No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2017-05-09T02:13:31+02:00

what technology are you grateful for?

Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Mai 2017 à 02:13 AM

Hi there !

As I mention before I am taking a 30 days of gratitude...

I think I already explain that. To answer this question I had to think about if they want me to choose one or many because I am grateful for more than one. First of all I am grateful for my phone because I get to stay connected with people near and far and all of my reminders are right in there. I am grateful for my cellphone because I get to talk to my mom who sadly is not near me and my friends near and far whenever...I love that I can talk to someone on the phone even if they are miles away. I am grateful that I can just text someone whenever. what else? I am grateful for my laptop because all of my work are in there and I always blog from it because it feels more personal that way... I am grateful for all two and many more like my ipod which I don't use anymore since you can get all the music you could possibly want to listen to in your phone. But I am grateful for my Ipod because there was a time it was the only piece of technology I had and I was soooo happy to have it.

I can't think of any more because I have a headache...but I know that I want a desktop one day so then I will be grateful for it too. Alright that will all answering this question because I think soon enough I'm going to start talking about something else and I might start to complain and I am currently trying to positive side of everything. Let see how that go ! LOL

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2017-05-08T04:44:13+02:00

30 days of gratitude

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Mai 2017 à 04:44 AM

I'm about to take A 30 days of gratitude where I am going to talk about things that I am happy for and grateful for... It is not a challenge I just figured that I need more positive things in my life so I am going to start by looking at things that I like.

what smell are you grateful for today?

Well today was not a busy day for me so I did not get to explore much but one thing that I like to smell in the morning is coffee I love that smell even though Coffee is not my favorite drink yet I love its smell. It's like a strong scent that wakes you up in the morning.

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2017-05-05T05:09:22+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 5 Mai 2017 à 05:09 AM

That feeling when you want to run, cry,scream all at once but you can't move. You don't even want to move. That thing that's eating your heart. you're thinking about so many things... why me? what did I do to deserve this? Why am I feeling this way? Why did this happened to me?

I felt like an outsider for once. Between us there was never anything separating us but today I realize that I was wrong. There was a lot of space between us and I wish I didn't see that...I wish I was still in the dark because I was so happy not knowing. and now that I know I am not sure what I'm going to do...how could I possibly? why did I ever think that I deserve something so great? I trusted you so much...It hurts and I am not sure where...all the things being said they cut like knives...I wish I never let you have that power...but it's too late now. It still hurt more than could ever possibly imagine. I saw my reflection when I look at you but now I am not sure anymore... I took notes because you did too and I never noticed because I was too comfortable. I needed you so much...you made me stay...you gave me a reason and you never knew that...I don't know how i'm suppose to feel...

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2017-04-30T23:49:00+02:00

chit chat

Publié par Gaelle.R 30 Avril 2017 à 11:49 PM

Tit for Tat?

If I were to be completely honest I'll say that I hate to get personal and sharing things about myself but sometimes I may give you the impression that I am telling you everything about me...but...It's not true there's usually a lot more to the story. My explanation is never the whole story usually it's more complicated than that. I got a few things on my mind and my head is heavy. I would hate to share what I'm going through because no one really care...they just want to hear your misery and laugh only because they have nothing else to focus on. I hate being lied to, Not only that but I hate being underestimated. I hate when someone is saying some things, doing some things and expecting me to never find out ! Don't you know me? I will find out anyway it may take a while but when I do my reaction won't be bogus. Enough about my internal conflict...I would hate to bring my issues here. But so far checking in everything about me is the same but I am not. Not anymore. There's always a point in your life where you need to change, when you need to grow up. There's a time to have fun and a time to be serious. Nothing should be taking lightly at least that's what I think. Everything has its own purpose, Everyone have their own Idea of what their lives should be and I have my own.

I don't really know what I am talking about but I figured I should just come here to get my mind off some things. Aren't you tired of doing the same thing? going to the same place? and expecting ... I am at this point where I am tired of it all. I don't hate everything I mean how could someone possibly hate everything? I think It's just a saying I don't believe that someone can hate everything no that's impossible. Unless that person is depressed but that's a state of mind. Do you take time and think about everything that you want? I am talking about materialistic things right now...I don't always talk about that. But sometimes you kinda have to think about it...among other things I am not being romantic at this moment I can't I am kind of bitter not for some particular reason...I think my poem from last night contradict me but I am only being real. Nothing bogus here.

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2017-04-30T07:13:24+02:00

If I ain't got you

Publié par Gaelle.R 30 Avril 2017 à 07:13 AM

You're right here and I can see you near me,

but I can't keep watching...

sometimes it's painful to just see you and not being able to say anything to you.

I don't want to get hurt it's not worth all that trouble.

I am looking at you and all I can think about is how much I don't want to see you again

If I ain't got you.

I am listening to what you are saying and all that comes to mind is how much I want you gone

If ain't got you.

You are right next to me and all I want is for you to go away

If ain't got you.

I am thinking about you and all I ever wanted is for you to leave because

I ain't got you.

I don't want to talk to you again not because I hate you but because

I ain't got you.

