No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2017-06-11T06:34:38+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Juin 2017 à 06:34 AM

Talkin about what you gonna do forgetting the real reason why you came...

why you saying all this when you know it's a lie,

your whole life is a lie.

The things you claimed you have you can't even prove them to the world.

You keep lying that you might as well become a lie.

All the things you do don't even make sense no more.

You say one thing but you do another,

who are you?

Do you actually know what you want?

what happened to you?

you used to be better, nicer and smarter.

Now I don't even know who you are...

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2017-06-11T06:22:54+02:00

Hi there?

Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Juin 2017 à 06:22 AM

Have y'all ever felt different while in public because of the way other people are like it just hits you about how you really are like damn I didn't know I was like this. Like tonight I realize that, I mean I know who I am already but like I didn't think It was that bad...Lol It's not bad I'm fine but at that moment I couldn't accept my personality and I kinda wanted to change some things about myself. Like most of y'all who seen me but not really know me might think that I'm quiet. I am quiet but I'm not ...Like depends on where I am but I can be a loud person not everywhere. My personality is mixed I can be two different person. But tonight I was lowkey I mean I was poppin like always but I was kinda lay back...I've been like this around some people but I wish I could be myself everywhere. Like I feel like something is holding me back like I am not quiet I know that something is just holding me back...I don't know what It is or maybe I know but I just don't know how to deal with it. But Honestly ... I wish I knew what It was...I love the way I am but I know that sometimes I am repressing my true self and I don't know why.

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2017-06-08T03:52:28+02:00

someone did you wrong?

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Juin 2017 à 03:52 AM

Hi again,

two in one day...

we are living in a world where people do good and bad things. I'm sure you've met someone whom you thought was amazing and incredibly nice and I am also sure that you've met someone whom you thought was the worse possible monster you could ever encounter. You might have been a little bit harsh on with your judgments on the second one but either way you met them throughout your life. Maybe they've changed now who knows? I have met both kinds and for the first one that person was an angel, was never loud, never swear, never got mad or say anything bad about other people. That person made me stop and think about how wicked the world is because in that person's presence all I felt was joy and innocence. But I also met someone who was not so great, that person did all the wrong things, harass others, bullied other people, swears a lot and always had a negative vibe. So I distance myself from that person because It was the worse...

people will do you wrong this is how the world goes. Do you like taking revenge on other people? I mean you would want to do something to make them feel your pain because they did the same thing to you right? Don't do it. As much as you want to do it that you even dream about it. Don't do anything to make them feel pain I am not telling you not to stand up for yourself or let them keep on doing you wrong. Here's what I'm saying if somebody always talk about your insecurities like how short you are, how big you are, how you eat a lot and they even say you're ugly. Usually that person feel threaten by you. You already know that you are not ugly so there's no need to argue or trash their car just because they said some bad things about you. You can't win and argument by shouting and breaking stuff. Why should you try to fight someone who's already in the wrong? then now you are in the wrong too. Let them talk as long as they don't touch you no harm should be done if you know that they are wrong. Them talking is not going to pay for your bills or put food on the table. So keep moving and don't let them change your mood. If they see that whatever they do to stop you you remain undefeated they will stop. Just know yourself and know your worth meaning that you are worth more than they are selling and what they say about you won't dime your light... because even the sun needs the moon to shine and you need some negative things to become more positive...

night babes.

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2017-06-08T03:34:58+02:00

self doubt

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Juin 2017 à 03:34 AM

Hi there,

First of all my main goal for this blog is to help somebody and to tell somebody something that they been wanting to hear.Second of all my second goal for this blog is to help myself because writing is therapeutic to me, it makes me feel better. When I'm mad or when I'm about to cry I reach for a paper and a pen or I just reach for my phone and go right to notes. Which is why sometimes you may feel the pain in my writing, you may feel that I am sad or happy through my writing because I use my emotions as inspiration. It's all about the mood among other things.

self doubt?

