No bread will ever be baked from this dough

2017-02-09T16:59:51+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Février 2017 à 04:59 PM

Hello there...

It's been a while only because I have been really busy working on new things. So many things are about to happen this year I can feel it and I will not let anything slow me down I have too much stuff to do this year. Anyways y'all know I will share some stuff here. I don't like putting my whole life here and I don't why? simply because I like my things to be kept private. I am not out here doing the most. I am a low key person which is why when I finally come out and do something it's surprising. I don't mean to shock people LOL. Anyways my life is not about people. Your life should be about you, about your decisions, your needs everything else that someone can tell you is just an opinion. You're the one who has to choose. Your life is not for your friends, it's for you not your parents. It's your life do what makes you feel like a better person. It's all in your hands when you die you will go alone no one will go with you. I hate it when people say "I would do this but some people are going to judge me" actually I used to say that too then I grew up and I realized that people will judge you anyway and you won't be able to please everyone. stop trying to make everyone happy because you will never be able to do that. In the end you will be the one who won't be happy. You should try to bring happiness into someone's life I am not saying that it's all about you, there are people in your life that you would want to be happy. It's alright to make someone happy but it's wrong to make someone else happy when your heart is not happy while doing it. Make sure that when you are making someone happy that you are happy too. Actually the joy you see on that person's face should in fact make you happy.

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2017-02-03T06:27:32+01:00

Don't let

Publié par Gaelle.R 3 Février 2017 à 06:27 AM

I have seen so many things yet I know that I haven't seen enough. The hurt, the pain that keeps pounding on my heart making me cry and not wanting to sleep. I close my eyes and I can see all the memories all over again. I try to open my eyes because it felt so real but my eyes stay frozen shut captured by all the things that hurts me the most. I heard screaming I know my mouth is not moving. I don't know who's screaming and I don't really want to know. That sound, I heard it once. I knew by the minute that this was my voice. I am the girl screaming and no one is coming. No one heard me, they are all doing what they supposed to do. Shopping buying unnecessary things and I am right here on two broken feet unable to stand. Wondering when will I ever be like them, but I don't want to be like them. I don't want to be selfish like them I want to help a girl like me. I want to protect a girl like me. I want to be there for a girl like me. I want to hold a girl like me.I don't want to gather all the things that I think I want when there's another girl like me out there. I am looking for someone like me. I know she had enough and I heard her scream I want to run to her and I want to save her. She needs me more than ever. But I don't know how to be there for a girl like me. Her cry stabbed me in the heart, her breath makes my skin itch. I want to take her with me. When I see her my heart breaks, I touch her face and I can feel her tears running down her cheek. I want to tell her everything will be alright but no one never told me that and mean it. I always had to have a second plan, other things to fall back on. This girl has nothing she only has right now and I cannot waste it telling promises that I will never keep. She is too broken for me to break her heart once more. She is too fragile to be beaten, she is too small to fit in this big world and she is too pretty to hear all this ugly truth. I want her to smile and to forget about tomorrow. Some people are going to hurt her, some guys will tell her what she wants to hear only to strip all her goodies. She needs to keep her head on her shoulder and keep her heart out of her feelings while she uses her head to choose what's right.But first she will need to be able to stand on her own otherwise she will fall for anything. She is to wise to be taken lightly yet her body says otherwise. Her eyes are as fierce as her mind. Her beautiful mind is a dark place because she lives trough pain never really got what she wanted and she became cold to the world. I look at her and I can see her staring back at me. I shiver for I was afraid her eyes would discover my darkest secret. She was staring at me as if she knew me. And for the first time since I saw her crawling, screaming, crying she raised her head high and smile at me. A proud smile one I can never forget It was so genuine it made her looked a hundred times prettier. I don't know if I should trust that smile because her eyes told me otherwise. She was trying to look happy when I knew what she's been trough her bravery catches my attention and I told myself I would never let her out of my sight. She was a beautiful soul and I won't let her get away. Not now. Not ever.