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2017-04-27T02:05:09+02:00

should a girl ask a guy out?

Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Avril 2017 à 02:05 AM

hi there !

Before I start my topic I know I've already talked about relationships and I spoke about how someone should wait...In some cases or situations which I am going to provide soon I would like you to think outside of the box for a minute. The person or the people I am going to talk about here are in fact ready. The girl is ready she feels like it's time for her to start seeing someone it was not a rushed decisions she knows what she wants.

Okay let me start...

Let say a girl see a guy that she likes and she started talking to him and they started to be friendly. Maybe there was some flirting but it's all a friendly gesture nothing says that either one of them is interested in the other.The girl is starting to get really interested but he is not saying or doing anything that shows that he is interested in her. Perhaps he is interested and she doesn't know, she cannot see that because he is not being obvious about it. What I suggest is that the girl ask him flat out : are you interested in me ? because I have some feelings for you if you don't feel the same way that's fine we can stay friends. Even if that'S a lie but you never know. Look I know hard it can be to tell a guy that you starting to have feelings for him but you have to do it if he is not doing it because the longer you wait the more you going to fall for him. The more you wait the more you are going to believe that you guys can be together because you're daydreaming about him. That would be one of the mistake you can make as a girl. Forget the rules if you are interested in someone you better tell them before you start believing things that aren't there. You need to know where you stand before you start dreaming and falling in love. Would you rather not tell someone you like them more than a friend and not know where you stand? Or would you rather do it no matter how stupid you look or sound because you want to know and because you want to move on with whatever is next? I know it's hard but you are never stupid when you are trying to figure out what's right for you. Being in love is such a beautiful thing when the feeling is mutual. I believe in love I am a hopeless romantic...I love romance and love story because of my parents story. Even if that person end up not liking you the same way that's fine because now you know and you can move on with your life. You just save yourself from falling in love with the wrong person. Before you fall in love always make sure you know where you stand.

other side of the story...

Perhaps he was interested in the girl as a friend and she could not see that. Maybe he wanted to stay close to her because he felt comfortable with her not because he had feelings for her. But she was just confused with all the mixed signals. Don't be confuse a guy can only like you or he doesn't. It's all black in white, plain and simple don't fill your head with bubble gum. Like I always say love with your head and not your heart. The heart will always want whatever it wants but your head will make you see reasons. Or maybe all the mixed signals weren't mixed after all he is in fact interested he just didn't have the courage to tell you. If the person end up liking you the same way or even more then that's perfect you are a lucky one go ahead and plan stuff. Never be afraid to be with the one you love and whom also loves you back.

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2017-04-24T02:07:36+02:00

stereotypes

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Avril 2017 à 02:07 AM

Hi people,

what I hate the most is telling someone what to do with their body, their life. Like I hate when people say to a small or skinny girl oh you need to eat because you need to get thick. I don't wanna get thick I like myself the way I am If I wanted to get thick I would stressed myself to the point of getting thick but NO I love the body that I'm in.Like don't ever let someone put you down because of the way you look. Don't ever let someone talk yourself into changing yourself. God made you this way. Like God made me small why would I wanna get thick or get taller? I love being small...Do I care about your opinion nah. People used to tell me to drink this, drink that so I would gain weight or grow better...LOL that is soooo messed up If I ever drink something to gain weight which I did for a while I would only do it because I want to. But I change my mind now I realize that I love myself and If I say that then why am I trying to change myself. I just thought I was bettering myself but I don't think that's the case because I would look completely different.

adding to what I said before

I support anyone who want to work with themselves meaning working out to lose weight, gain muscles, have better skin...I don't mind that by the fact I love watching people making progress. What I don't like is when people are pushing their beliefs on me like I do not care what you do don't tell me I need to do it too and when I tell you that I am fine and that I don't want to do anything you start to get offended and defensive. I have the freedom to do what I want with myself. You have the freedom to do whatever you want with yourself once you've past 18...What you do, your decision making is all going to be based on what you've learned. You should keep your values and what you believe in don't follow what everyone else are doing because then you're going to start looking like everyone else. You need to stay just the way you are because you are unique in every way. I bet if some people didn't change themselves to be like most other people a lot of people would be different. There are a lot of basic girls and males...they do the same thing, thinking the same way and wanting the same thing.All they want is to have fun then complain about how they never find someone loyal. I mean don't you ever ask yourself why you never find someone loyal? Maybe it's because you do things that are suspicious or maybe it's because you are not fully loyal yourself. Who in their right mind would want to commit and stay loyal to someone who isn't ? I know I wouldn't. Perhaps on the outside you don't look like a trustworthy person and that's why you can't find someone who is loyal. You only attract what you reflect. Maybe you just can't allow yourself to trust anyone not even the right person. Look I get it I am not perfect I think It can be hard to trust just anyone after you've been hurt especially if someone already abused your trust but sometimes you have to allow yourself to trust someone again. You should try to let the past go I know It's easier said than done but don't worry about the past look at the present and the future. That person who hurt you probably already moved on with their life now it's your turn quit thinking so and so did that to me so I am not going to trust anyone. Love is all about trust there's too many women and men out here who have trust issues... by the fact we all do some are just worse than others but that's just life.