I know if you keep reading this after my unnecessary long intro then you must really want to know what I have to say about this topic. Perhaps you want to stop doubting yourself and you thought about how much you doubt yourself and how you need to stop. You probably thought about ways to stop doubting yourself but listen to me, the first step you need to take about doubting yourself is to realize that it's okay for you to doubt yourself. Now it's time for you to accept the fact that you are doubting yourself, maybe it's because you failed at something and it is okay to fail. You are not going to get it right in the first try or even in the second try what you need to do is keep on trying and you will eventually succeed. With success comes failure. In order for you to succeed you had to fail to realize where you went wrong and to know that it wasn't right. some people learn through other people's mistakes too but they still make mistakes on their own. We all going to fail it's what we do after that failure that counts. Are you going to get up and keep going? or are you going to sit down and feel like a loser and cry about it? put that in your mind " giving up is not an option" so what if I failed at something? I am not stupid because I failed ! I am maturing, I am growing, I am realizing things that I did not know. we all need to fail to know what success feels like because if we always succeed and get what we want then we wouldn't know what real success is because we always win in the end. You need to be a loser to feel like a winner. You need to feel sadness to know what happiness is. Just because I failed at something does not make me less of a person than I already am. Just because I didn't get it right when I was suppose to doesn't mean that I am never going to get right. I know we all want success. we all want to feel like our relationships are succeeding, that we acing a class, that we get the job we want. We all want to feel like we did something right but deep down we always doubt ourselves before we got there. It's okay to doubt yourself because doubting is a fear that you might win and that you might lose also. Now you and I need to keep our eyes on the finish line and stop the negative thoughts in our heads because that fear is what is stopping us. We can do it we just need to be fearless and take more action instead of saying what if.

