness" you will know how much that person hurt you when you about to forgive them. Sometimes I don't have the courage to do it and I admit that I cannot do it on my own simply because it is so hard for me when I look at how much tears I have shed because of this person, but I know for me to be at peace and for me to let it go I need to forgive them. It doesn't mean that I will forget everything but I promise myself to let it go and as time goes by I do forget because I have already moved on I am no longer thinking about it. I have better things on my mind because I was able to forgive and move on.

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