Nowadays a lot of people are looking the same, sounding the same and doing the same thing I cannot stand it when everyone is trying the same thing. Be your own leader, follow what you want. If you're looking for someone particular How you going to find it with that reckless attitude of a trap music singer you gotta be humble. You gotta take your time and analyze your interest in dept. Don't take too long because that person may find someone else if they haven't notice you yet by the fact they can still notice you but because you're not doing anything they might find someone else to do the job...

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2017-04-15T04:41:26+02:00

strangers.

Publié par Gaelle.R 15 Avril 2017 à 04:41 AM

I want to have that fire you have in your eyes when you're looking at something you truly like,

I want to have your powerful voice then maybe they'll listen.

I want to have that serenity that you have when your world come crashing down at your feet and everyone is watching.

I want to look at you in your eyes and tell you that I want to be you.

but what will I do with me?

I don't want to get rid of me...

I want you and me

I don't want you without me

I don't want me without you...

There's a small space between us how come it feels like miles?

How come I can't look at you how I used to?

How come I'm always the one to look away when you're the one who did everything wrong.

How come I can't stand you when you're always on my mind?

How come I hate you and I can't even say it out loud?

isn't hatred supposed to be loud as love is as quiet as the night?

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2017-04-13T04:22:36+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 13 Avril 2017 à 04:22 AM

Hi there !

For those of you that keep coming back I am glad that you do. I guarantee you that you won't be disappointed as you start reading my blog. You might be a bit surprise because of how my mind works but I am not sharing everything because there are something that some people put out there that change the way other people see them. It may be just a status that you wrote yourself out of anger or frustration or a quote you shared that make someone or a group of people see you as an impostor as in you are pretending someone that you aren't. I said this before I don't really care about what people think anymore but sometimes I feel like a person can avoid certain things. For example if you are not gay or bisexual why are you saying that you are or sharing things that make other people think that you are gay. I just feel like if you are not something don't make it sound like you are because you're going to make the people that you really care about doubt you. Just because something is or seems cool does not necessarily mean that it is for you. Don't get me wrong I love to support people who are trying to grow or trying to change themselves but if you are trying to fit in by following the crowd I may not support you because I've seen it already and usually going with the flow doesn't usually end well.

By following someone else's footstep might make you lose yourself meaning you are not you when you are trying to be like someone else. If you've been used to doing things on your own now you will need their approval that you are doing it right, you might wait for them to do something so you can do it too. STOP and create your own thing, STOP waiting for other people to tell you what to do... ask yourself what do I want? and think about it even if it might not be what everyone want but at least you know what it is. I am not here to tell you what to do I am here to motivate you to keep you going and I am here to motivate myself too. Sometimes I say something here and I pause and think I should do the same thing too. I am not a goody two shoes I make mistakes just like you, I expect things that went wrong just like you, I have been let down just like you, I have been put down and I should've said something most times I do but we have that one point where we just give up on things... a point where we are confuse and we start asking what did I do wrong ? wasn't I enough? why? I know that I said that you are more than enough and that you shouldn't let anyone else make you feel otherwise all of that is true. But sometimes we forget our worth and we get hurt or hurt other people easily not because we don't know any better but only because we are hurting. There is no shame in feeling deeply sad. I feel this way quite often and in those times I don't wish to see or talk anyone and I don't wish to be anywhere but in my room. It's not healthy and if you ever feel this way you should force yourself to go outside you may not stay but at least go somewhere or pray about it. Nothing last forever and this feeling of sadness shall past too...It takes courage to pick yourself up when you are feeling really sad, it takes courage to go out when you don't want to but you go in the hope that your mood will change. If you are a moody person then you know exactly what I mean. You are not sick because you feel deeply sad. "To be happy you would have to know what sadness is."

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2017-04-08T04:11:46+02:00

so far recap of what I write about..

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Avril 2017 à 04:11 AM

I know I already discuss many things about

character of a person,
broken hearts,
behavior good or bad,
yourself,
myself,
romantic stuff well I tried,
school,
work,
appearance,
goals,
relationships,
hair,
my best friend,
my family,
social Media
things that hurt,
celebrities (didn't really go in dept but...)
took a challenge but gave up halfway through LOL
addictions,
crushes,
vibes good or bad
stuff that I read or saw online.

and other things that I cannot recall I like what I am doing because I have already motivate a lot of people...I am glad that I was here to help you. Although you may know or not know me but really not everyone know me. You may see me but you may not know half of what I am capable of. I mean it's for you to find out not for me to tell. I have a different vibe depends on where I am I like to fit in the environment well at least I like to look like I fit in there even though my mind is not and I could probably be thinking about a thousand things that doesn't match my fly. I am not fake and I can never be fake because I hate it...I try to stay real and be the way I am. Nowadays all these girls want is to look beat lol that word is not in the dictionary but it means looking fleeky LOL that is also not in the dictionary but check urban dictionary. I am not all in for makeup and stuff I probably wear some like once a week or not even... I don't mind girls who wear it. Girl do you do whatever makes you happy I don't care LOL

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