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2017-02-02T02:19:02+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Février 2017 à 02:19 AM

It's such an ugly truth the thought of it makes it so wrong yet it makes me feel so right.

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2017-01-30T02:39:25+01:00

interracial relationships

Publié par Gaelle.R 30 Janvier 2017 à 02:39 AM

Hi there !

This topic I've always thought about discussing it here before but because it is a very sensitive topic I was like arghh... maybe not today or maybe not right now. I did not want to surprise my readers but that got me really thinking...If I am being honest here and I am myself why should I hide what I really think? so I will leave it out here. I don't know exactly who is visiting this blog or where they are from but I am about to be honest with y'all. As most of you know English is not my first language I speak 2 other languages fluently...reason why I am telling you this is because my point of view is not based on one thing or one race. I have a diversity of friend some of them are from Africa, Morocco, Lebanon, Jamaica, France, Haiti, Canada, Guyana, Israel, China, Egypt, spain, Brazil...I met them at work, school in a class where I was learning English and they were there too. I used to hear stories about people from those places but one thing I realize about people is that we are all different. Just because there's chaos, war where they are from does not really mean they are terrorists because they are from there. I am glad I met all of them. They were really nice people all of them had different ways of showing their good hearts, some were a bit crazy and wild but it was always fun to hang out with them.

So back to my topic. One example have you been in the train and suddenly a black girl enter with a white guy and some people are staring why? because they are kissing. I can see how uncomfortable they look or feel but who cares right? the couple is still kissing, laughing, looking so in love. I love to see people in love. I don't mind what race you are if you love someone from another nation it will be okay. I hate when people are staring at interracial couples. It's a beautiful thing to see two people from totally different background get together. why make them feel bad because they are in love? when I look at Nikki and Jamie they have videos up on YouTube. She is astonishing, her skin is radiant. She has a really beautiful dark skin and she is married to Jamie who is probably white I am not sure I think he might be mixed. They have a baby and she is sooooo cute OMG I love watching their family. I know that racism is going on probably more than before since we just got a new President. I cannot stand looking or reading the news it is disgusting what is happening? I know so many people were saying they were moving if Trump was elected but he's here and... anyways I am not here to talk about politic. Back to my topic... I love seeing interracial couple I totally support their love and It's really brave because I know people will say something to them but they are still going strong because the love that they feel is more important.

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2017-01-29T03:34:43+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 29 Janvier 2017 à 03:34 AM

Ok I was sad earlier and I already found out why. It was nothing major no one broke my heart ! I sounded like someone ripped my heart out of my chest lol non of that. That can't happen LOL I mean I do have a heart but it's sealed lol OK I am in the mood right now and I want to play and I got no one to play with...

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2017-01-29T00:26:36+01:00

Emptiness

Publié par Gaelle.R 29 Janvier 2017 à 12:26 AM

Have you ever felt like nothing? I mean you look for what you can offer and there's a blank page. You may have done a lot of things in the past for a lot of people but today you are looking at yourself and you staring at this emptiness. You wonder what did I do wrong. One of these days when you wake up and you don't feel like being around people, when you don't even wanna talk, you just wanna sit there and stare into space. Those days are when the enemy is trying to get to you. I am currently going trough it. It is not my fault and it's no one's fault maybe I could take care of the problem that's bothering me. I don't even want to think about it. I wish I could just walk away and not take care of it but I can't. I have to face one way or another. I can't let that happen again. I don't wanna see anyone right now. It's not the right way to go but I need time to bounce back again. It is not going well. I need to retreat. We all done it at some point and there is nothing with that. You will feel hopeless and you may need to start over. If you're one of those people who are hard on yourself more than you are on other people then you will feel like a fool. Some people take everything to heart and they ponder over it.

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2017-01-24T04:18:10+01:00

In case this happens just know...

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Janvier 2017 à 04:18 AM

So I am here again and I am going to talk about something that I may have talked about before but not as I am going to say it now. I am going to be direct because I want y'all to understand what I am saying, where I am coming from, why I say it and finally what makes me say it.