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2017-06-05T02:49:44+02:00

celebrating 1 year since my "love actually" article

Publié par Gaelle.R 5 Juin 2017 à 02:49 AM

Nowadays it is hard to find love and for a nice girl to be taken seriously she would have to give up something. And so she thought. We are blinded by the fact that someone can actually find the love that he or she deserves. Throughout my life i am sad to say that i have not met a boy who is willing to love a girl without getting anything in return. These boys will do anything to prove to their friends how based on their term “they got the juice” and us girls we are supposed to play along by giving in. If we decide to hold back by not engaging in anything that would break what we value the most then we are called “stuck up” and the girl who cannot have fun. So many girls have gone down the road of no return by leading a life like the boys. We try to have many relationship at a time saying that we do not care and we can act like the boys but at the end of the day we are found curled up on our beds crying. We were not made to be like the boys. They can say to a girl that they love her just to gain something but us girls we can try but we will regret it someday. We have so much to lose. I met some nice girls who turned out to be different after their first relationship and who’s fault is that? You can say that it is our fault for being so gullible and for giving them what they want. In 2016 a new term came out “the fuckboys” the type of guy who will promise you anything to have sex with you. They will talk about what they’ve done to that girl and laugh it off with their friends who in the end call her a slut. Not knowing she was intentionally giving away a part of her to a guy no a boy who she thought she loved. All i see these days are boys, i do not see any men who deserve a nice girl. There might still be nice guys but some girls have ruin it for some. When you were born, you were so innocent and you did not know how much the real world hurts and how much pain you will have to go through before you learn. Which brings me to those girls they are calling a “hoe” these terms are a disgrace to our next generation. What do you tell a 10 years old girl when she ask what does a hoe mean? But that is what it all comes down to. Do you tell her it is someone who have sex with a lot of people? No one was born with the intention of hurting other people or of taking advantage of others. Sadly but true our upbringing can shape who we will become. For those girls who will give up their body to feel loved they were not born this way. They want to feel loved and somehow they were thought that to feel loved there is a price to pay and so they keep it in mind. Now their body is their price. Perhaps they have a nice family, big house, enormous family but do they feel love do you know how lonely she feels at times? But she does not know that love does not have a price. She is willing to do the most repellent thing to make herself loved. That boy she is with is just taking advantage of her asking her for more and in the end he end up leaving her on the sidewalk in the cold. She just wanted to be loved and she thought it was special with him. Now she is broken asking what did she do to deserve this...in my opinion she done nothing and that is the problem. I admit not everyone is strong enough to stay alone waiting for the right one at the right time when everyone else seems happy and having “the perfect relationship” but all she had to was loving herself enough to know that she does not have to settle for less than she deserves. In the beginning of the relationship with that former boy somewhere inside she might have known how foolish she would have to be to get what she wants but she went for it anyway. Sometimes she even think that he will change and that there is something good in him that he does not know about. When you see her crying and you knew from the beginning what was going to happen and somehow manage to tell her the outcomes but of course she did not listen to you. What do you do ? do you tell her i told you so? Before you answer think about what you would have done if you were in her shoes. Would you have told her she is stupid for playing along or would you be compassionate. I do not have many friends and i am not ashamed to say that i am happier that way but let say if one of my 2 to 3 friends had something like that happened to them...here’s what i would do. Before i talk to her i would offer her my shoulder to cry on and i would softly stroke her hair because trust me there is nothing more comforting than to hold a girl while she is crying(it makes her feel safe) I would have to mean it because that will only ruin the moment. I will tell her to stop crying and that she just learn something about life. I'll say You cannot trust everyone little girl ! which will make her laugh because i am the little one between my friends...no time to joke. I would tell her he did not deserve her if he was not able to see what i see then he is blind. I will tell her how amazing she is i would give her an example to back me up. I will tell her that one day she will find the right one who will stay by her side and will hold her like i am holding her at the moment. But she needs to take some time off of the dating market. She needs to date herself now by learning about herself, accepting herself and by living life as it is without waiting for anything from anyone. She needs to learn how to be alone and to see for herself the positive things about herself. If she cannot see how wonderful she is no one else will make her believe it. She needs to love herself before she allows anyone else to love her. Many girls actually believe that no guy will love them if they do not try to get close to them by having sex forgetting that sex is not the closest feeling there is in a relationship it can also breaks them apart. Some will agree that sex is the best thing they have with their significant other. What about quality time? Does it always have to mean undressing the other to have a good time? Why can we just talk no boy ever says that. If you are a girl and you hear that from a “boy” then he is not a boy because honey you have found yourself a man. If he does not require sex as the only thing fun in the relationship then he loves you. Guys i know these days will not waste time to hit it as soon as possible which makes them fuckboys. It is a very popular term this year and sadly it applies to a lot of boys in high school, college. Now you may be wondering where will i find the right one? Well actually it is nowhere because the right one finds you and you do not have to look for them because they are right there in front of you. It is not easy to be a girl and on top of it to have a strong opinion about your beliefs. Girls are not been taking seriously for most we are just a piece of ass and pair of boobs. No one really care that we may have an opinion when we have a pretty face or blond. May i remind you that blonds are not necessarily dumb ! and all black girls who have a big butt is not necessarily a stripper or a hoe. You do not really know someone unless you have long conversations with them to figure out where they might fit in this wagon we call society. Sometimes you might think you know someone but in the end they turned out to be a complete different person than who they appeared to be.

from a girl speaking her mind.

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2017-06-05T02:40:39+02:00

update.

Publié par Gaelle.R 5 Juin 2017 à 02:40 AM

hello It's been a while,

This blog is my everything and I feel like I haven't given it much love for a while...so I am here again to let my frustration or whatever is bothering me out in a calm fashion kinda way. I like to believe that I am not aggressive never mind what other people think.

well so far I have been doing what I do best...I stay to myself I haven't done anything to let anyone in...It's not the right way to go but I can shut out the world If I want to, only to protect me. I will do what I can not to get hurt ever again and if that means shutting most people out I will but I won't hurt them. I don't like hurting people because I hate when people hurt me why would I want to hurt someone? the point is my world is far too fragile for me to let anyone break in it. There is nothing in trying to protect yourself but I do what I do because I have reasons to...I know It's weird if someone were to look at my life in dept they would be mesmerized but I don't want to focus on that...It's the past and now is the present and I have to keep fixated in the future forget the past. I know the feelings and the thought might still be there somewhere...who knows. But life is too precious.

this year I am not going to worry like last year, so far everything is alright. I avoid places where I don't feel myself, I do what I want. I see the people I want to see well most of them only because I have been acting like someone who's not me and now I am trying to find who the real me is. If that means exploring on new territory then I will

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2017-05-28T22:44:51+02:00

why?