So I just said whatever you post on the internet people can see it right? if you didn't, scroll down read it then come back to read this one. In what case did I say that? well I meant to say nudes. Some girls and boys do it too choose to post pictures of them half naked and I am not judging them if it makes them happy then great for them. It's their story not mine. But we all know how society love to disgrace women saying what we shouldn't do, how we should act or behave. All I can say if men can do whatever they want so should women because we are all equals.But I have my own point of view like I say this is my blog and I can choose what to talk about if you don't feel comfortable knowing my opinion on this then just don't read I am grown I am not afraid. So yeah...I have no problem that You believe you should show yourself to feel beautiful what my problem is that you make it okay for a kid to believe that they should do the same to feel beautiful. I have seen 13 years old girl posing in their calving Klein's stuffing their bras just to look like a 18 years old girl why? because that's what they see other girls are doing and they read the comments and they see how guys are falling for them saying "bae AF" hot cute emojis well they are going to grow up and they are going to want that. They are going to grow up and think this okay to do and they are going to the same because they want that same attention those girls are getting. I am glad I did not grow up with the internet always right there, I am glad that I grew up different. I did not want this when I was 13, I was no better I am not saying that I was but I surely did not want to pose half naked for a stupid picture for what? I would say I am not comfortable with that my mom won't be happy. When I was 13 I am going to say that at that age I started to take writing seriously...anyways. I don't think it is okay to allow really young kids to believe that it is okay to be seen naked on the internet because it is not ! even in private sending it to someone. I am not judging anyone who felt like it is okay to please their boyfriend or girlfriend it is their choice just like it is my choice not to believe that it is the right way to go. I am not going to accept that I should be seen half naked to be considered sexy or other terms... I am not hot because I am not a stove. I don't care what other terms that there are out there but I am not them. Just like I don't think it is okay for kids to be posting nudes I don't think anyone should do it. There are many ways one can be or feel beautiful... your body does not define your true beauty. You will grow old it is not forever... You won't always look like you do now. I admit most of the people who does that do not care but I care enough because maybe one day I will have a kid and I will hate to see my kid growing up in a world where there is no morals...I don't care what year it is but I won't let anyone who I encounter think that it is okay to be seen naked by a lot of people because those are the private things. You should only be seen like that with someone you trust, with someone you love not with everyone because it is special.

Why do I say that? because I feel like I need to say it. It is time for me to let y'all know what I don't believe in and what I don't agree with and that's my opinion. You don't have to agree with me.

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2017-01-24T03:40:28+01:00

facts.

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Janvier 2017 à 03:40 AM

Hello ...

Recently well not really it's been a while. I just want to point something out. Before I said that I have a communication problem I said that I don't talk too much or I don't talk at all just because I don't know how to express myself while speaking. Well that's not true, I don't really have a problem I don't know why I said that at the time. I think someone made me feel like I do in fact have a problem but I don't. I am perfectly fine, I can speak my mind I may not be the one taking the lead in the conversation but that's okay... I will answer and I will not be afraid to tell you where you went wrong. I am not retarded, I know how to speak LOL I mean I am sure most of you know I talk but anyways for those of you who think that I don't like to talk well I do love to talk. I want to talk before I used to not speak to someone if I classify you as a stranger but we all are. we just have to get together and talk until you are no longer a stranger. Be careful because not everyone have good intention. You should not let people know too much about you. You may give them the feeling like they know you but actually they might not know half of what you are capable of. I am not out there meaning I stay to myself...for a lot of reasons. The people who are close to me I trust them and I have reasons to. I love a conversation but If you're pushing me to accept you well I may not answer. Don't force me to do anything because I may end up not speaking to you ever again why? simply because I don't like to be boss around. You want to be my friend great ! wait until I get that because I need to think. I don't let people walk into my life like nothing there are a few tests, some questions, what are your intention?, why you want to be my friend? LOL yasss I need to know all that and I am not playing ! When I say I'M DONE OR I DON'T CARE believe me I thought about it for a while I really mean what I said, I won't go back on my word. If I say NO then it's No if you keep coming back and I still say NO then It's a NO I will not change my mind. I know what I know. I am not trying to say that I will not let anyone in my life because I will only be lonely but I will only choose wisely because I can easily be deceived. I can't let that happen. You know how some people get sad, mad or whatever what I feel is worse (...) Get the picture. I am working on that because no one should take their emotions to the extreme not that I do but that's something that I am not willing to discuss here. It is my Blog yes but there some things you can't leave on the internet with your name on it and your face on it whatever it is. You need to be careful this world is not as wide people will find you believe me and you will regret it. whatever you say, post they are all there people can pull them up anytime and show you what you were doing at what time what day. I have shared so many things with y'all only to give you a walk through but it's not my entire life. There are some things that I will not come out and say here. If I say them You won't get it the way I have it in my head because it will be in a poem... and that is confusing.