Publié par Gaelle.R 28 Mai 2017 à 10:44 PM

why can't I feel the pain when It used to hurt me a lot?

Why can't I do the right thing when I know that I am wrong?

Why do I feel like It's impossible when I used to think that everything was possible?

Why did I change?

Why can't I accept that things will get better?

Why can't I believe that I will see you again?

Why does it feel like I'm the problem?

why can't I move on like you did?

why can't I fall out love like you never love...?

why?

I am asking because I'm tired of asking why...

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2017-05-25T04:45:06+02:00

feelings

Publié par Gaelle.R 25 Mai 2017 à 04:45 AM

A while ago I cut my own hair well I chop the dead ends off. I did not care that my hair looks kind of short because I love short hair and surprisingly it goes with me. Right now I am back to my natural roots and I couldn't be more happier...I love my natural hair. I think I said that before but I still changed it but for now I am going to keep it that way and see how much it will grow. So enough about my hair how are things for y'all? Me everything is pretty much the same although some may disagree with me but I think my life can't be the same because each day I wake up I feel like someone new. Either I am happy, moody or all two.

What I hate is people constantly trying to make you feel bad about something you take pleasure in. Why would you make another human being feel unhappy because they like something? that's so mean. Do you know how hurtful that is to embarrass someone for something they clearly love? you would have to be the most unhappiest person to make someone feel that way...

Right now I am going through some stuff I am realizing things...I mean am I not always realizing stuff LOL I mean I observe absolutely every thing. One part of being a writer is being observant, aware of what's going on in your own terms...the way I see things will not be the same way you see them, For some reason my thought process is just...different I guess but I couldn't care less because that's normal to me

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2017-05-23T05:10:28+02:00

listen...

Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Mai 2017 à 05:10 AM

I know that everything is not always the way they seem but I can't help to think that one day things will work out just the way I want them to. It is not bad to hope. You need to have a little faith. Things may not be working out for you right now but have a little faith and NEVER EVER GIVE UP. You need to keep going no matter what people are telling you, no matter what your friends are doing or saying. Be your own leader and focus on your goals. Forget the world and the way it works just for once but think about all the good things you want and from there create a plan to accomplish it. Don't sweat it we all make mistakes...It is not too late. You can do it. I feel like someone need to hear this right now because I would tell myself the same thing...I know when things don't work out for me it is a way different story bu really I feel like if I took my own advice ...I would have avoided a lot of troubles...But for some reason I think that I am better not listening to myself and I should. You don't have to listen to me. But somehow I feel like there was something pushing me to write something encouraging just for someone. I care about people I really do despite my hard exterior I care a lot about other people's well being... my career will be based on helping and healing people...I don't have power to heal people but I believe medicine can sometimes. Like I said don't give up on your dreams. Listen to your brain telling you what to do, just stay focus hope that you and I meet at the finish line.

night.

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2017-05-22T05:56:20+02:00

Late bloomer.

Publié par Gaelle.R 22 Mai 2017 à 05:56 AM

Perhaps I should have been honest in the beginning and tell you who I was,

but I didn't know who I was back then.

I didn't know what I was capable of.

I didn't know that today I would be where I am.

I didn't know that today I would be this brave.

That today I would wake up with the exact picture of where I want to be.

I woke up knowing exactly where I want to be....

And I am sorry that It is not by your side.

I am sorry that after everything you did to me I still can't forgive you.

They say family is all you need but right now I don't want you near me.

My mind is not the same because of you.

You have no idea what you did...

you have no Idea of what I went through to find myself back.

To find the girl you try so hard to bury.

The girl you made me feel ashamed of.

Not knowing that one day this girl would become the woman that I am today.

Not knowing that this girl would come to you and tell you that she doesn't need you anymore.

Even though you already know that.

But what you didn't know is that this girl would grow up to be the woman I am today.

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