I feel bad for the people who try to make other people feel bad about themselves like how are you going to make someone feel like nothing because you are jealous of them. You can't tell them how amazing they are so you are going to make them feel bad about themselves? If someone is amazing and if their soul is just beautiful you need to tell them how wonderful they are in your eyes. They probably don't even know how beautiful they are they probably don't even think someone notice them. I love to see amazing people who are so beautiful inside and out I just want to tell them...

Other things you won't see me write about is my private life(relationships, friends, frenemies, ex whatever...) unless it was in the past, why? because I am a private person do not ask me questions... I won't answer if it's too personal. This blog is not meant for that... among other things I am not going to specify the event but whoever wants to know about ... you know what forget it I rather do it in person I am not going to leave a message for someone... I rather call up that person tell them to their face. LOL alright that's it hope y'all have a good one.

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2017-01-23T00:40:58+01:00

one simple thing

Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Janvier 2017 à 12:40 AM

Hi there...

It's been a while and I have been busy. Getting my life in order aren't we all ? I am making sure that this year is in fact different. I am not changing myself... I am simply making some decisions that I was scared to make before. I want to be free I want to be able to laugh knowing I didn't do anything I might regret. Don't you want that peace of mind? well I want that and I have been making decisions that can only give me peace. I have let some people out the door but only for the best. I won't lie to anyone and I won't try to hurt anyone's feeling. I will be very professional about it. I am not a bad person but some situations can bring the worse out of me. I wasn't planning on hurting anyone. I am not trying to confess anything LOL I am trying to grow up. I won't put up with things that I don't need, I won't let anyone disrespect me or the people I love. One thing that I can say...If you want something that would make you happy then it's simple just go and get it. If someone doesn't make you happy or is abusive then it's simple let that person go do whatever it takes to be safe fill a report get a restraining order or whatever but make sure you are safe. Nothing say you have to stay and let someone abuse you. You have a voice, you have your own opinion and feeling you should know what makes you happy. I am tired of seeing women being taking lightly simply because we seemed as weak. Well not all women are "weak" some can take care of a man get the house in order and still take care of that man's baby...Now tell me women are weak.

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2017-01-16T19:58:35+01:00

(Found this from last year on a napkin)

Publié par Gaelle.R 16 Janvier 2017 à 07:58 PM

Bright as the snow,

who knew she could burn so bad?

cold as snow yet warm as a summer night when she wants to.

she will beautifully walk away from all the nonsense

Gracefully she will pick up the pieces back

She won't turn around for anyone

because she's the queen.

It doesn't take much to notice how bright she is.

From miles away you can see the light shining up from the mountains.

The wind plays with her wild hair.

She doesn't have time to pull it back.

She is ready to put the whole word on her shoulder.

It doesn't matter about what people think.

She has dream to fulfill and a long road ahead.

she won't stop for anyone

Not even the people she used to stop for.

Everything changes now and she is a new person.

Nothing can hold her back

she will break the rules for fun

You had your chance

and now it's her turn to show you how wrong you were.

She doesn't care and she never did.

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